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The apology failed, and they broke up again. Gu Zhi was in a mess, and all kinds of complicated emotions entangled him into a ball of thread that could not be found. He stayed depressed until the day before New Year's Eve.

After the episode happened on the day of the final exam, he didn't have the time to think about other things. He even forgot to promise Xu Jing to attend the party. He didn't think about it until he received a call from Xu Jing in the afternoon.

In the past few days, he held back and didn't call Jiang Chu, but his heart felt as if it had been caught by a cat. He sent a text message to Jiang Chu. It was the kind of New Year greeting text message with a lot of expressions. As long as Jiang Chu is not blind , it can be seen at a glance that it is a group message.

He had a good plan, Jiang Chu wanted to return him, whatever he wanted, he would find a chance to ask someone out, and make it clear in person that it must not be like the last time.If you don't reply, those text messages look like group New Year's greetings anyway, and it won't be embarrassing to mention them when you see them at the beginning of school.

He thought so in his heart, but in fact it was far from easy. Once the text message was sent, he held his phone and did not let go, for fear that he would not see it immediately when the other party replied to the message.

He is used to doing things to think clearly about the retreat and then put it into action, but the plan cannot keep up with the changes, and another unexpected situation also occurs.

The fact that Jiang Chu didn't reply to his message was not because he thought it was unnecessary to reply to the group message, but because his phone was turned off and he left it at home.

He would go back to spend the Spring Festival with his grandma during the winter vacation after the final exam every year, which is an unshakeable habit.Jiang Xuyang never asked about these things. In the past, he would ask Jiang Chu to bring a sum of money to Jiang Chu's grandmother, which was considered a filial piety. This year, due to some special circumstances, Jiang Chu passed away early.

Gu Zhi and Xu Jing met in the Civic Square.

There were more people than expected, they were all from the second class, and there were still a few people whose names and faces did not match Gu Zhi's.

The black and white group of people is particularly eye-catching on the street.

Xu Jing pulled Gu Zhi aside and asked him, "Where's Jiang Chu? Didn't you promise to come?"

Gu Zhixin said, "Didn't you invite me, come and ask me?"But speaking like this, it seemed that his relationship with Jiang Chu was no different from that of ordinary classmates, and this feeling made him somewhat uncomfortable.

"I am not sure as well".He said, looking around again.

Not seeing a familiar figure, his eyes drooped, and an imperceptible sense of loss flashed across his face.

"Call him." Someone nearby overheard the conversation between the two of them and suggested.

"I don't have my phone with me."

Gu Zhi lied. He didn't know why. He was afraid that if Jiang Chu would hang up on him directly, or talk to him like he did at school that day, he didn't know how to explain it clearly to this group of people.

"Then use my mobile phone, I brought it with me." Xu Jing didn't notice the smallness in Gu Zhi's heart, like a little angel in rescue, he took out his mobile phone and handed it over.

Gu Zhi pressed a series of numbers with a bitter face, but the situation he imagined did not happen, because the voice from the system prompting the phone to shut down came from the other end of the phone.

For some reason, Gu Zhi suddenly heaved a sigh of relief, as if the aircraft hanging above his head had found a landing spot. He was still wondering why Jiang Chu didn't reply to his text messages. Turning off the phone and not seeing it will make him much happier than knowing that he saw it and deliberately not turning back.

A group of people were waiting for his results, Gu Zhi shrugged and said honestly: "He turned off the phone." He was about to return the phone to Xu Jing, but was stopped by someone.

"Then call his home number, he must be at home." The classmate who suggested calling earlier said again.

Gu Zhi looked at that man suspiciously, not knowing where he got the confidence to think that Jiang Chu must be at home.

The phone rang for a while, and the system indicated that no one answered.

There was no one in Jiang Chu's house. Aunt Zhang finished her work early this year and even brought the cat back with her. There is not even a living thing in the house now.

"Then what should we do?" Li Mao said: "Either forget it, don't wait for him, I think he seems to be in a bad mood on the day of the final exam, is there something wrong at home?"

Several people nodded in agreement.

Originally, Jiang Chu was not very gregarious, and he didn't usually hang out with them very much, so he couldn't get through to him on the phone. In fact, many people were relieved.

Gu Zhi kept silent. When he returned the phone to Xu Jing, he felt that Xu Jing looked at him with complicated eyes. He couldn't believe it, and then he heard Xu Jing say: "Don't forget it, he promised at that time, Does anyone of you have any other contact information for him? Ask again."

He said so, and no one else objected.

Speaking of other contact methods, everyone looked at Gu Zhi at the same time. He was about to say that I don't have any other contact methods. Before he could say anything, he heard Cui Wenjun say, "I have his father's phone number here. Or should I ask?"

Cui Wenjun is the class monitor. It is not surprising that she has all the contact information of all the students. However, these are not direct contact information of the class. The monitors of other classes usually print them out for later use, in case the class teacher has something to do. No one is stored on the phone.

A few boys with ulterior motives uttered strange sounds of "ohhhhh...".

"Stop calling, I have your parents' numbers too, if you don't believe me, I'll call them right now," Cui Wenjun said.

"Don't, don't, monitor, I was wrong..."

......

Because of business problems, Jiang Xuyang needed to run on both ends. This mobile phone in China was always on even if others were outside.When I first saw an unfamiliar phone number, I thought it was a call from a customer.

Hearing that the other party was a little girl, and she squeaked that it was Jiang Chu's classmate, she probably understood what was going on.

