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This time I didn't stay too long when I went home, I answered a phone call at noon the next day and went back.

The professor with Gu Zhi is an expert in their professional authority. Recently, a team approached the professor and planned to use his relationship to find some college students to follow the shoot. In fact, they wanted to find some young people with more ideas and recruit them into the group.

There is a young director in their team who is Gu Zhi's senior, and was also the vice chairman of the student union when he was in school. Because he has dealt with Gu Zhi in many activities, he has a deep impression on Gu Zhi, but because of various He didn't have a deep understanding of this reason, and he found out from the professor that Gu Zhi didn't plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and the work didn't happen to be implemented, so he strongly recommended him to join the investor.

Gu Zhi lived up to the expectations of his seniors. The film they made that time was not only published in a magazine and won an award, but he himself gained some fame in the circle because of it.

At the celebration banquet, the senior made a toast, and after sitting down, he whispered to him, "Let me tell you, as long as you work hard, you can get anything."

When he said this, other people at the table were pushing and changing glasses. He saw Gu Zhi fill a glass of white wine, hold the glass and say a few words to the people next to him, and then drank it without blinking. When he was still in shock, he heard Gu Zhi say: "There are some things that cannot be achieved with hard work."

The senior thought he was drunk and said drunken words, jokingly patted him on the shoulder and said: "Don't be humble, you have gained both fame and fortune now, Director Gu, I only understand when I see you, there is nothing that cannot be achieved through hard work, If you have it, it's a talent."

After a long time, Gu Zhi raised his eyes and glanced at the people on the table. Amidst the noisy compliments, he pursed his lips and smiled. For some reason, under the warm yellow soft light, his expression was not happy.

What the senior said is right, talent does not come with hard work, but besides talent, there are people, and Jiang Chu.That's someone he can't trade for no matter how hard he tries.

When the celebration party ended, it was already past twelve o'clock. When I was studying, I thought it was too late after twelve o'clock, because for them in their school days, going to bed after twelve o'clock meant going to bed. A test score will go up two notches, but now it feels like one or two o'clock is not too late.

The days are in a hurry.

There are countless references to the loss of time in the student days, such as piles of draft paper, curriculum schedules pasted on the corner of the desk, classrooms moving from upstairs to downstairs, increasingly heavy schoolwork, and the college entrance examination getting closer.

At that time, every day was clear and vivid, the exams were moaning without illness, and the holidays and school sports games were carnival and lively days. These years that still exist but do not belong to us are all reminders of its loss.

When I finally left Utopia and escaped from the ivory tower, I realized in vain that every day is different from day to day.

Cold comes and summer goes, the four seasons alternate, the flowers bloom and wither, the summer cicadas sang and slipped into the ground, the ginkgo covered the ground again, and the rain in late autumn brought the last dead leaves along the road, The days are getting shorter, the nights are long, and the long winter is opened by the continuous snowfall, wrapping the city into a dreamy fairy tale world, and then the ice and snow melt, and the spring is warm and the flowers bloom. Reasonable, no matter how earth-shaking changes have taken place in this world, it continues to move forward as always.

Later, Gu Zhi successively made some films with good reputation and quality, so he could truly join the ranks of documentaries. This era has always been an era of icing on the cake. Once a person is famous, other things will follow. During that period of time, he participated in all kinds of entertainment in the circle almost every other day, and he didn't feel uncomfortable when he heard other people shouting at the wine table, mixing foreign wine and white wine.

In fact, no matter when he was a student or now, he can blend in with the crowd with ease, and he can talk about any topic he picks up. He has everything that few people can have at this age. Learned to "climb high and look far away." Everything in the distance is so boring.

It wasn't until one day that he accidentally met two people at a reception that he picked up a little bit of his youthful innocence.

The reception was actually a small private party, and the people invited were basically directors, screenwriters, writers and other people in the literary and art circles.So when I saw Shen Chen and Chen Yifan, for a moment I felt as if I had traveled back to the summer vacation of my sophomore year.

Shen Chen was wearing a dark suit, his slightly long hair was scratched with hairspray, a pair of thin metal-rimmed glasses were on his high bridge of nose, and he was holding a goblet, talking in a low voice to Chen Yifan and two other people who were also in suits and leather shoes .

As if aware of it, he turned his head to this side after speaking, and recognized Gu Zhi at a glance.

He greeted the people around him, and walked up to Gu Zhi: "It's really you? I saw your name was written on the guest list, and I wondered if it might be the same name."

Gu Zhi picked up the half glass of sake in his hand and touched it with him.

Times have changed, during high school, he was immersed in his imaginary stories, and he didn't have any extra experience to pay attention to what happened to Shen Chen, but in his subconscious mind, such things always had a bad ending.

He subconsciously wanted to ask, but he wasn't sure if the other party cared, so he held his glass for a while but couldn't utter a word.

