Deficit

When Uncle Chen, the housekeeper of Nan Jixian's house, came out to greet Lu You, Tu Qianmo followed behind, but he never went in.When Lu You got out of the car, he bowed deeply to him. It felt like something was stuck in his throat. It was extremely uncomfortable, and he couldn't get rid of it.

"Young master Lu, the young master told you to come today, please come in." Lu You has been here several times in the past few months, Uncle Chen likes him very much, he looks gentle and polite.

"Thank you, Uncle Chen, isn't senior brother back yet?" Lu You asked as he walked.

"The young master hasn't come back yet. The young master said you can do it yourself. If the young master Lu is in a hurry, I'll arrange someone to take you to the recording studio right away." Uncle Chen said.

"Oh, no need, I'll take a shower first, thank you, Uncle Chen." Lu You was still a little apprehensive. He rarely had the opportunity to live in such a big villa in his life, and he always felt as if he would get dirty if he didn't take a shower first. Same as this house.

Nan Jixian arranged for Lu You to live in a large and luxurious room, but the luxurious jacuzzi was only used once, and Lu You always felt weird lying in it, thinking that he came here to study and not enjoy it blindly , so he usually takes a shower.The mirror in the bathroom was huge, and Lu You watched his body gradually blur in the steam. He covered his face with his hands and covered his eyes, a moving and smiling doll. Sure enough, in his heart, he was just such a status.Lu You's heart was blocked and suffocated, he took a deep breath, but when he breathed in again, he was choked by the water, and Lu You jumped out of the water quickly, he coughed for a long time, even tears came out.After a little better, he got into the water again to rinse himself clean and dry himself.Big brother is really nice here, even the underwear is Schiesser, just like things have high and low, and people have high and low.

Lu You wiped his hair with a large clean towel, and the maid at the door said, "Master Lu, the master is back, he said please don't worry, he will personally take you to the recording studio after taking a bath."

Lu You hurriedly thanked him and tidied himself up.He took out the sheet music from his bag, and even though he thought he had spent a million points, he still couldn't concentrate.He opened the refrigerator to get something to drink. Sure enough, there was no beer or drinks in his room, but there were many bottles of the expensive CHLN spring water that he endorsed.

Lu You looked at it for a long time and took a can of coffee.As soon as the refrigerator door was closed, there was a knock on the door. Lu You knew that it was the elder brother who came, so he went to open the door before he could put down the coffee in his hand.Nan Jixian had already changed into comfortable home clothes, but frowned when he saw the coffee in Lu You's hand, "Do you know that I'm going to record a song later, and now I'm still drinking iced coffee." Gave him a glass of warm water.

Lu You put down the coffee again, "I'm sorry, big brother."

Nan Jixian sensed that he was wrong, "What, you're in a bad mood?"

Lu You shook his head, "It's nothing, let's go record the song."

Nan Jixian didn't insist either, and asked him to take the score with him.Nan Jixian's private recording studio is very professional, and the equipment in it is no worse than Kadi's.Nan Jixian took Lu You to teach him to try songs, he thought, Xiao You is a very good singer, because he has a special charm standing in front of the condenser microphone.Lu You tried the first section of "Brothers" carefully, and the voice seemed to be alive and circling in the recording studio.

Nan Jixian went out and left him alone, "I'll give you 15 minutes to prepare."

Lu You put the music score on the music stand, and stood on the open space to practice vocalization, but for some reason, the same mimimimamama made him feel uncomfortable and suffocated, and Tu Qianmo's shadow flew to the wall with every note. Crashing into his mind, the absolute silence of the recording room magnified all the pain thousands of times, Lu You held his heart, unable to utter a single sound.

Through the transparent glass, Nan Jixian could clearly see Lu You's uneasiness. He walked out of the recording studio and called Tu Qianmo, who quickly answered, "Little You——"

Nan Jixian said, "Xiao You's condition is not very good."

Tu Qianmo sighed, "It's my problem, don't make things difficult for him."

Nan Jixian didn't speak, Tu Qianmo put his hands on the front console of the car, "I don't know what to say, anyway, take good care of him."

Nan Jixian really didn't understand why something went wrong at an important juncture. Lu You's new album is being prepared for recording, and now it is a critical juncture. Emotional matters consume the most energy, "Nan knows."

Just as Nan Jixian hung up the phone, another call came, "Master. Mr. Du is here."