During this time, Zhao Lin often mentioned Jiang Chu in front of him, and they were not good words. Even though Jiang Xuyang didn't like Jiang Chu, he was still his son after all. Zhao Lin said that he felt that he was slapped in the face, so When I received the call, I not only turned on the speakerphone when I heard the meaning, but also spoke in a very gentle tone, as if showing off or proving something.

Cui Wenjun: "Uncle, do you know where Jiang Chu went?"

Jiang Xuyang: "Is there anything you can do with Jiang Chu?"

It wasn't that Jiang Xuyang was in charge, it was mainly because the final exams were over long ago, and tomorrow was New Year's Eve, and the students were unlikely to have any important matters at this time.

Cui Wenjun could probably guess the doubts of the other party. She introduced herself first: "I am the monitor of the second class. The school has some learning materials for me to bring to him. I can't contact him now." She was a little guilty. a lie.

Jiang Xuyang has long been unaware of the current state of study of high school students, but he has also heard many peers of the same age talk about children's problems in occasional chats. Hearing what Cui Wenjun said about this kind of topic, I thought that what those people said was true, and the school was so tight during the Spring Festival holiday.

So he said without hesitation: "If you are not at home, then you should go to his grandmother's house. He will go there every year for the Spring Festival." Jiang Xuyang asked another question: "Oh, by the way, his grandmother's house Do you want your phone number? But I’m not in Nanchuan City, so I’m afraid he won’t be able to get the information you mentioned in a while.”

Cui Wenjun had no choice but to wait for him to come back and hang up the phone in a hurry.

The scorching sun in the afternoon makes people barely open their eyes, and the traffic at the street crosses in a criss-cross pattern, echoing the pedestrians passing by on the pedestrian street.

In order to cater to the lively atmosphere of the Spring Festival, the merchants hung up lanterns early and pasted up New Year pictures. The shouts from the loudspeakers shook the whole street, but it was still not as loud as the loudspeakers brought by the teenagers who were released from the cages.

In such a hustle and bustle, Gu Zhi listened to the call silently like a bystander, and then there was a long silence.

He suddenly felt sad. Jiang Xuyang just said, "If he is not at home, then he should go to grandma's house." This is an unclear answer given by a father based on his son's living habits. In other words, Jiang Xuyang also I don't know where Jiang Chu is.

This made him briefly think of Gu Xiao——

Gu Xiao used to be too busy to see anyone. He would rush out as soon as he received a phone call in the study, and it was usually midnight when he came back. But one thing, no matter how busy he was, no matter how busy he was during the Spring Festival and birthday, Gu Xiao would never be busy. When going out, always remember to prepare gifts for him in advance.

Jiang Xuyang's few short words, Gu Zhi seemed to be enlightened. At that moment, he understood the source of Jiang Chu's indifference and distrust of everyone.

That is the imprint brought about by years of growth, which cannot be dissolved or erased.

It was also at this moment that Gu Zhi suddenly understood why Jiang Chu felt those uneasy emotions.

Because he has never been cared about.

The snow on the side of the road turned into water stains, dripping on the low places on both sides, and the winding traces extended farther ahead.

He walked forward with the crowd, until he heard Li Mao turn his head in front of him and said loudly: "Then let's go shopping first, and then go to eat, okay?" He finally came back to his senses.

The crowd was rushing in one direction. When crossing the road, they were dispersed by the delivery man who came in on a bicycle. They didn't gather again until they reached the entrance of the mall. He looked up at Nuo Da at the entrance of the mall. New Year's countdown decorations with only the smallest single digits left.

He lowered his eyes and thought to himself, almost collided with regret, raised his head again and said to Xu Jing who was closest to him: "I suddenly remembered that there is something else, you go."

At that moment, he seemed to have made some important decision, as if he would regret it if he followed them into the shopping mall.So he ignored the strangeness and comments of the classmates behind him and turned around to go in the opposite direction.

Coincidentally, it happened to be a green light, so he didn't even have the chance to be asked what to do.

The scorching sun above the head also became warmer. There was no rampant delivery man rushing out suddenly, and the passers-by made way for the running boy to make way for a narrow path.

The afternoon was no different from an ordinary winter day, except that when he got up to run, everything he could see flew towards the sides behind him at a fast speed, gradually blurring, only the place he was going to became clear in vain.

Xu Jing probably knew what he was going to do, so he stopped the person who turned his head and said, "Never mind, let's go first."

He almost ran to the station. Jiang Chu told him that he lived in Jia County with his grandmother when he was young. Jiang Chu’s description was actually very poor, but this was the only memory he could laugh when he said it. It's strange, Gu Zhi never remembers these things that other people mentioned unintentionally during the chat, I don't know if it's because of his love for the house.

But maybe subconsciously, he will remember what Jiang Chu said in his heart. After struggling in his heart for so long, he finally found a reason to convince himself in Cui Wenjun's call. There is no perfect reason in this world. Empathy, but he can already understand why Jiang Chu is like that.

For some people, freedom may be trying to break free from the shackles of their parents. Under the shackles is a strong family relationship, but for some people, being restrained itself is difficult to achieve.

They were originally irrelevant strangers, there is no bond between them, no one can guarantee its longevity like liking or love.

He was a little anxious.

He couldn't wait to tell Jiang Chu that you don't have to rely on loud announcements to gain a precarious sense of security.

I like you, more than you think, and longer than you think, so don't be afraid.

He suddenly felt a little ridiculous, thinking that Jiang Chu was just venting.He is so cold-hearted and soft-hearted, many times, he disarms and surrenders after taking only a small step.

If such a person is really angry, how can he be easily coaxed? He rarely shows his happiness or unhappiness, and when he is discovered, he simply has no way to deal with it.

He is in this kind of situation where he can't start these days.

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