Su Wei

A few days later, Ren Xiaoqian came to Su Wei's house again accompanied by his mother.

When there are visitors on weekdays, Su Wei will ask Da Huang to go out for a walk or hide in the study and not to come out, and this time is no exception.The exception is that Su Wei did not ask Ren Xiaoqian's mother Tang Yin to leave temporarily as usual, but asked her to sit on the sofa, turned to Ren Xiaoqian and said, "Xiaoqian, can you go to the Starbucks downstairs?" Sit for a while? There is also a shopping mall nearby, and you can come back in two hours."

As soon as this remark came out, not only Tang Yin, but even Ren Xiaoqian was taken aback.

Su Wei explained calmly: "As a close relative who lives with Ren Xiaoqian, I feel that there are some things that I need to talk to you alone. I have some questions about you, and I think you should also have questions that I want to answer."

Although Tang Yin really wanted to hear what Su Wei had to say about Ren Xiaoqian, she disagreed with letting Ren Xiaoqian leave. She frowned and asked fiercely: "Can't you let him stay in the study? Close the door and let him go." He listens to some music." She didn't doubt what Su Wei was going to do in collusion with Ren Xiaoqian, after all, she still believed in this psychiatrist, because he was the only psychiatrist who didn't tell her that "homosexuality is not a mental illness".It's just that she has been staring at Ren Xiaoqian almost every step of the way these days. Her mobile phone is confiscated, the phone line is unplugged, and she must lock the door even when she goes out to buy groceries. .She was already nervous, on the verge of collapse at any time, and she couldn't feel at ease letting Xiaoqian go to a place that was out of her control.

Ren Xiaoqian stood hesitantly in the living room, knowing that he couldn't get out of that door without his mother's permission.Su Wei glanced at him, and saw that the poor young man's hair was messy, and it hadn't been cut for some time, and his mental state was obviously not good. Although his complexion was still a sunny wheat color, his face showed an unhealthy paleness. .

Su Wei frowned fiercely, and his tone became serious: "Ms. Tang, how long has it been since you let Ren Xiaoqian go out?"

Seeing Su Wei's displeasure, Tang Yin couldn't help but weaken a little: "Well...he hasn't been out of the house for more than a month except to see a doctor."

Su Wei turned his gaze to Ren Xiaoqian again: "What are you doing at home?"

Ren Xiaoqian lowered his eyes, looking extremely dull: "Read books, play games, and do housework." Because Tang Yin also unplugged the network cable, even if Ren Xiaoqian played games, he could only play some boring stand-alone games.

Su Wei turned his head to Tang Yin again and asked, "Is he talking with you at home?"

Tang Yin shook his head, his facial expression gradually changed from vicious to worried: "He has always been very quiet, and he has been withdrawn since he was a child. I asked him to eat, and he hummed, and when I asked him what was the matter, he hummed Ahh, I told him ten words and he answered me with one word, and he didn’t say a word if I didn’t ask him. But sometimes he likes to talk to himself, for example, when he wipes the table, he reads there 'It's dirty here', 'there's water', I asked him what he was talking about, and he stopped talking again."

Su Wei sighed, stared into Tang Yin's eyes and said slowly: "I do psychological counseling twice a week, and the only person he can see during counseling is me. You don't even let him go online, he can communicate The only ones are you and me. If he doesn't communicate with you, even if he keeps talking during the two hours he saw me, how many words can he say in a day on average?"

Tang Yin's eyes rolled back and forth, showing hesitation and guilt.It's not that she doesn't know that her son's mental state will be problematic if this continues, but she herself is already on the verge of danger, and she can't protect herself and has no time to take care of him.And she felt that it was better than her son being gay anyway!So she retorted unwillingly: "He doesn't talk much in the first place, and has always been like this."

Su Wei's tone gradually returned to gentleness: "Everyone needs to communicate with the outside world, but in different ways. He can listen, speak, and see, but he can't just live in his own world. He is now 22 years old. , we should get a lot of information from the outside world every day, and social interaction is as necessary to maintain human life as eating and sleeping. Ms. Tang, the reason why I want to chat with you today is also through these few conversations with Ren Xiaoqian I feel that there are some things in your behavior that need to be corrected."

Tang Yin was silent.After a while, she finally spoke again, and said to Ren Xiaoqian in a very aggressive tone in Shanghai dialect: "Go down and take a walk, walk around the community, find someone to talk to, and you will be there when the two hours are up." Come back. Don't go far! Don't go...forget it, you go."

