unspoken love

Jin Congying broke off his engagement with Su Mei, and the Su family accused him of being heartless and unjust, but his future is promising now, and the Su family can't touch him, so they can only bitterly admit that they are unlucky.

He added several biotech lines to keep costs down, marketed it better, and quickly established himself in the health drink market.

But at this moment, Zhu Donglan handed in his resignation.

Zhu Donglan came to see him in person, and said with a haggard face, "I have already helped you, there is nothing I can do here now, I have to leave."

Zhu Donglan has indeed helped a lot in product development. Biotechnology companies can do so well, mostly because of Zhu Donglan's successful research and development.

"Help me for a while longer." Jin Congying left the seat and walked towards Zhu Donglan, Zhu Donglan was the only friend he could trust.

Zhu Donglan smiled wryly and said, "No, I won't stay here anymore. I'm going to Jinyan's company. Even though I don't know anything about that business, Jinyan needs help from others now."

Jin Congying stopped, and Zhu Donglan looked at him directly. Zhu Donglan was a passionate and forthright person, and what he said now was in line with his personality. He didn't lie to Jin Congying, even if his words were sharp, they were like sighs.

"I never doubted you, Congying, because we are the best, best friends, but these days I have thought over and over again, and even looked for information to compare, I still found the truth - you broke you Dad's company wanted to put Jinyan to death, and even ran to Jinyan's room in the middle of the night..."

As if he was waiting for Jin Congying's denial, but Jin Congying kept silent, tantamount to acquiescing, and Zhu Donglan's eyes were wet. What he wanted was Jin Congying's denial, to prove that everything was just his own wild imagination, to prove that he was right about Jin Congying, He wanted to believe Kim Cong Young.

"Congying, I thought you were just withdrawn and difficult to please, but I never thought that you were so sinister and scary. You are not the Jin Congying I met when I was studying."

Jin Congying spoke hoarsely, only for Zhu Donglan, he can pour out his heart and lungs.

"I'm not like you who grew up in a happy family, Donglan. My mother committed suicide when I was nine years old because of my father's affair with Jin Yan's mother. She couldn't bear the shame, and she asked me not to forget it." The shame and the pain, I have never forgotten in these 20 years."

"Shame and pain?" Zhu Donglan couldn't believe that he said these words, "What you bring to Jin Yan is shame and pain. Do you know how TV celebrities criticize him? Do you know shareholders scold him? How ugly is it? Do you know that he was injured and hospitalized because of the minority shareholder's grudge? You make me feel chilling, Congying, no matter what, it's not Jin Yan's fault, you are not only Jin Yan's heart, but also... ..."

As if he could hear the meaning behind the words, Zhu Donglan couldn't continue, but Jin Congying continued for him, "It was Jin Yan's willingness."

"Why can you say such outrageous words so calmly?" Zhu Donglan couldn't listen anymore, "Have you seen how thin he looks? Have you seen how sad his eyes are? I I know that you are not blood brothers, but you are simply reckless."

"Then what do you want me to do?"

Jin Congying broke out, these days of sleeplessness, he knew he was doing the right thing, his approach made the dead mother sleep with a smile on her face, but his empty heart seemed to be hollow, the cold wind blowing bleakly, he just It's like standing in front of a boundless cliff and seeing a bottomless abyss full of dark mist, and you can neither move forward nor retreat.

"Yes, I violated Jin Yan, and I even pretended not to know anything, but Jin Yan didn't resist either. If he resisted, we wouldn't be where we are today. This is Jin Yan's fault, not mine. Wrong." As long as Jin Yan resisted, they would not have the pain they are today.

"You can say such shameful words, Jin Congying, I misread you, I thought you were just arrogant and assertive, now it sounds like you are a scum!"

"So what if I'm a scum, are you going to tell me that you only admire Jin Yan and don't have any unreasonable thoughts about him?"

"Shut up, Jin Congying, I'm going to throw up!"

Zhu Donglan was so angry that he punched forward, but Jin Congying punched him twice, making Zhu Donglan's eyes swell up, Jin Congying stood up bleeding from his joints, the pain from his knuckles was not as good as his heart Tightening, maybe Zhu Donglan is the most suitable person for Jin Yan. If he is sincerely doing Jin Yan's good, he should let Jin Yan get a better home.

"Go and comfort him, it should be easy to get him when he is so weak."

Zhu Donglan shook his head, "Go and see for yourself what painful expression you have when you say this kind of thing. I sympathize with you, Jin Congying. Now I can understand why Jin Yan can't hate you. What you said has nothing to do with your expression. not worthy.

