Su Wei

No wonder he appears anytime and anywhere... No wonder people around me give strange side glances when I talk to him... No wonder he can't turn on the music player... No wonder...

Su Wei took a step back and fell to the ground.

Da Huang jumped up and hugged him, choked up and said, "Second brother, second brother... I went to your middle school today and asked many people, Gao Jin is really dead... He died in ten years..."

Su Wei lost his eyes and let out a dry laugh.

Da Huang let him go, wiped his unstoppable tears with his sleeve, and said firmly, "Su Wei, I will cure you."

Su Wei's eyes gradually focused behind him.

Gao Jin appeared in the room, still wearing the same middle school clothes and the same appearance, but looking carefully at the facial features, they were much blurrier than usual.

Su Wei stared at him and murmured, "They said you were dead..."

Rhubarb and Su Qian were shocked at the same time.

Da Huang swallowed, and asked cautiously, "Did you see him again?"

Gao Jin sneered: "I'm dead? Then what do you think I am? A ghost? Look at me, I'm a living person." He stepped forward and put his hand on Su Wei's face.

Rhubarb and Su Qian saw that Su Wei suddenly put his hand on his face and said to himself, "Is there any temperature?"

Rhubarb took a deep breath: "Parana...split personality..."

Su Wei heard Gao Jin say to himself: "Don't trust Rhubarb. He is jealous of me. He is a lunatic, he is a schizophrenic patient, do you believe him or me?"

Su Wei looked at Gao Jin sadly, and said with a wry smile: "No wonder your personality is so strange... Sometimes I think you look like Dahuang, sometimes Jack, and sometimes Shaojun... So it's all me Your own consciousness projection...you often repeat the same action, so this is my consciousness repetition..."

Da Huang held Su Wei's hand, choked with sobs and encouraged: "Yes, doctor, you understand very well...Keep telling him that he doesn't exist..."

Su Wei raised his hand to caress Gao Jin's face, with indelible sadness in his eyes: "I finally understand what it means that you are me...you are my split...it turns out that I also have schizophrenia..."

Su Qian's face was pale.

Split personality... He just got angry with his beloved younger brother many days ago because his younger brother fell in love with a mental patient with split personality disorder.But at this moment, his younger brother is using his actions to prove that he himself has schizophrenia.

Su Qian thought this was ridiculous. Although Su Wei suffered from mental illness ten years ago, he still couldn't help wondering whether all this was a play Su Wei arranged for him to accept rhubarb.He would rather believe this, and he couldn't believe that Su Wei had such a serious mental illness!

— Paranoia!Split personality!

Gao Jin's eyes were gloomy, and he yelled hurtingly: "Do you believe him? You would rather believe him than me? He promised to wait for you for five years, and that was just a blank check he gave you! He didn't keep his promise at all. Not five years, he can't wait to be with you! But I really waited for you for ten years, and this is the result!"

Su Wei murmured, "Five years...? Lu Xiao, are you willing to wait five years?"

Da Huang froze, and said sadly: "Doctor, do you still not believe me... If I empathize, would I do it for this?" Seeing that Su Wei's eyes were empty, he couldn't help shouting sadly : "I can wait for five years! Yes! I can use five years to prove myself!"

Gao Jin strangled Su Wei's neck again: "Separate from him! Don't believe his bullshit promises! This is treachery, and you will be punished! You don't want to believe in God, but you believe in vain love !"

Rhubarb and Su Qian watched Su Wei start to pinch his neck forcefully, and rushed forward to pull his hand away.Su Wei's strength was unexpectedly great, and they didn't dare to hurt Su Wei, and it took a lot of effort to restrain him.

Da Huang threw himself into his arms and cried loudly: "It's my fault... I'm too selfish, I shouldn't pursue you...Doctor, don't do this..."

Su Wei finally calmed down.Gao Jin was still standing in front of him with red eyes, shouting like a madman, but Su Wei chose not to hear him.

He hugged Rhubarb and stroked his hair tenderly: "It's not your fault, Rhubarb. What Shaojun said is right. In fact, I have always had a knot in my heart that has not been untied. Although the depression was cured, I was not cured at all." ...Even he can see it, but I myself refuse to admit it..."

Rhubarb cried even louder.

Su Wei helped Da Huang stand up: "Let's go back. From now on...you will be my psychiatrist."

Da Huang was slightly taken aback, and Su Wei added: "I don't trust anyone except you."

Naturally, Su Wei couldn't drive in such a mental state.Gao Jin kept dangling in front of his eyes, yelling, scolding, begging...

So Su Qian drove Su Wei and Rhubarb to the apartment downstairs, but hesitantly asked, "Would you like to go back with me?"

Da Huang helped Su Wei get out of the car: "Brother Su, it would be better to let him stay in a familiar environment now. I will give him a psychoanalysis tonight."

Su Qian couldn't believe it: "You?!"

