Stockholm syndrome

Although my current state seems to be deliberately procrastinating to be with my first love, but the conscience of heaven and earth, I really didn't mean it.Li Weiran drove the car around for a few laps, and then returned to the original spot. He found a place where he could park and stopped the car.Turning to look at me, "Come on, you know where your home is."

I shook my head again.

"Do you know how to drive?"

I nod.Not only can I not drive, but I also lose direction, and when it gets dark, I can't distinguish between east, west, south, and north.A few years ago, Uncle Wu wanted to buy a car, so he took my dad to learn, and my dad took me to go with him. After 2 months, the gap appeared. Uncle Wu passed the test smoothly, but my dad and I failed the road test very badly.Later, we took the test again, but we still failed, and the coach took us out of the loop.Such things as handicap are really hereditary.I drove very steadily in the training field where no one was there, but it was over when I got on the road, almost like a terrorist taking revenge on society.

"Are you hungry?"

I nod.I was really hungry, and I made those two bears so angry that they didn't eat much at noon, and when I saw Li Weiran again in the afternoon, I was so excited that I had such a big ugliness, it was a very strong physical and psychological challenge.It was too exhausting.

"Then find a place to eat." Li Weiran's hand just touched the key when I blocked it.One advantage of not being able to speak is that you can use body language. This is the second time I have touched Li Weiran's hand.His temperature is still slightly higher than mine, and the warmth from it can keep my fingertips warm for half a day.I pointed to the place on the left hand side, and when I just drove over, I saw a McDonald's.The big M is very conspicuous.

McDonald's is a special place for me and Li Weiran.Now I feel more and more that I did it on purpose.Could it be that my subconscious mind is out of control.Li Weiran took me out to eat a few times before. Not only was I not full, but I couldn't even use the tableware. Today, people have lost enough. I really want to eat something that I can grab with my hands.Li Weiran didn't move, he turned his face to look at me, the light in the car was very dim, I couldn't see his expression clearly.He probably hasn't been to McDonald's for many years, and it seems that it's not a big deal for us to eat McDonald's in the clothes we go to the western restaurant.I quickly typed a line on my mobile phone and sent it to him.

"You wait here, I'll go buy it." When he took the phone, I loosened my seat belt, opened the door and walked out quickly.After running for a few steps, I found that it was a bit hot, so I took off my suit and put it on my arm.McDonald's has the aroma of coffee all year round. To be honest, their coffee is not very delicious, but it is very fragrant.French fries are inconvenient to eat.I bought 4 burgers, and McDonald's released a new coconut pie, so I bought two.When I came out with two big bags of food, I found Li Weiran waiting for me at the intersection.I smiled at him and ran over quickly.It's like a long time ago in X, he went to the small store on campus to buy Fanta for me, and he grinned at me before he walked in.It's just that now it's me running towards him, I seem to see the corners of his mouth curl up, is it a hallucination?It's so dark, how can I see people's expressions clearly, I really think too much.

"There is a small park over there, let's eat there." Li Weiran pointed to the open space behind McDonald's, his eyes are so good, I didn't notice when I ran over just now.The two of us can't eat in McDonald's dressed like this.Let's eat it in his car, and it's not easy to clean up a car full of bread crumbs.The park is quite suitable, there are few people, and the lights are still dim.You can let go when eating, and don't worry that the other party will see the oily stars on your face.I had dinner with Li Weiran for 2 years, and I didn't pretend to be in front of him at all.But after being separated for so long, he suddenly became a stranger, and I wanted to give him a good impression of gentleness.But he still doesn't know what I am, what's the point of pretending like this.All kinds of conflicting thoughts made me feel a little overwhelmed.

I followed Li Weiran to find a stone bench in the small park, and I put the paper bag in the middle and motioned him to take it by himself.There is a living area behind this park. This spot is basically for walking dogs. Fortunately, it is not a community in front of the university.How embarrassing it would be if a couple of lovers walked past the two of us.

Li Weiran handed me the phone, and I took it.Putting it in his pocket, he folded the sleeves of his shirt a few times, took out a pack of wet wipes, wiped his hands, and handed him another one.

"A man called you just now. I asked him who he was, but he didn't say his real name. He said something about Wu Qingfeng. I just hung up the phone." Hearing Li Weiran's words, I stiffened my hand holding the hamburger. He was really Wu Qingfeng. Qingfeng... Forget it, I can't care about that much anymore, let's talk about it first when we are full.

