Deficit

"Xiao Yu." Because of the need to look up information on the Internet, Lu You went to the study to read the script today, and even found the video of "Conan vs. Kaitou Kidd" to watch.

Seeing him standing in front of the computer, Tu Qianmo thought he was in severe pain, and walked over to pat him on the shoulder lightly. Lu You was startled, and Tu Qianmo laughed at him, "There's nothing to be afraid of."

Lu Youdao, "Conan is still a little scary, what's the matter, teacher?"

Tu Qianmo smiled, "Come here to see you, your elder brother is very strict, does it hurt so much?"

Lu You took a step back shyly, "No, no." After saying this, he quickly added, "Eldest brother is very kind to me."

Tu Qianmo nodded, "I am also very happy to see that you now trust Nan wholeheartedly."

Lu You still lowered his head, "Xiao You used to be young and ignorant, so he didn't know about the kindness of the senior brother to me. Now, the teacher has been away for a few months, the senior brother has been very troublesome, whether it is for the third senior brother or the younger brother. Senior brother is still me, I know he cares about us very much, being a senior brother is very hard."

Tu Qianmo gently held his shoulder, "You have become much more sensible during the time I have been away."

Lu You saw that he didn't intend to let go, and he didn't know what to do, "No. I still shoot movies every day, go on shows, and prepare for the new album. Teacher, I want to watch it for a while and try on clothes tomorrow morning."

"It's just a fitting, you don't have to pay so much attention to the script," Tu Qianmo said.

Lu You turned his head sideways, and Tu Qianmo kept hugging his shoulders, so that his hair almost brushed Tu Qianmo's cheeks, "If you don't want to be in the show, you can refuse the audition. Since everyone's time has been delayed, I will Must be ready."

Tu Qianmo said softly, "How is the pain?"

Lu You blushed, "It's much better. The teacher knows that the master's technique has always been very good. I'm fine."

Tu Qianmo frowned, and stopped touching Lu You, "Do you know that Nan used to be a trainer?"

Lu You nodded.

Tu Qianmo said, "How do you know?"

"Occasionally, I heard Mu Dong talk about it." Lu You said.

"Why did Mu Chan mention this to you? Has he mentioned anything else to you?" Tu Qianmo asked.

Lu You saw that the teacher was a little too nervous, "Mr. Mu didn't say anything, it's just that senior brother punished me severely once. When Mr. Mu found out, he specially gave me medicine. He said that senior master used to be a trainer. And the club that the teacher often goes to also belongs to the big brother."

"Many things." Tu Qianmo said.

Lu You didn't know how to answer, "Teacher, Xiao You still needs to read the script."

"Is your injury really okay? Let me take a look for you." Tu Qianmo looked at him.

Lu You took another step back, "No need, really no need, thank you teacher." He really couldn't imagine letting Tu Qianmo look at his ass after he did that for him, if that was the case , what is he?

Tu Qianmo knew that he was not used to it, "Then concentrate on reading the book, I'll bring you a cushion."

"Thank you teacher." Lu You reopened the paused video to see what KID looks like in the animation.Tu Qianmo stayed with him in the study for a while, but suddenly received a call.He glanced at Lu You, "I'm going out to answer the phone."

Lu You didn't look up, "Okay."

Tu Qianmo waited for a second, but Lu You still didn't raise his head, he opened the door and went out, "Jian Xun."

Tu Qianmo stayed with Liu Jie abroad for several months, and never contacted Jian Xun again. The last time Jian Xun made an enema for himself, he was very upset, so he immediately sent him an email.Because there is no contractual relationship between the two, it is not too troublesome to separate, even if he begged, but Tu Qianmo has always been ruthless to slaves, not to mention Jian Xun himself is also a person with very strong self-esteem, so he did not pester him any more.A lot of things happened later, Tu Qianmo was not in the mood to go to the club at all, and of course he would not provoke any slaves.

"Master." Jian Xun's voice was the same as before, even though it was obviously a quiet tone, it was filled with natural awe and humility.

"You don't have to call me that." Tu Qianmo said very directly, "What do you want from me?" Even though he didn't hesitate when he separated from M, he was still afraid that they might have some difficulties, whether he could help them.

There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, Tu Qianmo didn't wait too long, "I'm sorry, if it's okay—"

"Last time, Jian Xun made his own decision. Even if we separated, you haven't punished me yet." Jian Xun said.

"Since we have separated, there is no need." Tu Qianmo said.

