longing

Xu Wei has a secret love diary full of it. He stays in his own little corner, observing, imitating, and liking Duan He Fang in every detail. For the secret love relationship, passing by does not leave a Looking sideways is the safest distance, but as long as there is a little closer, the crazy love will erode the heart like a poppy, telling him that he still wants to be closer, a little closer.

Therefore, Chen Yan's closeness is tantamount to giving Xu Wei, who is obsessed with protecting her secret love under the relationship of friends, a blow to the head.

Xu Yu didn't say a word, just sat in a daze in his seat, hearing Chen Yan's courteous joking words between Cen Suisui and Xue Mo, interspersed with Duan Hefang's occasional two jokes, not funny, but funny The flower branches that made Chen Yan laugh trembled.

Xu Wei's heart was numb slightly. He used to be in a hidden corner where Duan Hefang could never be touched. He dared not ask for anything extravagantly. He has a hundred love poems, but he doesn't need Duan Hefang to know any of them. One word, but the closer he got, the more Xu Wei felt that he had been robbed of all his mind by a ups and downs called suffering. He squeezed his palm tightly, and the sadness and sourness surging from the tip of his heart almost overturned everything.

Duan Hefan lowered his eyes slightly, and Xu Wei's trembling knuckles showed his difficult mood. The purer the love, the more forbearing, Duan Hefang suddenly felt distressed. response.

Duan Hefang sighed softly, and was about to find something to say to end this mutually damaging temptation, when suddenly Chen Yan took a step back while talking and laughing, and slammed into Xu Wei's table, and the MP3 on the table responded When it fell, Chen Yan let out an exclamation, and when she stepped on the MP3 firmly, the shell made a crisp click.

Duan Hefang suddenly looked at Xu Wei and walked forward.

"Ah, I'm sorry." Chen Yan picked up the thing in a panic and handed it to Xu Wei.

Duan Hefang clearly saw that Xu Tie's tail fingers were trembling. Without saying a word, he held up the broken MP3, his voice was very small, and he could hear the forbearance of crying when he listened carefully.

"Broken."

"Hey, why are you so careless?" Cen Suisui dissatisfied, she didn't like Chen Yan in the first place, and somehow came to chat with her, as if she had a good relationship with her.

"Sorry, I really didn't mean to."

Duan Hefang reached out and picked up the cracked shell from the palm of Xu Yu to have a look, opened the shell and picked out the memory card inside, then handed it to Xu Wei, and said softly: "The memory card can still be used."

Xu Yu said in a low voice, he squeezed the cracked metal shell tightly, the soft flesh in his palm was slightly hurt by the sharp notch, he looked up at Duan Hefan, the grievance and sadness in his eyes were about to overflow: "But it broke."

"It's okay Xu Wei, I know this store, let's buy it next time." Cen Suisui comforted.

Duan He narrowed his eyes and said softly: "Yes, don't be so sad."

You are so sad, but I don't know how to comfort you.

After Xu Wei returned home, he was in no mood to eat. He put the MP3 fragments back into the box and put them together with his diary.

Duan Hefang also gave him a speaker, but this MP3 feels very special and important to him.

Xu Wei just felt very tired, very tired.The closer he got to Duan Hefang, the more he felt that he was a little out of control. It turned out that the most painful thing about a secret love is not the long distance, but the close distance, and he has to desperately suppress the love and love that he has bred. Xu Wei covered his eyes with his arms , breathing heavily.

Recently, there is another thing that almost blows up the school forum, that is, someone posted an intimate photo of Xu Huai'an and Ye Jichuan in the next class who looked like they were kissing in the post bar. It revolves around the names of the two of them, as well as some homosexual words. Every day, Xu Wei can hear the two classmates next to him say that it is disgusting for a boy to fall in love with a boy. .

What Xu Wei cares most about is Duan Hefang's thoughts.

During the meal, Cen Suisui talked about this topic, and she heard a lot of gossip, about why Ye Jichuan was arrested by his parents, Xu Huaian couldn't be sent to Peking University because of this incident, and so on.

"Hey Brother Duan, don't you know Xu Huaian very well, don't you see it?"

Duan Hefang recalled that he did feel Ye Jichuan's inexplicable hostility towards him, especially when he was close to Xu Huaian, his eyes were fierce as if he was about to bite himself to death, Duan Hefang didn't go into it at that time , but now recalling that there is still such a relationship, the hostility actually makes sense.

"We can chat relatively well, and we are not familiar enough to share all our little secrets with each other."

"Tsk, if I were him, if I liked boys, I would definitely choose Brother Duan first. Brother Duan is so handsome, with good grades and a top personality. Ye Jichuan in their class is cute and fights, but he is fierce."

Xu Wei's hands froze, and the broccoli caught in the chopsticks fell on the table.

Duan Hefang shook his head, disapproving of Cen Suisui's little joke.

"That Xu Huai'an doesn't like boys, he just likes Ye Jichuan." Xu Wei said lightly.

Duan Hefang was taken aback for a moment, and looked up at Xu Wei, but the other party lowered his head to avoid his gaze.

The matter of Xu Huai'an is still being fermented, and it was really hit by Cen Suisui's gossip. Ye Jichuan probably couldn't go back to school, and he never showed up, while Xu Huai'an was asked to conduct a self-criticism in front of the whole school illustrate.

