unspoken love

He had that dream again!

Every time you come back from winter and summer vacation, you must have a boundless spring dream.

It wasn't Chunmeng at first, it was just him looking at someone's face.

Jin Yan from the junior high school is very cute, with pink cheeks and lively black eyes, cute and charming in a childish way, even though he is only a junior high school, he already makes strangers on the street stop for him.

Students from a nearby school would deliberately block him on the road, trying to find an excuse to talk to him. Jin Yan had a good middle school classmate, and even stroked Jin Yan's soft hair several times. Jin Yan always smiled and avoided him. See all the hidden corners of the home.

Once Jin Yan took a classmate to review the content of the exam at home. Jin Yan was so tired that he fell asleep. The classmate lowered his head to kiss the sleeping Jin Yan. He couldn't describe the feeling at that moment, but his blood pressure rose. His mind was almost disconnected, and then he waited on the road, beat up the boy, and threatened him not to have any more contact with Jin Yan.

But after leaving this one, there will be another one. Those people will want to touch Jinyan's cheeks and hair. Touch, even though this feeling is so abnormal, so abnormal that he can't explain it himself.

He started going to Jin Yan's room in the middle of the night, at first just looking at it, he didn't have the courage to touch it, but Jin Yan woke up in the middle of the night, even if he saw him standing by the bed, he wouldn't exclaim.

He started to touch Jinyan's hair, touched his baby-like cheeks, and then he went to bed with Jinyan, Jinyan would not refuse, and after a while, he stretched out his hesitant hand to untie Jinyan's clothes, Jinyan He just gasped and looked at him tremblingly. He took off Jin Yan's clothes and caressed his soft skin.

In the end, as long as he came to the room, Jin Yan would take off his clothes on his own initiative. When his father drove him to study abroad, he would be very anxious. Jin Yan entered high school, and the blossoms bloomed like beautiful flowers. The anxiety in his heart was even worse. He wanted to He wanted to go home, but no matter how much he begged Jin Yi-il, Jin Yi-il never wavered.

He can only come back from winter and summer vacations, and when he comes back, he must go to Jin Yan's room to make sure that Jin Yan's beautiful skin has not been touched by any man, and make sure that his hoarse moans will only bloom for him.

"Brother Congying, I miss you so much."

Jin Yan's whispers were whispered between the bed, and his manic and violent heart would calm down, and then he would enthusiastically satisfy his body's thirst.

He remembered the dreams, but his mind would never acknowledge them.

It was a dream, the erotic sex dream every man had when he was growing up!

He deceived himself like this.

Jin Congying's life was muddled, wordless anxiety bit his heart, kept him awake at night, and even caused him deep fear. More than once, he woke up and found himself sleeping on the bed in Jin Yan's empty room , He didn't even return home after that, he had to rent a hotel outside to avoid his deranged behavior.

When he received a call from Zheng Fuyan, he was surprised to hear Zheng Fuyan's brief notice, apparently not wanting to talk to him at all.

"What? You said there was a third will?" He couldn't believe Zheng Fuyan's words.

The lawyer my father had always trusted also came to the door and told me that there was indeed a third will, and that the contents of the will would only be published if the lawyer, Zheng Fuyan, Jin Yan, and him were present.

They agreed to publish this third will at Zheng Fuyan's home, where Jin Yan was already waiting, and he was the last one to arrive.

Jin Yan's hair was cut shorter than before. Although he was not as thin as a skeleton like what happened in the company just now, he was still very thin. When he saw him, he nodded slightly as a greeting.

But he stared at Jin Yan intently, as if he could still smell the scent of roses and rosemary left on the pillow, and the ugly things he did on that bed like a hungry beast.

"This is Kim Eui-ri, which is the last will left by your father. The conditions for the establishment of this will are very strict. There are three conditions to be met before this will can be implemented. One is that Jin Congying leaves the company, and the company encounters Big changes; second, Jin Yan sold the property rights of the mansion and did not live with Jin Congying; third, the company was almost bankrupt, and it was only established when most of the property rights belonged to Jin Yan.”

Jin Congying asked in a hoarse voice, "What does this will say?"

Zheng Fuyan looked at him coldly, "It's another huge sum of money from overseas. If the three conditions are not met within ten years, the money will be donated to social welfare organizations, otherwise..."

"What else? And what is the exact amount?" Jin Congying was fed up with his eyes. From the very beginning, Zheng Fuyan looked at him like a cockroach.

"The specific amount is one billion, and the beneficiary is Jin Yan."

Jin Congying's expression was distorted, and a wave of hatred welled up spontaneously. His father, Jin Yiri, loved Jinyan so much, and he made a perfect insurance policy for Jinyan, ensuring that he would have no worries about money in his life and be happy forever.

"Did my father guess it before he died?" He asked bitterly.

Zheng Fuyan said coldly: "That's right, he attached a text message, he guessed that you might deliberately bring down the company, and use this to leave the company to escape responsibility, forcing Jin Yan to sell the mansion, and the company almost went bankrupt. Let Jinyan reorganize the company again."

