Taste

Wang Li's diary

May 2019, 3 sunny

The first time I saw Runyun was last summer vacation, on August 8rd.

A while ago, I went back to school directly after attending the X University summer camp. I like to stay in the library and read books when I have nothing to do during the day, and I have time to wander around at night.

The first time I saw her, I knew she must be a road nerd. She was walking in a daze with her mobile phone, and looked at the road signs from time to time. Unhurriedly pointing to the road.

She's someone who's hard not to get noticed.Water-blue sun protection clothing, with a white T-shirt in the middle, and the front part is tucked into black slim-fit pants. The exposed waistline makes the summer wind hotter.When I turned my head to look at the road signs, my jaw line was tight, and the blue blood vessels along the neck protruded slightly above the collarbone. The umbrella was hung on the wrist, shaking and shaking, making my heartbeat gradually catch up with the swing speed until it surpassed it.Every inch exudes temptation.

Unconsciously, Mimi turned around and followed all the way, and saw her go around half of the school before stopping at the entrance of the graduate student's apartment.She was waiting at the iron gate of Building 3, and I had nothing to do so I just sat down on a chair not far away.Until someone took the file bag in her hand, chatted a few words, and then sent her out of the apartment.Ha, it turned out that I was just sending materials to my classmates. Is it a freshman who is so unfamiliar with the campus?But it's a bit strange that the freshman's temperament is so mature, unless, by the way, it should be a freshman or a doctoral freshman, but who should the freshman send the materials to?There is no answer for the time being, so I stopped sneaking along and walked to the dormitory.

I didn't expect to see her again a few days later. "Meeting" is a very meaningful word. Only when we want to see each other, meeting will be meaningful, and this is the real "meeting", so this time I still saw her.

One or two days before the start of school, I went to the Office of Academic Affairs to get the materials for the new semester. I am familiar with all kinds of trails, and I plan to cut in by the trails.Walking to the intersection, less than 100 meters away, the person I followed was lowering his head and "touching" a person's feet with a slightly pious expression.Just when I wondered if she had a special hobby, she turned around and took out a rectangular sheet from her backpack. Could it be a Band-Aid?In an instant, a feeling that I had never really felt filled my heart, forming a dense web, and then tightened inch by inch, and my mouth smacked, sour and dry.Turning back and continuing to walk on the main road, it took a while to slow down.Am I jealous for someone I've only seen twice?

I secretly inquired about the names of the two of them, and was relieved when I learned that there was no special relationship. It was the first time in my life that I felt lucky in love.Thinking back now, maybe I always subconsciously feel that I am inferior to Xie Yanhan, or that I am not capable of accompanying Runyun.

If my competitor is Xie Yanhan who has appeared by her side twice, to be honest, I really have no confidence.I can't guess her temperament at all, it can be said to be gentle, at least she is very gentle to Runyun who seems to be approaching her, but there is also arrogance between her brows, and I even have a feeling that if she is angry, a frown will put pressure on the other party multiply.I heard that she was a famous figure in college, the youngest student union president who was promoted exceptionally, Yuhuan's ex-girlfriend, and a top student who published SCI papers in her senior year.If you comment in one sentence: Mature and temperament, strong work ability, strong learning ability, I don’t know how many people envy him in terms of love.She doesn't seem like us, but the longer I think about it, the more I think that girl is a mystery.Although her appearance is not particularly outstanding, she has a good foundation. I have never seen her with full makeup, so she must not lose to me at that time.Perhaps my biggest advantage is that I have this awareness earlier than her, what if I start first?

The start of school is always the busiest time, and it took me a month and a half to prepare for delivery of materials and so on. After solving all the obstacles, I was ready to sharpen my sword and rush towards my goal.How do I start first?If you want to succeed, you must seize the right time, place and people.The library is a good place, she also likes it very much, the place has been confirmed; the weather, the time, I don't have a clue for now; Renhe, do I need to find an informant?But Runyun has just entered school, and there is no such thing.I wrinkled my face bitterly, looking at the pursuit plan without a clue.

Maybe my fate with her is not simple.Just when my progress was blocked, a text message was sent to my mobile phone, which was a JD package.I'm pretty sure I haven't opened Jingdong in the last two months, and no one has mentioned to me to send me something, so it is likely to be someone who has been pestering me for the last semester.Thinking of this, just ignore it and continue to do big things.

Three days later, there was another text message urging me to pick it up; five days later, the staff at the courier station actually called me directly and asked, "Excuse me, is this Ms. Xu Runyun? One of yours..." Behind him there were a lot of things , I only paid attention to that name, why?She knew me and gave it to me specially?Or was it sent wrong?My head was buzzing, I was throbbing with excitement and my heart was full of screaming chickens.No matter what the situation is, the right time, place and people are all together.

