Living and working in peace and contentment through the past and the present

The whole city is sleeping, and the normally noisy city is now quiet like a sleeping baby. An Zhuo wrapped his clothes and walked on the road, merging with this quiet city.

Since coming to this city, An Zhuo has never seen such a quiet city. He walked on the sidewalk paved with stone bricks, looked at the flashing neon lights in the city, and realized that this city also has such a quiet side.

Walking along the road like this, An Zhuo felt empty in his heart. When he walked to the bridge, he suddenly didn't want to move anymore. He lay on the side of the bridge and looked under the bridge because the street lamps and the neon lights on both sides of the river were turning over the sparkling river water. , Anzhuo just looked at it fascinated.This wave of river water seems to confirm his heart...

Sighing, An Zhuo sat on the stone steps, looked at the wide road, and forgot what he was going to do when he came out. In such an environment that can be said to be dead, An Zhuo felt that his heart was also empty.I don't know how long I sat there, maybe it was a long time, maybe it was a short time, An Zhuo heard a man's voice coming from all directions.

"Young man... why are you sitting here alone?"

An Zhuo didn't care at first, and ignored the voice, and still sat there staring at the wide road in a daze.

The man seemed to sigh, and then An Zhuo felt someone sitting beside him.An Zhuo turned his head to see who the man was, but probably because it was too dark or the lights were too dim, An Zhuo didn't see what the man looked like clearly.

"Young man, do you have something on your mind?" The man's voice was floating and empty, and An Zhuo felt familiar, but he couldn't remember where he heard it or met him. He only felt that this voice made him feel kind.

Hearing the man's question, he murmured, "Are you worried? Yes..."

"Can you talk to me?"

"I said, would you believe it?" Touching his stomach, An Zhuo smiled wryly. Who would believe his story?

"Believe it or not, others can't force it." The man touched An Zhuo's head, and he said, "Young man, if you don't believe it yourself, why ask others whether you believe it or not?"

The man's palm was neither wide nor hot, but it carried bursts of lotus fragrance. Maybe the man's movements were too gentle, or maybe the lotus fragrance was too pleasant to smell. An Zhuo let go of his guard and said lightly, "Yes, myself I don't even believe it, after all, no man in this world has ever been pregnant..."

"In the vast world and all living beings, all kinds of phenomena are full of wonders. Boy, do you believe that there are demons and ghosts in this world?"

"Demons and ghosts?"

"From ancient times to the present, the world has said that demons and ghosts are vivid, like living things. Are these really just people's imagination?"

"You mean, there really are ghosts and ghosts?" An Zhuo was surprised.After hearing this, the man smiled in the black, patted An Zhuo's head and withdrew his hand.

"If you believe it, it exists. If you don't believe it, it doesn't exist." The man continued, "There is a saying in the "Shan Hai Jing" that there is a kind of grass that can be eaten to give birth to children. Wang Meng collected medicine from the Queen Mother of the West. Here she ran out of food, ate wood, clothed with wood, and had no wife all her life. She gave birth to two sons, which came out from her back. In every dynasty and generation, there are rumors of giving birth to a son in the body of a man. If you don’t believe it, But he lives on to this day."

Hearing this, An Zhuo pursed his lips and remained silent. He had never passed this. Could it be true that men have children since ancient times?Are there really all kinds of ghosts and ghosts in this world?He didn't know whether to believe it or not, he was repelling it in his heart, but thinking of Ruan Li's origin, he had no choice but to believe it.If he hadn't met Ruan Li, someone told him that there are monsters and goblins in this world, he would have laughed it off and just passed it on, but after meeting Ruan Li, he wanted to pass it on, but he couldn't.This feeling of not wanting to believe but having to believe made An Zhuo's throat dry. He opened his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say it. After a while, he said shyly, "Even so, I can't accept the future." A man's body bears children."

"Hey..." The man sighed, and then stroked the place just below An Zhuo's heart. He opened his eyes that were so dark that they were boundless, and said, "Sometimes there must be something in life. You don't have to force it. If you If you don't want this child, I can help you get rid of this child, but, are you really unwilling to keep this child?"

An Zhuo leaned back reflexively, fleeing from the man's palm, he looked at the man in panic, "You, can you take this child?"

"can."

"You...why can you take this child away?" An Zhuo became more and more panicked, until now, he only saw the man's deep eyes, while the others seemed to have seen it, and he didn't seem to see it either. .

The man didn't answer, he covered An Zhuo's heart again, "Are you going to take away the child?"

"I...I..." An Zhuo trembled his lips, not knowing how to answer, he obviously didn't want it, but why couldn't he say it when he heard that the child could be taken away?

An Zhuo shook his head and nodded anxiously, he didn't know what he wanted, he was really hesitant and helpless, he was afraid that if he missed this opportunity, he would not have the chance to take away the child, but he remembered that he was depressed before he came out. Chi told him not to do things that he would regret later.Hesitant and helpless, biting his lip, An Zhuo stepped back, not letting the man's hand touch him.

