Su Wei

Ren Xiaoqian seemed to have evaporated from the world, and Lin Yinran had no news of him for a whole week.He went to company A to block people, but was told that Ren Xiaoqian hadn't come to work since Christmas.

Lin Yinran was so angry, anxious and puzzled that he almost didn't go to Ren Xiaoqian's house to inquire.However, firstly, he was afraid of Ren Xiaoqian's mother, and secondly, he felt that a tiger's poison would not eat its children, and it would be even worse to meddle in their family's affairs, so he restrained himself.

On the eighth day after Ren Xiaoqian disappeared, Lin Yinran received a call from his dear Yumu Luan.You must know that Su Wei rarely takes the initiative to contact Lin Yinran. If Lin Yinran received Su Wei's caring text messages or invitations in the past, it would be a flattering thing, but at the moment his mind is full of Ren Xiaoqian, and he can't bring it up when he sees the call. What excitement, when he answered the phone, his tone was still weak: "Awei."

Su Wei couldn't help sighing when he heard his state, and said, "Someone came to see me for mental illness today."

Lin Yinran was inexplicable for a while, but Su Wei continued: "A mother brought her son over, saying that her son is gay, and asked me to treat her son."

Lin Yinran: "!!!"

Su Wei sighed again: "It's Ren Xiaoqian."

Half an hour later, Lin Yinran appeared at Su Wei's home.

Lu Xiao made a cup of coffee for Lin Yinran, and Lin Yinran felt that this young man looked different from the old Rhubarb.But the face is still the same face, it is not clear what it is.And he was all about Ren Xiaoqian, so he didn't care so much.

Su Wei said calmly: "I originally wanted to tell her that as early as 1973, the American Psychological Association had excluded homosexuality from the disease system classification. But if I didn't accept it, she would take Ren Xiaoqian to find other people. Psychiatrists. So I left them."

Lin Yinran asked anxiously: "What are you going to do? When will they come again?"

Su Wei said: "Just wait and see. They will come again at two o'clock in the afternoon the day after tomorrow. I told his mother that I hope she can avoid it and not interfere with my treatment. If you want to see him, I can find a way for you."

Lin Yinran slumped on the sofa of Su Wei's house as if he had been drained of all his strength. After a moment of sluggishness, he struggled to sit up again: "Awei, if you do this, will your reputation..."

Su Wei shrugged nonchalantly: "I have long felt that the profession of a psychiatrist might not be suitable for me. After dealing with the matter here, I will go abroad with Lu Xiao and find a new environment to adjust my mood."

Lin Yinran was taken aback: "Going abroad? Where are you going?"

Su Wei smiled: "Let's walk around."

At this moment, Lu Xiao came out of the kitchen, and Su Wei said to him, "Lu Xiao, can you go and buy some vegetables?"

Lu Xiao didn't have any objections, went back to his room, changed his clothes, and went straight out.

When there were only the two of them left in the room, Su Wei moved to Lin Yinran, stared into his eyes and said, "Jack, I will leave China in two or three months, and I don't know when I will come back. Maybe once Years, maybe two years, maybe I'll settle abroad."

Lin Yinran was uncomfortable with his deep gaze, and unconsciously hid: "Huh?"

Su Wei said softly: "I used to like you. It's just that I was too timid to take responsibility for what I did, and I couldn't believe what you said to me."

Lin Yinran was shocked, and looked up at him incredulously, not knowing what to say for a moment.

"Now, do you still have me in your heart?"

Lin Yinran never expected that Su Wei would ask him such a question!Su Wei's expression was calm, and Lin Yinran couldn't help looking at him twice more, feeling that his Su Wei was still the same Su Wei back then—the tear mole at the corner of his eye, his melancholy temperament, and all the qualities that attracted him were gone. Nothing has changed.However, Lin Yinran changed himself.

Lin Yinran is a person who is good at pretending to be passionate. When Su Wei asked such a question, his first reaction was that there was something wrong with the relationship between Su Wei and Lu Xiao.So as long as he speaks, maybe Su Wei will stay for himself.He really wanted to tell him the answer "yes" immediately, but when he came to the exit, Ren Xiaoqian's face appeared in his mind.

After hesitating for a few seconds, Lin Yinran smiled self-deprecatingly: "Yes. But, you are not the only one."

Su Wei still looked calm: "Ren Xiaoqian is a child of a normal family, different from us."

Lin Yinran frowned unhappily, and was about to refute, but Su Wei continued: "So, if you don't have a hundred thousand percent determination, don't take him on this road."

Lin Yinran was stunned for a moment, and finally realized that what Su Wei said just now was just to test himself.His aura quickly faded away, he covered his face with his palm, and murmured after being depressed for a long time: "I don't know..."

Su Wei sighed and patted his shoulder lightly: "Do you want to see him?"

Lin Yinran hesitated timidly for a while, and finally nodded.

Lin Yinran thought a lot after returning from Su Wei's house.

Su Wei's sentence "If you don't have a hundred thousand percent determination, don't take him on this road" has been circling in his mind, disturbing him with a splitting headache.In fact, before dating Ren Xiaoqian, why didn't he think about this?Ren Xiaoqian knew the rules of the game a long time ago, and he also knew that Su Wei hadn't let go of Su Wei in his heart, but he still rushed at him like a moth to a flame. What obligation did he have to keep people away?Human nature is very complicated. Lin Yinran hesitated and lingered, but in the end he was no match for his selfishness, so he stretched out his hand and dragged Ren Xiaoqian, who was wandering by the well, to the bottom of the well to accompany him to drown.

