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Gu Zhi's finger on the steering wheel tapped unconsciously. This is a habit he has developed since he was a child. He would make some small movements when he was nervous. He didn't realize it, but Jiang Chu stared at that hand for a long time. .

"I want to find you, but I want to say sorry to you." Gu Zhi seemed to have been drugged with dumb drugs, and he couldn't make a sound even though the words were about to come out.

I don't know if there is still a chance, but I still want to ask you, can we start over?

I promise that what happened back then will not happen again, and I can tell others frankly that I like you.

Like this, in the past few years, he has practiced thousands of times, but facing the current Jiang Chu, he lost his voice.

"Is it to make sure I'm still alive?"

Jiang Chu put the unopened but cold hot drink in the cup holder of the car armrest.

At the same time, Gu Zhi's finger on the steering wheel paused. He couldn't deny what Jiang Chu said, but the deep meaning in this sentence seemed to deviate from the original intention he wanted to express.

Gu Zhi lowered his eyes slightly, and there were traces of flush around his eye sockets, like the rising sun on the sea level.

At that moment, Jiang Chu suddenly had an illusion, as if the years of separation in the past were just a dream, and the young man in the dream turned red-eyed, and would grab him when he turned around, and embraced him on a certain intoxicating afternoon in midsummer. kiss.

However, the remaining sanity awakened him.

"Let's go here, there are more taxis in this area." Jiang Chu came back to his senses, and before Gu Zhi could speak, he took off his seat belt and opened the passenger's door.

After the idea of ​​the draft of "The Lost Pisces" was basically determined, Jiang Chu communicated with Chen Yifan. Based on his own understanding of the text and some elements that he wanted to incorporate into the draft, he thought that this obvious It may take a lot of effort to convince the original author of the proposal with a personal label, but unexpectedly, Chen Yifan, who has always been critical, agreed directly.

Because the basic content had already been determined before the meeting, it saved a lot of trouble in communication. When the conversation was over and they were leaving, Jiang Chu answered the phone.

When the phone call ended, he was surprised to find that Chen Yifan hadn't left yet, as if he was waiting for someone. He wanted to say that he could take him off, but he wasn't sure if the other party had already booked a car. He was hesitating when he saw a car The silver-white car stopped in front of Chen Yifan.

Because the distance was not too far, Jiang Chu could see clearly that the man got out from the driver's cab, wearing a black coat, handed the thick beige scarf to Chen Yifan, and then returned to the driver's cab.

Jiang Chu thought that person was very familiar, until the silver-white car disappeared from his field of vision, then he remembered that that person was Shen Chen.

At the beginning, the flustered love between him and Gu Zhi ended in a hurry. It has to be said that they had a lot to do with them, but the irony is that the person involved persisted in the accident, but it scared the outsiders away.

Things at the end of the year are always complicated and complicated. Even Jiang Chu, who just came back, feels the same way. During this period of time, he and Chen Yifan have gradually increased their contacts, and he has met many people for the first time. .

When I was abroad in the past, the international students in the same apartment used to stay away from home day and night for a certain period of time, filling up all the free time.

Later, when Jiang Chu was chatting with him, he unexpectedly learned that he had lost his love during that time.

He also very enthusiastically told Jiang Chuanye that the best way to heal a broken relationship is not to start a new relationship, but to fill up all his time so that he has no time to think too much.

At that time, Jiang Chu just thought it was funny.

It wasn't until he returned to China that he realized that what the classmate said back then was not a joke. He would indeed forget some things temporarily when he was busy during the day, but this state could not be relaxed. Once he stopped, everything about Gu Zhi still remained. Will make a comeback.

He loves stubbornness and is noncommittal.

He didn't know whether the "coincidental" encounters with the other party were "fate" or not, and he instinctively didn't dare to think about it.

Whether those so-called coincidences were intentional or not, was it really just the question I asked Gu Zhi, "Is it to make sure I'm still alive?"

If that's the case, it's just covering the old wounds that seem to have healed with new, uglier scars, and that's what he's most afraid of.

On the last working day of the new year, Jiang Chu planned to stop to take a good rest, but Chen Yifan dragged him to Li Li's year-end banquet.

He knew that Gu Zhi was among those invited, and he also knew that Gu Zhi must also know that he was also there.

It's strange to feel that no one has opened the mouth, but the heart is clear.