"Everyone has a psychological need to unconsciously seek the end of the matter and the dust to settle. During the contract period, it is a serious mistake to ignore the master's order or even try to blackmail the master. I don't want to be a person who can't bear it .” Jian Xun’s voice was pleading.

"Don't worry about it, it's just a game. Since both parties have withdrawn, there's no need to stick to the old rules." Tu Qianmo said.

"I know that after you separated from me, you didn't find anyone else—"

Before Jian Xun finished speaking, he was interrupted by Tu Qianmo, "I'm just too busy. Sorry, I'll hang up first."

Tu Qianmo pushed the door open again, Lu You heard the door knock and looked at him, Tu Qianmo smiled, "The former one—"

"There's no need for the teacher to tell me." Lu You continued to read the script.

"An M from the past." Tu Qianmo strode to the desk, "Jian Xun. You have seen him several times at home."

Lu You also raised his head and looked at him eagerly. Tu Qianmo held his hand that was clenched into fists and squeezed the script, "I just want to tell you, so what!"

Lu You held it with his hand, and the paper of the script was creased. After a long while, he said, "It's nothing, Xiao Yu knows."

Tu Qianmo turned his head away, "It's been half a year, even if you are angry, you should be too angry for half a year."

Lu You didn't speak.

Tu Qianmo let go of his hand, "I've said what I should say, done what I should do, and promised what I shouldn't have given. What do you want from me!"

Lu You put the script on the table, pursing his lips tightly.Tu Qianmo turned his back, and the two of them were deadlocked.After a long time, Lu You finally said, "What can I do? Thank you for being honest with me, but sometimes two people are not just honest. Teacher, Xiao You really don't understand what you want, if If you are a long-term slave who can get a contract, there is no need. Since Xiaoyou kneeled down and offered tea to you, without a contract, you will still be your apprentice for the rest of your life."

Tu Qianmo turned around, "You know that's not what I meant!"

Lu You shook his head, "It's no different. Whether it's Jianxun or Meisheng, there are many other people I haven't met. They are still full of nostalgia when you don't want them. No one is born inferior and wants to be treated with dignity. Step on your feet, whether you admit it or not, you have never used feelings for them, at least your professional ethics allow you to treat them well and give them hope. But what is the final outcome? Meisheng kneels on your knees In front of me, I beg you, you are not willing to play with him, Jian Xun is better than Mei Sheng, please be willing to play with him, I am better than Jian Xun, I can get a contract from you, is there anyone else? Better than me, and then what? I don't like it! I don't like your so-called SM games, I said I saw a lot of stuff like that before looking for you, a large part of it is called master's People say that the status is equal, but is it really equal? ​​No! You can beat him if you want, and he has to suffer if he doesn’t want to! If you say no, then don’t, he has no right to beg! Sometimes I watch , Seeing Jian Xun came home, I was jealous, but I was more sympathetic. If I kneel at your feet and do everything, and I want to be popular because of my name and profit, I have something for you I did it on my own, but what about them? Enduring inhuman pain and being treated as noble by you to blackmail me, relying on torturing my body to beg you to look back, and being regarded as vulgar and boring by you, teacher Tell me, what are they planning!"

Tu Qianmo didn't speak for a long time, and finally said, "It turns out that you haven't figured it out for so long."

Lu You bit his upper lip, "Yes, I haven't figured it out, and I may never figure it out."

"What if I say that I was wrong last time, and I don't treat you as M? And, I promise not to lose you." Tu Qianmo said.

Lu You smiled wryly, "You will also say that you promise not to lose me. I'm like a kitten or puppy. It's up to you to keep it or throw it away."

Tu Qianmo was speechless.

Lu You flipped through the script, "I'm sorry teacher, I want to read it for a while."

Tu Qianmo stopped talking, walked out by himself, and suddenly said when he reached the door, "I never thought of treating you as a kitten or puppy."

Lu Youdao, "I know. I'm not a kitten or puppy, I'm a walking doll."

Tu Qianmo left and closed the door.

Lu You buried his head deeply in his arms, "Why, why, why until today, you still refuse to treat me as a person and give me a promise!"

Tu Qianmo did not accompany Lu You in the second day's fitting, but Lu You's performance was still good.The crew attached great importance to him, and the entire crew was there to serve him throughout the morning. At the end, Mu Chan even came to pick him up. It is said that he has agreed to be a technical consultant for magic.

Lu You followed Mu Chan out but didn't get into his car, "I'm sorry, Mr. Mu, Senior Brother ordered me to go to him."

"It's okay, I'll see you off." Mu Chan smiled.