"The Jin Congying I know is not such an indecisive idiot, nor is he such a man who is not clear about right and wrong. You clearly know that it is the grievances of the previous generation, and it has nothing to do with Jin Yan. You want him, and you can't bear it. You have been Remember to hate your father for not letting you go home, he has been expelling you all his life, think about it from another angle, what you hate is your father for not letting you go home and live with Jin Yan, you are afraid that Jin Yan will be taken away by others, in The longer you study abroad, the more frightened you will be if you don't see him, in fact, you are the one who wants the golden face the most, not me."

Zhu Donglan's words were like cold wind, pouring into Jin Congying's heart quickly and quickly, and Zhu Donglan spat blood on the ground.

"I've always thought you were weird. You refused to introduce Jin Yan to me. When you talked about Jin Yan, your face changed drastically. Every time I talked to Jin Yan, you would not put on a good face and let him go. You are simply Jealousy breaks out, Congying, don't lie to yourself, even I can't stand it anymore."

"It's not what you said." Jin Congying froze, he couldn't admit it.

"The thing is just as I said, you just don't want to admit it, with such a withdrawn personality like you, why do you still live with Jin Yan after both parents died? If you don't like people, you have already tried everything When I went to your house, I found it very strange, obviously you hate Jin Yan so much in your tone, but you never moved out."

"Because that's my home, Jin Yan doesn't deserve to live there." He couldn't even believe what he said.

"That's because it's convenient for you to go to him in the middle of the night, Congying, admit it yourself, if you don't want to admit it, soon, Jinyan's beauty and appearance will be snatched away by others, is this what you want? ?”

Jin Yan was lying in another man's arms, wrapping his hands around the man's neck, moaning softly. When this picture came to his mind, an indescribable anger and unwillingness surged all over his body, but another A stronger feeling surged in - the mother's confession at the end of her life, asking him to never forgive that pair of mother and son, is he going to soften his heart again?

"I can't, don't you understand? I can't!" Jin Congying broke the embankment, and he said the deepest and most painful knot in his heart, "If I am with Jin Yan, my mother's death is nothing, she will never die. won't forgive me."

Can make Jin Congying express so painfully, it means that it has been cut from the bottom of his heart, and it is also the deepest knot in his heart.

"I've read reports that your mother's mental state was not very good. What she said to you was what she said when she was abnormal. Are you going to be limited by those words in your life? Congying, you are a smart person. You know what to do is right."

Jin Congying remained silent for a long time, and Zhu Donglan finally left. His sincere friendship with Jin Congying could only do this for him, and Jin Congying had to figure out the rest.

He believed that with Jin Congying's ingenuity, he would figure it out by himself.

Not long after Zhu Donglan resigned, Jin Congying received a document from a lawyer entrusted by Jin Yan. He didn't know what the content was, but seeing Jin Yan's name still made his heart tremble. The document that was unconditionally transferred to him with one billion yuan was attached with a letter written by Jin Yan at the end. There was only one line in the letter.

You don't owe me anything, and I'm not qualified to collect the billion.

He read that short line countless times.

He knew that Jin Yan needed money to reorganize the company, but he returned the money to him. As he said at the beginning, as long as he said a word, he was willing to return the money Jin Yiri gave him unconditionally. , those words were not lies.

He put the letter in the deepest part of the drawer, neither listening nor reading, but the hole in his heart was getting bigger and bigger, and the wind blowing in was getting colder and colder. He had heard about Jin Yan's handling of the company in the mall, although A quick split with foreign countries is the way to lose the most, but it is also the best way. On this point, Jin Yan does have courage and vision.

If it were him, he would do the same thing. In the short term, it seems that the loss is indeed huge, but in the long run, it is the method that will cause the least loss to the company. But if he does it, the public opinion may say that he has the courage to sink the ax, but Jin Yan, who has made no achievements in the market, may be criticized as useless. This is the most difficult part of Jin Yan.

He went around and heard that Jin Yan was visiting everywhere to seek funds, and new funds had been injected, but it was still not enough to fill the gap. He used an unknown method to make up 12 billion funds through a third party, in a faceless way. Investment, the whole process is negotiated by the agent's investment company and Jin Yan.

On the day of his mother's death, he carried a large bouquet of lilies that his mother liked best, and came to the tower of the Spirit Bone Pagoda, where another bouquet of lilies had already been placed, and Jin Yan was praying together in front of the tower.

"What are you doing here?" He lowered his voice to Jin Yan.