"Don't worry, I won't embarrass you." Chen Yifan already knew the subtleties between the two, and knew why Jiang Chu was hesitating. He patted his shoulder, glanced at him, and smiled at him as if he felt something. He smiled, and there was a hint of "I've already solved it for you" in his eyes.

It wasn't until after the banquet started that Jiang Chu understood the meaning of the phrase "I won't embarrass you" that Chen Yifan said before he came.

The position of him and Gu Zhi at this moment is like the Cowherd and Weaver Girl before Qixi Festival, facing each other across the magpie bridge.

Jiang Chu picked up the soda water in hand and took a sip trying to calm his beating heart.

Gu Zhi, who was several meters away, had his heartbeat unexpectedly at the same frequency.

Gu Zhi has become somewhat famous in his major in the past few years, and nine out of ten people who come here are known to him. Even if there is no direct interest in the adult world, it is inevitable to change cups and cups when meeting acquaintances. One more glass of wine."

He has been a tyrant at the drinking table since he was a child. In the years when he had the most entertainment, he was able to single-handedly bring down a group of young people.

But today, Gu Zhi, who claims to be "not drunk after a thousand cups", seems to have failed in his reshaping. He could not blush in the past, but today he feels a little dizzy after only a few cups.

Maybe the more you don't want to lose face in front of the people you care about, the more you will lose face.

He was still feeling uncomfortable when the banquet was over. There was a sofa specially set up for the guests to rest in the banquet hall. At that time, most of the people had already left, so he sat on the sofa to rest.

After drinking all night, his throat was so dry that he was about to catch fire. He wanted to ask the waiter to help him get a bottle of water, but when he opened his mouth, he found that there was no one around.

It was obviously a lively banquet, but Gu Zhi felt that it was boring. The crystal chandelier above the middle of the banquet hall was full of brilliance, like adorned with stars in the midsummer night sky, looking down on the guests gorgeously and lonely.

Gu Zhi picked up the pillow at hand and kneaded a corner of the pillow, as if he was waiting for someone.

Jiang Chu went back and forth, walked around the table and walked towards this side.

When Gu Zhi heard the sound of someone entering the door, he raised his eyes dully, but when he saw the person clearly, his soul was taken away instantly.

The corner of the pillow was pinched and deformed by him. There was a row of empty couch, but Jiang Chu chose to sit on the single sofa separated by the armrest.

Gu Zhi's heart was about to explode, but he maintained a calm expression on his face, no one said anything, his throat became even more dry, and he unconsciously pursed his lips and licked the same dry lips.

After a while, Jiang Chu unscrewed the bottle of water in his hand and handed it over, as if he just went out with those people and didn't leave the banquet, but just went out to help him get a bottle of water, took it and turned back.

Gu Zhi paused, and looked up at him. He saw that Jiang Chu's eyes were a little distracted, probably due to drinking, but the other party's eyes did not fall on him. He stared almost greedily. See the other party's neck exposed to the air.

When he was still young, he couldn't help but kiss him when he was not paying attention. He was once obsessed with Jiang Chu's special light and fresh smell.

The door was open, and the voices in the corridor drew Zhi Zhi's sight back. He took the water channel Jiang Chu handed over and thanked him. When he raised his head and drank it, he could still hear the sound of water rolling down his throat.

There was only half of the water in the bottle, so he conveniently twisted the cap on the remaining half of the bottle and held it in his hands, just like he did when he tapped the steering wheel in the car, after a moment of silence, he suddenly heard Jiang Chu say: "What? Is it too late to drink?"

Gu Zhi was choked upright.

He wanted to explain, he didn't know if he drank too much or the light was too dazzling, he saw Jiang Chu's mouth twitched out of the corner of his eye, and at that moment, it seemed that the boy who still liked him had returned.

The next moment, I saw Jiang Chu holding back his smile, and that moment seemed like a dream that had been going on for years. Jiang Chu asked him, "Can you go?"

He nodded: "I can go, but I have to wait a while."

Time has turned upside down, years have passed, and many years later, the people who asked and the people who talked are not the people of those years.

The alcohol was too strong, his brain was out of control long ago, and even his thoughts jumped out of the normal range of thinking. It was only in this state of chaotic consciousness that Gu Zhi clearly realized that he really regretted it.

Because of cowardice back then, it is still cowardly now.

Hearing what he said, Jiang Chu was not in a hurry, probably waiting for him to end the "wait a while" time.While waiting, the phone rang.