Maybe the TV series is right, the more I like a person, the more I will pretend to be reserved, and I have to "impress" myself.The first time she contacted me, I was so nervous that I didn't know how to reply. Is this sentence too enthusiastic?Is this sentence too cold?After struggling for 10 minutes, I began to regret whether it was too late to reply.She asked me to meet. At first I wanted to talk about the library, and then I wanted to talk about having a meal together, but I sent it to meet at the cafeteria.It's such a strange place, let's forget about the people coming and going to make it lively.

On the morning of the meeting, I walked to the door of the library, and when I was about to release the umbrella, I caught a glimpse of the very familiar umbrella handle.she is there?I silently threw the umbrella beside that one, and walked in "calmly".It was almost the appointed time, I walked to the door of the library, looked at my little umbrella, and made up my mind to "forget" it on purpose, but found that the familiar umbrella was still in the same position, I might be a little dazed Seeing a similar umbrella is associated with her.Although the rain hit my face a little painful, but thinking of seeing each other soon, I felt like I bumped into a deer in my heart, jumping happily.It only takes 4 minutes to walk from the library to the cafeteria, and it takes less than 3 minutes to go jogging.The rain curtain blocked the sight of the people under the umbrella, but I glanced over other people's umbrellas and saw her.

The rain soaked the tail of hair on the shoulders, and the left shoulder of the water-blue shirt was wet from the rain, clinging to the skin.When he saw me, the smile in his eyes became stronger, and his eyes gradually bent into a lovely crescent arc.Was she always so gentle with strangers?Secretly complaining that she was worthless, she suppressed her heartbeat and walked over, but recalled the umbrella at the door of the library, and her eyes unconsciously stuck to the umbrella she was holding tightly in her hand.I tentatively opened my mouth to unravel the doubts in my heart, only to find that her cheeks were flushed suddenly, and she pursed her lips uncomfortably, saying that the umbrella was not hers.I took it, and happened to touch the bottom of the umbrella, which seemed to have artificially carved scratches, so I made a plan and pretended it was my umbrella.

Maybe I was too good at faking it and scared her.But it felt so good to walk back to the library successfully under the same umbrella.She was three or four centimeters taller than me, so she took the initiative to take over the umbrella task.Her blue cuffs were turned outward, exposing her wrists, and as she walked, the cuffs slowly slid down with a slight sway. Every second of the 4 minutes, I wanted to reach out and hold her, and then I thought that today is enough, too much is too late.

In the future, I will go to the library every day if I want to be lazy. I learned that she likes to be on the sixth floor where it is difficult to get a seat.The meeting became the most anticipated thing every day, and after seeing each other once or twice, she finally opened up the chatterbox.

One evening, just after leaving the library, I ran into Runyun.She invited me to dinner tomorrow with her trademark cute smile, and I knew that the first step had been successful.

That night, I summarized the information I collected again: Someone saw her working out on Tuesday and Thursday, and she stayed in the running area and strength training area for the longest time; she does not watch dramas and does not follow stars; if she finds a good movie, she will study it again and again Wait, at two o'clock in the morning, I closed my eyes and went to sleep with full confidence, and the attack was methodical.

It's only eight o'clock in the evening after eating with Runyun, it's a pity that I didn't delay any longer.When I saw her open the umbrella, I knew the opportunity was coming. Without hesitation, I lowered my head and got into the umbrella, and reached out to hold her arm. How could she bear to avoid me? Thinking of this, I felt even more proud, and looked up at her with a smirk.After walking less than 200 meters, I found that the hand she was holding was always trembling slightly. I laughed to myself, it seems that there has been a lot of results.

On October 10, I couldn't help kissing her.In fact, I discovered her affection for me earlier, but I always felt that she was waiting for an opportunity. I didn't know exactly what it was, so I was not in a hurry.In the evening, she asked me to watch "Farewell My Concubine". I had heard of it before, but unfortunately I hadn't made up my mind to watch it carefully. With her by my side, I should appreciate it slowly with a good mood.

But I was wrong, Private Shadow's private room is considered a closed space, and there is always some color in my mind unconsciously.And when the lights are turned off, the sense of smell and hearing will automatically amplify. Every time I breathe, I can smell the freshness of citrus perfume on her body. Even in the gaps between every line in the movie, the sound of her breathing always enters my ears unconsciously.So for the next three hours, I don't remember anything except Leslie Cheung's face.