The word "[-] determination" really stumped Lin Yinran.He also couldn't tell how determined he was in the future with Ren Xiaoqian, and even the shadow of Su Wei in his heart hadn't been completely cleared away, but he also knew that letting go of Ren Xiaoqian's hand would be a challenge. The thing that he was so heartbroken—how much pain?Just thinking about it makes me feel so bad that I can't breathe.He felt so terrible about himself!

Lin Yinran struggled in dire straits throughout the night, for a moment he decided to withdraw from Ren Xiaoqian's life righteously, but after 5 minutes he couldn't help repenting; By 10 minutes, this determination is no longer a determination.

After finally staying up until six o'clock in the morning, Lin Yinran called Su Wei and asked him to help create a chance for him to meet Ren Xiaoqian.He finally decided that everything should be done after seeing Ren Xiaoqian's attitude!

After several days of fidgeting and waiting, Lin Yinran finally received a call from Su Wei!

He didn't even change his pajamas, just grabbed a long down coat, put it on, and rushed to the bathroom, grabbed a comb and combed his hair a few times, didn't even apply wax, went out and jumped on himself after less than 2 minutes of grooming. The Audi sped away.

When the car arrived at the location of the park that Su Wei had mentioned on the phone, Lin Yinran's heart suddenly started beating wildly, and he was so nervous that he couldn't control himself.He hadn't seen Ren Xiaoqian for almost two weeks, and the past ten days seemed to be more than ten years, and every day was miserable.He didn't know if Ren Xiaoqian was okay, and if his mother beat him again.He was afraid that he might not see Ren Xiaoqian at all, and he was afraid that what he would see would be his little lover with a bruised nose and a swollen face, and he was even more afraid... afraid that Ren Xiaoqian would say goodbye to him.

Lin Yinran sat in the car, thinking wildly, and didn't get out of the car for a long time. He didn't come back to his senses until he heard the sound of tapping on the glass window. When he turned his head, he found that Su Wei was already standing beside his car.

Lin Yinran opened the car door with trembling hands. Su Wei shook his hand understandingly, and turned to point him in a direction.Lin Yinran followed his fingers to look over, and finally saw the long-lost young man—Ren Xiaoqian with his hands in his pockets, standing more than ten meters away and looking at him expressionlessly.He looked haggard and thinner than before, and the bangs on his forehead covered half of the bruise.

Lin Yinran grinned and tried to pull a smile, but found how difficult it is to force a smile.

Su Wei patted him on the shoulder: "Let's have a good chat."

Lin Yinran didn't know how he walked in front of Ren Xiaoqian, he felt that his two legs didn't belong to him, but were controlled by machines.

Ren Xiaoqian looked at him with a desolate expression, and suddenly raised his hand to tuck in the corner of the pajamas protruding from the neck for him, but buttoned the first button of the down jacket for him.

It was this seemingly ordinary action that made Lin Yinran's nose sore and tears almost fell from the irritation.

Ren Xiaoqian spoke first, with a low and hoarse voice: "Mr. Lin, I'm sorry."

Lin Yinran tremblingly said: "How are you these days?"

Ren Xiaoqian shook his head: "Not good. My mother smashed my mobile phone, didn't even let me go to work, and forced me to see many psychiatrists...Everyone told him that homosexuality is not a disease, but she didn't believe it, You must heal me."

Lin Yinran could only remain silent.

Ren Xiaoqian's voice became lower and lower: "My father died very early, and my mother raised me alone when I was a child. My mother is very conservative, and I knew she would not accept it, so I have never dared to ask She came out..."

Lin Yinran secretly pinched herself with the hand hidden in her sleeve, and forced a smile: "It's not easy for her."

Ren Xiaoqian glanced at him, and there were many unspeakable emotions in his eyes.He opened his lips several times, but he couldn't say anything. In the end, he could only keep saying, "I'm sorry...Mr. Lin, I'm sorry..."

It's not that Lin Yinran doesn't understand the word has been said.But people always have such a cheap personality in their bones. At this time, they wish that the other party could explain every word to the best understanding, and he would give up after agreeing to never communicate with each other.Struggling to the end, Lin Yinran still chose demeanor, took out the box he had prepared from his bosom and stuffed it into Ren Xiaoqian's hand: "Return it to you." ——This is what Ren Xiaoqian gave him on his birthday table.

Ren Xiaoqian held the box in surprise, Lin Yinran suddenly took a step back, and said with a smile: "I wish you happiness." Before Ren Xiaoqian came back to his senses, Lin Yinran turned around and ran towards his car. go.

When he got to the side of the car, he pulled the door several times with his trembling right hand, but he couldn't open the door. He yanked hard, but the door still didn't move.He suddenly came back to his senses, hurriedly took out the car key from his pocket and pressed it, and finally heard the sound of the lock inside being opened.He felt that he was really ashamed, his eyes were covered by fog and he couldn't see clearly, if he didn't hide in the car, he might cry out in the street.

However, when he opened the car door with great difficulty, before his feet could step in, he was suddenly hugged tightly from behind by his waist.

Ren Xiaoqian's crying voice sounded behind him: "Teacher, Teacher Lin, Lin Yinran, I don't want to break up with you."

Lin Yinran loosened his hand, turned the key and fell into the car.

He turned around and hugged Ren Xiaoqian vigorously, and said through gritted teeth, "Okay, then we won't break up! No one can tear us apart!"