It was Xu Jing who made the call. He said that Gu Zhi's phone number was always disconnected. This kind of situation is relatively rare, so he wanted to ask Jiang Chuzhi if he knew where he was.

Jiang Chu took a look, and when he turned his head to explain to Xu Jing, someone grabbed the other wrist bone hanging on the edge of the sofa.

Gu Zhi's eyes were red, and his intuition told him that Jiang Chu would probably tell Xu Jing where they were, and then ask Xu Jing to come and pick him up.

He suddenly didn't want Jiang Chu to leave like this.

So he couldn't wait to interrupt Jiang Chu before he could speak. He looked at Jiang Chu deeply, and almost said hastily, "I know you're here today, that's why I came here."

Before Jiang Chu could open his mouth, he said again: "The last auction was also to try the luck of meeting you again. I didn't expect that I was lucky enough, but I was discouraged." Every time he said a word, his eyes were red Yu Shen: "I came to you not only to say sorry to you for what happened back then, but also to make sure you are still alive."

Gu Zhi always felt that he was blocked by an indescribable force, so he couldn't get up or down for so long. It wasn't until Xu Jing urged him on the phone that he realized that he couldn't get up or down. The feeling is called not letting go.

Jiang Chu was stunned for a moment, he felt that the scene before him was a bit strange for no reason, the phone hadn't been hung up yet, the phone was an inch away from his ear, and after Xu Jing said hello a few times, he suddenly put the quilt Gu Zhi withdrew the hand that grabbed his wrist, turned his head and started talking to Xu Jingtong again: "He's with me, a magazine banquet, um, maybe he's not feeling well, okay, I'll send him back."

Jiang Chu hung up the phone in a hurry, suppressing the violent ups and downs in his chest, instead of continuing what Gu Zhi said, he turned on the taxi app on his phone and asked, "Where's the address? I'll take you back."

Gu Zhi gave an address vaguely, but Jiang Chu didn't hear it clearly. When he asked again, Gu Zhi said in a hoarse voice, "I forgot to bring my keys when I went out. You can just find a hotel and put me down."

Jiang Chu nodded knowingly.Fortunately, although Gu Zhi's head was dizzy, his feet were still steady, unlike ordinary drunks who drank a lot.

Gu Zhi lowered his head and walked in front of him, Jiang Chu didn't seem to be escorting him, but he seemed to be leading him away.

For a moment, Jiang Chusheng had doubts, wondering if he really drank too much,

Along the way, Gu Zhi didn't speak any more. The discomfort in his heart caused the discomfort in his stomach. As soon as he got in the car, he consciously took up only a small space. , In the middle of the winter night, a large area of ​​wet back.

When getting out of the car to pay the fare, Jiang Chu used the light on the car to see a lot of silvery sweat oozing from the corners of Gu Zhi's forehead, and when he sensed Jiang Chu's questioning gaze, Gu Zhi remembered to use his cuffs indiscriminately. Wipe it off.

He opened the car door and got out of the car without looking back. He said he would find a random hotel to drop him off.

The wind from the street woke up his hangover, and the ensuing cold became clear.

When he was looking around for a hotel, he heard a familiar voice behind him reminding him: "Go this way."

He turned his head, Jiang Chu was one step away from him, pointing in a direction and said: "I don't know where there is a random hotel, I can only tell the name of this road."

His voice was steady and gentle. If he was sober, Gu Zhi would definitely be able to hear the tension and concealment in it, but if he didn't notice it at the first time, Jiang Chu wouldn't give him a chance to rethink.

Gu Zhi stayed where he was, and didn't reflect the meaning of this sentence, but nodded instinctively, following Jiang Chu.

There really aren't any random hotels, there aren't any hotels in this place at all.

It's just that the further he walked, the more he felt a sense of familiarity. It wasn't until he saw the name of the road sign clearly through the dim light of the street lamp that he remembered that it seemed to be a villa area. Although it was late at night, he was very familiar with this place. , that was the place where he ran most often for a certain period of time.

Gu Zhi had countless questions in his heart, but he didn't dare to utter a single word. He followed Jiang Chu with his head down and didn't pay attention to his feet. a handful.

Jiang Chu didn't take back the hand supporting him immediately, and Gu Zhi naturally let him support him, and the two of them walked forward in silence tacitly.