"Understood, please go directly to the recording studio." Du Heng was the sound engineer specially invited by Nan Jixian, and he asked Du Heng to help him record himself.He went to meet Du Heng himself, and the two came in together.

"Big brother." Lu You greeted Nan Jixian seriously.Du Heng stretched out his hand, "Du Heng, hello."

"Hello, Teacher Du." Lu You was very obedient.

Nan Jixian asked him casually, "How are you getting ready?"

Lu You didn't know how to answer, and was a little stunned for a moment.

Nan Jixian patted him on the shoulder, "Teacher Du is a top sound engineer in China, today is a rare opportunity, please do your best."

"I see." Lu You obediently agreed, but he didn't know if he could do it.

The first song, "Sunlight Half Wheel".

"Dancing with you, chasing - it's sunrise again, forgetting is all, the path you have traveled, how clear are you - I am blurrier than you"

"It was a cloudy day, put out and light half a cigarette, in your hand, no longer a smoke ring, Bailu just passed that autumn, whether it rains or it is sunny, it all settles. I share your pastime, I can't hang on to the lingering sunrise, retreat To the horizon, I said I love you [-] times and another three times, the last time was deceit, before the cold dew came, I owed nothing. It was still the New Year last year, I put out that cigarette, it was next to my pillow, and it circled around, Grain rain and awning are like summer , praise is shorter than silence, your love is my wish. I will borrow you for a long time, no match for the boundless sunset, the end of the nest is inevitable, I am sorry I have tasted it [-] times, but I am only thinking about it, the Qingming has passed, the lovesickness is not lost, the love is not extinguished Don't read."

"Dancing with you, chasing—it's sunrise again."

It's just a song, but Lu You doesn't know why, it's like vomiting out a gall.Nan Jixian did not make any comments. The second song is "Street Corner Bicycle".

"The smiling face is half open to your taste, and the long eyelashes are a little noisy--" Lu You sang a few words and then held his hand tightly. He was serious and couldn't laugh.

Nan Jixian never said a word, even when Du Heng signaled him, he just shook his head slightly until Lu You finished singing this song.He knew that he sang badly, but the feeling of suffocation was too strong, and he really couldn't sing, "I'm sorry, Mr. Du, I'm sorry, brother, I, I wasted your time."

Du Heng smiled, "It's okay, Nan, why don't we make an appointment at another time. Lu You's voice is very expressive, and I believe he can control this song." At this point, he looked at Lu You, "Your first "Sunshine Half Wheel" is really great. This song is very difficult, especially the breath requirement. I didn't expect a teenager to sing this song so well."

"I'm sorry, Ah Heng, for delaying you for so long." Nan Jixian said.

"It doesn't matter. We are so familiar, not to mention, I am lucky to hear such great music in advance. Nan, I will go first." Du Heng left very kindly.Lu You and Nan Jixian sent him far away together. When turning around, Lu You knelt down next to Nan Jixian.

Nan Jixian pulled him up, "Do you think no one will come to the garage?"

"Brother, I'm sorry." Lu You didn't know how sad he was.

"What's wrong?" Nan Jixian asked.

Lu You didn't answer but kept saying sorry.

Nan Jixian stretched out his fingers and raised his face, "Are you sorry for me? You are sorry for yourself! If you didn't come to Du Heng today, if you didn't come to my house today, do you know what your behavior is called! You have delayed Once someone else, no one will give you a second chance!"

Lu You shook his head, "What chance do I need? If one day, I really can't retreat, big brother, I don't know how far I can go."

Nan Jixian gently held him in his arms, "What's the matter?"

Lu You tightly clasped Nan Jixian's waist, "Teacher and I, it's over."

Nan Jixian was stunned, how could it be possible, he patted Lu You lightly, "Speak slowly, and talk to senior brother."

Lu You lay on Nan Jixian's shoulder, "The teacher said, I want too much."

Nan Jixian followed his back, and Lu You was like a drowning man catching the lifebuoy. He leaned against Nan Jixian's arms, but he couldn't say a word.Nan Jixian patted him, "You are too tired, go back and lie down first."

Lu You walked all the way, lowering his head all the way, "I really don't know what is too much and what is too little." Lu You shook his head, shook his head, and suddenly collapsed, "I really want too much."

"Xiaoyou." Nan Jixian held him.

Lu You closed his eyes, and it took him a long time to force out a smile, "It's okay, big brother, I'm fine."