Jin Yan turned her head to look at him, she hadn't seen him for almost half a year, Jin Yan was a little thinner, but she was much better than before, it seemed that the additional funds really lightened the burden on her shoulders.

"I think I should be able to see you here today."

In a secluded place, there were bursts of birdsong. Jin Congying put down the flowers and bowed with palms together. Jin Yan was waiting for him, his heart was restless. He didn't know what Jin Yan's purpose was, but he stood Not far away, the cool wind picked up his slight body fragrance, making his nostrils inhale the fragrance greedily and insatiably.

His fingertips trembled slightly, and he could hardly calm down. In front of his mother, only Jin Yan was standing by his side, but it made him lose his composure, which made him feel even more horrified.

He felt that he was tilting towards the scale of destruction. The loneliness, anxiety and pain for many years, as well as the resentment, torture and hatred of his mother's early death, were not enough for him to be vigilant.

He was obsessed with Jin Yan's deodorant, and the few years when he occupied his body were the moments when his mind was at its most peaceful. But now, he deliberately destroyed the company left by his father Jin Yi Il, leaving Jin Yan desperate and being scolded by the world , but when he saw Jin Yan, his mind was confused and his body and mind trembled.

"Brother Congying, you look so haggard, is your new job so tiring?"

He sleeps very little these days, almost unable to fall asleep, and has to force himself to take sleeping pills to fall asleep. Jin Yan stretched out his wrist, his surface was gleaming, and the shining brilliance almost made him unable to look directly at it, just like the owner of this watch.

Even though he was spurned by the world, he still stood in front of the company and took due responsibility. Even though he knew that all this was his revenge, he did not tell the truth to the outside world. If he could be objective and rational, he would Said that he was not worthy of Jin Yan.

"Has Dong Lan gone to your place?" He forced himself to speak, "He is quite suitable for you, he has open-minded parents and a bold personality..."

He couldn't continue, because Jin Yan kept looking at him, and his mind was repeating that he went to Jin Yan's bed at night, Jin Yan hugged him with both hands, as if pampering him, only the heat from Jin Yan's hands Only in this way can he have a peaceful sleep, and also can calm down his restless heart, so that he can get a good night's sleep.

"For the 12 billion investment, the sponsor is unwilling to disclose the source." Jin Yan whispered, "But I am very grateful."

"Which idiot dares to invest 12 billion in a novice like you, he is really an idiot!"

He finally knew why he came, and he knew that the money was invested by himself.

He didn't admit it, turned around and walked out, speeding up his pace, and Jin Yan also stepped up his pace behind him, he was short of breath, his head was almost rushing with blood, he wanted to escape, the farther he could escape, the better.

But he can escape to the most remote island in the world, and he can't escape the fact that he misses Jin Yan, but hates himself for having such a feeling. This feeling makes him almost crazy.

Jin Yan took his hand and made him stop, he turned his head to look at Jin Yan, the sunlight made Jin Yan's complexion as transparent as crystal, so beautiful that he could barely open his eyes.

"Revenge on me, pass on your mother's hatred for my mother to me!"

"What the hell are you talking about?"

Jin Yan didn't stop talking, he pulled his hand up and put it on his cheek, "I think Brother Congying is right, you have no feelings for me, as you said, the psychiatrist's opinion is correct Yes, in the depths of your emotions, you may want to take revenge on my mother and me, but how can you do the most serious harm? Hurt me, even hurt my mother, and it can also comfort your mother in the spirit of heaven, and even more so. Let your resentment find an outlet, that's why you came to me at night."

His fingers are almost trembling, the skin under his fingers is soft and warm, those nights without a little starlight, only relying on the memory of touching the soft skin underneath, is gradually waking up, and charms his reason, eating away at his weakness Self-control—the lovely and beautiful Jin Yan twisted her body to cater to him completely, and he was so enjoying, greedy, violently conquering the soft texture underneath.

"You don't love me, you don't like me, you didn't apologize to your mother, you did what you should do."

"Shut up, shut up." His voice was broken, and it didn't sound like the voice of Jin Congying who was aloof.

Jin Yan whispered hoarsely: "We are not together because of love, but because of resentment."

"Shut up, Jin Yan!" he snapped, trying to keep his voice normal.

Jin Yan held his hand tightly, her voice full of hissing that she couldn't speak normally: "Come to me again, just treat it as revenge every time, you don't have any affection for me, only I gradually can't extricate myself from you, Isn't this the best revenge?"

"Shut up, shut up, shut up!" He violently waved away Jin Yan's hand, but he couldn't shake off the heat and warmth still on his arm.

