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Gu Zhi once stared at the ranking of the grade list and secretly vowed that he must experience the feeling of being the boss for a while. When I don’t know who to show off to, I feel like it’s meaningless.

It was only later that he realized that it was not very interesting to compete with himself. He imagined that if Jiang Chu was there, he would say that it was okay lightly, or he would quietly praise him when no one was around, and then say that you are too late Come on me, can you take a rest?

Since the third year of high school, Gu Zhi didn’t live on campus very much. At first, the school disagreed, and the school could not change the system for personal reasons. The first heavy snow in winter Gu Zhi forgot to close the window because he went to bed late, and woke up the next day with the spirit of fighting poison with poison I got up early and drank a glass of ice water, and then I was honorably injured.

He has not been in good health since he was a child, especially when the seasons change, he is prone to illness. The cold wind blows all night, and the cold is fierce. Finally, half an hour before the end of the last exam in the morning, he rushed into the hospital without even having time to report. He vomited in the toilet. After vomiting, he felt dizzy and his whole body was shaking violently. When he finally straightened up and was about to go back to the examination room to finish writing the last point, his eyes suddenly went dark.He fell straight towards the door.

Considering that it was the season of flu outbreaks, the school made an exception and gave him two days off for fear that other students in the dormitory would be infected. It was only when he was hospitalized that Gu Qian realized that it had nothing to do with the flu and was caused by his poor health since childhood. No matter what, he will not be allowed to live in the school. The school is under the pressure of the parents, and Gu Zhi has repeatedly promised that he will not be left behind. The school agreed to his application.

He kept his word, and he performed steadily in every exam after that, which completely dispelled He Wen's worries. This time of being admired and envied by others did not let him relax a little. The hydrogen balloon flew higher and higher, but at some point it would burst into pieces with a bang and return to the dust.

Nanchuan University became the only motivation for his whole senior year of high school, and it was what pushed Gu Zhi's eager anticipation.

It's ridiculous to say that when he was with Jiang Chu, he thought all day long how to explain to his classmates, how to explain to the teacher, how to explain to Gu Qian in case things were exposed, so much so that he forgot that all the explanations were given to him. Others saw it. Until then, he realized that what he wanted the most was to be together.

In the past, he always pushed Jiang Chu to the opposite side of disappointment because he was afraid that he would disappoint others, but now he suffered retribution for this.

He once imagined that when he turned to leave that afternoon, what kind of impulse Jiang Chu resisted so as not to hold him back, how much fear Jiang Chu felt when he heard about his grandmother's accident, and how he felt when the disaster happened suddenly. who comes to mind when.

In fact, the answers to these questions are very clear to him.Because the last sentence Jiang Chu said to him was still "I won't agree."

This sentence was like a mantra, Gu Zhi relied on him to walk forward with difficulty.

The sun was shining brightly on New Year's Eve, and the winter years were full of splendor in the silent light show. Only one year passed, and there was only silence.

Gu Qian stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows with the collar of her coat wrapped around her collar and looked at it for a while, then turned around and saw a couple of children in the room, Gu Zhi teased Gu Xunzi, who was still unable to speak, stuffed her a New Year's red envelope in a decent way, and chanted plausibly : "When a person is small, he must be suppressed"

"You're not an adult yourself, how did you hear that?" Gu Qian asked him with a smile.

On the last day of the old year, Gu Zhizi's hand was held by Gu Xizi's little hand, and he yelled "giggle" while stuffing it into his mouth.

Both Gu Qian and Gu Zhuowei were terrified, they hurriedly approached and picked her up to tease her, but the little girl refused to call out a second time no matter what, and the countdown to the New Year began on the TV.

In the blink of an eye, it is a year, but every year, the excitement never reaches that year...

The spring of this year came very early, there was no need to melt the ice and snow, and the green stripes took the lead. When everything was recovering, No. [-] Middle School ushered in recommended places from major colleges and universities, and the number of self-enrolled candidates was comparable to thousands of troops Compared with previous years, it has doubled, and the overall score of the second class is still at the top of the fast class. Cui Wenjun and He Jia both took the exam to go to Beijing, and Li Mao was admitted by his favorite university as he wished, and went to Shenzhen.

For a while, it seemed that everyone had ideals and a distant place, and rushed to all directions of the motherland. Under the halo of these honorary universities, Gu Zhi chose Nanchuan in the province with an advantage of more than ten points higher than his major score. The Academy of Fine Arts is much less popular.

Surprisingly, Xu Jing, who had been clamoring to be as far away from his parents as possible, stayed in the province for the first time.

It was a rare time for him to be emotional, saying that his parents were just him, and they were too far away, and he was worried about him. He said it sincerely, and almost moved his father to tears. Gu Zhi only found out the truth when he drank too much at a party——

Because Su Nuo's target university is a B university in the province.

He had a crush on the goddess who had been in love with him for three years. Even under the grand light of the graduation party, he couldn't get a happy ending.

"Why didn't you say it? In today's situation, it's hard for Su Nuo not to agree to you..." Gu Zhi quietly asked him among the crowd of demons and ghosts.

Xu Jing picked up the water glass in front of him and took a sip, "What if the situation is over and she regrets it? Let's forget it."

"Mediocrity." Gu Zhi gave him a merciless look.

Xu Jing blushed and said drunkenly, "Aren't you very experienced?"