"Brother Luo Luo is here to pick me up." Lu Yougang said this, but when he saw the familiar white Mercedes, Tu Qianmo parked the car, "Let's go."

Mu Chan looked at Tu Qianmo with a smile, "I haven't seen you for a few days, and I'm so rude all of a sudden."

"Hello, Director Mu." Tu Qianmo said perfunctorily, holding Lu You's hand, "Let's go."

Lu You moved a bit, but didn't break free, and followed Tu Qianmo into the car.Luo Luo saw Lu You leaving with Tu Qianmo and drove away by himself.

Tu Qianmo looked at Lu You who was sitting upright, "Jian Xun came to see me this morning."

Lu You didn't speak.

"I think you're probably right. Since I don't have the ability to pay for their happiness forever, I shouldn't provoke them. Fortunately, it's not too late." Tu Qianmo said.

Lu You still didn't speak.Of course, you are not the one who pays the price. You can tell yourself that short-term pain is worse than long-term pain, because it is not you who are in pain.

"Jian Xun is straightforward, but he wants a reason. I said, I have my own slave." Tu Qianmo's slender fingers tightly gripped the steering wheel.

Lu You felt a convulsion in his stomach.

Tu Qianmo continued, "I said it was you."

"Why don't you say that you have quit the training circle, you will never play SM again, and advise him to rein in the precipice and get out as soon as possible." Lu You looked at him.

Tu Qianmo paused for five seconds, "SM is not a crime, it's not a precipice."

Lu You clasped his hands tightly, "That is to say, you have never thought of not playing this kind of game until now."

Tu Qianmo didn't speak.

Lu You raised the corner of his mouth and sneered silently, "Then what else can we say?"

Tu Qianmo raised his right hand to support his forehead, "I don't understand what you think, Xiaoyou, I don't understand what you think at all."

"If the big brother asks me to practice songs for four hours a day, I can only practice for two hours. When he asked me, I said that I am really obedient. You are right. The four hours of training must be guaranteed. Yes. But I still can only practice for two hours a day, do you think senior brother will be angry?" Lu You asked.

"It's not the same thing." Tu Qianmo said.

Lu You twitched his shoulders and smiled, "It's because I want too much." In fact, I have already stepped back. I originally wanted a complete love, but now I just don't want to play games.

Tu Qianmo said, "I promised earlier that if you are willing, I will not look for anyone else."

Lu You smiled, "Qianmo, can I ask a question."

When Tu Qianmo heard him calling his name, his heart stopped, and he slammed on the brakes.

Lu You looked at him sideways, "If Brother Meng told you back then that he could be with you but asked you to give up your status as a trainer, would you be willing?"

Tu Qianmo didn't speak, the car behind passed him and honked provocatively, Tu Qianmo started the car silently, after a long time, he said, "Tong Tong wouldn't say that, he is so proud, he just opened his mouth, It's already lost."

Lu You finally heard the answer, and he told himself that from today onwards, he would not bring up any such topic with Tu Qianmo again, if not.It doesn't matter if you don't become a star.

As the car drove east, Tu Qianmo felt Lu You's emotions, even though Lu You didn't seem to have any emotions at all on the surface.But he clearly felt that there was a place in his heart that was in a daze, like a layer of dust, and finally, he said, "You are different from Tong Tong, don't think too much about it."

Lu You looked out the window, "I know, I'm not as good as him." After saying this, Lu You felt really useless, and decided not to mention it a minute ago.

"You shouldn't compare yourself to him!" Tu Qianmo slammed the steering wheel, "I didn't regard you as his substitute at all, why do you have trouble with a dead person again and again!"

Lu You looked at the short and long green belt in the middle of the road, tears streaming down silently.It turns out that loving someone is really that difficult.

Tu Qianmo only saw his silhouette, tall and slender, as quiet as a sculpture that would never disappoint.

Tu Qianmo drove the car, the more he drove, the more depressed he felt, "Xiao You."

"Huh?" Lu You didn't look back.

"Come here, let me hug your shoulders. When I was in France, I always thought that if I hug your shoulders when I come back, I must have lost a lot of weight." Tu Qianmo said.

"Since we are only masters and apprentices from now on, teacher, please respect yourself." Lu You rolled down the window, the speed of the car was not fast, and the wind brought by it could still dry the tears on his face.

"We used to, did you give me a chance not to be a master and apprentice?" Tu Qianmo said softly.

Inside the car was the constant frequency of the wind, for a long time, "I thought about it before, but I won't in the future. Director Mu said, people value themselves." Lu You turned around.

"I like you." Tu Qianmo said.

"You like a lot."