"Your mother won't blame you for staying with me just out of revenge." Jin Yan's eyes were filled with tears, but the firmness in her eyes did not waver. This is Jin Yan. "Brother Congying, you did those things to me because you hated me."

The color and emotion in his eyes made Jin Congying almost collapse. He was afraid of getting Jinyan, so he tried every means to deceive himself, but he was even more afraid that Jinyan would be possessed by others. Even if he was a good friend like Zhu Donglan, he would Can't stand him being with Jin Yan, but he tells lies that run counter to his own thoughts.

"Go to Donglan, he will love you."

Jin Yan almost crashed into his arms, his red lips opened tremblingly, just to pour out his uncontrollable yearning for him.

"You don't have to sweet talk to me all your life, you can say that you hate me all your life, but let me be with you, I can't live without you, you are all in my mind, continue to violate me, deprive me My life is yours, until the day I die, let our fate be entangled forever."

His palm was completely twisted, and the strong impulse made him want to hug Jin Yan, that clavicle that was so thin that the bones were almost visible, and the tip of his tongue had sucked forcefully on it.

"You have sex with me because you hate me so much, Brother Congying, this is your mother's curse, making me unable to leave you for the rest of my life, and I can only love you for the rest of my life, so you have sex with me, just It's just insulting me, you just need to think like this." The hot and sad tears fell like extremely round pearls.

Jin Yan's tears scorched the shirt on his chest and scalded his cold heart that hadn't really moved for a long time. He pulled Jin Yan's hair and turned his face upwards. He frantically stuck out the tip of his tongue just to suck his lips. The warmth in the middle makes my chest no longer feel cold.

The whole world collapsed, even his ego was destroyed, but he was hot all over, he kissed forcefully, and Jin Yan offered the tip of her tongue for him to plunder.

But it wasn't enough, not enough at all, his lips moved down and bit Jin Yan's neck, Jin Yan's tears rolled down, the slightly salty taste was like crystallization of flames, scalding his lips.

The relationship that has been in the dark for a long time, but today it is exposed to the sun, the tear-stained eyelashes of the golden face are brushed away and fanned a few times, the beauty in his eyes blooms only for him alone, just such eyes, let His heart was filled with indescribable fear and pity.

Obviously he can't own it, but he still can't stand the temptation to touch it, and then take the person in front of him as his own.

"You..." His voice was hoarse, undulating like the dead sea, "you are with me, I may abandon you at any time, or frame you again, even people like Dad have already guessed that I will Destroy the company, leave you penniless, and you will regret today's decision."

Jin Yan's tears and his smile bloomed almost at the same time, "I only want you to never regret it in your life."

When the 12 billion came in in a secretive way and did not want to be named, Jin Yan already understood the contradictions and pains in Jin Congying's heart. He could not lose Jin Congying, and Jin Congying could not lose him, but under the pressure of his dead mother, he chose Can't have him.

He is his mother's son, just as he is his own mother's son. They all have their own positions, and they will never be able to abandon the negative effects brought about by each other's identities.

Just like the last words that Jin Yi Il delivered to him before his death——

"Ayan, Congying's gloomy personality is very similar to mine, he is almost a copy of me, and because of this, I can understand what terrible plans he is thinking, and I can also know..." Jin Yiri took a breath and said : "You can also know why he is attracted to you, just like I am attracted to your mother."

In the past few years, he knelt down by the hospital bed of Kim Ei-il, who had truly become his father. For a long time, Kim Ei-il did not talk to him about Jin Congying's visit to his room. This has always been a secret between them It was a secret, but before he died, he revealed this matter.

"Before I met your mother, I always felt very lonely, as if I was the only one on the road ahead. I was not used to being friendly to others, and I couldn't learn this, but your mother taught me that my life is no longer only Dark and lonely, she made my life really happy, so I entrust my most important son to you, he has been brainwashed by his mother, his sense of loneliness must be deeper than mine, there is no way for me to change him , I am afraid that you are the only one who can change him, but this must be a very difficult and uncomfortable road, I know you will be very hard..."

Jin Yi Il held his hand tightly, as if confessing the most important thing in life, because no matter how difficult it is to communicate, they are still father and son connected by blood. He has love for Jin Congying, and he owes it even more.

"Don't abandon him, I will do my best to help you in my will, so don't leave poor Congying suffering in loneliness and hatred, the most beautiful thing I can leave him is you, I I hope he can live a happy life like me."

He promised with tears in his eyes that he would not lose Jin Congying in this life. The most beautiful gift that his father Jin Yi Il gave him in life was his own son Jin Congying.