Through the shirt, the temperature from Gu Zhi's wrist bones was transmitted to Jiang Chu's palm, and then slowly melted into the blood, spreading to his limbs.

It's not too late at this time, in addition to the dim street lights, the windows of every house are also brightly lit, they walked forward at a leisurely pace, when turning the corner, Gu Zhi heard the sound of someone running, He just wanted to say that in such a cold day, there are still people running at night.

But before he could say anything, he felt the hand that had been holding him loose.

Hearing the voice of people, Jiang Chu hurriedly took two steps aside, realizing that his reaction was too abrupt, so he pretended not to care and continued to walk forward.

At that moment, Gu Zhi suddenly thought about it. He could feel that Jiang Chu was not indifferent to him, but he always felt that he was avoiding something. What was this strange feeling? At this moment, he suddenly understood up.

It turned out that Jiang Chu was worried about being seen by others. Back then, it was because of his sudden fear that they had so many conflicts. However, his fear caused Jiang Chu's shadow for more than ten years.

Gu Zhi felt as if he was hugging a sick body on the verge of death, and he suddenly became happy as if he had found the medicine to bring the dead back to life. But not long after he was happy, he suddenly became sad again. If it wasn't for the deep shadow, how could he act instinctively? reaction.

Gu Zhi's hands were sweating, and he quickly clasped Jiang Chu's fingers almost as soon as he felt the temperature on his wrist disappear.

The moment the other party tried to break free, he made more efforts. He lowered his eyelashes slightly, and shrugged his nose in the cold winter. His eyes were firm, and he approached Jiang Chu's ear, and whispered: "I didn't finish what I said before."

In Jiang Chu's panic-stricken eyes, he said, "I still remember it all the time."

I remember our unknown, all the times we were together.

With a heavy nasal voice after drinking, he stood where he was and held Jiang Chu's hand tightly after speaking, as if he was waiting for his answer.

There was a momentary blankness in Jiang Chu's unexpected confession.

The next moment, his rationality suddenly jumped out: "You drink too much, first..."

"No." Gu Zhi stared at him intently, and said with certainty, "If you drink too much, you will be broken. It's an excuse used by those who don't want to be responsible. I'm very clear."

In fact, when Gu Zhi said these words, Jiang Chu felt numb for a moment. In that brief numbness, he took these words as Gu Zhi's drunken nonsense, but he didn't expect that Gu Zhi had been accumulating for too long. , Too much, he can't fool it with a sentence of drinking too much.

He wasn't sure.

Many years ago, on such a night, he and Gu Zhi quietly took another road, and it was that road that changed each other beyond recognition. He is not sure if it is repeated now, and the issue of entrapment is still between them. between.

The man who ran at night passed them, wondering what the two boys were doing on the side of the road in the middle of the night, probably because he was afraid of making a move if they disagreed, so he quickened his pace when passing by.

Gu Zhi said with red eyes: "Jiang Chu, can we still get back together?"

I know what you're worried about. I don't care what other people think of me for a long time. Saying something like this at the moment is more formal than real.

He knew that their old relationship was unforgettable, but he was also afraid that Jiang Chu's unforgettable would become "just that" after seeing him now.

Because he was not sure, he stepped back several times before the door.

"Let's make up! I still like you, then and now."

He is gambling.

It wasn't until this moment that Jiang Chu's involuntary feelings wrapped in reason completely broke free from the shackles.

Why did I come back after hiding for so many years, why did I always care about his every move after I came back.

Of course he knew why, but what he didn't know was whether Gu Zhi was the same as him, whether it was just a momentary infatuation, but until this moment, he saw the light again in Gu Zhi's eyes.

They all know what it feels like to be "precarious". Every day in their youth was hanging on the edge of a knife, and it was precarious. Now that they have reunited after more than 3000 days, this feeling of falling into their hearts is more real.

It wasn't until this moment that Jiang Chu suddenly realized that no matter how far he traveled, it was all for Qixia, and even the drifter who thought his heart was like a rock was also looking for it.

Now that it was all in sight, he could stop.

Jiang Chu pursed his lips, his heart felt as if he had just finished running the 3000 meters in the school sports meeting. He felt the moisture in Gu Zhi's palm, and the held fingers curled up in his palm.

The next moment, fingers clasped together, with a little force, the person in front of him took a step forward, Jiang Chu raised his hand and touched the corners of Gu Zhi's red eyes, and then kissed him recklessly.

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