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Xu Wei is not proficient in grasping Duan Hefang's psychology. He can occasionally infer Duan Hefang's mood through Duan Hefang's subtle expressions and movements, but that is only limited to face-to-face observation. , It's not a direct communication, Xu Wei has no clue at all.

"Brother Duan, you are very strange. Why do you always avoid Xu Wei when you ask something? Did you two quarrel?"

ask something?ask what?

Avoid yourself?Why avoid yourself?

What is it that you cannot let yourself know?

Does Duan Hefang have any thoughts about himself that Xu Wei hasn't figured out yet?

Xu Wei turned over, and in the refreshing summer night, he couldn't fall asleep for a long time.

This summer has been an unusually long summer for Xu Wei. He has repeatedly wondered what Duan Hefang is thinking. The update focuses on his recent situation.

As a humble and sensitive crush, Xu Wei always keeps a cautious wait and see.

After graduating from the college entrance examination, Cen Suisui went on a trip with her family several times. She was very playful. During the period, she also asked Xu Wei and Xue Mo to go to Sanya for a week. The three of them got darker than the other.

Duan Hefan slowly flipped through the photos sent by Cen Suisui to Moments. The waves were so beautiful, surrounded by the crystal clear sunlight, rolling towards the shore. The one who was beaten by the waves in the sea, and the one who was lying on the beach digging sand to build a castle, Duan Hefang slightly zoomed in on the photo, Xu Yu did a very perfunctory sunscreen, his back and neck were tanned a lot, Duan Hefang frowned slightly, and withdrew to send Cen Suisui a WeChat message.

[Duan Hefang: Are you still in Sanya? 】

Cen Suisui replied quickly.

[Cen Suisui: Still here, go back the day after tomorrow]

[Duan Hefang: Well, remember to put on sunscreen when you go out to play. 】

[Cen Suisui: Good! 】

The excitement was beyond words, Duan Hefang looked at the books piled up in front of him, and sighed softly. He didn't personally understand the urgency of the college entrance examination, but he couldn't help but envy an eighteen or nineteen-year-old who had no scruples. Go-and-go friends travel.

But if he was there, Xu Wei would be very uncomfortable.

Duan Hefang pressed his temples with his slender fingers. He was basically studying and didn't spend much time making friends. Only Ayun, whom he met at the summer camp, had some contact with him. He went to the same school and would often meet up to read books and have tea together.

[Ayun: There is a handkerchief tonight, come over to play? 】

Duan Hefang was slightly taken aback.

[Duan Hefang: Forget it, I won't go, it's too disappointing not to drink. 】【Ayun: It's okay, there are a lot of alumni today, so it's okay to know people. 】

[Ayun: How many days have you read at home? 】

Because most of the time was spent thinking, Duan Hefang's reading efficiency was greatly reduced, so he spent more time studying the same course, which made Duan Hefang a little dissatisfied.

Duan Hefang schedules his time very tightly. He has always been a person who can make careful plans and can take many things lightly, but Duan Hefang always feels uncomfortable about Xu Wei's matter. control.

He felt that he was paying too much attention to Xu Yi's every move.

Xu Wei basically does not post on Moments, and rarely talks in the class. Recently, the small group of the four of them is also very silent, and basically does not come out to speak. It's reached, Xu Wei never looked for him in private again.

Xu Yu successfully completed the college entrance examination, and after fulfilling his volunteers, he successfully got the admission letter from D University, and entered the next stage of his life. Logically speaking, Duan Hefang should unilaterally announce this spying secret love on his side. When the curtain came to an end, he could no longer treat Xu Wei like before.

It is because of the fact that Xu Wei has passed the college entrance examination with difficulty, that it is even more difficult for Duan Hefang to let go of the indescribable feeling that spreads in his heart, like tiny fluff, which just grows from the flesh and blood, and cannot be grasped or touched. He couldn't touch it, but he was always scratching Duan Hefang's heart slowly and softly.

When Duan Hefang arrived late, it was a party hosted by an American student at home. Basically, all the alumni came. Duan Hefang bowed his lips to say hello and went inside. He found it among a bunch of handsome American men. Ayun, with an oriental face, he did not lose a bit, until Duan Hefang came late, the boys couldn't stop looking at him.

"Isn't it not coming?"

Duan Hefang took the fruit wine from A Yun and greeted the boys who A Yun was talking to generously.

"Why don't you wait for me outside, this room is not allowed to enter randomly."

"what happened?"

Ayun stared at Duan Hefang's side face which was more delicately outlined under the dim light, and gently stuck out his tongue to lick off the fruit wine from the corner of his lips. Duan Hefang was still looking around suspiciously, and Ayun moved forward Cou, whispered in Duan Hefang's ear, "This room is full of gays."

Duan Hefang didn't notice his abnormal gaze, he took a sip of the fruit wine in his hand, the fragrance of fruit and alcohol spread on the tip of his tongue, A Yun said that this is a room full of gays, but he didn't seem to want to bring The meaning of his going out was that he was having a good chat with those boys just now, and Duan Hefang occasionally added to the topic, but most of the time he was sipping wine.

After a few glasses of fruit wine, my stomach started to burn. Duan Hefang blinked slowly, trying to calm down the dizziness mixed in his eyes. Two boys were hugging and kissing in the corner, one of them was slightly taller, and was holding the other boy's waist. The light was dim, and the kiss in the inverted corner became more ambiguous and hot.

A Yun withdrew his gaze from the conversation and secretly observed Duan Hefang's expression.