After the college entrance examination, Shen Chen hadn't seen those acquaintances from No. [-] Middle School again, and he could see through Gu Zhi's expression at a glance.He followed Gu Zhi's gaze and looked over, Chen Yifan was talking with someone, nodding and smiling from time to time, as if affirming what the other person said.

"Are you still together?" Gu Zhi thought for a long time, and only thought of this sentence.

Shen Chen said yes.He said that he got into such a big trouble at school that he almost couldn't take the college entrance examination.

Gu Zhi had to admire him for being able to do so well in the exam under such circumstances.

Regarding Gu Zhi's reaction, Shen Chen smiled as expected: "It's not that stable. In fact, the period before the college entrance examination was in a particularly bad state. He was always by his side. He was both a boyfriend and a tutor. There are more nights than me, so I persisted in the college entrance examination for several months before I lost the chain."

Gu Zhi was taken aback for a moment, he thought they got together later, but they never separated, he couldn't help asking him: "Is there no obstacle?"

Probably because these words have never been said to anyone before, and he felt that Gu Zhi was a trustworthy friend, Shen Chen took a sip of the wine in his glass, "Why not? At that time, the school thought the matter was serious and invited both parents. His father used to If I didn't make a move, I would be miserable, and if I made a move, it would almost kill me." When he recalled that time, he didn't feel bitter, but felt a little bit of hard-won preciousness.

"But..." Shen Chen said: "Even so, he never said to separate. The longest time, we haven't seen each other for nearly a year, but everything is fine now."

These things are not enough to be humane to outsiders, but it may be caused by alcohol, or it may be that Gu Zhi's curiosity distracted him from chatting, but what is strange to him is that this kid still listens to other people's stories His face was cold and pale.

Shen Chen answered the phone and left.After that, for a long time, Gu Zhi didn't speak again. When someone came to greet him, he smiled and nodded, but in fact his mind was wandering outside.

Later he knew why they were not as cramped as he was when they were together. Even after they experienced such a change, they were still calm when they mentioned it to others. It was because in their relationship, they would always stand on the same side. On the one hand, their whole is "we".

They won't distinguish between right and wrong as clearly as they did back then.

Before that, he once felt that Jiang Chu's disappearance was very accidental, and one day in the future, he would suddenly appear because he remembered the original sentence "I will not agree".

The moment he figured it out, Gu Zhi felt that he was ridiculous. He was worrying about nothing in the peaceful years, and he was delusional about getting back the lost things.

Facts have proved that the love between him and Jiang Chu that ended without a cause in the green years would not have blossomed even without that accident.

After that day, Gu Zhi completely withdrew from socializing. It took him several years to wake up staggeringly from that long-lasting dream. Under the guise of further study, I went to Japan to study for half a year.

He only came back once in those six months, and the only friend he met was Xu Jing, and this was the first time he asked Xu Jing to help him pay attention to Jiang Chu after so many years.

Xu Jing's father is an old leader of a special unit. Finding someone is a matter of little effort, but there are 14 billion people in China, and there are hundreds of millions of people of the same age, and how many people have the same name. This is bound to be a long process.

Every time he talks to Xu Jing, he can guess the result from the hesitation of the other party, and then crush the expectations and luck with his own hands. Every result that has a beginning and an end makes him have to clearly realize that even in this distance In the era when thousands of miles can meet each other through a video, no matter how much effort you spend, you still can't find the people whose fate is exhausted.

Later, he returned to China and opened a joint venture with his seniors to open his own photography studio, and because of the reputation accumulated in the past few years, he formed a good team. In the first two years, he chose topics and took pictures by himself, and followed the team. Shooting in extremely difficult and dangerous areas, the team has matured in recent years, and his role has become less and less. He used to work all night to edit films, but now he can come three times a week.

In fact, he ran all over the country at that time, apart from work reasons, he also wanted to try his luck. Unfortunately, his luck was overdrawn when he was young, and now there is not much left.

In fact, it wasn't all about his bad luck, he ran all over the country, and Jiang Chu was not in the country at all.

After the accident, Jiang Xuyang risked his life to save him, saying that he was indifferent is a lie, he has only cried twice since he was a child, one was on the day when Lu Song set fire to his house and died in the sea of ​​flames, and the other time he stood in the morgue facing each other. The day he saw Jiang Xuyang's corpse covered by white banners.

The shadow left by the disaster once hit him hard. During that time, he often had dreams and couldn't remember things.

For a long period of time, he was tortured. Fortunately, Zhao Lin still had a conscience, and spent a lot of money, and asked Jiang Xuyang's relationship before his death to send him abroad for treatment. It took half a year for him to gradually recover. recover.

The first thing he did after recovering was to go back to school, but his luck was even worse. In the office corridor of the Political and Education Office, he overheard the conversation between He Wen and Gu Zhi.

Only then did he understand that the reason why Gu Zhi "takes care" of him everywhere in the school was entrusted by He Wen.It's ridiculous to say that with his personality, he should have rushed up and grabbed Gu Zhi's collar to ask for clarification, but before he took that step, what always rushed into his mind was that they were together Time, those heart-pounding pictures.

