longing

Xu Wei hasn't opened his diary for several days. Every day after seeing Duan Hefang is long and boring. Xu Wei likes to go to the library near his home on weekends to find a way to run into Duan Hefang. Where Duan Hefang was sitting before, he ordered a cup of passion fruit tea and spent the whole afternoon with the novel in his hands.

The surroundings are always ups and downs, and Xu Yu's gaze has always been pitiful. Sometimes he doesn't want to believe that people really have moments to shine, and he doesn't know how many ordinary people who are exactly like him are hidden in the world High school students can't find their own unique existence in the ups and downs of life.

This is why he likes Duan Hefang so much.

Every time he chased and approached, Xu Wei felt that the boiling emotions in his heart were turbulent with Duan Heyou's frowns and smiles. This moment of enthusiasm seemed to tell him repeatedly that this love hidden in his heart was definitely This is the only one in the world.Sometimes Duan Hefang is too bright, and often in order to look up at him, the glare makes it difficult to open his eyes.What impressed Xu Tie the most was one Friday night in the second year of high school. Xu Tie happened to pass by and witnessed the scene of Duan Hefang rejecting a girl.

He has a tall and straight figure, half a step away from the girl, and the man in a clean school uniform is even more slender and superior. Even if he opens his mouth, he always refuses, and his eyes are countless polite and gentle.

Xu Wei is too jealous, and he has also fantasized countless times about how he confessed his love. When he fell into a dream, he turned into a girl, stood in front of Duan Hefang, and timidly told him about his secret love, which was also a gentle rejection. But Xu Wei felt that he was about to be crushed by Duan Hefang's eyes.After waking up, he broke out in a cold sweat, subconsciously touched his neat short hair, an indescribable despair and grievance surged into his heart instantly, even if he hid [-] more love than others, I have no qualifications and courage to reveal anything.

Xu Wei has known for a long time that some likes are destined to not get any response, but he is also willing to do so. Some likes appear at the most appropriate seventeen or eighteen years old, just to make all the youthful years bloom gorgeously.

Xu Wei slowly covered the diary. Today is the No. 16 day since Duan Hefang went abroad, and Xu Wei's heart is so dull that it hurts.

He has a whole dozen of notes organized by Duan Hefang, on which Xu Wei imitated handwriting that he has not learned for a long time, and there are speakers and MP3s given by Duan Hefang at hand. I mentioned the oatmeal that I said was delicious, and the pen I accidentally brought back when I was reading with Duan Hefang. Now that Duan Hefang is gone, Xu Wei dares to use it openly, and the pen refill is changed to another Another one, that white right hand with distinct joints appeared more and more frequently.

Xu Wei panted lowly, every gap in his life was covered with Duan Hefang's figure, how could he let go of his longing, a seed of longing took root in his heart, every inch it grew, it would support him A layer of flesh and blood was opened, and the pain was so bloody and bloody.

"Isn't it 楒? Acacia tree."

The acacia tree has taken root and sprouted.

The dense pain covered the whole heart, and his light ran so fast that Xu Wei couldn't catch up.

Quietly wiped his wet eyes, Xu Wei sat up, took the mobile phone from the table, and clicked into Duan Hefang's circle of friends in a timely manner. It is already past three o'clock in the evening, and Duan Hefang's side is in the afternoon It was three o'clock in the morning, and the time difference of twelve hours made Xu Wei extremely helpless. How could he dare to reveal any yearning for Duan Hefang.

People at night are always easily dominated by emotions. Xu Wei sniffed and moved back to the bed. The light from the mobile phone shone on his face, and he could vaguely see the red corners of his eyes. Xu Wei turned over and lifted the quilt. He opened it, wrapped himself tightly again, tapped on the screen with his cold fingertips, and sent a message.

【Xu Yu: Good night】

A nameless emotion suddenly filled Xu Yu's heart, annoyance, regret, and rejoicing. Xu Yu pursed his mouth and sighed softly. The congested eyeballs were dry and sore after long hours of opening and crying. You slowly wrapped your eyeballs with warm upper eyelids, sleepiness invaded at this moment, Xu You rubbed against the soft pillow, whispered a word and was about to fall asleep, then opened his eyes suddenly, pinched them open cell phone.

The screen stayed at [-]:[-], and there was no new news.

Xu Wei stared blankly at the blurry group photo on the lock screen for a while, then put down the phone in frustration, and closed his eyes.

The middle of April has already started to be very hot. The hotter the weather, the dangling fans in the classroom are particularly annoying. They can't bring much coolness, but they always make boring and irritable sounds.

Xu Yuyan lay down on the table.

Duan Hefang didn't reply to his WeChat yesterday.

Annoyance gradually took over his heart, pushing happiness far away, Xu Wei only felt that he was about to be swallowed up by embarrassment and helplessness of embarrassment, his good night message from 03:30 in the morning was alone with Duan He In the chat history of 杋, it looks very pitiful.

"Xu Wei, let's eat."

Cen Suisui shouted, shaking his meal card.

"Is get out of class over?" Xu Wei scratched his hair, feeling a little annoyed.

"It's been a long time since get out of class, let's go."

"Go ahead, I have no appetite."

Cen Suisui and Xue Mo looked at each other, and Xue Mo said first: "That's okay, you have a rest, and I will bring you something later."

The two people who got together left, Cen Suisui asked in a low voice: "He's been in a weird state recently, what's the matter?"