Originally, Gu Zhi was only optimistic about his brother's bitter love, so he gave a sympathetic reminder, but he was shut up all night by his good brother's words.

Xu Jing, who consciously said something wrong, didn't dare to provoke him all night, and made jokes in the corner farthest from Gu Zhi. Everyone seemed to be releasing their suppressed emotions to their heart's content. The room was filled with beer cans and bulging tables The white foam piled up more and more, and a group of people roared wildly like wild horses, holding the microphones and not singing, to vent the bullish energy that has been suppressed in their hearts for a year.

After eleven o'clock, half of the people dispersed, and those who hadn't drunk staggered out the door with the help of the drunk and walked to the road. From a distance, a black and white group of people appeared in the middle of the night, quite a few hundred The posture of Ghost Night Walking.

Walking through the hustle and bustle of the bustling street, the neon lights and noise gradually subsided. When approaching the park in the middle of the street, Gu Zhi heard someone calling his name behind him. He vaguely remembered that he had secretly watched it during a certain competition A horror movie, he doesn’t remember the rest of the content, he only remembers a sentence in it that said “Don’t look back when you hear someone calling your name in the middle of the night”.

So he turned back...

Su Nuo is wearing a pink floral dress with a high ponytail. If you look carefully, you can see that she has carefully dressed up after the show. A girl dresses up in the middle of the night and then goes to find a boy alone. What she wants to express What does it mean, you don't need to open your mouth to understand.

On a summer night, the wind was sultry and humid. After walking a few steps, Gu Zhi clearly felt that his back was sweating and uncomfortable. The white light from the lampshade of the street lamp poured down on their heads, illuminating some The background sound effects enveloped them, and they couldn't be calm for a long time.

Under the influence of the blurred light, Gu Zhi felt that Su Nuo was approaching, carefully probing: "Nanchuan Academy of Fine Arts is only two roads away from University B."

Normally, under such circumstances, Gu Zhi would say: "That's good, maybe you can catch up with me by taking a bus when you go out." But he wasn't joking, and he always felt that such avoidance would lead to even bigger misunderstandings. .

Su Nuo looked at Gu Zhi, thinking that what he said was so obvious that he should understand, but he didn't expect to wait for Gu Zhi to say: "I heard from Xu Jing that you are going to go abroad in your sophomore year? Congratulations in advance."

Gu Zhi's voice was a little low, and he couldn't tell what was wrong, but it always made people feel that he was not very happy.

Su Nuo lowered his head and remained silent for a while, then turned his gaze to the shadow in front of him again, and said with a gentle smile, "You're so smart, don't pretend you don't know."

Gu Zhi took a breath slowly, turned his head to look at Su Nuo, and smiled at her: "You are so smart, don't pretend you don't know?"

Su Nuo froze for a moment, and immediately realized what Gu Zhi meant, and then there was another lengthy silence.

It was impossible to say that she would not be disappointed, but she was not as sad as she expected. Maybe it was because she had already predicted the result, so when this day came, she was relieved.

Also, the answers to the questions that are laboriously sought often already exist.

That night at the end of the park in the middle of the street, there were two forked roads. Gu Zhi blew the night breeze for a long time under the street lamp. It wasn't until the text messages on his mobile phone that he had graduated from school that his screen exploded, and he realized his long and regretful teenage years. , It seems that the curtain ended suddenly.

For a long period of time after that, he was carried forward day after day in a trance, and when he regained his consciousness completely, his university was about to end. Professionally, a large part of the reason is to fulfill the promise that he himself has not seriously promised.

Sure enough, his slightly ignited expectation also completely blew up his disintegrated youth in college, and finally calmed down slowly.

Without expectations, the days seem to become blurred.

After that, he seemed to be back in the tense period of high school. He was either stuck in books all day or stuck in a certain activity site to shoot and study.

He rejected the school's postgraduate insurance form, thinking that the days of muddled days should come to an end, and he found an internship job in the tail of his senior year. He was supposed to pass the internship period and get him a full-time job, but he was out of luck and got a full-time job. During that period of time, the company was laying off staff, so he, the intern, naturally became the first choice.

After losing his qualification to become a full-time regular, he was free for a while, and he didn’t have to go to school, but he regained his brotherhood with Xu Jing, who hadn’t been in touch with him for a long time. It’s strange to say that although he met many excellent people during the years of college, But there was never a feeling like the high school days.

Even if he felt that way, he never attended any high school party in those years. He always felt that seeing those familiar faces would open up pages of obscure youth.

During that period of time, he was idle and had nothing to do, so he returned home. After calling Gu Qian, he took a detour to the kindergarten to pick up Gu Xunzi. It happened that the road to the kindergarten was under construction, so he had to change the route to navigate. He was a road idiot in the past, and after living in Nanchuan for so many years, he still had to rely on navigation to tell the difference between southeast and northwest.

The kindergarten is next to the No. [-] Middle School. While waiting for the red light, he saw the doorman grabbing a late student and teaching him a lesson. The ignorant student's attitude of lowering his head to everything made him startled for several seconds.

Destiny is a very magical thing. When he was in No. [-] Middle School, he was always afraid of being known about his relationship with Jiang Chu, but then nothing happened as he imagined, and when the dramatic separation made him completely free from worry, He also felt that those worries and fears were nothing compared to losing Jiang Chu.

Over the years, he regretted it.

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