He turned to Jin Yan, and the tangled negative emotions made him hiss and laugh wildly, "Damn it! Jin Yan, are you happy? My father loves you so much. He doesn't want any unfortunate things to happen to you, making it seem like you have something wrong with him. It’s the same as a clean relationship.”

"Shut up, Jin Congying, watch your attitude, there are conditions attached to this will."

Zheng Fuyan threw a stack of papers to Jin Congying, and Jin Yan sat down silently, clasping her hands, as if she knew what it was.

Zheng Fuyan said sharply: "The money is a shame fee for Jin Yan, the condition is that Jin Yan can never tell others what you have done, if you tell others, you will deprive him of all inherited property. It is you who can't tell. It’s not for nothing, it’s not your father, since middle school, you would go to Jin Yan’s room to rape him, your father knows all about these things.”

"Nonsense!" It was a dream, not a fact, he was still arguing in his mind.

Zheng Fuyan pointed to the paper thrown to him, "Your father asked someone to do a psychological assessment for you, you can read by yourself, take your time!"

Jin Congying flipped through the paper and wrote the psychologist's evaluation thoughts on each page.When he was in junior high school, his father Jin Yi Il did ask a few people to talk to him. He thought it was Jin Yan's mother who did the trick. Although he cooperated on the surface, the hatred in his heart never diminished.

He flipped through the pages, his symptom was sleepwalking, he would go to a specific room, it was useless to change Jinyan's room, he would go to Jinyan, and then rape him, once sent Jinyan abroad to study But in that month, Jin Congying's mental state became more and more irritable, and as long as she was rational, she would forget what she had done while sleepwalking.

Jin Congying looked at these reports dryly, and finally explained that he may have witnessed the tragic death of his mother when he was young, which was a retaliatory psychological trauma.

"You go to Jinyan's room from the third year of junior high school. It's useless to ask Jinyan to change rooms. Even if you can find Jinyan, if you don't go to Jinyan to vent your sexual desire, your temper will be irritable and you will not be able to concentrate at all. Concentrate, your father's final arrangement is to move their room downstairs, and only you and Jin Yan live upstairs, so that you can violate Jin Yan, and you will continue to commit such crimes since Jin Yan Guozhong."

"Nonsense, when my country was third, Jin Yan was already my first, wouldn't he resist and yell?"

"Jin Yan is a stepson. His mother likes your father very much. The reason why he bears it may be to prevent your father from expelling their mother and son from the Jin family."

"Come on, it sounds so nice."

Jin Congying turned to Jin Yan, and Jin Yan's silence only made him more angry.At this moment, it is easier to blame Jin Yan than to blame yourself.

"Jin Yan, why don't you admit that you seduced me? It was you who asked me to do this to you when I was unconscious. How innocent and pitiful, this set is useless to me."

Zheng Fuyan was trembling with anger, he pointed at Jin Congying, this bastard actually spoke plausibly, he was a scum.

"You wolf-hearted bastard, now you can still say such bastard words!"

Jin Yan clasped his hands, and a low-cut hoarse voice came out. If he asked himself, he was the one who started all these things.

"Brother Congying is right. I had the opportunity to shout and tell my parents about this matter, but I never mentioned it. Even when my father arranged for Brother Congying to study abroad, I was very painful. I love Looking at brother Congying, when he came to my room, I didn’t have the slightest reluctance, and even felt very happy, because in reality, he wouldn’t even look at me.”

Hearing his confession, Zheng Fuyan blushed with anger. "Do you know what you're talking about? Jin Yan? This guy clearly thinks you are..."

Jin Yan's tone was even slower, as if he was carrying unbearable grief, but when he raised his fair face, he was very firm. This is the path he chose, and he will never regret it.

"I know what I'm talking about. Brother Congying is not guilty. I am the one who is guilty. He is insane, but mine is very clear. I look forward to his return from winter and summer vacation. I know that Brother Congying is only in black If you come to my room, I will close the curtains. I understand what Brother Congying is doing, but this is not rape, nor is it a violation. I do everything willingly. In fact, Dad doesn’t need to leave the money for me. , Brother Congying didn’t force me, Dad doesn’t need to atone for him.”

Zheng Fuyan closed her mouth in resentment, and Jin Congying's heart was shocked. At this time, Jin Yan's face was thin, but his firm and fearless eyes were as beautiful as the unique starlight shining in the night sky. His elegant brilliance is so strong and powerful , Let him be stunned and speechless under his gaze.

Jin Yan spoke again, her face turned pale but she still spoke firmly.

"But I don't think those psychiatrists who evaluated Brother Congying are right. My thoughts are like this. Brother Congying likes me very much, but because of the things of the previous generation, his reason does not allow him to like me by himself. , when emotion is opposed to reason, during the day, reason can still overwhelm emotion, but at night, when it cannot be suppressed..."

"Shut up! Jin Yan, shut up!"

The scene of his mother's death resurfaced again, and she wanted him to never forget the humiliation their mother and son had endured, so he couldn't accept Jinyan's mother and son entering the house, and he couldn't accept that he had strange feelings for Jinyan.

Those loneliness and hatred deeply permeated his soul, and his mother's curse words at the end of his life swayed in his mind all the time, so those entanglements in the dark night can only be dreams!

