Sea King's Self-cultivation

"Then... would Miss Shimizu want to be with me?"

The snow seemed to be getting bigger all of a sudden.

Xingxing stood in the biting cold wind, but she didn't feel cold, she just stared at him blankly, as if watching a beautiful but illusory dream.

Dazai's eyes fell on the top of Xingxing's hair, and there was a faint smile in his eyes.

Xingxing didn't understand why he suddenly smiled, and when she raised her head, she found that the plant above her head had yellow flowers and clusters of red and white fruits on it.

what is this?

"It's mistletoe."

"Mistletoe?"

"It usually parasitizes on other plants, and the flower language is hope and happiness. On different parasitic hosts, mistletoe will bear fruits of different colors. It does not have high requirements for the growing soil. It will not wither, so it also represents the quality of perseverance."

"So it's called mistletoe."

"Miss Shimizu, haven't you heard about the custom of mistletoe?"

"custom?"

"A girl who stands under the mistletoe on Christmas Eve cannot refuse a kiss."

Kiss? !

The music of "Jingle Bells" gradually becomes fainter, and in the end, it is even inaudible.

The young man in black lowered his head slightly, as if to test, as if to confirm.

The distance was getting closer and closer, so close that his slender black eyelashes could be counted clearly, and so close that she could clearly see her own figure in his iris-colored eyes.

Her heartbeat was so intense that ten thousand deer were tap dancing, and she could even hear the sound of blood rushing into her veins at high speed. This feeling was too strange, so strange that she was so scared that she wanted to run away immediately, but——

However, rather than running away, there seemed to be some kind of deeper and more intense emotion affecting her, forcing her to stay where she was, quietly looking at the reflection in his eyes.

The moment he was about to kiss, he paused: "...is that okay?"

Without waiting for Xingxing to answer, he whispered to himself again: "If you don't refuse, you are willing. Looking at me, you are also willing."

He put his arms around her waist, bowed his head and kissed her lips.

The wind and snow stopped at this moment.

Xingxing leaned in his arms in a daze, in a completely dependent posture, even her breathing was soft.

So warm.

She lightly rubbed against his coat, his voice came through her chest, with a slight smile, and her eardrums vibrated slightly.

"Then from now on, I'm your boyfriend."

Life after dating doesn't seem to have changed much.Osamu Dazai will still bring cute little gifts to Xingxing, take her home after get off work, and go out to dinner, dates and movies with her, but he has an extra title of "boyfriend" to do these things It all seemed logical.

As for Xing Xing... Xing Xing has been living in a sweet pink bubble for some time now.

Gentle, funny, gentleman, and considerate, even if she doesn't have these advantages, just looking at Mr. Dazai's face, she feels that she likes him more and more every day!

This face is so pretty!

Xingxing is sensible and tolerant, while Dazai is gentle and considerate. The two have never had a dispute on anything since their official relationship.Probably because he noticed Xingxing’s lack of self-confidence, no matter what she does, Dazai can always find good points to praise her with a smile, praise her for being beautiful, praise her for being kind, praise her for being gentle and cute, praise her for being strong and independent, praise her for cooking deliciously, Praising her for her excellent work, every time she praises Xingxing until she blushes with embarrassment, she can only stop by gagging him.

"Mr. Dazai, don't always praise me, I'm not as good as you say..."

"Hey——" he prolonged his voice like a fool, "But in my eyes, Miss Shimizu is good everywhere. Of course, it would be great if I could spend more time with me."

The last sentence he unintentionally mentioned was also a point that Xingxing felt embarrassed about.

She works in a coffee shop and a convenience store at the same time. The long working hours doomed her to not have much private time. It was okay when she was alone before, and there was no difference between private time and working time for her, but now she has a relationship partner, dating Isn't it a little bad to have no time?You can't be at the workplace every time you have a date.

But Xingxing doesn't want to quit any job either.

After thinking about it, in the end she simply increased the length of her overtime work, and worked several more night shifts at night, so that she could spend two days with Mr. Dazai on weekends.

Xingxing happily told Dazai about it, but unexpectedly he was not happy at all.

More than unhappy, he was clearly angry with his expressionless face: "Miss Shimizu thinks that I will be happy by overdrawing my health to accompany me?"

His tone has always been gentle, even if his tone is not harsh, just a little cold, it will make Xingxing feel as sad as falling into an icehouse.

Seeing that Xingxing was at a loss as if she had done something wrong, Dazai sighed softly, and softened his tone: "Sorry, I don't blame you, I just..." He paused, and hugged Xingxing into the In his arms, he coaxed softly, "I don't want you to work so hard. Xingxing, I can support you."

Xingxing said in a low voice: "But, I can't let Mr. Dazai support me with peace of mind... And I don't need Mr. Dazai to support me. Whether it's a coffee shop or a convenience store, the salary is very generous."

"Then why don't you just quit one of the jobs? You don't have to be so tired, Xingxing."

There seemed to be a slight pity in his eyes.

Xingxing was silent.

After a long time, she finally said: "...I am not a lucky person. Mr. Dazai, I have not been a lucky person since I was a child. I dare not put all my hopes in one place. If I quit a job There is only one job left, what if something unexpected happens one day like before, what if the store manager fires me? What if the coffee shop can’t continue? What should I do if I find a new job within the specified time? I am always... very afraid that there will be accidents that I cannot deal with."

She has no trial and error costs, no loved ones who support her unconditionally no matter what happens.

So in life, I dare not relax in the slightest.

He quietly looked sideways at her, his eyelashes slightly closed: "I understand."

Not long after, the sister of the coffee shop manager announced a news to everyone—she was going to transfer the coffee shop and go home to get married.

"Eh? Why? Was it too sudden?! The coffee shop is doing so well now!"