Nan Jixian glanced at him, "Actually, the first time I saw you, I knew that you and the teacher would definitely come to this day."

This time, Lu You was stunned.

Nan Jixian chuckled, "Every inch of your body is completely in line with the teacher's aesthetic vision. In the past, the reason why I was prejudiced against you was because I knew too well that you were the one who could make the teacher lose control people."

"Where's Senior Brother Meng?" Lu You was most concerned about this.

Nan Jixian shook his head, "Tong Tong? He is not. You should have heard that the person Xiao Meng wants to marry is Su Zhuo."

Lu You didn't understand.

Nan Jixian said, "Many people say that you look like Tong Tong, but in fact, you are not like Tong Tong at all. Tong Tong is a leopard, and you are a peacock. They are both proud, but the two kinds of pride are completely different."

"I've always known that I'm not as good as him." Lu You smiled wryly.

"Peacocks are not as good as leopards?" Nan Jixian asked.

Lu You himself also felt that he was ridiculous, no matter who he was, this analogy was unreasonable.

Nan Jixian said, "Frankly speaking, the teacher does not have the ability to control Tong Tong at all. What is more presumptuous to say, what the teacher treats Tong Tong is not love at all. It is the most perfect thing that must belong to my conquest."

"He is the same to everyone." Lu You said.

"No, the teacher is very picky. He is not interested in most people. Just like Meisheng you have seen, the world is stunning, but the teacher doesn't care." Nan Jixian said.

"That's because Mei Sheng posted it by himself." Lu You said.

Nan Jixian stared at Lu You, and Lu You smiled, "Yes, I also posted it myself."

Nan Jixian's gaze was like a nail, "Remember. I don't want to hear any insulting words from your mouth in the future, Lu You, let's not be an example."

For some reason, Lu You's body trembled suddenly, and he nodded almost uncontrollably, "Yes."

Nan Jixian said, "You were chosen by the teacher himself, and you are also what he wishes to have. However, the teacher still doesn't understand the reason for this kind of possession."

Lu You laughed and laughed.

Nan Jixian said, "I don't know what the teacher promised you to offend you, but I think, what he promised you may not be acceptable to you, but in his heart, it is all he gave."

"Keeping a person as a pet is all he likes? Is this how he gave everything when he pursued the second senior brother?" Lu You went crazy.

"The teacher never pursued Xiao Meng. He treated Xiao Meng like a disobedient cat. Pull out your nails. If it doesn't work, he will smash your claws." Nan Jixian said.

"So, this is love?" Lu You suddenly began to sympathize with that Senior Brother Meng Er.

"This is the way of love recognized by the teacher." Nan Jixian said.

"What if someone wants to pull out his nails and smash his claws?" Lu You said.

"Someone is doing this. If you promise to take back all your love, you can take a look at the result." Nan Jixian's answer was too calm.

"Who?" Lu You was surprised.

Nan Jixian did not answer.

Lu You was anxious, "Who?"

Nan Jixian looked at him, "Since you are so worried about the teacher, why didn't you explain it clearly to him."

Lu You shook his head, "It's not clear. The premise of the negotiation is that everyone has room to make concessions. Neither the teacher nor I can back down." Lu You clenched his fists, "It is impossible for me to accept an incomplete love, He can't give up on SM."

Nan Jixian said softly, "Xiaoyou, SM is hard to quit."

"Will the elder brother do it too? I can't imagine it." Lu You said.

Nan Jixian thought for a long time, "Many years ago. But I am not like a knight, I am not obsessed with SM. Xiaoyu, you can't accept SM, or you can't accept the identity given to you by the teacher."

"I can't." Lu You answered very simply, "I can't accept that anyone can satisfy him through admiration, obsession, or love, and I can't accept myself as the only one who kneels at his feet forever as a substitute."

Nan Jixian smiled, but sighed in his heart, as he knew a long time ago, Lu You is not a little rabbit, his possessive desire for love is even more terrifying than Tu Qianmo, "You don't have many demands, any one Lovers in the normal world would request the same."

"It's just that, as far as the teacher is concerned, I'm greedy, right?" He is a child after all, and he cannot escape the shackles of emotions after all.

Nan Jixian patted Lu You's head lightly, "Go back to the room and go to sleep. It's about feelings, but you advance and I retreat. There is no entanglement, because entanglement is actually the end."