Tears rolled down Jin Yan's cheeks, even though he had never talked to Jin Congying about his mother, but the love and hatred of the previous generation controlled Jin Congying's life, making him resent him for this, could it not be resolved method?

"Why don't we give it a try? Brother Congying, as long as you are willing to forget your hatred, even a little bit, we can all..."

Jin Congying growled: "Impossible, I don't have that kind of feeling for you! Maybe the psychiatrist is right. In the depths of my emotions, I want to take revenge on you mother and child, but how can I do the most serious harm? Maybe hurting you will definitely change the relationship between your father and your mother, I think this kind of explanation is reasonable."

Such cruel words sounded like a fact he didn't want to admit.

"Don't say that, even if it's the truth, don't say it." Jin Yan said sadly: "I want you to hold me again. During the time I left the mansion, did you go to the room to find me again? If I had no other choice , will never sell the property rights of the house, I miss you, miss you so much."

Zheng Fuyan's eyes were wet, "Stop talking, Yan, Jin Congying is like a vulture. You said these things to him today, and he will use these weaknesses to attack you in the future."

Jin Congying's heart was tottering like a boat lingering in a violent storm. The phrase "missing you" pierced through the fog of red hatred in her head, bringing a soft fragrance of flowers like a spring breeze.

Every time he came home from abroad, he entered Jin Yan's room anxiously. Only when he was entangled, and when he heard him say "missing you", would his restless heart calm down and be sure of the situation under him. People still belong to themselves.

But how was he going to admit it?

He can't admit it!The words of his mother's dying words were still in his ears, she wanted him to hate the woman who made their mother and son into such a miserable situation, but when that woman's son went to the country, he couldn't help being attracted, couldn't wait to have a skin-to-skin kiss, and even more so when he couldn't see his During the period of studying abroad, he was anxious and afraid all the time - he was shocked, afraid of losing.

He was afraid of losing, but he was even more afraid of having it. He was afraid that he would not be able to meet his mother's expectations. He was afraid that he would really not be able to hate Jinyan mother and son, and the eyes of his mother who died of hatred seemed to be condemning him for being weak and letting her down. heart of.

And in this world, except for him, no one misses his mother any more. Could it be that even he wants to abandon her mother?

So he can't be weak, no!

So he uttered offensive words, "Are you crazy? Jinyan, I'm a married person, and my girlfriend is a real woman, not a gay like you!"

"Enough, Jin Congying, how far are you going to hurt Jin Yan?" Zheng Fuyan stopped him.

But Jin Yan is always fearless of his snow armor made of ice piles, approaching him step by step, making him frustrated again and again, just like stepping into his office, fearlessly trying to hold a groundbreaking ceremony.

"Why don't we try it? Brother Congying, just like you told me in the car, we can try it, I don't believe you have no memory at all, we have been together countless times in the past ten years, I don't want you With that woman."

Jin Yan rushed forward, Jin Congying was caught off guard, four lips met, his nose smelled the fragrance of roses mixed with rosemary, his whole heart suddenly beat wildly, blood also flowed backward at the same time, his head went numb, His fingertips trembled as he remembered.

In the room where you can't see your fingers, the people below are moaning softly and fieryly, and he is digging his secret place. The wet, hot and soft part tightly surrounds his frenzied and restless part, and gives the top-level pleasure. The words of love comforted his lonely and deserted heart, and he sank like this, hoping that this dream would last forever.

The hungry ghost in his heart swallowed the delicate texture of the other party contentedly, biting hard, as if to leave his own mark, and not allow his golden face to be taken away by anyone.

A sense of panic and disgust also followed, what is he doing?Why did he kiss that woman's son without any discomfort?The Jinyan mother and son destroyed his mother, caused his mother to commit suicide, and took away his father. His father exiled him all his life, but he...

He pushed him away fiercely, wiping his lips vigorously. "You're disgusting, Jin Yan!"

Jin Yan was pushed hard by Jin Congying, slammed into the cabinet and fell to the ground. Zheng Fuyan screamed angrily, and hurried to help Jin Yan. Jin Yan had tears in her eyes, and the tears were full of deep despair, as if even the last sliver of hope It also burned out under Jin Congying's disgusted eyes.

"Don't you feel it? Brother Congying, don't you remember at all?"

Jin Congying lied without hesitation, "I only feel disgusted, so do you understand?"

Unable to stay here any longer, he turned around and walked out, wiping his lips vigorously, but he couldn't wipe off the touch just now, let alone the scent left in his nose, which lingered faintly in his sense of smell.

From then on, he could no longer calm down the violent clamor of the hungry ghost in his heart.

He returned to the mansion where he lived, stepped on the deserted stairs, and turned to Jin Yan's room, which had been tidied up again by the hourly maid. He lay on the bed, turned his stomach, buried his face in the remaining In the fragrant pillow towel, he closed his eyes, and gradually remembered the boundless dream that he would have every time he came back from winter and summer vacations.

But he can't own it, so he can only choose to lose it.

He seemed to be able to see his mother's contented and beautiful blood red smile, saying that he did not disappoint her.