Stockholm syndrome

"I'll take your dad back." Uncle Wu gave way and let me enter the room.

"What's wrong with my dad?!" My scalp went numb all of a sudden, and I rushed into my dad's room.There was no one on the bed, and then there was a retching sound from the toilet.Only then did I realize that my dad was kneeling on the toilet floor, holding the toilet and throwing up.I was so scared by myself just now, I didn't even notice the smell of alcohol in the room.

"Dad!" I lightly pushed my dad's shoulder, but he just vomited and didn't have time to pay attention to me.

"Xiao Chen, don't worry." Uncle Wu pulled me into the living room. "Your dad just drank some wine, it's okay."

"What kind of wine is he drinking?" I'm not a child. Although my dad likes to drink when he comes home at night, it's broad daylight now, and he probably hasn't been home yet. "Uncle Wu, tell me the truth. Don't treat me like a child. My dad and I are the only ones left in our family. If you don't tell me about him, who else can you tell?"

Hearing what I said, Uncle Wu couldn't hide it. "Let's go over there and talk." Perhaps estimating my dad's mood, Uncle Wu pushed me towards the balcony.What can he hear now?I am very disappointed.Originally, after the college entrance examination, I should feel relaxed and happy, but my father's appearance made me feel even heavier.It was as if a huge boulder weighed heavily on his shoulders.I try to make myself more optimistic and positive, but I really can't see hope.

"Xiao Chen," Uncle Wu put his arm on the railing of the balcony. "There was an operation this morning. It was originally performed by your Uncle Li, but he crashed into a car on the road. He was fine, but he was trapped. The operation was in a hurry, so your dad stepped in. Brother Jianguo has been in a bad state these days. Great. His surgery is scheduled for noon and afternoon..." Uncle Wu said it very tactfully, probably because he was afraid that it would be too blunt for me to accept.My family is already like this, and I really feel that there is nothing in this world that is unacceptable to me.

"Uncle Wu, just tell me, did my dad have a medical accident?"

"It hasn't been identified yet, but it's hard to say." Uncle Wu patted me on the shoulder twice, "Brother Jianguo and his sister-in-law have a good relationship, and our hospital knows it. He can't stand such a big incident. He has been in a bad state recently. Okay, but I still insist on going to work, and I have persuaded him. You should persuade him more and be considerate of him. "

"Is he dead?" I really want to be considerate of him, but I can't do it soon. He is the only one who has lost a loved one. I have no less affection for my mother than he does.His behavior of giving up on himself like this really can't make me feel that he is still the old Doctor Ye.Could it be that after my mother died, his soul left with her, leaving only an empty shell.

"The person has been rescued, but he is not out of danger yet. It shouldn't be a big deal."

"What punishment is the courtyard going to give my dad?" I turned my head to look at Uncle Wu. I haven't looked at him carefully for a long time. He is no longer the young and energetic little Uncle Wu who carried me on his shoulders in my memory.Wrinkles also appeared on the forehead without knowing when.

"Don't be too pessimistic, think better when you are young." Uncle Wu paused and continued. "If it is identified as a medical malpractice, it should be punished and demoted."

"What if the person dies?"

“…may revoke medical license.”

"Oh, I see." I lowered my head and poked my fingers on the concrete railing of the balcony.There are still a few potted flowers under the railing. After my mother left, no one took care of them and they all withered.Our home is becoming less and less like a home.

"Xiao Chen." Uncle Wu stroked my hair, as if he wanted to say something to comfort me, but he didn't know how to say it.It's really hard to comfort people.

"Uncle Wu, how is your son, is he alright?" I pretended to change the subject easily, I didn't want to show weakness in front of outsiders.

"By the way, if you don't tell me, I almost forgot. That kid was quarantined with you. He told me when he came back." Mentioning his son, Uncle Wu's eyes lit up immediately, and he quickly I realized that it was inappropriate to show too much joy in front of me.After all, it wasn't long before I took off the filial piety on my arm.In fact, there is really no need to do this. My own family affairs have nothing to do with outsiders. He can just smile if he wants to. "He's fine. His skin is solid. Within two days, it was confirmed that it was common pneumonia."

"That's fine. I think the child is very cute. I'm worried, as long as it's okay." I smiled at Uncle Wu, and his expression relaxed a lot.

"Don't worry about things at home. Call me if you need anything."

