prince don't want to drag

Yes, maybe the world is big.Maybe this school is not small either.But... why do I feel that this world is so small that I don't even have a place to stay, and this school is so small that I don't even have a space to breathe quietly...

He ran to the deepest part of the playground in one breath, found a big tree at random, and sat down leaning against the trunk like a tired man.

I can't tell if I want to cry or laugh...

For some reason, the sounds of quarreling and scolding from my parents when I was young, the laughing and cursing sounds of children of the same age, and the crying sounds of grandma and grandma hugging me came to me wave after wave, as if I had finally found a gap, no matter what I did. No matter how you beat yourself on the head, telling yourself not to think, it doesn't help...

"What kind of child is this? It's as black as a lump of carbon."

"Don't you know? This child was picked up by Lao Yang's family from nowhere."

"Ah! Picked it up? No wonder! No matter how you look at it, it doesn't look like a member of our village."

"En. Lao Yang is also true. My wife can't have a baby and shouldn't hold such an ugly child! It's a burden not to get married when I grow up. I really don't know what Lao Yang is thinking."

"How can I think about it? What can I do! They are already in their early thirties, and they don't have children yet. If you can get one, just get one and raise it."

"Also... also? Then why did this child hide in this small forest? Didn't the wife of the Dashui family plant this tree?"

"It belongs to Da Shui's family, this child must have been beaten out again."

"Ah? Did Lao Yang beat the child? Did he bring the child back by himself?"

"So what? After all, I didn't raise it myself, can we kiss? And even if Lao Yang doesn't beat him, can his wife?"

"That's true……"

"Oh, don't worry about that shit, I have to go home and cook dinner, it's almost dark today."

"Ah... that's right, then... let this kid stay in the woods? Do you want to inform Lao Yang?"

"What do you do with that nosy business? Do you care about the land? If it's not good, it might be annoying. He won't die in this woods. Lao Yang will come to him anyway..."

"Oh...then let's go, I have to go home to cook, and my Junjun is about to leave school..."

……… I was six years old that year…

"Hey! My mother said that the child was picked up from the garbage dump. It stinks to death. Let's stay away from him."

"Ah? Really? No wonder he is always dirty and smelly, and he wears only two clothes. It's disgusting."

"No, I'm almost in the fourth grade, and I'm so short that I can't reach my shoulders, ugly duckling."

"Ning... Let's go quickly, I don't know if there is anything bad on him, it won't be good if it is infected."

"Yes, yes... let's go..."

...that year I was ten years old...

"Hey, ugly duckling, I warn you not to think that you are something because the monitor lends you two books!"

"That's right, the squad leader gave you alms because he saw you as pitiful. Don't take yourself too seriously. Disgusting!"

"Yes! Stay away from the class leader in the future. It's an insult to her to stand with such a beautiful person as the class leader."

"If an ugly duckling like you doesn't even have this bit of self-knowledge, just die early! If there is a girl who likes you, that girl is either the most ugly person in the world, or her brain is broken. She is an idiot." !"

"That's right, for an ugly duckling like you who didn't know where to pick it up, it's impossible for anyone to really like you in your life! Either they use you, or they pity you, or they are poor bastards who can't find a husband!"

"Yes, yes, yes... I don't know why you are so passionate..."

...that year... I was 15 years old...

Before the age of 15, whenever I cried, my grandma or grandma would hold me and cry together, and then tell me, don’t remember those, just know that I am their baby, they will protect me, and hope that I can grow up quickly and be able to Protect yourself.I listened, so I grew up desperately. Although my grandma and grandma have a heart, they are getting old after all, and they don’t stay with me for a long time. They are powerless, so... I can only rely on myself... 15 years old I haven't shed a single tear because of anyone since then...

But in fact, I succeeded. After entering junior high school, my stature grew rapidly, and although my skin was not white, it was not as dark as before. I learned how to disguise, how to be unobtrusive, and how to protect myself , I learned to counter other people's malicious words, and I also learned... stay away from the crowd... There will be no friction if you stay away... But... if trouble comes to me, I will no longer be weak, I can always easily defeat the opponent, And the arrogance of the demeanor is as if the person in front of him is not worth mentioning...

After the second year of junior high school, I was able to hide myself and not let trouble come to me at the same time... So... I became an ordinary me...

I really met the only one on my tenth birthday, but I never had much contact, and I only met once a year. The real meeting was during the summer vacation after the age of 15... At that time, I... had already No tears and no heart...

If it wasn't for my grandmother, I think the only thing would not have entered my life, let alone my heart... But, even so, I clearly understand that the only thing in my heart is only a substitute for the one that belongs to me. The location of grandma's relatives... that's all...

My only regret is that when I fought Yan Ruo for the first time in the classroom, I couldn't hide it thoroughly, so that...so many troubles happened afterwards...also...disordered my sense of proportion...