bereavement

Jiang Yanyu said he would come to see him today, but he didn't say the specific time. Xie Qin called, but the phone had been turned off.

It was as if a bucket of ice water had been poured over his head.

He wiped his sleepy face, went to Jiang Yanyu's house, waited and waited, the whole morning was gone, his head became more and more dizzy, Xie Qin was still so tired that he closed his eyes after all.

At noon the sun was high, the wind blew into the room, the curtains danced, and the warm sunlight slanted in.

Obviously it was the same angle, the same brightness, the same person, the beam of light that once shone on Xie Qin's face never appeared again.

The moment Jiang Yanyu closed the door, Xie Qin woke up.

Four eyes facing each other.

All are tired.

Jiang Yanyu seemed to have lost some weight, and his eyes were turning blue. Obviously, he had hardly slept in the past two days. His eyes did not stay on Xie Qin for a long time, and he didn't say anything. He just took a can of beer from the refrigerator, raised his head, and said silently. I poured it down my throat.

People say that drinking can strengthen your courage and make you forget your sorrows.

After drinking it cleanly, Jiang Yan wanted to throw it away, took out a can and continued to drink, again and again, repeating numbly, not knowing how drunk he must be to gather enough courage.

Xie Qin looked at him, and there was a "boom" in his heart, and it all collapsed.

Closing my eyes, I knew for the first time what it was like to be so choked up that I couldn't speak.

Jiang Yanyu drank the last can of beer, and with his big hand, he crushed the can and threw it to the ground. He raised his head and stared straight at Xie Qin.

"Xie Qin," Jiang Yanyu said lightly, "I'm tired."

Heart choked for a second.

Xie Qin pretended to be relaxed, shrugged and said, "It's not funny."

"..."

Jiang Yanyu didn't say anything more, but his eyes were extremely firm and cold, he just looked at Xie Qin with such eyes.

Just, watch.

But it hurts more than anything else.

Jiang Yanyu can control his emotions, keep his face expressionless, can be covered in camouflage, indifferent and strong.

But Sechin doesn't know these things.

He rarely even has feelings, so how could he possibly learn how to suppress them.

"I beg you, please don't make such jokes with me, I beg you Jiang Yanyu."

Xie Qin almost squeezed these words out between his teeth. With scarlet eyes, he tried his best to raise the corners of his mouth, and smiled at Jiang Yanyu: "It's funny, is it okay? Look, I'm already smiling. Tell me this is Just kidding, you're lying to me, aren't you?"

"I," Jiang Yanyu turned his head, choked up and said, "I'm tired."

"What did you say, what did you say that day?" Xie Qin's voice was trembling at the end: "You said you won't let me lose this time."

He rushed up suddenly, grabbed Jiang Yanyu by the collar, and forced him to look at him: "You are fucking ruining my life, aren't you?"

Xie Qin completely collapsed, his eyes were full of water, and he screamed in despair: "My life has been rotten like this! Why are you still hitting me!?"

"Why did you pull me out? What the hell are you promising what you can't do!!"

"Pull me out and push me down, is it so fun to rape me?"

"Is my life so worthless?"

Jiang Yan wanted to endure until his eyes were bloodshot, he couldn't bear to look at Xie Qin at all, he gritted his teeth and lowered his head, a muffled roar burst out from his throat.

He has to bear Xie Qin's anger, his father's last wish, and his family's responsibilities. The things on his shoulders have been stretched to the limit. His own pain will always be at the end, and will always be the least important thing.

Who knows how much he wants to shout at these terrible pressures all these years, "Go to hell, I only want Xie Qin."

And who can really understand how harsh this society is to a grown man.

Tens of thousands of ordinary people are burdened with work pressure, mortgages, job competition, and family crises. How many young people are overwhelmed by a wedding gift.

His father had advanced stomach cancer, and his younger brother took care of the company in such a mess that he was forced to sell off his property. The stock market plummeted, and executives quit.

Jiang Yanyu must return to Shenzhen.

The eldest son is destined to have to take on more responsibilities.

After severing the relationship that year, Jiang's father put his hope of continuing the incense and inheriting the family business on Jiang Wei's life. He also tried to let Jiang Wei end take over the company, but a young man in his early twenties, how could he afford it? Such a heavy burden.

The company was on the verge of bankruptcy, and Jiang's father was also diagnosed with stomach cancer. He really had no choice but to ask Jiang Yanyu to come back to help deal with the mess. The 76-year-old man climbed out of the wheelchair, knelt on the ground and kowtowed. Jiang Yanyu's father.

Jiang Yan wanted to take Xie Qin with him, but he couldn't.

Their shady relationship will cause Xie Qin to suffer more pain, frequent relapses of depression,

Jiang Yanyu didn't have enough ability and time to keep him safe, so he stayed in this small city for a long time and refused to leave because no one would disturb them here.

And Jiang Yanyu's relatives, friends, brothers, and enemies are all in Shenzhen.

He couldn't even go out with Seqin during the day, he couldn't stand in the sun with him at the same time, he couldn't let everyone around him see Sechin, he didn't want to throw Sechin into danger and abuse, and Sechin would be shadowed wherever he went Poking the spine, being discussed, despised, and even kidnapped.

Jiang Yanyu committed too many crimes when he was young, and countless former enemies are waiting for him to go back. The darkness that Xie Qin has seen before may happen to himself.

If you want to blame, blame Jiang Yanyu for being incompetent, for not being able to support Xie Qin in Shenzhen.

He would not say to Xie Qin, "You wait for me for a few years, when things get better, I will come back, and then we will reconcile."

He will never make any promises to Sechin again.

His sentence "I won't let you lose" cost Xie Qin half his life.

This time, it was really easy to get together and get away.

Really, go away.