Stockholm syndrome

The winter vacation is coming soon. Originally, it was said that once the exam was passed, there would be no need to take the final exam again, but the papers for the final exam were all ready, and the school took the exam again in order not to waste it.After all, there is no harm in taking more exams.

The question this time was not as simple as touching it. When I got the math paper, I was so depressed that I almost tore up the paper on the spot.The first two big questions for scoring points are all sequence, whoever came up with this question is too substandard.Of course I'm not depressed because I can't do it. The reason for my irritability is Li Weiran. He doesn't know anything about sequence of numbers. I tried many ways to explain this problem to him in low-level language, but he just couldn't understand. The place to understand is to seek guidance.I don't know who I inherited this worrying problem from. Every time I get a paper, my first reaction is what should I do if Li Weiran can't do this question. Although he doesn't care, I am still worried.

I still haven't asked Li Weiran about his further studies.As long as you see his face, your mood will be inexplicably better, and those disappointing things will disappear without a trace.I never knew that human faces can also produce conditioned reflexes.It's like when I saw Li Weiran, I couldn't help laughing. Even though I pursed my lips tightly, the dimples on my face still appeared.Li Weiran said that the dimples on my face became obviously deeper after dating, and even a dimple appeared on the left side of my face that had no dimples. At first, I didn't believe it, but then I giggled in the mirror at home and found that it was really the case.

When someone likes you, and you happen to like him, that's probably the best thing in the world.

When catching up with my mom and dad in the middle of the night, Li Weiran would always come to my house, don't force me to say more about me.It's just doing something that young couples love to do.It's just that he is very principled and waits for me to finish my homework first.After the third year of high school, there were more and more homework, and it was very difficult for me to complete myself.Li Weiran was afraid that I would be exhausted, so he stopped asking me to do homework for him.There are so many papers that it is outrageous, and my tenosynovitis has recurred.Not to mention holding a pen, it hurts badly to hold a chopstick.After taking anti-inflammatory drugs for two days, it didn't improve.

At noon, Li Weiran and I went to the cafeteria for dinner.Knowing that my hands are not good, he ordered rice for me.Eat with a spoon instead of chopsticks.He paid for the money, and he likes to spend money on me. I usually don’t dare to scatter on the road with him.Whenever I stare at something for more than five seconds, it will appear on my desk within a day.I didn't dare to take it home, but Li Weiran snatched it back in the end, saying that he would keep it for me first.In fact, Li Weiran is the kind of person who can't express his feelings. He wants to be nice to someone but doesn't know how to express it, so he will give him material things.Material things cannot represent love, but they can clearly make the other party feel love.That's how he treats me so stupidly.

I didn't give Li Weiran anything, the most I gave was the white rabbit.He kept all the candy wrappers.Carefully fold it and put it in the pencil case.God knows that there is no pen in his pencil case at all, it is all sugar paper.As soon as the zipper is unzipped, it is full of toffee flavor.

"Brother." Suddenly there was a call from behind, and I turned around to see a tall boy with a white wristband on his wrist.This is the basketball-talented kid Li Weiran told me about, and he should be a sophomore in high school.Li Weiran has a good reputation in the school team, he plays basketball well.The lower graders in the school team all call him brother directly.

"Zhao Yan." Li Weiran waved at the boy, his face a little uncomfortable. "You come here to eat too." There is only one cafeteria in the school. If he doesn't come here to eat, where else can he go to eat.Li Weiran's greetings are too low-level.

"Yeah." The boy came over and stood next to Li Weiran. He was stronger than Li Weiran, his muscles were very strong, and he was handsome. Such a boy was very popular with girls in school.Suddenly, he felt that Li Weiran was a good match for him, and a sense of crisis emerged spontaneously.

"Brother, we're going to give you a farewell party, when are you free?"

"He quit the school team a long time ago, what is the farewell?" I interrupted, and Li Weiran's face suddenly turned pale.He stood up suddenly, as if he wanted to cover Zhao Yan's mouth.I always thought I was a slow person, but at that moment I grabbed him, with my tenosynovitis right hand.

"He is going to study in England, don't you know?"

