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In Su He's impression, Bai Yufan was always high-spirited, full of confidence when he was irritable and swearing, he was a little more docile in front of Xie Minghao, like a tamed Tibetan mastiff, it took him a little time to discern who this low-pitched growl that suppressed pain was.

In fact, what Su He heard only by hearing was just the tip of the iceberg. In a hotel suite, empty wine bottles were scattered all over the floor, and the room was in a mess. Holding the phone in his eyes, he repeated a few words hoarsely upside down, as if he didn't mind whether the person on the other end of the phone was the person he thought of.

"I love you Minghao...I love you...I'm an asshole, but I really love you..." The sobbing in his throat became more and more obvious, gradually Su He couldn't hear what he was saying, just The word "love" is particularly obvious.

Su He was so shocked that he was covered in cold sweat, his heart was beating like he was about to jump out, he turned on the bedside lamp, and the electronic watch flicked to show the time, it was almost two o'clock in the morning.

Bai Yufan's drunkenness was too obvious, even if he just woke up from a dream, he could still tell the difference, Su He kept his mind steady, hung up the phone without hesitation, quickly searched for Xie Minghao's residential number on this phone and dialed it .

The sound of the phone connection was very clear at night. Su He waited anxiously while forcing himself to calm down and think. Bai Yufan must have known that this phone was lent to him, but he dialed it in a state of unconsciousness. If so, there must be something wrong with the two of them, and the problem is still very serious. Bai Yufan is most likely to suffer from alcoholism, so don't worry about it. Su He's first reaction is to find Xie Minghao.

The phone rang for a long time and no one answered it. Su He dialed again, fear creeping into his heart slowly with chills. Xie Minghao's work and rest were very regular. I met him a few days ago and said that he had just talked with several racing organizations. Project, I have to rest at home these few days, even if there is a quarrel, it is impossible not to be at home at this time...

A bad premonition suddenly rose in his heart. When his father passed away, he was also called up in the middle of the night...

Su He's palms were drenched with sweat, and he was so slippery that he couldn't grasp the phone. The phone was connected suddenly at this moment. Su He fed him several times, but there was no response. His head was like a bomb had been thrown, and it went blank with a buzzing sound. .

He grabbed his mobile phone, kept calling Xie Minghao's name, put on his pajamas, put on slippers, picked up the car keys and ran out.

Some time ago, Qian Qifeng forced him to take the driver's license test, and he only got it a few days ago. The car was also newly equipped by the company. Su He didn't even care about being lucky, got in the car and started it, and went straight to Xie Minghao's home.

There were very few cars on the road at this time, Su He raised the speed again and again, and decided to call Long Yaoxuan halfway, who knew he was on the phone, "Shit!" Su He cursed fiercely , continue to accelerate, let it go to hell with how many photos the camera takes.

Xie Minghao and Bai Yufan lived closer to the outskirts of the city. Fortunately, they were both in the east of the city. Su He finally arrived in less than 10 minutes. There was no light outside the small three-story villa, and the mobile phone was never turned off, and of course it never was. Responding, he didn't bother to knock on the door, and directly took a spare key from under the big rock at the door to open the door and enter.

What Su He knew about the structure of the house was what he usually heard from the two of them, but he forgot all about it, turned on the light in the hall, and searched one by one.

After checking the master bedroom, Su He's heart sank. He turned his head and saw the yellow light reflected on the ground through the crack of the door of the guest bedroom diagonally opposite. Straight into it.

Xie Minghao was lying on his side on the ground panting loudly in pain, his chest heaved violently, his whole face was covered in cold sweat as if he had been soaked in water, the landline microphone was hanging on one side of a half-height desk, and Xie Minghao couldn't reach it distance……

At this moment, Su He wished he could hack Bai Yufan to death. He had such a severe asthma attack all by himself, why did you hide in that fucking hole and pretend to be dead? !

He plunged into the master bedroom again and frantically searched for all the places where the medicine could be put. Soon, the tidy bedroom was scattered like a typhoon passing through. Su He finally found the aerosol for dilating the trachea, and rushed back to thank you. Ming Hao supported the person half-sitting up and sprayed the medicine, stuffed a few cushions behind him to maintain the half-sitting posture, the phone was thrown by Su He on the car, he hurriedly got up to find the phone, still panting for breath Xie Minghao tried his best to hold his hand, but he couldn't exert any strength and was knocked down by Su He's standing up. Several times, Su He's heart couldn't take it anymore. Ming Hao helped him up, and probably understood what he meant: there is no need to call an ambulance, just take the medicine and rest for a while.