Seeing An Zhuo's reaction, the man put down his hands. He stood up and said quietly to An Zhuo, "First understand what you think in your heart. If you really don't want it, you can come to me at any time."

"I...how did I find you?"

"Call Lian Xin, I will appear in front of you." While speaking, Lian Xin was already far away from An Zhuo, An Zhuo looked at this scene in disbelief, and nervously looked at the dark shadow in the distance.Suddenly, he remembered that a man said that sometimes one must have something in one's life, and he really wanted to know, did this sentence mean that even if he didn't want this child this time, he would still have it next time?

"Does it mean that even if I take away the child, there will be another one?"

"Yes, you are destined, and they are also destined..."

While talking, Lian Xin disappeared before An Zhuo's eyes, An Zhuo rubbed his eyes in disbelief, but Lian Xin went without a trace just like when he came, An Zhuo just looked at the place where Lian Xin disappeared, relaxed his mind, and his hands were powerless to support the ground .

After a long time, An Zhuo couldn't realize whether he had met such a person...

Demons, ghosts, children, Lian Xin, all these made him very confused, An Zhuo didn't know whether to believe in the existence of ghosts and ghosts or believe that men can really have children.He stood up, lay on the bridge railing, stared at the river under the bridge, watched the moon in the sky move westward and faded, watched the warm yellow light of the first rising sun, and heard Ruan Li calling him...

Ruan Li, Ruan Li, Ruan Li, An Zhuo felt that the name Ruan Li had settled into his heart just because of this person, who hesitated when he learned that he could get rid of the child...

Ruan Li searched for an entire hour before finding An Zhuo in this huge city. He looked at An Zhuo lying on the bridge fence in a daze, afraid that An Zhuo would do something stupid, he just felt like his heart would jump out Chest, whispered An Zhuo, but An Zhuo did not respond...

The clothes that were already wet from running and running were blown by the wind blowing over the bridge, making it chilly. Ruan Li didn't care about his own warmth, he shook his hands and legs, and looked at An Zhuo lying on the bridge railing with his throat hanging... ...He didn't know how he came to An Zhuo's side, he only knew that he hugged An Zhuo tightly when he first came into contact with An Zhuo.

"An Zhuo... An Zhuo..." Ruan Li hugged An Zhuo and called in a low voice, as if wanting to make sure that the person in her arms really existed.And An Zhuo lay on Ruan Li's chest silently, he still didn't know how to face Ruan Li at the moment.

"An Zhuo, don't think about it, we don't want the child anymore, I just want you to be good..." Ruan Li buried his head in An Zhuo's neck, he was scared, really scared, the appearance of An Zhuo just now, as if he was about to leave Jump off the bridge.An Zhuo and the child, he will always choose An Zhuo, as long as An Zhuo is well, let him go to hell with the rest!

An Zhuo didn't react when he heard Ruan Li say that he didn't want a child. He didn't know how to describe his feeling. He obviously didn't want a child, but hearing Ruan Li say that, he felt a little uncomfortable. He asked Ruan Li in a hoarse voice, "You, really don't want children?"

"No, I only want you." Ruan Li said firmly, he raised his head from An Zhuo's neck and held An Zhuo's face, looking at An Zhuo affectionately, "An Zhuo, you are more important to me than anything else It's important, I was an asshole yesterday, I didn't consider your feelings, I said that because the child belongs to both of us, and I was so excited because of you. But, if this child brings you pain, I would rather not. "

"Don't you want a child just because of me?" An Zhuo said with a hoarse throat. He hugged Ruan Li and leaned on Ruan Li's shoulder. Bitter in his heart, he really didn't know what to do, whether he wanted the child or not.

"Ruan Li, I don't know what to do..."

"If you haven't made up your mind yet, let's go home first, go home and rest, and you can make a decision after resting. No matter what decision you make, I will support you."

"Ah."

An Zhuo nodded, and leaned all his body weight on Ruan Li, who hadn't recovered much before, because of the cold wind blowing outside for more than an hour, he had reached his limit.He was greedy for the warmth of Ruan Li's body, and was reluctant to leave.Ruan Li felt sorry for An Zhuo, hugged An Zhuo, and hugged An Zhuo tightly in his arms. Because An Zhuo had something on his mind, he didn't care too much about the hug posture, and leaned against Ruan Li's chest, drowsy.

Ruan Li stopped a taxi and took An Zhuo home.Sitting in the taxi, Ruan Li's heart fell firmly into place.

After arriving home, Ruan Li hugged An Zhuo to the bed. As soon as he got on the bed, An Zhuo woke up. Seeing that Ruan Li was about to leave, he held Ruan Li and said with dim eyes, "Sleep with me for a while."

Ruan Li took off his shoes and went to bed, An Zhuo followed the warmth and hugged Ruan Li tightly, at this moment, he relied on Ruan Li, he wanted Ruan Li to drive away the restlessness and hesitation in his heart...

"Ruan Li, hug me..."