Su Wei held Da Huang's hand: "Brother, I trust him."

Although Su Qian was worried about his younger brother's situation, he couldn't force it.He said: "Call me immediately if there is any problem." Finally, he reluctantly drove away from the community where Su Wei lived.

At night, Da Huang called Su Qian while Su Wei was taking a bath.

He recounted what Su Wei described and Gao Jin's past to Su Qian, and asked him for confirmation: "Brother Su, what part of his memory is wrong?" Su Qian sighed: "They never eloped at all." ——Gao Jin did come to look for Awei, but Awei rejected him.” At this point, Su Qian’s emotions became a little agitated, “Awei has no reason to elope with him, I... our parents love him very much. He, he has younger brothers, older brothers and sisters, we all love him, how could he elope with Gao Jin?"

Da Huang asked, "So Gao Jin jumped off the building?"

Su Qian smiled wryly: "That's right... Gao Jin's parents are very strict. After Gao Jin was rejected by Awei... because of this, Awei always thought it was his fault, and even suffered from depression."

Da Huang frowned: "Then why did the doctor jump off the building? Because of depression?"

"Yes, my depression was very serious at that time. Once I got to a tall building, I wanted to jump down." Su Wei came out of the shower and took the phone in Da Huang's hand: "Brother."

Su Qian was speechless for a moment: "Awei..."

Su Wei said: "Brother, don't worry, I won't do anything stupid again. Mental illness is not as scary as you think, I am very rational, please trust me and Lu Xiao."

After hanging up the phone, Su Wei looked at Da Huang and continued: "I went to the building that Gao Jin jumped off that day. Maybe I subconsciously didn't want to die at all. I didn't climb too high, I only went up to the third floor. I didn't Knowing why Yang Shaojun was there that day, he walked towards me. At that time, I felt scared when I saw people, and I wanted to jump downstairs, so I jumped... On the third floor, I hung on the awning and fell to the ground Just a broken leg, not even a major injury."

Da Huang looked at him nervously: "Doctor, can you tell which one is the real memory now?"

Su Wei lowered his eyes and smiled bitterly: "Gao Jin jumped off the building and died...been dead for ten years...I don't know why I blocked this memory."

Da Huang asked, "Is... is he still there?"

Su Wei glanced to the side and nodded: "Still yelling at me. He refuses to leave."

Da Huang took a deep breath: "I think that's because - you haven't found the real reason for his appearance."

Rhubarb asked Su Wei to sit on the hypnosis chair and began to do psychoanalysis for him.

"When did Gao Jin appear?"

"After we returned to China...you forced me to ask if I liked you, I didn't dare to think about it. I...I went to Dr. Bai and said that I would transfer you to him for treatment. After I came back, I saw Gao Jin." Pause Dun, "No... When I was in the United States, I was drunk that day. To you... The next day you ran away, I went out to find you, I saw his back in a park, and I went back... ..."

"Did you see his face at that time? Are you sure he is Gao Jin?"

Su Wei shook his head: "I didn't see the front. I don't know if it was my hallucination. But my brain did go blank for a while. By the time I realized it, I had already returned to the villa."

Da Huang smiled wryly: "It's because of me...he represents your sense of guilt and responsibility, you gradually...like me, this kind of feeling conflicts with your moral values, you feel guilty, so you suppress your feelings for me Emotions also suppress your guilt..." Emotions cannot be suppressed, the more you suppress them, the more powerful they will resist. "So you finally split into a Gao Jin, and he will be your judge."

Gao Jin, who had been angry from just now, suddenly became quiet.He walked up to Su Wei with a sad expression on his face.

"Doctor, is he still with you, right? You look at him, listen to him, and listen to what he wants to say?"

After a while, Su Wei murmured: "He said, I shouldn't believe you."

Da Huang was so sad that he wanted to cry, because Gao Jin's distrust represented Su Wei's own doubts.But he has cried today, and he must control his emotions now.He said: "Doctor, listen to me, I will not force you anymore. A psychoanalyst can marry a patient after five years, so I will wait five years."

Su Wei nodded slowly.

Da Huang asked, "What else did he say?"

"He asked me why I didn't go with him... I clearly promised to be with him forever..."

"Even if you were sorry for him, you have already been punished." At this time, it is useless to tell Su Wei that it was not his fault, because in his conception, he has already deeply blamed himself. "You went to the place where he jumped off the building, and you jumped off too... You suffered from depression and never recovered... For ten years you have liked other people but dared not love..."

Su Wei began to cry silently.

"Gao Jin has already forgiven you, right? You have suffered so much, how can he bear it, he loves you too! He has forgiven you a long time ago, and even feels sorry for you..."

Su Wei looked up at Gao Jin, sobbing and asked in a low voice, "Will you forgive me?"

Gao Jin's face was shrouded in a deep haze.After a long time, he shook his head lightly.

"Heh..." Su Wei closed his eyes: "He said... he couldn't forgive me."