I took out the milk cup and sugar bag, Li Weiran has a child's tongue and likes to eat something sweeter, so I simply put both milk cups and sugar into his paper cup.Li Weiran picked it up and took a sip, then exhaled lightly. "I haven't eaten these things since I went back to China."

I instinctively opened my mouth to ask when he would come back, but found that I still couldn't make a sound.It is not appropriate to reach for a mobile phone while holding a hamburger in one hand.Li Weiran seemed to see my thoughts. "I came back the year before last."

It turns out that he has been back for so long, and we haven't met at all in the past two years. In fact, the fate between us is nothing more than that.Seeing my surprised expression, Li Weiran added, "Don't you usually read newspapers? Don't you go online?"

I nodded. I like reading newspapers. Although the Internet is faster, I still prefer newspapers. Printed things make people calm down and read carefully.I'm not very keen on the internet, usually when I go online, I just check my mailbox and play DOTA with Wu Qingfeng and the others online.

"You don't want to watch the entertainment version..." Li Weiran added in a concluding sentence.I nodded and went for the second burger.I really don't watch the entertainment version, and I'm not a little girl.I wasn't interested in women at first, and I didn't like men who were more handsome than me. How could I be interested in those handsome men and beautiful women's parents.What does he mean by saying that? Could it be that he is on the headlines of the entertainment section? Most of the rich second generation have scandals with female celebrities or something.Looking back, I really have to take a good look. I have been alone all these years when he was away, but this grandson seems to be living well.

Seeing that I ate two hamburgers and stuffed pie into my mouth, Li Weiran stopped me, "Why do you eat so much, eat less."

"I'm hungry." I responded casually, and found that I was able to speak.Diseases caused by mental stress can be cured quickly in a relaxed state.I just didn't expect that I could recover so quickly.

"Are you able to speak? Does your throat hurt?"

"It's okay." I took a few breaths and felt comfortable, nothing happened. "It seems that I'm too hungry to talk." I smiled, but Li Weiran didn't smile. Is my smile too low.

"Can you eat so much?" Li Weiran picked up the last coconut pie.

"Well. I usually eat two hamburgers, but today I ate an extra pie." I clapped my hands to let the crumbs sticking to my hands fall to the ground, and took out a tissue to wipe my mouth.

"You ate one before."

"I was young back then. I grew a little after I graduated from high school. I can eat a lot." I picked up the coffee and took a sip, because I was a little nervous, and I kept using non-stop movements to cover it up.Li Weiran was also silent.I really didn't expect that I would be healed so soon, and I could no longer listen to him alone.I haven't seen you in so many years, I have to say something meaningful, and I can't always be entangled in eating.Just as I was about to speak, Li Weiran spoke again.

"Uncle Ye is okay now."

"Well, after I went back that day, he was fine. He is still working in the M hospital. It's very good."

"That's good, that's good." Li Weiran nodded, put his arms on his knees, and held the coffee cup.When I turned my face, I saw that he was looking at me with focused eyes, just like when I was in X many years ago, I went to self-study, I read a book, and he looked at me.He is looking at me like this, so he can't guarantee that I will do something worse than a beast in a moment of excitement.I coughed and turned away.

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

"Not yet, what about you?" The conversation between the two of us finally became normal.This is what couples who haven't seen for many years should say when they meet.how are you?good?How is he?He just told me he was fine.

"I didn't find a suitable one." Li Weiran has never been idle. He has such good conditions. Wherever he goes, the little girl will float past, and there may be a young man who floats past.

"The classmates got together a few times, but I didn't see you there. There are so many people in our class, and no one knows where you went after graduation and what school you went to."

"I don't want to contact you anymore." I shook my head. "They probably know about our family. If everyone came to comfort me, I would be very sad. I am doing well now, and I don't need anyone's sympathy."

"After so many years, why do you still have this temper?"

"Yeah, it's been so many years." I gently stroked the texture of the paper cup.After so many years, everyone has changed, only me is still stagnant.It's like being forgotten by everyone in time.It's a bad feeling.The boy who was always making noise in front of me and had to force me to gnaw and shut up, the boy with a loud voice who always liked to grin and giggle at me just disappeared.Now he is introverted, calm, and more attractive than that frizzy man, but it makes me feel strange.