After leaving the theater, she didn't speak for a long time, and she didn't tell me what she was hesitating about.Although he knew that now was not the time to sound the clarion call for an all-out attack, the patience he had maintained for two months was finally exhausted by these three hours.Following the inner thoughts, that kiss released all reservations and restraints.

In many ways she was an impeccable girlfriend.Modesty and politeness will create romance, and the words are humorous and will never make you feel embarrassed.My friend will not pay attention to her image when she is crazy, but her face will never show disgust, unbearable and other expressions.You can accompany me to exercise, you can take me to study, and share one or two interesting things from time to time to make me happy.

At least until December, I don't think I feel the slightest discomfort.But slowly, my relationship with her went in a strange direction.And what caused the change was the "rival in love" that I had to pay attention to. I said it was a rival in love, but I dare not make a conclusion lightly until today.

It should be in mid-December, my application for postgraduate insurance was passed, and there was only one paper, one photo, and one graduation ceremony left in the four years of university.At the celebration held by my friend, Wang Qi secretly told me that someone was after me and Runyun, and tried to make it public through the school forum.I suppressed my anger and waited for the next words. "I didn't notice it at first, but I was reported at the first time, so it didn't cause any impact." I don't know why, but my intuition tells me that the person who helped us is actually known to me, so how can I let go of the uneasiness in my heart.After pestering Brother Qi for a long time, I specifically emphasized that I hope to thank that person in person.Brother Qi and I have known each other since childhood, so we didn't think too much about it, and told him it was his minister, Xie Yanhan.

I still remember that I was stunned for a long time, and all kinds of possibilities and impossibilities flashed in my mind.I know in my heart that if I attribute this situation to the mutual help among friends, it will be a great comfort to myself.The scene of seeing them for the first time came to mind unconsciously, and when did she know that we were together?The first moment she saw it was to report it and get the post deleted. Is it the same attribute as us?Lack of confidence waters the seeds of doubt.

The first "confrontation" with Xie Yanhan was very rude and blocked the other party. Because of this, I felt that I couldn't compare to her.I asked Brother Qi to call myself "sister" in front of Xie Yanhan, let him inform me, dress up carefully before going out, and make sure that there is no flaw before going out.But when she saw me besieging her, not only was she not angry, nor was she unhappy. She looked at me indifferently, her expression remained unchanged, and for a moment a sense of frustration that she hadn't experienced for a long time came to her heart.The more I think about it, the more I feel that the auras between Run Yun and Xie Yanhan are too similar, they are generous.Even the eyes of strangers are so similar.

As a result, my thinking began to fall into a misunderstanding, and I kept thinking about how to make Runyun "faint" in front of me.

From that day on, I was extremely sensitive to the "senior sister" mentioned by Runyun.Don't even want her to stay in the lab during research.I didn't notice this kind of domineering and savage possession. It simply came down to the fact that I needed the same amount of love from the other party in return, because I never considered whether the love I gave her had deteriorated.It's too late to wait until comprehension.

At the end of the winter vacation, Faxiao and I complained about Runyun's "indifference" to me after the holiday.After listening, she didn't give me comforting and sympathetic eyes, but an obvious disapproval.I argued with her for several rounds, and finally broke up, and I went to seek help from other girlfriends, only to realize that I was really going too far.The first thing after school starts is how to make up for mistakes, but it fails, and even breaks to the point where it is irreparable.

Originally, I wanted to calmly tell her why I changed, but because I was so rude to Xie Yanhan last time, I was embarrassed several times and didn't say it.Every time we met, it was either in the cold air, or on the verge of a quarrel, and the sex was completely detonated at the moment when she accused me of delaying her experiment last semester.Both of us may have spoken unconsciously, making our hearts no longer close.

For the first week after the breakup, I spent every night in regret. I was angry with myself for a lot of things I said, and I hated myself for not being confident enough.Immediately afterwards, I began to feel angry, illogically and rationally angry, angry at her for not understanding me, angry at her... There are thousands of reasons.Next, resentment comes to mind and quickly takes up every inch of space.In the end, numbly accepting the reality, the love I worked so hard to earn, was scared away by my own doubts.

Now that I think back and analyze every detail of getting along with each other, I have to admit that she and I are not suitable, and conflicts will only arise sooner or later.I didn't realize my naivety and extremes, but I would fall into my own world in the face of problems.I never let her into the most vulnerable space, and she also ignored that being in love is not a competition for maturity.In the future, her acting like a baby will be sweet to someone who makes her understand the meaning of love, and her happiness will be given by someone who is truly worthy of entrustment.I will never forget her, but it is difficult to restore the broken, and it cannot give the future.So I would like to give myself the most sincere blessings and wish a bright future.