"Even if you get married, there's no need to transfer the coffee shop, and it's so hasty, you can't make much money if you sell it. Manager, it's a complete loss."

Everyone was puzzled by this, but the store manager's sister was very determined to transfer the coffee shop: "I've been in love for so many years, and I'm definitely going to get married." The store manager's sister smiled, "You don't have to worry too much about money. Care, I recently won the lottery and got a huge sum of money."

"It's so lucky! The store manager treats the store manager to treat me!"

When everyone was arguing, the store manager's sister quietly proposed to Xingxing that she could transfer the coffee shop to Xingxing at a low price, and the transfer price was unbelievably low.

Xingxing was very confused: "But if this is the case, wouldn't you be losing money, manager, and the coffee shop is doing so well now..."

The store manager obviously didn't care about this: "It's okay, I..." She hesitated to speak, and then said with a smile, "Anyway, if you transfer it to someone else so quickly, it will be sold at a low price, and you will suffer no matter what. Why don't you give it to Xingxing?" Well, haven’t you always wanted to have a store of your own? This way you don’t have to travel around.”

What she said last made Xingxing's heart skip a beat.

That's right, if I run a coffee shop by myself, I won't have to travel around to work in the future, and I'm afraid of being fired at any time.

Moreover, the coffee shop's business is so good now, there is a high probability that there will be no risk of losing money.

Xingxing calculated the savings she had saved. If it was a normal price transfer, she would definitely not be able to buy the coffee shop, but now the price proposed by the shop manager's sister after reducing the price happened to be within Xingxing's acceptable range. .

After careful consideration and asking Mr. Dazai for his opinion, Xingxing decided to take over the coffee shop.

On the day she took over the coffee shop, Xing Xing rolled on the bed excitedly and almost fell off.

Not only does she have a super good boyfriend now, she has also been promoted from a migrant worker to a store manager!

But just when life is getting better and better, there will be some episodes.

The landlady who had been renting a house to Xing Xing passed away, and within a day, her son came to Xing Xing to take back the house. Xing Xing argued hard: "But I have already paid this month's rent, and there are two days left before the end of the month. Ten days."

The landlord's grandma's son said impatiently: "You paid the rent to her, but not to me. Now the house is mine, so of course I have the final say on how to deal with it."

Xingxing didn't want to conflict with a man who didn't look too easy to mess with and was three times her size and more than enough, so she had no choice but to move out first.Now money is actually not a big problem for her, what is difficult is to find a place she likes in a short period of time, so for the past two days she has been sleeping in the small room vacated from the utility room of the coffee shop.

Not wanting to worry Osamu Dazai, Xingxing didn't tell him about it.When returning home from get off work at night, it was Dazai who sent her downstairs to the original residence, and she returned to the coffee shop after he left.Xingxing originally thought that she was very cautious, but she didn't expect that he would find out in just two days.

□□Something fell from a high place in the utility room and injured Xing Xing's foot. Although it was not serious, a string of small blood beads still leaked out.

Mr. Dazai was very angry.

Xingxing was very scared.

Xing Xing was cowardly arrested by Zai Zai and brought back home, sitting on the sofa, not daring to make a sound.

"Mr. Dazai, I didn't hide it from you on purpose, I was just afraid that you would worry..."

Xing Xing pulled the corner of his clothes and muttered softly.

Dazai got up and left without saying a word.

Xingxing stared blankly at his turning back.

【Mr. Dazai must be really angry, and he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. 】

The more Xing Xing thought about it, the more sad she became, her eyes turned sore, and the scene in front of her eyes immediately blurred, and just when she was about to cry out, Osamu Dazai came back again.

Holding the bandage and hemostatic medicine, he squatted down and sighed softly: "...I just went to get the bandage."

Xingxing sobbed softly, and stopped her tears.

He held Xingxing's slender ankle, his fingertips were cool, and he applied the medicine carefully and patiently. Osamu Dazai lowered his eyes, and the not-so-bright light shone from a high place. His expression was forbearing and depressed, as if he was trying his best to restrain A certain emotion: "How about relying on me as a boyfriend? Miss Shimizu is always so independent. If you don't tell me anything, I will feel frustrated."

"...It won't happen in the future." Xingxing whispered, leaning in his arms relyingly, acting softly, "Mr. Dazai, don't be angry with me."

"Be good." He gently rubbed her hair and coaxed her, "Then you won't leave tonight?"

So how did things get to this point...

Xing Xing's head was dizzy, and when she was carried into the room, her cheeks were already blushing abnormally.

The quilt was soft and warm, and it seemed that the heater was turned on, even if you took off your clothes, you didn't feel cold.

Or maybe, he was too warm.

Xingxing was trapped under the soft bed quilt, looking at him dependently and helplessly. When he closed his eyes, the black eyelashes that followed the opening and closing of his eyes were like two feathers, covering her gently.

Her wrist was forcibly held and pressed against her face, Xing Xing finally felt a long-overdue fear in her heart.

Fear of experiences you've never had.

Fear of pain that you hear about.

Fear of the unknown.

I was afraid that he would not understand how much courage she had taken to accept him, and would think her casual instead.

I was afraid that he would not cherish it after getting it, and his attitude towards her was completely different from then on.

Afraid that he would treat her sincerity with contempt, it didn't matter whether it was smashed or discarded.

But even she couldn't figure out all these complicated emotions, so how should she declare her punishment at this moment.

"Mr. Dazai..."

His slender fingers moved upward along her weak wrist, pushed away her lightly clenched hand, interlocked his fingers, and kissed her soft lips.

Between her lips and her teeth, she could only hear his low and gentle voice in the increasingly blurred thoughts, wrapping her like a gentle feather.

"Xingxing, don't be afraid."