dream master

This is not the first time Xiao Yiming has dreamed of Zhu Fan.

Dreaming about him is very frequent, at least when Zhu Fan just passed away, Xiao Yiming suddenly found that his abilities had disappeared, he couldn't control his dreams, he couldn't control Zhu Fan appearing in front of him again and again, he couldn't stop himself The past scene reappeared countless times in my dream.

This state lasted for three full months, Xiao Yiming consciously forced himself not to think about him, and gradually, Zhu Fan no longer appeared, replaced by Xiao Yiming's dream alone.

Later, Fan Yue appeared, and they took risks together in their dreams, and many ironic things happened.

But Xiao Yiming felt that this was what he wanted.

Not alone, not alone anymore.

Only one person's world is incomplete, only one person, living will be lonely.

The dream world is gray, light or dark gray and large areas of black and white make this dream like an old yellowed photo.Xiao Yiming saw his childhood self scribbling on the door of Zhu Fan's house with chalk, which was an ugly pig.

The door opened suddenly, and Zhu Fan looked at him suspiciously: "What are you doing?"

Xiao Yiming immediately hid the chalk behind his back: "Knock on the door."

Zhu Fan opened the door, and then suddenly grabbed Xiao Yiming's hand that was clenched with chalk: "I got you."

With a childish smile and a childish voice, for a moment Xiao Yiming really thought that he had returned to the past, a childhood full of innocence.At that time, everything was fine, the parents were very affectionate, and the family lived together with He Manman.Pushing open the door, the family opposite is Zhu Fan. Two children of the same age grew up together, went to school together, and did some bad things that boys of that age would do together, such as stealing a cigarette from their father. We were secretly having fun together, but we choked it out in one mouthful.

When Xiao Yiming was 12 years old, his parents divorced, his mother resolutely left the country, and he stayed in his hometown with his father.At that time, he was still in elementary school, and Xiao Yiming felt scared by the increasingly dignified atmosphere at home. The frequent quarrels and cold wars made him just lock the door and shut himself in the room, pretending that he didn't hear anything.

Every quarrel is like the hand holding his heart, tightening again and again, and the painful person breaks out in cold sweat.He wanted to rush out and beg them to stop, and even thought to himself that even if they divorced, it would be better than the current situation. The lifeless home, except for the quarrel, was the sound of breaking cups, plates, and chopsticks. He carefully avoided it. He read the comics borrowed from the bookstore, curled up by the bedside with the lamp on, trying to make himself forget everything around him.

Only the short break immersed in a world that does not belong to him can make him feel at ease.

Zhu Fan was always by his side.Xiao Yiming often didn't want to go home after school, and in the end the two of them either went back to Zhu Fan's house together or walked aimlessly on the street together.

Xiao Yiming walked in front, and Zhu Fan followed.

"Mom told me that she is leaving." In the gray dream, Xiao Yiming saw his young self standing lonely at the entrance of the alley and muttering.

Zhu Fan was standing behind him, still wearing a rustic and ugly school uniform with a schoolbag on his back, with a childish expression on his face.

But he said to Xiao Yiming very firmly: "Isn't there still me?"

"You can't be my mother." Xiao Yiming said angrily.

Zhu Fan replied with a smile: "But I can be your good friend for the rest of your life."

Xiao Yiming looked at the two young people from a distance, and murmured: "But my life is still very long, Zhu Fan, you broke your promise."

The two children had already walked farther and farther under the setting sun, and went home together hand in hand, while Xiao Yiming sat alone on the pile of building materials in the open space in a daze.He and Zhu Fan often came here to play when they were young. At first, they played with sand together, and later they sat on the pile of building materials and played cards and various games together. Sometimes they just looked at the sky together in a daze, but it was completed a few years later. A tall building was built, and their secret base just disappeared.

Gradually growing up... This old city is getting more and more dilapidated, but the trees in the green belt are getting taller and lush like the children.

"Yiming." A familiar voice called his name, Xiao Yiming turned his head, and Zhu Fan sat on the wall, looking at him with a smile.

"Long time no see." Xiao Yiming murmured.

"Yeah, long time no see." Zhu Fan said.

In the dream, there seemed to be a wind blowing, the leaves rustled in the open space, the scenery was still black and white, and Zhu Fan sitting on the fence was still the same as a boy, settled in Xiao Yiming's memory, without any change.

"Are you leaving?" Zhu Fan asked him suddenly.

"Let's go? Where are we going? I have nowhere to go." Xiao Yiming seemed to be immersed in childhood memories, and said momentarily lonely.

After the age of 12, he was homeless.A complete home, a complete life, everything has fallen apart, and he pretends to be ignorant and continues his life alone.He grew up, left, and came to a strange city. Zhu Fan went to the same university as him. For Xiao Yiming, Zhu Fan was the only person who had run through his life for more than [-] years.

But he also left, leaving with regret and expectation.

Zhu Fan jumped down from the fence lightly, and walked towards him step by step, from the appearance of a boy to a young man, he stood in front of Xiao Yiming, just like they were familiar with many years ago, and said to him : "Let's go."

Xiao Yiming followed him step by step. This time, he followed Zhu Fan's footsteps, walking straight forward.

At some point, Zhu Fan stopped, surrounded by familiar alleys, but in front of him was a bright mist.

"I can only accompany you here, and you have to walk the rest of the way alone." Zhu Fan turned around and said to Xiao Yiming.

"A Fan?" Xiao Yiming looked at him reluctantly, even though he knew it was just a dream, but he still didn't want to take the step of parting.

"It's time for me to watch you leave this time, stop living in the past, you should start a new life." Zhu Fan said slowly, with a firm tone, but looked at Xiao Yiming with nostalgic eyes.

"But I don't want to go." Xiao Yiming said.The dry eyes suddenly hurt, as if burned by a hot needle, and the moist liquid filled the eye sockets. He tried his best to suppress it, but his eyes were still blurred.

"You should go, someone is waiting for you."

"Who?"

"A person who would like to spend his life with you."

Xiao Yiming walked forward in a daze, the bright light ahead stung his eyes, hot tears finally welled up in his eyes, but he still walked forward and didn't look back.

Zhu Fan's voice came from behind: "I left without saying goodbye before, I'm sorry. I promised to be friends for a lifetime, but I failed to keep my promise."

"It's okay, at least... I'm your lifelong friend." Xiao Yiming suddenly smiled, even though there were still tears on his face, and he never stopped walking, but he knew that there was always a place in his heart for one person. down position.

For his best friend.