"En, I remember." I backed out from the balcony, there was still some food in the refrigerator, and it was meal time, Uncle Wu sent my dad back, so I had to treat someone to dinner. "Uncle, keep it for eating. I'll cook."

"No need, Xiao Chen." Uncle Wu grabbed me. "I'll wait for you to come back. I have something to do at home, so I have to go back."

"You're welcome, I'll just make a few casually, and eat it every other time."

"Brother Jianguo and I, why are you being so polite? There is something really happening at home. I have to go." Uncle Wu repeated it again, and I couldn't keep him anymore. "Then I'll see you off." I put down the apron and sent Uncle Wu out.The moment the door closed, my pretense disappeared too.

Tired, so fucking tired.My dad wandered out from the toilet. He saw me, and didn't ask me about the exam. He went straight to his bedroom. I heard a bang, which was the sound of him falling on the bed.

There was a pack of Zhongnanhai on the table in the living room, the lid was ajar, and only two cigarettes were smoked.My dad likes to smoke Zhongnanhai, and he likes to order one when he is stressed.I would rather he was smoking than drinking, at least it can give him a sober nerve.There is also a lighter next to the cigarette case, which is the kind that costs 5 cents each in a small shop, with a green transparent plastic skin.I took one out of the cigarette case and put it to my mouth, followed my father's example, and lit it.I'm not trying to indulge myself, it's just too painful.I know it's a sign of weakness, but if I'm not allowed to let go, I'll really go crazy.My dad is already like this, if I am really crazy, who will take care of him.

This is my first time smoking, and I didn't cough unexpectedly.There is nothing special about it other than feeling a little uncomfortable.Those scenes in the movie, where the first time I smoked and choked the sky and the sky were dark, were really too artistic.I just smoked one by one.The whole house smelled of tobacco.My mother used to hate this smell the most, but now that I have made her favorite house dirty, will she be very angry, will she rush over and pinch my ears.

I smoked half a pack of cigarettes, and I stood up on my knees.Sitting directly on the floor of the living room just now, my legs were very cold.Life is still going on, I have to carry on no matter what.

Pushing open the door of my dad's room, I want to see how he is sober. If the situation is better, I will cook.The moment the door opened, I felt like my blood was boiling. I have a good temper, but I can get angry too. I have lost my temper many times, with Li Weiran, or because of Li Weiran.But it has never been like this, I am so angry that I don't even have the strength to cry.

My dad didn't lie down and sleep obediently.He didn't know where to bring another bottle of beer, and was holding the bottle and drinking it.The smell of smoke just now was so strong that I didn't notice it. "Dad, what are you doing!" I rushed over, trying to snatch the wine bottle from my dad's hand, but unexpectedly he held it so tightly that he couldn't grab it.

"You... don't... leave... me." My dad was sitting on the ground, but I pushed him to stand up.

"You fucking know how to drink." I yelled, he is my dad, I can't scold him, but I really can't help it. "Wine is your son!"

"Drink...wine...comfortable...comfortable." My dad put the wine bottle in his right hand and held it tightly.His tongue-in-cheek voice made my scalp tingle.I think I'm really going crazy.

"You are really not a man! My mother is really blind to fall in love with you!" As soon as the words finished, my father suddenly threw the wine bottle in his hand at me.I instinctively raised my hand.

There was a loud noise, and my whole right hand went numb, and I couldn't even feel any pain.Broken glass from the wine bottle was scattered between the two of us.There was a large cut on the arm.My dad was on his knees, and the blood just splashed on his face.The two of us looked at my bleeding right arm, the hideous wound was covered by gushing blood.They are all stupid.My dad was stunned for a while, and then he suddenly realized that he was sober from the wine.He pulled a towel to hold my wound.

I didn't give him a chance, opened the door and ran out.Just like when I escaped from school during SARS, I ran with all my strength. That time was for this family, but this time it was to escape from this home.If we say before, I still had a little fantasies about him, but when his wine bottle fell, I was really desperate.

I ran to the first floor and bumped into someone head-on.He didn't care about apologizing, so he pushed him away and ran away.But he was grabbed by the opponent. "Ah Shen, what's wrong with you?!"

It turned out to be Li Weiran, why every time I see him, he looks so embarrassed.I want to always be decent in front of the person I love, why can't I always do it.

"Ah Shen, your hand!" Li Weiran exclaimed in his ear.He pushed open the unit door on the first floor.Hold my wound, pull me and run outside.