Xu Wei just stayed in the crowd, with chattering discussions and disgusting sounds in his ears. He looked at the slender and firm figure on the stage from a distance. Xu Huai'an was still wearing a clean and tidy school uniform with a neat neckline as usual. , the temperament of the body is as lonely and courageous as being sentenced to death in ancient times.

Xu Yu felt like a lump in his throat, and countless emotions surged in his heart.

"Hello everyone, I am Xu Huai'an from Class 12 of Senior Three. It is a great honor to have the opportunity to speak in front of the teachers and students of the school. I think everyone has heard the recent stories about me and my classmate Ye Jichuan on campus. There are different versions of the story, in order to prevent the rumors from getting more outrageous, I am especially grateful to the school teachers for giving me this opportunity to clarify the relationship between me and Ye Jichuan."

Xu Wei felt sad in his heart. The world always likes to take most situations as they should. He failed to plant roses in the hearts of special people like them, only withered grass grew, and the pain eroded Xu Wei's heart. Xu Huaian once said a word, but he is infinitely able to empathize with his despair.

"He wants to get the quota."

"The school is willing to give him a place?"

"Didn't they ask people to review it here? It's probably a step down."

"My God, what a pity."

Xu Huai'an continued to speak: "Ye Jichuan and I are a legitimate couple. I like him, and he likes me. There is no other story besides this. I hope everyone will not make up too much and misunderstand."

Xu Wei was startled suddenly.

From the beginning of the phrase "proper couple relationship", bursts of exclamations erupted from the audience, flooding Xu Wei's brain like a hurricane. He was stunned for two seconds, and then began to applaud vigorously, overthrowing all the grown-ups. The suppressed arms and shouts can be supported by unknown reasons. The applause swept across the playground like locusts crossing the border from this small corner of Xu Wei. The deafening cheers, whistles, and applause made Xu Wei's blood boil. The corners of his eyes were wet, and his vision was blurred, as if he saw Duan Hefang turning his head and looking at himself.

In the end, this incident did not cause much disturbance in the study and life of the senior three students. Everyone continued to review at a fast pace after writing a set of ordinary examination papers. However, many traces have been left in Duan Hefan's heart. He is obviously not in the mood these days, either in a daze or in deep thought. Duan's mother is very worried about him.

"He Fang, have you been too tired from studying recently?"

Duan Hefang snapped back to his senses, shook his head, drank the soup in his hand, and suddenly asked, "Mom, how's the transfer procedure going?"

"Didn't you say before you finish the college entrance examination? What's the matter?"

"I'm afraid that after the college entrance examination, if I get the score, I want to stay in China and go to university. I won't be entangled when the time comes, and I can go to study early and learn more things."

Duan's mother nodded: "That's true. I have considered whether to transfer to another school in the third year of high school. I can learn a lot in one year. How about it? I will ask your dad later in the evening."

After eating, Duan Hefang sat in the living room for a while, and then went back to his room. He squeezed the space between his eyebrows and sighed softly.

He finds it very difficult. In the past, when he was confessed, he would always be grateful, thank the other party for his appreciation, and then tell the other party very formally that he is not going to fall in love, and he will also persuade the other party to focus on preparing for the college entrance examination. .

But he couldn't treat Xu Wei like this.

Duan Hefang knew clearly that if he could, Xu Wei would definitely bury this love in his heart for as long as possible, but he couldn't give Xu Wei an equal response. This was the most distressing thing for Duan Hefang. As a friend's kindness, it is absolutely inferior to Xu Wei's full love for himself.

Duan Hefang couldn't continue to pretend that he didn't know anything, and enjoyed the kindness that Xu Wei treated him, but he couldn't directly point out that even as a loved one, he was not qualified to make any self-righteous judgments on this love. and end.

Duan Hefang hadn't been active with them for nearly two days, and Cen Suisui looked around the cafeteria suspiciously: "I didn't see Brother Duan eating with Chen Yan."

"How could he have dinner with Chen Yan?" Xue Mo put on a shocked expression.

"You really don't understand anything." Cen Suisui said with disgust.

"I think you are a fool. Duan Hefang is in the director's office. He just sent me a WeChat message and told us not to wait for him to eat."

"Dean? Why is he going to the director's office?"

Xue Mo shook his head: "I don't know."

Xu Yuxin thought that it would be okay if he didn't see each other for a while, and he didn't need to get along with each other. Only when he was in class, he still kept the distance between the last row and the fifth row.After eating, Xu Wei went to buy two bottles of peach-flavored sparkling water, and then brought a few breads, all of which were placed on Duan Hefang's table, and then sat back to his seat to prepare for his lunch break.

About ten minutes later, the head teacher led Duan Hefang back to the classroom.

"Okay, everyone stop here, I have something to talk about." The head teacher clapped her hands, which is her usual way of grabbing the attention of the whole class, "The approval for Duan Hefang in our class to study abroad has come down, He Fang is a very good student, he was admitted when he was a junior in high school, but he finished his studies in domestic high schools very calmly, and is going to study abroad."

Xu Wei stared blankly at Duan Hefang.