Deep Cabinet Licking Dog Diary

Tuesday, December [-]th is sunny

I didn't answer his question.

After all, the current him is not the strange Jeff I want to meet, but a familiar roommate... I can't say anything.

My mind is in a mess.

We sat opposite each other in pain for another half an hour.

After drinking the second can of beer, I finally realized vaguely and clearly that Jeff is Liu Xiong.

Jeff, it's actually Liu Xiong...

The roommate I have been with for more than a year is the netizen who heard about my secret love affairs.

When I thought about the details of the things I and Lu Bei did and loved to do with him indecently, I felt a sense of humiliation rushing straight to my forehead.I took a bite of the meat, and said to Liu Xiong coldly, "I don't think you're surprised when you see me?"

Liu Xiong was taken aback, avoiding my gaze, he hesitated and said: "I didn't expect it to be you, in fact, I was very surprised, but I didn't show it..."

Just fucking fart!His surname Liu has lived with me for more than a year, so I can't tell any lies?

I said, "You fucking believe that? Don't do that with me."

Of course I knew what he was trying to do, so I slammed the can on the table: "It's fun, isn't it? It's funny to download that software to find me and make fun of me, isn't it? Seeing me nervously pretending not to like Lu Bei all day, it's very fun." Ridiculous, isn’t it? I’m a fucking pervert who likes men. What’s wrong? I don’t like you, I didn’t harass you, did I eat your rice?”

When I thought about how he didn’t know how to tell others about my “disgusting and deformed” relationship behind my back, when I thought about their contemptuous and repulsive eyes, and when I thought about the imminent social death, I was scared and at a loss.

He is none other than my roommate, and anyone will believe what he says.What's more, what he said was true.

My voice was loud, and people around me looked sideways.Liu Xiong blushed and held me down: "Hold down, I don't mean that!"

Liu Xiong frowned, looking very serious: "Is that the image I have in your heart?"

"What kind of credibility does a person who uses a fake identity to play tricks on others have?"

"I didn't lie to you," he blushed even more, and hurriedly explained, "I didn't know it was you at first, but I found out when we were chatting. Sometimes the distance between us is less than 50 meters. In addition, even though you didn't show your face, I have seen almost all of your clothes, so who else could this be?"

He really didn't look like a liar, so I lost my aura and asked, "Why didn't you tell me?"

"What do I say?" He sighed, "Well, I can't say it. I think we may be netizens for the rest of our lives, and we won't see each other. There's no need to tell you."

"Then why did you come out to eat with me?"

"I don't, look at your state...you are in a hurry." Liu Xiong paused, and said, "If you need someone to drink with you now, don't say anything, treat me as your netizen, as Jeff, we two Drink it and it's over."

"then you……"

Then who did you download this software for?

I wanted to ask him this way, but I didn't ask him after all, and my mind was chaotic and clear for a moment.

Liu Xiong, who used to discriminate against homosexuals so much, is now able to eat with me as a homosexual software netizen, and the answer may be ready to come out.

I was silent for a long time, and finally I could only say: "Then drink."

I clearly know that I can't repay his feelings, and to him, he can barely be regarded as a friend, and I can't give anything more, because they are all in Lu Bei.

So as for Lu Bei, he thinks the same way about Shen Jing.A little more, he can't give it to others.

Liu Xiong said suddenly: "I recently watched a drama, "Modern Love", in which there was a couple who broke up. When we met again after a long time, the man said that at that moment, he finally knew that he was with In the two years since that woman was separated, he never really lived, and he met many good people, but none of them were her. So the moment he met his ex on the street, he knew, He came alive."

"...Hmm." I got an arrow in my heart.

Liu Xiong inserted the arrow deeper. He said: "So, some people just feel that they are destined to be with their old love. No matter how many times they go around, they will meet again. Others, it's just their feelings. touchstone."

"Then, what happened to them afterwards?"

"Later, the man called the woman and found out that the woman was engaged."

"Oh?"

"He still decided to express his feelings, otherwise he would never let it go for the rest of his life."

"what?"

"Then the woman called off the engagement, and they got back together."

"..."

"If this is another angle, it's a beautiful story of true love." Liu Xiong squeezed a beer can again, and then asked me, "Do you mind smoking?"

I said: "You smoke."

He took out a pack of cigarettes and a lighter from his pocket, lit it, took a breath, and the smoke slowly came out.

"So you still want to be this touchstone?" Liu Xiong asked.

"I don't want to." I shook my head firmly, "I want to be the man he was destined to be."

"What if it won't be you anyway?"

"Then... I want him to be the man I was destined to be."

Let Lu Bei be the person I will never give up no matter how many people I meet later.

"Dog..." Liu Xiong took a sharp breath, his eyes seemed to be red.But his whole face was red, and I couldn't see it.He said, "You're so stubborn."

I nodded: "That's how I am."

The two of us ate and drank like this until the whole pitcher of beer was gone.

Liu Xiong said to me: "In the future, don't worry about it. When you want to say something and feel sad, you can just talk to me directly, and you can go out for a drink. I'm strict with my mouth."

I shook my head: "No."

I said, "After tonight, you are still Liu Xiong, I am Gou Tian, ​​your roommate, nothing else."

Liu Xiong was in a hurry. He slammed the table, and the table slammed: "Why? Just because I didn't tell you?"

"No," I said, "it's because I know what you think... that I can't do this to you."

I told him very seriously: "Brother Xiong, I know what this feeling is like. I live in the shadow of Lu Bei liking others all day long, and my heart feels like a knife is being stirred up. It's really uncomfortable." I She took a sip of her wine: "That's why I can't treat you like this. People's hearts are fleshy, and I can't just spoil you just because I like it."

I poked his stone-like chest: "Your heart is also very precious, treat yourself well."

Liu Xiong lit another cigarette.No more words were spoken.

But what he said just now also gave me a little hope.

He was right, if Lu Bei didn't go to find Shen Jing, then he would never be able to let go of his obsession with Shen Jing for the rest of his life.But if he went to look for it, if Shen Jing had a boyfriend or girlfriend, or if he simply and decisively rejected him, then at least in Lu Bei's heart, this painful obsession might be relieved a bit.

Maybe he will gradually recognize the reality and see the person in front of him slowly.

But...if Shen Jing responds to him, if Shen Jing never forgets him, then...

I can't think of that possibility.I'm afraid I'm going to bang my head against the barbecue stand.

The two of us ate and drank like this until after nine o'clock. We couldn't drink anymore, so we paid the bill and prepared to leave.

Because of my part-time self-identity, Boss Wen Qing gave me a [-]% discount.

At first I thought I was okay, although I drank so much, I was still able to talk and my consciousness was clear, but when I stood up, I lost all strength on my feet and trembled like I was stepping on cotton, the ground was like a swamp that had sunk into it, Soft.Liu Xiong looked better than me, but he was also quite drunk.He could barely walk two steps, so we helped each other up in a funny posture, ready to move to the dormitory.

Before I moved two steps, I had hallucinations.

Sure enough, I drank a lot. I patted Liu Xiong on the shoulder and said, "I seem to have seen Lu Bei."

Liu Xiong laughed at me: "Hahahaha, you drank too much, how could it be... Hey, I saw it too, and I drank too much."

I squinted and saw a man in the shape of Lu Bei coming out of the restaurant opposite, crossing the road, and walking straight towards us.

He came up to the two of us in a few strides, his face full of anger, "What are you two doing?"

The author says:

The update time of these two days is a little messy, the date marked on the chapter shall prevail.