Su He was worried. Xie Minghao's icy fingers kept hooking his clothes loosely. After observing carefully for a while, he found that his breathing had become much more stable and less strenuous, and his coughing stopped. The person moved to the bed, let him lean against the head of the bed, took a quilt and spread it for Xie Minghao to cover.

He sat on the ground and studied the instructions of the medicine carefully.

For the next hour, according to the instructions, Xie Minghao inhaled the spray every 20 minutes. Su He sat on the side of the bed and dared not move away for half a step. Any drowsiness was scared to Java, and both eyes were closed. On Xie Minghao's body, holding his hand motionless, Xie Minghao showed a wry smile after slowing down: "I'm fine, I'm sorry to trouble you, let's take a rest for a while."

Su He looked at the time. It had been almost two hours since he had sprayed the medicine. He observed Xie Minghao carefully again. He breathed evenly, and his complexion recovered some blood. Tone, this night, my hair almost turned white from fright.

Su He smiled and shook his head: "I'm fine, the publicity period has just passed, and I don't have any plans for these few days, so you can sleep for a while."

He helped Xie Minghao lie down, covered him with a quilt, and after thinking for a long time, he said: "Brother Minghao, go to sleep, and we'll talk about it when we wake up."

Xie Minghao closed his eyes and remained still, or he nodded slightly but Su He didn't see it, only he knew it.

Su He closed the door gently for him, stepped back and walked on the marble floor, only to find that his slippers had disappeared, and the soles of his feet were tingling.

Carried the medicine box downstairs, and treated the messy and fine wounds on the soles of his feet on the sofa in the living room.

Xie Minghao lay quietly on the bed for a long time. He didn't feel sleepy at all. He just felt exhausted. It seemed that he couldn't move his fingers to achieve it. He felt a dull pain in his heart, like someone was constantly beating with a baseball bat. Slowly, the skin was ripped apart, dripping with blood, and the whole heart was like pork being sold on an iron hook in the vegetable market, unsightly.

He has just turned 26 years old, and it has been seven years since he decided to be with Bai Yufan at the age of 19.

Everyone in the world said that he never took the seven-year itch and seven-year grief to heart. Back then, Bai Mu predicted that they would go their separate ways one day. Unexpectedly, it became a prophecy.

Bai Yufan has been acting abnormally these past few days. Xie Minghao has noticed it from the very beginning. He and Bai Yufan have grown up together since he was eight years old when he arrived at Long's house. They have lived together as lovers for seven years. With every movement of Bai Yufan, he can tell what is going on in his heart. What, because of this, he immediately felt that it was unusual. Things at work never caused him to have such a reaction. Xie Minghao was a little worried, but Bai Yufan reassured him that he would handle it well, so he was at ease. .

It has always been like this, Bai Yufan treats him wholeheartedly, and he trusts him wholeheartedly.

A few days ago, it was time for the regular checkup of his leg. It was agreed that Bai Yufan would come back to pick him up and go to the hospital, but he suddenly called and said that something had to be done, and he planned to call the doctor and arrange a time to be with him Go, Xie Minghao said forget it, just routinely check that there is no problem.

It is said that there is no coincidence, if the hospital has not been renovated in batches, and the orthopedics department has temporarily moved the consulting room, if he has not helped a pregnant woman who went to the obstetric examination alone in line, if he has not returned to pick up the left-behind films...

It's a pity that without these ifs, he did indeed see Bai Yufan standing in front of the consultation room with a woman with a big belly beside him. He also knew that woman. She used to work in Xinghan and everyone knew that she liked Bai Yufan. A very nice girl, when she left, she still introduced a new job to her.

In the end, this girl was about to become a mother, and she held Bai Yufan's arm and begged softly: "I'm sorry, but he is also your child, don't you like children the most..."

Bai Yufan likes children, and every time he meets a child, he will tease and hug him. Of course Xie Minghao knows, and the two of them discussed adopting a child after two years.

his own children...

