zombie log

Regarding Chi Yang, Bei Xinmiao almost forgot his appearance.

They don't actually have any friendship.

Their acquaintance was nothing more than a coincidence that they were grouped together and became the same table.

Chi Yang is very introverted and doesn't like to talk.So did Bei Xinmiao.The two of them sat at the same table for two weeks, and they didn't say more than three sentences in total.

Bei Xinmiao didn't even notice that Chi Yang put on makeup.

Until that day, I was yelled at by Teacher Shi.Are you a pervert! ...

He turned his head suddenly, just in time to see Chi Yang's pale face...

He couldn't look at him for a second time.The heart is like being pricked by a needle.That feeling left a deep impression on him.

Chi Yang didn't come to class the next day.At the end of that day, Bei Xinmiao couldn't remember what kind of expression he was sitting behind the desk.

Teacher Shi's hands trembled, "I don't know..." She didn't say what she said later, and she didn't know what she wanted to say. Did she mean that she didn't know that he committed suicide, or that she didn't remember it.

"Strict teachers produce high-quality apprentices. I am doing it for your own good," she said.

Xiao Zhengnan hurriedly rounded up the situation. "Bei Xinmiao, now I want you to talk about the most memorable thing between yourself and Mr. Shi. What are you talking about other people? You have to know that Mr. Shi treats you well. You should remember it. You are the champion of our class." , is also Teacher Shi's pride. We couldn't compete in many important competitions, and she gave you the spot. I think the most memorable thing for you is Teacher Shi's love and partiality for you."

Bei Xinmiao pulled the corners of her mouth upwards, letting herself show a smile. "The thing that impresses me most about Ms. Shi...the things she said to me when I came second by one point...and the loss in the numbers competition...is, about myself , I really want to thank Teacher Shi very much, without her strictness, I would not give up all my hobbies and give up all my hobbies, just to study..."

That sentence still didn't sound very pleasant to my ears.

A girl pretended to admire her expression and said, "You have been admitted to a key university!"

Bei Xinmiao moved the corners of her mouth again, and he practiced this movement repeatedly.He finally knew how to put a little expression on his stiff face. "It is Teacher Shi's ultimate goal to be admitted to a key university, but it is a pity that being admitted to a key university cannot be the end of my life."

……

After the teacher appreciation banquet, Xiao Zhengnan drove Bei Xinmiao back.

When the car stopped at the intersection, Xiao Zhengnan asked, "Why did you come back? You disappeared without a trace for ten years, why are you suddenly coming back now?"

Bei Xinmiao looked at the darkening sky outside the skylight. "Come back and find the answer."

"what is the answer?"

……

Bei Xinmiao saw Tang Guan waiting for him at the entrance of the corridor.Squatting far away on the edge of the iron fence in the corridor, like a homeless stray cat.

Tang Guan's cold is still not healed, his nose twitches from time to time, and his voice is hoarse.

Seeing Bei Xinmiao appear, he quickly jumped over the fence. "Hi! Come with me."

Bei Xinmiao followed him to his house.

Tang Guan's room was much more tidy, and all the sundries disappeared, but there were a few more garbage bags in front of the door.

Bei Xinmiao looked around, "Are you alone?"

Tang Guan ran over with a big blue hard wallet and spread it on the bed: "I got the school's records and files. I found you inside." He flipped through the papers in the folder quickly.Stop on a page and point to the photo above. "You had such a stiff expression at that time, haha. But it was really amazing, to win such an award. Oh genius."

Bei Xinmiao slowly sat on the side of the bed, staring at her file records, she couldn't believe it for a moment, she had forgotten that feeling.He was really outstanding at that time.

Tang Guan pointed to a corner of the file and said, "Look at what's written here, so you are... an extremely poor student. The kind of student who is exempted from tuition. Oh, not an extremely impoverished student, I missed a word, but what is a special student? What? , are you... the son of a martyr?"

The past suddenly fell like a lump of lead.

Bei Xinmiao suddenly wondered if he had found the reason for his death.

***********

February [-]th, Gale

It suddenly occurred to me that my death might not have been caused by Mr. Shi, but far before that... when my father left.

I almost forgot about that scene.

Blood all over the place...

Someone covered my eyes...

Through the fingers, I could see my mother squatting on the ground crying, crying like she was about to turn into a puddle of water...

*******

Bei Xinmiao rushed out of Tang Guan's house, out of the building door, across the street, and came to another residential building. She stood opposite and looked at the whole side of the slow terrace. On the elbow of a man who was also old, they supported each other up the stairs.

"So you are just like me..."

A voice came from behind.Bei Xinmiao didn't look back.

"So you don't have a father. When did that happen?" Tang Guan walked up to him.

Bei Xinmiao looked ahead.

"How did your father die?" Tang Guan seemed to never give up his habit of asking the truth.

Bei Xinmiao turned and walked away.

Bei Xinmiao stayed at Tang Guan's house that night.Tang Guan threw the big bear toy on the bed to the floor.Then she leaned against Bei Xinmiao and looked through the photos on her phone.

Bei Xinmiao stared straight at the ceiling.

He didn't know why he did it.Sleeping with a boy who longs to be close to him.He hasn't been this close to anyone since he became a zombie.He tried his best to hide himself, hoping not to be found abnormal.

And now he had the audacity to sleep with him.While he was getting ready, he wore a thick, soft plush nightgown.

Tang Guan leaned against his shoulder, and his nose rubbed against the plush nightgown from time to time.

"Look at this picture. This man and this car pass the intersection every day after ten o'clock, and his home is probably on the other side of the street. Every time he passes the intersection, he glances to the left. He What are you looking at? Could it be guilt?"

"Maybe it's to see if there are any pedestrians. It's an intersection." Bei Xinmiao said slowly.

Tang Guan looked up at him.The two looked at each other for a while, and Bei Xinmiao moved the corners of her mouth upwards.

"The way you smile... so strange." Tang Guan blinked mischievously, and reached out to touch Bei Xinmiao's face. Bei Xinmiao's hand grabbed his hand at an unimaginable speed, preventing made him do so.

"Why can't you touch it?" Tang Guan stuck out his tongue. "I know what you put on your face every day, so the glow on your face looks different from others. You are so cool. Do you wear makeup every day? Hehehe..."

Bei Xinmiao thought of Chi Yang.

"Do you know what it means for a man to wear makeup?"

Tang Guan's eyes became strange, and that shy expression appeared again.

"What does it mean?" Bei Xinmiao asked slowly.

Tang Guan's cheeks were red all the way to his ears, but his movements were not shy at all.He pulled the covers over them.She grabbed Bei Xinmiao's waist under the quilt and hugged him. "Let's... sleep."

The bedside lamp was dimmed.Bei Xinmiao could hear Tang Guan breathing on his shoulder.His body was close to him, and even through the thick plush nightgown, he could imagine the soft and warm body temperature.

"What does that mean?" he asked a third time.

Tang Guan chuckled: "Anyway, I don't mind... you know, I only have you now..."