He just saw that the people who formed the game today would be able to play, so he called Duan Hefang. Duan Hefang is an out-and-out straight guy, although he didn't show that he liked any girl, which made Ah Yun feels that he has a better chance to grasp it.

Ayun has a good way of breaking straight boys. He is very good at playing in school, and he only picks beautiful little boys, such as Duan Hefang, who are clean and beautiful. Of course, Ayun can't sit still and wants to hurry up. succeed.

Duan Hefang's eyes were dull.

The slightly taller boy has black smooth hair, and alcohol stimulates his brain. Duan Hefang stared straight at him. When he tilted his chin, he could clearly see the tear mole on the side of the nose of the boy who was being held by the waist, which appeared under the light. Extraordinarily sexy, Duan Hefang's eyes froze, the water vapor condensed at the bottom of the eyes made his emotions deep, Duan Hefang almost blurted out with his throat pressed:

"Xu Yu..."

The alcohol continued to stimulate the brain, and in a daze, Duan Hefang saw that the two of them had separated their lingering lips, and pressed the tip of their noses against each other's.Just when he was about to kiss again, Duan Hefang clearly saw the face of the taller boy.

That was his face. He was holding Xu Wei, and he put his thumb against the tear mole on the side of Xu Wei's nose, and then kissed him affectionately.

"Duan Hefang! Duan Hefang!"

Duan He suddenly pulled away from his consciousness, his pupils opened slightly, and he came back to his senses. He turned his head to look at Ayun's playful expression, and then turned his head to look at the corner just now. The two boys had already left, and they seemed to be enthusiastic just now. The corner of the fire was empty.

Ah Yun was in a good mood, and patted Duan Hefang on the shoulder: "No, you, your face turns red when you see other people kissing."

Duan Hefang was breathing heavily, and his entire fair face was flushed red.

Xu Wei went to Changsha to visit the school at the end of August.

It was very hot in Changsha in August, and the sun was scary. When Xu Wei left the hotel at night, he took the MP3 that Duan Hefang gave him with him.

Just now, he made his first adult decision.

Xu Wei is going to get a tattoo.

There are so many supper stalls on the roadside in summer nights, the roadside is bustling for a while and quiet for a while, and the surroundings are full of cicadas chirping on the plane trees, humming and humming, and when the wind blows, gently push Xu Wei's forehead Blowing his hair, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and the heat in his heart gradually dissipated, especially like the section of the road from the teaching building to the school gate for self-study in the third year of high school, comfortable and at ease.

Xu Wei found the address according to the shop recommended on the Internet. The plaque on the storefront was small and delicate. At night, Xu Wei fiddled with his T-shirt, his little finger trembling slightly, and he was a little nervous.

Tattooing is a very ritual thing, and the pain that accompanies it is even more attractive. Xu Wei was lying on the bed, and the pain coming from his back shoulder made him bite the tip of his tongue with his teeth. The tattoo artist told him to pay attention After the incident, he didn't dare to move, and lay quietly on the bed.

"Is it your girlfriend's last name?" asked the master.

"No." Xu Wei replied sullenly, "It's someone I like."

This is the first time that Xu Wei expressed his love completely and openly. This matter is like a tattoo, which makes his secret love and joy bloom more brilliantly and deeply.

The paragraph has been tattooed into his flesh and blood by him, and he will not be able to peel it off or pick it off in this life.

"Looking at your appearance, you should have just come of age, right? Did you just finish high school?"

"kindness."

"Then you will be an adult."

Because of the special location of the tattoo, Xu Wei only dared to sleep on the bed when he went back to the hotel to sleep at night. He didn't feel sleepy, and stared out of the dark window with his eyes open. Xia Ye could catch the stars in the night sky, a beautiful scene. The sea of ​​stars is scattered in the dark night sky, and the moon is half hidden among the clouds.

Duan Hefang is like the moon, and Xu Wei is a faint star not far away. Basically, no star can compare with the moon, Xu Wei thought to himself.

The vaster the cosmic night sky is, the harder it is for them to intertwine.

The tattoo on the back shoulder was still aching, and Xu Wei felt the pain of the slight numbness in his heart. He looked at the moon and missed the moon.

When Xu Wei was packing his luggage, he brought his diary with him. When Xu Wei was free, he loved Fanfan’s previous diary. If he couldn’t see Duan Hefang, he could only maintain himself by thinking about Duan Hefang in his memories. faint light.

Xu Yu doesn't like writing very much, but he is very keen on recording Duan Hefang's affairs, even what kind of food he likes to eat, what class he raised his hand to speak, which girl he talked to... Unknowingly, it has passed two years.After Duan Hefang went abroad, his diaries gradually decreased. In addition, Xu Wei studied very seriously during the college entrance examination, and the last time he wrote was still a declaration that he wanted to apply for D University because of Duan Hefang.Xu Wei was slightly taken aback.

Flipping through the diary can always pry open the precious memories that have been dusty for a long time. Countless times I passed by in advance in the corridor, the blue school uniform with Duan Hefang's fair skin in summer, and the flying ball when I raised the ball. The strands of hair, the sunlight mottled in the eyes when peeking in class, the firm and straight back and the fine fluff on the collar every time...

Xu Wei narrowed his eyes slightly, and the moonlight fell gently on the corners of his eyes and the tip of his nose.

Duan Hefang, it is [-]:[-] in the morning, I miss you very much.

Xu Wei lightly raised the pen, looked at the words on the notebook, and wrote another line.

miss you very much.