Since entering Su Wei's house, Ren Xiaoqian has always lowered his head and lowered his eyes, with his hands in his pockets, showing a lonely and isolated posture.Hearing his mother let go, he finally raised his head and looked at his mother expressionlessly, then at Su Wei, turned around and walked out under the signal of Su Wei's affirming eyes.

Tang Yin's eyes changed slightly as he watched his son take every step, and suddenly raised his hand towards Ren Xiaoqian's back as if regretting, wanting to stop him or give him some more advice, he opened his mouth, but he didn't Make noise.Just when she was struggling violently in her heart, Ren Xiaoqian, whose back was turned to her, seemed to sense something, suddenly stopped in his tracks, and called out in a low voice: "Mom."

He didn't look back, his back was a little bent, and his hands were still in his pockets: "If I really want to leave, the iron gate can't shut me."

Tang Yin's pupils contracted suddenly, his breathing became short of breath, and his eyes turned red in just a few seconds.She turned her eyes away, no longer staring at her son's back, and her stiff back relaxed.

Su Wei stepped forward to open the door for Ren Xiaoqian, and whispered in his ear at the entrance: "He's waiting for you at Starbucks."

Ren Xiaoqian's eyes flickered, and he changed his shoes and walked out without haste.The moment Su Wei closed the door behind him, his whole body suddenly relaxed, his hand was finally drawn out of his pocket, and his heart began to beat vigorously and rapidly.He pressed the elevator button desperately, five or six times in a row, as if something was chasing him behind him, and if he slowed down, he would not be able to escape.

When the elevator finally stopped on the first floor, Ren Xiaoqian couldn't even wait for the elevator door to fully open before squeezing out from the gap, rushing out like the wind!

When he finally ran to the gate of the community, Lin Yinran, who was also anxious, couldn't sit down in the Starbucks, and had already wandered uneasily near the iron gate.Ren Xiaoqian's footsteps only stopped for one-tenth of a second, and then he rushed forward with big strides, and hugged Lin Yinran into his arms!

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Su Wei did not start talking immediately, but took out a clean cup from the kitchen and asked, "Do you want milk, coffee, or tea?"

Tang Yin rubbed his face back and forth with the palm of his hand, and the fierce aura of the whole person dissipated with Ren Xiaoqian's departure, and said softly: "Milk."

Su Wei came back with a cup of hot milk, put it gently in front of her, and then sat down on the sofa opposite her: "Talk to me."

Tang Yin asked: "What are you talking about?"

Su Wei shrugged: "Your job, Ren Xiaoqian's father, your mood... anything is fine, start with what you want to say the most."

Tang Yin took a few deep breaths, finally raised his head again, and slowly opened the prelude to the conversation: "Xiaoqian's father..."

Lin Yinran had already opened a room in a hotel near the community, and after the first hug at the meeting, he hurriedly dragged Ren Xiaoqian to the hotel—not for what to do, but what the poor couple wanted to do. We must strive for every minute and every second in a short time, and comfort the pain of lovesickness in an undisturbed environment.

The two rushed into the room, Lin Yinran kicked the door and at the same time pushed Ren Xiaoqian against the wall, and kissed him madly.Ren Xiaoqian had also forgotten his rationality, and desperately tightened his arms, hoping to crush Lin Yinran into his arms.

This is a duel between a lunatic and a lunatic, desperately pushing and pulling just to absorb a little more of the opponent's breath.Rolling from the wall to the ground, getting up and pressing on the table, hugging and throwing on the bed... Stumbling all the way, the distance of a few meters consumed countless physical strength and enthusiasm.

It was Ren Xiaoqian who surrendered first, and lay flat on the bed with his limbs spread. Lin Yinran, who was lying on his chest, bit his ears all the way to his chest, panting and said: "My dad used to be a policeman..."

Lin Yinran kept moving, licking and biting his chest through his shirt, and was busy untying his belt, only making a slight sound from his throat to indicate that he was listening.

"He is not a local. He came to Shanghai to struggle by himself. He got married after meeting my mother on a blind date. My father had nothing when he got married, and the house was only available after two years of unit allocation. My father is very busy with work. Three days I don’t have a home at both ends, and I earn very little money. My mother lived a hard life with him. They had me within two years of their marriage, and their life has not yet stabilized. I heard that the grandma in the country is not in good health and wants to hug her sooner. The grandson let my mother give birth to me so early."

Lin Yinran had already unbuttoned his shirt, pulled his jeans up to his knees, obsessively kissed his chest all the way to the bottom of his thighs, and then went back to suck his crab.

