Indulge in indulgence

In the past few years, Su Wen rarely dreamed about his past, so that once in a while, it was enough to make him recall and sigh for a long time.

He has never seen his biological father since he was born. His mother used to be a lady in the night market, but she resigned after giving birth to Su Wen and devoted herself to raising the child.

After that, she found many jobs, selling cross-stitch, cleaning in a big company, and then took all the savings of the family to open a small restaurant, and she did well at first.

Later, I don’t know who brought this matter to the public. Those customers who used to be in the nightclub came to the door. Because the mother refused to obey, they smashed the whole shop in a rage.

At that time, Su Wen was 14 years old. Not long after this incident, his mother took him to buy a train ticket and traveled all the way to the north, where he settled in Los Angeles, which was not very developed at the time.

The first time Su Wen came into contact with the entertainment industry was during the summer vacation of his freshman year. He once skipped two grades, so he graduated very early.

He worked and studied, and remembered that there was a homeless singer in the subway station at that time, who regularly played the guitar and sang love songs in the corridor of the subway station.

Sing "wait for a sunny day" and "the person who loves me and the person I love".

Once it rained heavily, Su Wen stood beside him for a while, fascinated by what he was listening to, and couldn't help but took out a few coins and put them in the singer's guitar case. A mother with a meager income lived in a very difficult life.

At that time, a woman wearing high heels beside him patted him, and the look on Su Wen's face was a little surprised.

She looked up and down the ragged boy in front of her, and asked him, "How old are you?"

Su Wen said: "17."

The woman smiled with satisfaction: "We have a character in a play, do you want to try it? The price is negotiable."

Su Wen almost forgot that the reason why he agreed to the woman's invitation to set foot in the entertainment industry was just to earn extra food money for himself and his mother.

What he pursues is survival first, and dreams second.

In Su Wen's first movie, he forgot to play the guy. He should be a small supporting role. He played the mistress whose boyfriend cheated on the protagonist. This movie has long been banned because of some factors involved.

The Omega hero at that time should be about the same age as him, with a very handsome appearance, and should be a bit famous, but for some reason, he held a lot of hostility towards Su Wen.

There is a scene where the protagonist is caught raped on the bed and gets slapped.

I don't know whether the other party was intentional or unintentional. They NGed many times, and the slaps became harder and harder.

He slapped Su Wen like he was playing, and every time he asked him with a smile, "Does it hurt?" Su Wen gritted his teeth and remained silent, half of his face and even his eye sockets were red.

At that time, his left cheek was swollen for half a month, but the salary he received was almost equal to the money he earned after working part-time for two months.

The first thing he did when he got the money was to invite his mother to have a Western meal.

Because he remembered that when he was a child, his mother always talked about how good his father was to her when he was chasing her, and he always came to take her to eat western food and order medium-rare steak.

In fact, my mother is not used to these foreign foods, but she yearns for such a noble and elegant environment.

The first factor for Su Wen to gain a foothold in the entertainment industry is his face.

In fact, it is very easy for a beautiful Omega to get a position. They just need to go to a few more dinners, hook up with a few more high-level officials, and then take a contraceptive pill just in case. no problem.

Su Wen remembered that the first time someone touched his thigh at the dinner table, he was terrified and slapped the other person in fright. If someone wanted to force him, he would bite his tongue and kill himself.

The result was that the other party pulled his hair, splashed red wine on his face, and spit before leaving: "You disgusting thing, I will really set up a memorial archway for myself."

At that time, Su Wen didn't say anything, but sneaked home at night while her mother was asleep, dried her body, and washed the red wine stains off her clothes.

Tossing and turning in bed at night, quietly wiping away tears.

Unspoken rules emerged endlessly in this circle. Since then, the company knew that he was a hard-headed person, the kind who would risk his life if he couldn't see it, and they were afraid of causing trouble, so they didn't let him participate in such occasions again.

His character is not easy to discipline, and he doesn't take soft and hard. The company's top female executives originally wanted to give up on him, but they were still reluctant to give up Su Wen's good looks, so they kept him.

19-year-old Su Wen would bring a bouquet of lilies home and put them in his mother’s favorite vase, and then said to her with a smile: “Mom, a big director asked me to make a movie today. Soon we will have a good time.”

His mother was knitting a sweater for her future big star son, and said with a smile, "How do you live a good life?"

The clear and handsome young man stood against the light, with his slender fingers closed, he inserted the white and fragrant lily into the bottle, his clear pupils shone with light.

"Buy a big house and take you to eat western food every day."

Buy a big house and take you to eat western food every day.

The idea back then was always pure and simple.

20-year-old Su Wen stumbled to the hospital to collect his mother's body on a rainy day, and held a funeral with his three-year savings. On the day of the funeral, he stood alone in front of the coffin for a long time.

Two months later, he dazzled on the red carpet of the awards ceremony in a suit and leather shoes.

Su Wen was like a clown who had been in the dark for a long time and was suddenly pulled into the spotlight. He stood there with a trophy in his hand, looking at the applauding people in a daze.

The microphone was handed to his mouth, and he wanted to speak, but his throat seemed to be stuck, or there were too many things he wanted to say, and he couldn't mention it.

I want, thanks to my mother...  

The 20-year-old Su Wen was trembling, crying from the bottom of his heart for the first time outside the scene, in full view of everyone.

Winner of Best Actor of the Year——Su Wen.

He saw the leading men who beat him up, the senior men who poured red wine on him, they were sitting among the crowd, the spotlight on the stage was too bright, Su Wen couldn't see their expressions clearly.

The sunspots on the Internet complained that Su Wen had no conscience, and his mother's body was still cold, so she went up to the stage to accept the award as if nothing had happened.

They gossiped behind their backs, saying that seeing Su Wen's wavy appearance, they must have slept with high-level people.

It seems that once it grows too good-looking, the glory in its hand will drop a notch.

That night, after the celebration party was over, Su Wen returned home drunk, fried two steaks, and served two glasses of red wine.

He laughed and cried.

He said: Mom, I'm so stupid, I can't even fry a steak medium rare.

The 20-year-old young actor ushered in his own flowery road, but he was the only one walking on the road.

All the pride, inferiority and loneliness, they stick together and merge into a brand new and strong Su Wen.

Until he met Chang Bin when he was 23 years old.

Chang Bin was an investor in Su Wen's new movie at that time, young and handsome, with a personable demeanor.

He said that he had seen all of Su Wen's movies, and could he have the honor to invite Su Wen to a meal.

That night, in the western restaurant, Chang Bin ordered him a medium-rare steak by accident.

Chang Bin asked him: Do you like to drink red wine?

Su Wen pouted and said he didn't like it, because it reminded him of some bad things in the past.

So Chang Bin laughed and said: Then I don't like it either.

Su Wengen and Chang Bin have been together for two years. In the past two years, they have walked side by side from estrangement, to secretly holding hands under their sleeves, and finally loosened their interlocking fingers. Chang Bin pulled away from him and turned to the other side. Go alone.

It took Su Wen three months to accept him, but it took three years and one day to forget him.

He buried those past loves and pains in the soil, as if he would feel better if he buried them deeper.

At this time, Su Wen suddenly woke up. He was no longer the young man who was holding on with all his strength and was desperately trying to rush forward.

It turned out that he was 26 years old.

It has been six years since my mother passed away and won the championship.

Twelve years have passed since the first time I settled down in Los Angeles, the short and slender boy who walked off the green leather train held his mother by the hem of his clothes and looked at this completely unfamiliar northern city in a daze.

The author says:

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