[Wen Ye] A painful ability

The following switches to the perspective of Osamu Dazai.Osamu Dazai is the No.1 title narrator.

I never believed in coincidences.

Everything is a clumsy plan with ulterior motives.When I ran into Shirase for the fourth time with a dispensable attitude, I began to attack impatiently.

To be honest, he's far better at disguising than I thought.

They are all human beings with a heart, what to pretend.

I mocked the fact that Shirase was about to be overthrown, he looked at me calmly without any anger, and walked out of the bar without hearing anything.

I don't bother to think about what Shirase wants from me.

I sank myself into the bottom of the river, and the river slowly covered me. It felt so good to be covered by water.

When I went ashore, I was not surprised to see Shirase who was singled out on the shore half an hour ago.He is very good at fighting, with agility like a monster, and he is also equipped with spiritual powers.Will such a person who is ambitious, powerful and knows how to advance and retreat, really be overthrown by the lambs?

It's ridiculous to say that it doesn't hold water at all.

Rather than saying that Shirase was overthrown, it might be better to say that he deliberately abandoned the group of blind sheep who were fed by ambition.

He obviously found a way for himself.He also found a little white sheep, Nakahara Chuya, for the sheep to speed up the perishing speed of the sheep.

Then I retired and joined Hong Kong and Heilongjiang through my springboard.

Dr. Mori's satisfaction with Shirase reaches its peak when Shirase's weakness is exposed.

Weaknesses can also be artificial.I am so convinced.

But until I saw the relationship between Shirase and Yuxing, I had to admit that Shirase really created his weakness and it really became his weakness.Contradictory and awkward.

"People are always more attractive because of contradictions." Shirase shrugged, looking indifferent.

But I know that if someone attacks Youxing, the end will be very tragic.

It's just a transaction with a clearly marked price, and I'm actually a little envious.

Absolutely absurd.

His feelings are mixed with true feelings and closely related interests, like an apple wrapped in poison/drug, sweet and fragrant.

Following Dr. Mori's knife piercing Xiandai, the Xiandai before he died was obviously angry and disappointed, his feelings were all directed at Shirase who was still supporting him caringly.

The first generations did not understand that his beloved subordinate was a rational and calm monster, a contradictory body of extreme self-control and free will.

I saw that Shirase's eyes were still calm, just like the insignificant things that happened in ordinary nights, without causing any waves.

Dr. Mori logically inherited the position of his ancestors and became the leader.Thanks to his blessings, my status has also risen, not to mention Shirose who has been in Hong Kong and Hei just a few months and has gotten along like a fish in water.

I deliberately called Shirase "dog" in front of everyone. Oh, it's not flirting, but I really want to humiliate/hate him, to tear off his disguise, to see him for real indifferent.

Shirase stared at me without blinking her eyelids, like watching a child who would make trouble for no reason if he couldn't get candy.oh?Is this the new personality you set up for yourself?

I want to see how long you can pamper me, dear Shirase-kun.

I changed ways to toss Shirase when I committed suicide.

I know, every time he had to save me he said let me die from the heart.I hugged his neck and whispered in Shirase's ear, "Kill me, follow your heart."

"Come on, smash me to the bottom of the river." I paused, "Or kill me with a knife."

Shirase answered me in a low voice, "You can't die yet."

Look, what an interesting answer.Is my life and death still in the hands of others?Ridiculous.

Then in the next second, Shirase threw my whole body onto the shore.

I clearly felt the bandages on my back start to seep through with blood.

oh?Are you starting to lose your patience, Shirase?

Will it do something I'm looking forward to?

However, it does not.

The leader wants to dig a corner and bring Zhongyuan Zhong also over.Really poor sheep, what a good breeding society/livestock base.

The spit of the barbarian, the resurrection of the leader of the previous generation...

When it comes to the ancestors, Shirase is really indifferent, there is no warmth at all, what a loyal dog.

His gaze with that slug was different, Shirose's eyes would glow when he looked at him.The simple-minded slug obviously misunderstood, Shirose was always greedy for his abilities.

In the end, the leader subdued the slug, which is not a surprising result.

I'm tired of these tricks.After looking for it all day and night, he broke open the door directly, but he didn't expect Shirase to make desserts.Everything is mine there.I took dessert away as a matter of course.

As a corresponding gift, the report was given to Izu Shirase as a matter of course.

Look at him, he can't say anything, but his body is still very honest and finished for me.

Today's diving is not finished yet.

So I went down the river happily, and pointed out that Shirase could only enter the water by name.Otherwise I will be angry, obviously my subordinates are much more obedient than Shirase and Slug.

He came, with the anger of being annoyed by me.

Come on, drown me in the river with your hidden murderous intent and malice.

"..." Shirase stared at me indifferently, threw me ashore and left.

Why, such a good opportunity has been delivered to you, and you haven't made a choice yet.

"You'll be in trouble if you die."

"Don't forget, it was just the three of us that night."

"You are the best target and my best talisman."

Shirase said softly.

"Lose me and you as a witness, from the most beloved subordinate of the former leader."

I retorted maliciously, trying to find clues from Shirase's calm face.

No, nothing.

Shirase came close to me, and he looked at me condescendingly and indifferently, "After you die, my weakness will really become my weakness."

"I never do not maliciously speculate on others."

"Shirose, I really worry too much. With such a good knife like you, how can the leader be willing to embarrass your weakness."

"So kill me."

I smiled, a genuine smile.

Shirase was silent for a while, "...Although I really don't want to admit it, I hope you are alive."

"In order to avoid your weakness that may not necessarily encounter you in the future, are you just deceiving me like this?"

"Dazai, no one can compare to you when it comes to observing people's hearts."

"You can't even tell my lies from the truth?"

"Who made Shirase like to speak truth and lies?"

"Is Shirase still unwilling to tear off his mask? He is full of lies."

I can never guess Shirase's signs of action.Without any warning, he can chat and laugh with you freely one second, and he can do it the next second.She looks very much like the deadly wife in the hit Japanese drama, watching her husband with a smile on her face, and at the moment of reciting the past to prepare the dishes, her eyes are so cold that even spring can't melt it.

I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, it was really hitting me mercilessly.

"Dazai."

I can not hear.

"When you expect to exchange your sincerity for your sincerity, have you ever thought about what you can give to others? I jump into the river to save you again and again, report for you, and clean up the mess for you. What do I get?"

"All I got was your malice."

"I'm a businessman in your eyes who is good at exchanging feelings with clearly marked prices."

"But businessmen don't do business at a loss."

"You know, no one is nice to others for no reason."

"People's hearts are complicated, but love is mutual."

"If I were you, I would catch it and let the other party get used to treating you hopelessly..."

I climbed/ got up and walked out not intending to listen to his nonsense anymore.

"You're a coward."

The author has something to say:

The heart is a bit complicated, and Dazai's perspective stops here. What I think in my mind and what I write seem to be different, contemplating.

ps. Shirose is an indifferent person from the beginning to the end, but this does not prevent him from paying the feelings with a clear price tag. He is willing to exchange these feelings for something (a bit weird), but the human heart is inherently complicated, how can it be possible after investing in feelings? Nothing fluctuates. (...I gave up and confused myself.)

In addition, Dr. Mori is actually hoping to use Shirase to emotionally (lock) Dazai in Hong Kong and Hei, because Dazai actually has a lot of elusiveness.So every time Dr. Mori sees Shirase, he will test how far their relationship has progressed.

(emmm, I'll fix it some other day, sigh... the more I write, the more chaotic it gets)