So it was just a momentary impulse, and then he left quietly as if he had never been here before.

He went abroad not long after that, and it was at this time that he discovered that Jiang Xuyang had said that he had prepared everything secretly, so that he saved a lot of energy when going through the formalities.

In fact, Jiang Chu didn't care much about where and how he lived. It may be because he was used to traveling alone since he was a child. Even if he was in a foreign country, he didn't have the feeling of returning home like those overseas students.

After a long time, he no longer has the urge to go back. He has been walking in the world for more than ten years, and he has truly lived alone before he was 20 years old.

The apartment he lives in is very close to the school. Once when he was returning to the apartment with two other international students, he overheard the other party saying in Chinese that there was a lot of rain during the Ching Ming Festival. It was only then that he remembered that this season was the rainiest, and then he inevitably thought of Gao One day after school in that year, it was also such a hazy rainy day, a drenched boy ran towards him holding an umbrella.

Jiang Chu stood there in a daze, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes, and the foreign student beside him joked, "Do you want a girlfriend?"

Jiang Chu smiled. There were not many people coming and going in the rain and fog, and the streets were clean and spotless. It was different from the streets in his memory, and no one handed him an umbrella in this rain and fog.

Because of the rain, the three of them went into a coffee shop opened by a Chinese near the school. The classmate went to order and asked him to occupy a seat first. He found a corner seat by the window according to his own habits.

The information between countries is not so closed in the Internet age. When he was browsing the domestic news, he accidentally caught a glimpse of an award-winning documentary interview. The man in the video faded from his youthful innocence, but the familiar face still gave him a moment The illusion, as if time quickly returned to the time when he was 17 years old. After many years, Gu Zhi has grown a lot, but he still looks thin. An inadvertent answer is humorous but not out of proportion.

Is this what he wanted before?

A few minutes of interviews ended quickly, but the students were still queuing up. Jiang Chu glanced out the window, and his sight was only a few meters away. He suddenly entered a familiar name in the search entry, hesitated for a long time, and clicked back .

The classmate ordered coffee, went to sit opposite him, saw the Chinese on his screen, and smiled, "It seems that I really want to go back to China."

Jiang Chu put away his mobile phone and said with a smile, "Yes, my family still has several houses in Beijing. Do you know how high the house prices are in Beijing's Third Ring Road?"

After speaking, the two people looked at each other and smiled, "To be honest, when we first met you, we all suspected that you had autism. I didn't expect you to be quite humorous. Who did you learn from?"

Jiang Chu's fingers were wrapped around the outer rim of the coffee cup, and the fingernail of his index finger lightly tapped on the wall of the cup. He stared at a certain place on the table, as if he was seriously thinking about his question. After a few seconds of silence, he retracted his smile. Only then said in a deep voice, "A former classmate."

Jiang Chu seldom talked about the past, in fact he didn't like to talk, so in that boring afternoon, for the first time, Jiang Chu talked to these two international students who had never had the opportunity to experience high schools in the system, and talked about his big problems that were occupied by brushing questions and test scores. part time.

It wasn't until there were only two tables left of the customers in the coffee shop that he realized that as long as he talked about everything related to Gu Zhi, he could be resurrected with full blood in an instant.

He didn't have many acquaintances in his address book in the past. After going abroad, he deliberately cut off contact with people from the past. Now the only Chinese name lying on his phone is Gu Zhi, but he didn't even have the courage to dial that number once.

The problem between them is still there until now, since he planned to fulfill his wish at the beginning, there is no need to regret it.

He chose his favorite art in college. It is said that half of art depends on hard work and half on talent. He has never suffered from studying since he was a child. It seems that he can learn everything faster than others. With a little effort, he can surpass others. , even so, he still did not relax.

His professor once said that only when a person becomes strong can he have the right to speak, and only when he becomes strong can he solve many problems that cannot be solved at present.

To others, this sentence is just a non-painful chicken soup, but Jiang Chu can empathize with it.If you can't be strong enough for Gu Zhi to stand by his side without any worries, then all the hard work is meaningless.

The international student at the same school laughed at him, painters only become famous after death, why did you choose this major.Jiang Chu's answer was still the same as before: "I like it."

Because I like it, I don’t care about whether I can become famous or not when I choose, but under the famous saying of the professor, it seems that liking is not so pure.

Like itself is not pure.

After staying abroad for a long time, there are fewer and fewer Chinese of the same age around him. Most of the foreign students who took classes with him at the beginning returned to China after graduation.

The small part left behind is also running at both ends. Chinese people always have the traditional idea of ​​returning to their roots. No matter how successful they are and how comfortable they are living outside, the concept of "home" is still nostalgic for the concept of "home" under their own national flag.

In the eighth year since leaving the motherland, Jiang Chu had the urge to go back and have a look for the first time.

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