bereavement

Jiang Yanyu took his so-called fiancée back to Shenzhen.

From now on, there is only one Sechin left in this city, who is dead.

On the night Jiang Yan wanted to leave, Xie Qin committed suicide by cutting his neck in the unfinished building.

I didn't choose to cut my wrists because there was room for regret. In the process of bleeding, I could choose whether to die or live.

But if the neck is cut, once the carotid artery ruptures, it will die within 2 minutes.

If Wan Zeyu didn't happen to come to him, he would really, never wake up again.

Sun Yang was the first person to rush to the hospital. When he saw Xie Qin, he froze instantly.

He thought it was a corpse lying on the hospital bed.

Xie Qin's eyes used to be filled with laziness and depression, but now, there are only two numb eyeballs left.

Like being covered in a layer of dust, still, slack, dead still, like an empty shell that has lost consciousness, the tenacity of the body is completely gone.

The heavy bandage around his neck made it almost impossible for him to breathe.

What is more terrible than death is the loss of the desire to live, and what is more terrible than the loss of the desire to live is that life is worse than death.

Wan Zeyu looked at Sun Yang who was standing at the door and asked, "Are you Xie Qin's friend?"

Sun Yang couldn't speak, just nodded, he went to the bed and sat down, tucked the quilt for Xie Qin, his lips twitched and wanted to say something, but he couldn't start.

Xie Qin's throat was cut, and he lost his voice just like him.

It was extremely quiet in the ward.

The atmosphere was too oppressive, and Wan Zeyu's chest was so tight that he couldn't breathe. He couldn't stand it anymore, and turned to leave the ward.

"You can cry a little bit." Sun Yang looked at Xie Qin and sighed deeply, "At least you can prove to me that you are still alive."

"..."

"This life is your own, not Jiang Yanyu's."

Xie Qin closed his eyes and made a weak voice: "He is my life."

Sun Yang was silent for a while, "So if he left, you will die."

"..."

"You are only 23 years old, and your life has just begun. Wait a few decades and look back, and you will find that losing Jiang Yanyu is actually not a big deal."

Sun Yang said: "In the future, you will gain new things, meet better people, and eventually lose them again."

"These are things that add to your life, not necessities. No matter who goes, no matter what you lose, you will end up living this life alone in the end."

"No result for 11 years, it can only show that you and Jiang Yanyu..."

"It's really inappropriate."

These words were like a knife piercing my heart.

Xie Qin was silent for a long time.

Although he was once in the dark, he did not fall deeply, so Jiang Yanyu was able to pull him out.

Jiang Yanyu showed him a glimpse of the light, and then pushed him back into the deeper darkness.

All of this is just because he believed in one sentence.

"I won't let you lose."

Six words cost him half his life

After a long while, Xie Qin finally opened his mouth and mouthed silently: "Forget it."

"What's the matter?"

"Jiang Yanyu."

He doesn't want it, whatever.

From now on, he will hide at the bottom of the darkness, never try again, and it will never be possible for anyone to pull him up.

He would rather degenerate completely.

After being discharged from the hospital, Xie Qin did three things.

The first one is a tattoo. A cross is tattooed on the side of the neck. The pattern is large enough to completely cover the scar. Then a string of letters are engraved on the skin under the left eye: 2019.10.4 Dead.

Jiang Yan wants to give up his day, the date of his death.

The second one is to make his hair into dreadlocks, hide in a room in the unfinished building, close the doors and windows, write songs alone in darkness and silence, and not go out for two months. The house and him are so dirty that they stink.

The third one was to have sex with a female fan who sent guns.

His private life became more and more chaotic, he began to abuse his own and other people's bodies, began to sleep with fans, had promiscuous sex, began to refuse all comers, and frequently changed boyfriends and girlfriends.

The boy who was thrown away by him after playing with him for half a year cried and roared, "What kind of person is Seqin to you!?"

This sentence sounds familiar.

Xie Qin took a breath of cigarettes and said expressionlessly, "Excellent."

In the past six months, he and his W8 brothers have been traveling all over the world, spending most of their sleeping time on the plane, writing songs and exercising every day, playing disco and clubbing, occasionally having fun, participating in underground rap competitions, and chatting with other factories online. The rapper of the brand is tearing and tearing, life is boring, but it is also casual.

On the day W8 officially announced Sechin's joining, his first original, studio version of "Degenerate (Fallen)" was released on major music platforms at the same time.

Although there are still people holding high the banner of "forbidden music" to boycott his songs, and even though netizens have mixed opinions on his character, they have to admit that the name "Xie Qin" has indeed become a symbol in the domestic emorap field, a piece with Significant milestones.

During the two months of sealing himself in the unfinished building, Xie Qin wrote three new songs, "Smoking Gun Killer", "Underground Tavern", and "Trash".The second half of the love song is also finished.

The title of the song has not been decided, nor has it been released.

During the tour, fans were very vocal about this song, but Xie Qin didn't want to sing it, not because he was afraid that he would be sad, but because he felt that this song was meaningless.

He didn't deliberately avoid everything about Jiang Yanyu, and he was asked "what do you think of Jiang Yanyu's engagement with the daughter of Jingyuan Group" during the interview.

Xie Qin said coldly, "I wish them a joint burial."

He didn't blackmail Jiang Yanyu's contact information either. The way he forgot Jiang Yanyu was not by forcibly erasing all the things, traces, and sense of existence related to Jiang Yanyu in his life.

He really drove Jiang Yanyu out of his heart.

From then on, the three words "Jiang Yanyu" were no different from "stranger" to Xie Qin, and he could no longer feel the slightest emotion, just like a breeze brushing his face, flat and painless.