Ren Xiaoqian looked down at him tenderly, and stretched out his arms to touch his face.Lin Yinran rubbed his cheek against his palm, and began to slowly swallow his crab.

"I heard these things from my grandmother later. When my mother was pregnant, my dad didn't have time to accompany her. She took care of herself, and occasionally her family would help. My dad came back the day before my mother gave birth. I came directly from the scene, with the blood of the prisoner on my clothes. My mother was so scared that she gave birth to me that night. After my mother gave birth to me, my father stayed with me for three days and went on a mission. His parents also No one came to the city to take care of his daughter-in-law, my mother was taken care of by my grandmother during confinement."

Ren Xiaoqian's mind was not on sex, but Lin Yinran felt weak after fumbling with the things in his mouth for a while, so he stopped fumbling, and put his naked body on it, and the two of them just chatted under the quilt.

Ren Xiaoqian rested her head on his thin chest, in a dependent posture.

"My grandma told me a lot about my dad. When I got married, my dad didn't have anything, and my mother bought all the electrical appliances in the house. When my uncle was getting married, my grandpa called and said Ask my dad to give the TV to my uncle to marry his wife. My mother almost died of anger because of this, even my dad thinks it’s not good—in fact, he’s not bad, he’s just filial. The color TV was not given, but then I My father and my mother often quarreled. I started to remember when I was in kindergarten, and I knew at that time that my father seldom came home. Whenever he came home, he quarreled with my mother, and he came back even less..."

Lin Yinran fondled his hair.

"When I was in the third grade of elementary school, my father was martyred... I heard that he was stabbed seven times by gangsters... One day when I came home and saw my mother crying, I asked her why she was crying, and she scolded me fiercely, saying that it was because My test scores were so bad, she said that I was too naughty to make her sad. My dad hasn't come back since then, because I have been with my mom all the time, and I haven't noticed it... probably passed I only asked her about half a year ago. It seems that my father hasn’t come back for a long time. I still remember it very clearly. At that time, my mother was sewing holes in my school pants for me. She told me calmly that she would always come back without raising her head. ...A few days later, my mother became seriously ill and was hospitalized."

Lin Yinran didn't know what to say to comfort him, so she could only hug him tightly and kiss his forehead repeatedly.Ren Xiaoqian didn't speak again for a long time, Lin Yinran felt that the atmosphere was too oppressive, so he had to bite the bullet and break the silence: "Then when did you know your father..."

Ren Xiaoqian shook his head: "I don't remember. After a long time, I will naturally know."

Lin Yinran hugged him quietly, and said after a long time: "It's really not easy for your mother."

Ren Xiaoqian always used a kind of dull emotion to talk about her past, obviously without any emotion, but between the lines, she felt sad: "I know you think she is very sophisticated, and she is... indeed very sophisticated. In elementary school, the same The desk broke my pencil, and there were only a few cents. She insisted on making me pay for it, which made me embarrassed and didn’t talk to my deskmate for a week; I lost my umbrella on the way home, and she forced me I went to get the umbrella back, but I didn't know where I lost it; my classmate raised money to buy a football, and I asked her for money, but she refused to give it, saying that I could play with others who bought the ball... She did a lot of things , I dared not even make friends since I was a child, and I was always withdrawn before I went to college. Sometimes I don’t understand why she is such a snobbish person, why did she marry my dad? Then one day I figured it out, it was because of her I used to be too unsnobbish, I was willing to marry someone who had nothing for the sake of love, and only after suffering did I know how to protect myself."

Lin Yinran was pampered since he was a child, his relationship with his parents was neither close nor far away, and he was independent early. He absolutely did not have the feelings Ren Xiaoqian said.But he could also feel the sadness of his lover, so he hugged him even tighter.

Ren Xiaoqian sighed softly, and said in a low voice: "I don't want to make her sad either... I planned to separate from you that day, but I looked at your back, and I couldn't help it... Teacher Lin, I Can't do it."

Lin Yinran nodded desperately: "I know, I know...it will get better, your mother will agree, let's work hard together."

He didn't know until this moment that the determination of 12 points is really indispensable.

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Su Wei listened to Tang Yin's words without saying a word, and then asked softly, "Did you cry after your husband passed away?"

Tang Yin nodded numbly: "I cried the day I heard the news."

"No more in these years?"

"No."

Su Wei sighed softly, got up and walked over with a stack of tissues, handed the paper to her eyes, and said softly, "Cry."

His voice seemed to be a spell with a hypnotic effect, which made the angry mother burst into tears in an instant.