Need any clearer words than this?

Xie Minghao fell into the ice hole in an instant. It was bitingly cold from head to toe, and the surroundings were still noisy. Every mother-to-be had a happy smile on his face, but he seemed to be separated into another space...

For so many years, he has trusted the relationship between the two with all his heart. He couldn't bear to be overthrown all of a sudden. There was an explanation for everything in the past few days. This explanation was like an iron hammer, knocking it hard. His head smashed his heart. In the same hospital and on the same floor, he came for the checkup alone, and his lover accompanied the child's mother for the checkup. What a ridiculous and sad relationship.

He can't remember what happened afterwards, it seems that Bai Yufan saw him, and he only saw such a panicked expression on his face once, and it was when he broke his leg bone in a serious car accident. He hugged him so hard that his bones ached, and this time he also hurt, but it was only his heart.

He ran out of the hospital all the way, didn't even take the medicine prescribed by the doctor, and hurried into a taxi.

Before he was eight years old, he lived in an orphanage, and then he lived in Long's house. Later, he bought a house with Bai Yufan and built his current nest. After walking around the city, they finally returned to their home.

Every corner of this house is full of traces of two people living together, pairs of slippers at the door, pairs of cups on the dining table, his favorite sofa and his favorite tea table, toothbrushes and the same person in the bathroom. toothpaste, a pair of pillows of the same color in the bedroom...

Judging by her body shape, she must be several months pregnant. Xie Minghao sat on the double bed and thought endlessly, how many times in this bedroom, he was deeply affectionate and lingering until death. Coming up, he vomited in the bathroom holding the toilet, his stomach was completely emptied, and he even vomited out green bile...

There is only a mistress who doesn't work hard, and there is no unbreakable marriage, but now he is more like a mistress, straddling the family of three.

The cell phone in his pocket rang again, Xie Minghao took it out to connect and listen to him, did he never intend to tell himself all this...

But the phone fell into the toilet, and the flickering screen went dark all of a sudden.

One hundred.

Xie Minghao got up and unplugged the landline at home, took out his work cell phone and sent him a text message: I don't want to see you these days, so let me think about it calmly.

Send, shutdown.

He didn't go out for the next two days. After reinstalling the phone line, there was no call, and the phone simply turned off.

Bai Yufan never came back.

Xie Minghao knew that he saw his text message, so he didn't dare to come back and dared not make a phone call. No one knows his temper better than him. No one can change what he insists on. Just like when he was in college, the school recommends him according to his grades. As a graduate student, he decided to give up, and everyone persuaded him to continue studying, but Bai Yufan instead advised everyone, when did he decide to change things?

It's just that this time he thought about it for a long time, but he didn't understand how his Bai Yufan could be like this, and how his love could be like this.

After so many years of happiness and ease, he really needs a little time and strength to stand up again from the wind and rain.

The bad things happened, and the asthma that I haven't had for a long time also came to join in the fun. I changed the bedroom and didn't have time to go back to get the medicine. Fortunately, Su He came.

Su He waited for half a day, and went in to see Xie Minghao at about ten o'clock in the morning. Seeing that his eyes were bloodshot and not sleepy at all, his heart trembled. He didn't notice that he was also like this. He sat by the bed and asked softly: "The refrigerator There's nothing to eat here, shall I go out and buy some porridge?"

Seeing that Xie Minghao kept looking at himself, he quickly explained: "I can't go out in pajamas at dawn, so I changed into yours."

I came here in a hurry yesterday, and now I can't go out in pajamas at all. He and Xie Minghao's figure are close, so he found a suit of his clothes and changed into it.

Xie Minghao looked at it again and again, showing a smile: "It's very suitable."

After not seeing him for a while, Su He found that Xie Minghao's smile carried a lot of emotion that he didn't have before. He felt a little sad seeing him for a while, so he hurriedly got up and said, "I'll be back soon, you can lie down."

After getting in the car, Su He found more than a dozen missed calls from Long Yaoxuan on the mobile phone left in the car, and dialed back while driving with his earphones on.

Long Yaoxuan's voice was a little annoyed: "Su He?! Where are you? There is no one at home, and you don't answer the phone. Why are you so worrying!"

Su He took a deep breath and asked, "What is Bai Yufan doing that is immoral?"