Xue Mo's expression was also a little melancholy: "It's a little bit."

"It won't be long before the exam, what should I do?"

After the backbone Duan Hefang left, Cen Suisui relied on Xue Mo even more. She frowned and sighed softly.

"Let's ask him to read a book together on the weekend, and drag him if we don't agree." Xue Mo said.

"it is good."

After Xue Mo and Cen Suisui finished their meal, they brought some bread and biscuits to Xu Wei, and bought him a bottle of peach-flavored sparkling water. The liquid on the outer wall was gently scraped off, and the water droplets instantly converged into mottled water marks, and the blurred vision was gradually dispersed, and then slowly gathered on Duan Hefang's desk, where another classmate had already sat, lying on his stomach. Take a nap at Duan Hefang's table in the morning.

He was also wearing a white school uniform, gradually overlapping Duan Hefang's figure in a trance.

Last year's scorching hot summer, this is how Xu Yu spent staring at Duan Hefang's back in school uniform.

Xu Wei slightly turned his face to the side, the light outside was bright, reflected from the clean floor in the corridor to his eyes, leaving a bright white spot, Xu Wei lowered his eyes slightly, and drew a light layer on the table with the tip of a ruler. You have to lie on the table to barely see the crooked words written by him because the table is slippery and he is not exerting himself.

"Suddenly I miss you"

Not suddenly.

Xu Wei silently added that he has always missed you.

Duan Hefang was experiencing a serious fever and missed Xu Wei's WeChat. He woke up groggy from his dream, and his heavy breathing made his throat dry. Duan Hefang sat up with his arms propped up, Reaching out to pick up the water on the bed and taking a sip, the cold liquid dripped down into the stomach, causing a sense of discomfort. Mother Duan who opened the door saw him get up, and came over and said:

"Don't drink this water, I poured hot water for you."

"Thank you mom, how long have I been asleep?"

"It's been a long time, is your head more comfortable?"

Duan Hefang coughed twice, his throat felt much better after drinking the hot water, he nodded, and put the cup back on the bedside table.Duan's mother reached out and touched Duan Hefang's forehead, and was relieved after confirming that the temperature had dropped.

"Is it a little unacceptable? It seems that your appetite is not very good these days."

"I've been so busy these past two days that I've lost my head." Duan Hefang pressed his temples, picked up the notebook on the bedside table, squinted his eyes and began to search the school.

The first few days I was busy with jet lag and adapting to life, and then I stayed up for several days to organize notes for Xu Wei. He signed up for the summer camp during the summer vacation and had to improve his English before the camp started. I was struggling to pick a school for Xu Wei, and I only slept for a few hours every day.

There are very few schools that are suitable for Xu Wei, and Duan Hefang can only give a general direction, but he is worried that Xu Wei will not have the motivation to break through the score line, Duan Hefang has a bit of a headache.

"What's the best way to watch the computer." Duan's mother frowned, sat beside him, and asked, "What are you looking at?"

Duan Hefang's nasal voice was a bit heavy: "I'm watching the school."

"What school are you looking at? Do you need me to help you choose?"

Duan Hechen rubbed his chin, and pushed the computer in front of Duan's mother: "I read it for a friend of mine. His grades are not very good."

"Are you old?"

"No, it's Xu Wei, a new friend I made last semester."

"Where does he want to take the exam?"

Duan's mother has been engaged in education work in China for many years, and has a relatively in-depth understanding of the information and specific conditions of some schools. Duan Hefang pursed his lips and thought: "He has no school he wants to go to, but I want to help him Take a look at the schools in Changsha, they should go to take the exam every year, and if they pass the exam together, they can have someone to take care of them."

"Which line is his score on?"

Duan Hefang frowned, he was not sure: "Bite your teeth, you might be able to rush to the second line."

The premise is that in the remaining two months, Xu Yu had to study desperately. Duan Hefang licked his lips, feeling nervous. In America, this is the only thing that can be done.

With the help of Duan's mother, Duan Hefang quickly narrowed down from a wide range of schools to several secondary universities. After he was dizzy, he yawned, rubbed his misty eyes with his fists, and took a deep breath. Continue to choose in one breath, time is getting tighter, Duan Hefang has to pick out the school as soon as possible, and then find a way to make Xu Wei have the energy to be admitted to this university.

But Duan Hefang was very entangled. He didn't know if it was too selfish for a person who was secretly in love to use such a despicable method to decide the school that Xu Tie would go to. He made a mistake in judging the degree, but he glanced at the WeChat message that Xu Wei sent at three o'clock in the morning yesterday, was only slightly startled, and continued to pick with sore eyes.

In any case, he had to pick out a few good schools, at least for Xu Wei to have a reference.

When Xu Wei saw the blog post about the anniversary of Changsha D University shared by Duan Hefang in his circle of friends, he was taken aback for a moment, and then frowned tightly. Duan Hefang could pass the exam with his eyes closed, but he has already gone abroad, so there is no need to pay attention to this school anymore.

[I hope to go to D to see Albizia julibrissin when I have time]

Xu Wei pinched his earlobe and slowly read the entire blog post.

He only has a score of about 420 now. Last year, the admission line for D University was around 480. Xu Wei has a fairly clear understanding of himself. He is not very motivated to learn, and his foundation is very average. The only score he can make up now is the basic score by rote memorization. , a full sixty points difference, and it is very likely that he will be transferred to the school of his second and third choice, but he stared straight at Duan Hefang's name, his heart beating fast.