"Shut up." Li Weiran roared, and the cafeteria suddenly became quiet.Zhao Yan was taken aback and didn't understand the situation at all.

"Brother...what's the matter?" Zhao Yan was stunned for a while, then asked Li Weiran in a low voice.

"It's none of your business, you go first." I glanced at Zhao Yan, and he left immediately after hearing my words.When he left, he looked back at Li Weiran, but Li Weiran's eyes were not on him at all.

"Ah Shen..." Li Weiran spoke after a moment of silence.

"Eat first." I picked up the spoon, my hands were shaking badly, when did tenosynovitis become so serious.The rice grains kept falling from the stainless steel iron spoon.It dazzled me.

"Ah Shen." Li Weiran held my hand, his palm was cold.

"Don't talk to me first, don't talk to me!" I don't remember how long I haven't experienced this feeling, I can't tell if I am angry or disappointed, my heart is so numb.Suddenly, he didn't even have the strength to breathe.I let go and the spoon fell on the table.This is probably the last time Li Weiran and I ate in the cafeteria. Just like the first time, I didn't take away the plate.

I walked towards the classroom with my head down, my back was hunched so badly, my hands that I didn't know where to put were hanging by my sides, and they would keep hitting my legs as I walked.Li Weiran was right behind me, his sweatpants making a rattling sound as he moved.This familiar voice sounds particularly harsh now.I don't think I'm a sane person, at least when it comes to relationships.Suddenly he didn't know how to face Li Weiran.I was already on the brink of collapse, and I really wanted to turn around and grab his collar and ask him why he didn't tell me about studying abroad, but kept it from me.The noise from the surroundings told me that this is a school, and our shady relationship does not allow me to be a little presumptuous.

When I finally calmed down, I realized that the first class was halfway through. Li Weiran didn't lie down to sleep. He sat there obediently, with his arms slightly crossing my desk. I knew it was his gesture of goodwill. said, but I was unable to respond.I don't want to hear his explanation. I don't want to know why he didn't tell me.I just can't accept that he will not be by my side in the future.

Suddenly I felt extremely tired, as if I could no longer support the weight of my body.I finally got down on the desk.This is the first time I have fallen asleep in class in so many years. I have always been a good student, no matter how sleepy I am, I will never get down in class.This time I really couldn't bear it.I buried my face between my arms, and perhaps because my eyes were overwhelmed, tears came out.Once this kind of thing flows out, it cannot be controlled.Tears seeped down the school uniform, and I could even feel the wetness through the sweater.I don't want a life without Li Weiran, I don't want him to study abroad, I have seriously thought about the future, it is not a fantasy, the worst plan is not to be in a city.But now it seems that it is difficult on a continent.Hold!

"Ye Chen, what are you doing, look up." This class belongs to Lao Zhang, and I'm violating the classroom discipline by lying here so blatantly.Old Zhang's voice was urgent, he should be angry.He always thought that I was a good student, and I was indeed, but no matter how perfect a student is, he has his own feelings.My mind is in a mess.I forgot the tears on my face and was about to get up.Li Weiran's hand suddenly reached out, he pressed the back of my head, and fixed me firmly on the desk.

"Teacher, Ye Shen is sick. He is not feeling well. I'm sorry." This was probably the first time Li Weiran spoke to Lao Zhang in such a respectful tone, and Lao Zhang couldn't help being stunned.

"Ye Chen, are you okay? Why don't you go to the hospital? The college entrance examination is half a year away, so you have to pay attention to your health." Lao Zhang is very kind to me, and it probably has something to do with me being No.1 in our class, but I am still very grateful to him.

"It's okay. I'll just have a party." I replied, my voice hoarse.

"It's all right." Hearing my voice, Lao Zhang simply put the lesson plan on the desk and was about to walk over. "Everyone should solve this problem by themselves first."

Lao Zhang's footsteps got closer and closer, and I suddenly became sober, and it was over.If my virtue is seen by others, what can I say?All the feelings of self-pity and self-pity disappeared, leaving only tension and fear.Suddenly a school uniform was buckled on top of my head, wrapping me tightly.

"Teacher, I'll take him there." Li Weiran pulled me up with his arms. "Don't delay other students from class."