Reborn Professional Soldier

In the third month after Lin Feng went abroad, Lin Yunhai received a notice from the Saint-Cyr Military Academy in France, saying that Lin Feng had a training accident in an earlier training and was seriously injured. He is currently undergoing rescue, but it should be gone. This phone call made Lin Yunhai very confused. He knew about the training of war command subjects. Although there was some physical training, it was basically written knowledge, and with his son's skills, there was no reason why ordinary training would cause injuries.

Then, he soon knew, what did Lin Feng do behind his back?

This kid didn't go on his way, but went to the special training center again! ?

If someone was in front of him, Lin Yunhai was sure that he would definitely get a slap if he raised his hand.

It's been a long, long time since I've been so angry!

Lin Feng's choice was indeed beyond Lin Yunhai's expectations.

When Lin Feng chose to join the special forces, Lin Yunhai felt that it didn't matter, he really should go in and practice.He knew the training method of the special forces, that is, it was a bit hard, and even if he was accidentally injured, it was a minor injury, not life-threatening. He thought that his son should go inside and temper for a while, and then he would come out like a man.

Later, Lin Feng joined the "Peregrine Falcon" with actual missions, and Lin Yunhai began to worry, but it was too late after all.Lin Feng's information had already been handed over, and someone came to him and told him that he gave birth to a good son, and most importantly, "Peregrine Falcon" was not under his jurisdiction, and he couldn't get involved even if he wanted to.He persuaded and persuaded, worried and worried, and finally had no choice but to turn these worries into pride, telling himself not to underestimate his son in the future, this child is really ambitious.

It was hard to get through three years.Lin Yunhai rejoiced that his son was still alive and well, but at the same time worried about the few books he found at home. With the combination of the two, Lin Yunhai finally decided to drive him to France, the farther the better.

I thought I could sleep peacefully now, as long as I use the next two years to find a good unit for my son, or just put it by my side, I'm sure I'll take one step at a time, maybe I'll become a general at an older age than a father like him morning.

But after this phone call, Lin Yunhai discovered what it was called?His son is bewildered, isn't he?Why do you want to go to the special forces with all your heart?Not dying fast enough, is it?

Taking a step back, no matter how ambitious my son is, no matter how ideal he is, the special forces are only one-sided. Now all the people watching are special forces, but if something really happens, the large troops in the military region are more able to decide victory.Leaving aside the crowd tactics, no matter how powerful their special forces are, if a missile passes by, how can they die or die? Why don't they understand?

Lin Yunhai couldn't figure it out, he couldn't figure it out.

After getting angry, Lin Yunhai began to worry about his son's injury again, so he called to ask about the situation, and after a lot of talking, the phone was handed to his son's bedside. Talk, let's deal with this matter.

Lin Yunhai is confident that he can convince his son.

Lin Feng's injury was actually not really serious, he didn't really hurt any internal organs, but after all, he had a big hole in his stomach, after being rescued, he had to lie on the hospital bed for three days before he could move.

In fact, no one was to blame for this injury, Lin Feng knew that it was himself who was a little crazy.

The training center arranged a 100-meter life-and-death line training that day.Lin Feng has been exposed to this training when he was "Peregrine Falcon". The distance of 100 meters, setting various obstacles, climbing barbed wire, crossing single-plank bridges, drilling ditches, climbing high walls, etc., are just like ordinary military training, the only difference is Machine guns were firing from within one meter of his body, with live ammunition, and if the specified time was exceeded, the bomb behind him would explode.

Lin Feng's ability was affirmed by the instructor, and he arranged for him to go up first. After a set of military movements, he was so smooth that there was no mistake at all. Only Lin Feng knew that there was something wrong with his body, and there were dull pains in several places. It should be related to these It is related to the temperature drop of the day.

But after that, the instructor asked him to confront the second soldier who came over.

This is a special soldier from Turkey. He is very powerful. To be honest, he is no worse than Lin Feng, but Lin Feng's personality is more liked by the instructors, so he became the No.1 in the training team.

Lin Feng really doesn't understand why these people have such a big temper, they have to fight for the first place, it was the same with Zhuzi back then, and now it is the same with Turkey, every time there is a confrontation, they will fight to the death.But I was so desperate that I didn't give up the first place. Although I didn't do it deliberately, my actual behavior was that you are stronger and I am stronger, and I will always overwhelm you!

The two fought for a long time, and their clothes were covered with sewage. It was real sewage, not the muddy water from peregrine training. The sewage contained bomb fuel and smelled of gunpowder.

Perhaps it was stimulated by the smell of gunpowder smoke, the two of them were really fired up, and they both fell into the sewage at the same time when they collided for the last time.

Lin Feng thought it would stop at first, but when the boy stood up again, he covered his waist, and with his other hand, he seemed to have picked out a handful of military thorns from the mud, the kind with grooves.

Lin Feng clearly saw it, and he could dodge it, but he was so dazed that he confronted the other party head-on, holding an inexplicable thought, insisting on the other party's submission.

However, after all, the strengths of the two sides are similar. There is a big difference between empty-handed and empty-handed and empty-handed. With just a few movements, the military stab pierced into his stomach.

Perhaps, the other party didn't really want to attack, but was a little too excited by the previous series of competitions, and was inexplicably scratched on the waist, so angry, he made a deadly move, and when he reacted, it really hurt people Afterwards, the boy was also frightened and fell to the ground.

After that, Lin Feng was fished out of the sewage by a group of people and sent to the hospital.

Looking back afterwards, everyone was a little crazy during those days. If Lin Feng was given a weapon at that time, Lin Feng thought to himself that maybe it would be true.

In fact, Lin Feng knows that his mentality has changed now. Peregrine Falcon has killed too many people in those years. When he went to the special training center in France, he also worked hard to create a real battlefield environment, so that Lin Feng could hide all those violent and bloodthirsty factors in his heart. It rushed out, and there was a kind of arrogance that people's lives count as farts, and if they are killed, they will be killed.

It's true, the atmosphere in the training center is too cruel, and sometimes Lin Feng even thinks it's more cruel than that of Peregrine Falcon. At least Peregrine Falcon gave him hope, but what the training center taught them was despair.

When training the subjects of "escape" and "resistance", Lin Feng even felt that he might as well die. If he fell into the hands of the enemy and was really tortured like that, he would definitely feed himself a bullet first.

The training schedule was too tight and he was suddenly injured and took a rest. Lin Feng was forced to lie in bed for many days before he crawled out of the hopeless atmosphere.

The mood here has not been sorted out yet, so his father called him and asked him why he changed his major without authorization. He told him that the special forces looked powerful and majestic, and that their actual actions were limited. If they really had ideals, they would be in the military area. It may not be impossible, and you can also go to the General Staff, where you can also realize your ambitions?

In fact, it would be a lie to say that Lin Feng did not hesitate.He just came back from the ghost gate, and now he is still lying on the bed, coupled with the endless despair, Lin Feng really thinks that his father is right.

But if he chooses the flat and bright path, what about Zhuzi?In fact, he himself understands that since he chose not to let go, he actually has no way out.

He went to the military region, right under his father's nose, let's not talk about those intrigues, political marriages, etc., can his father let him be with a man?Certainly not, he had nowhere to go except to go to a relatively closed environment where his father couldn't control him.

After the phone call with his father broke up unhappy, Lin Feng completely cut off contact with his family. He was afraid of being persuaded, afraid that he would not be persistent enough, and afraid that he would choose to compromise amidst his father's persuasion and his mother's crying.

Lin Feng realized for the first time that he was really fucking unfilial!

This new life is really just for myself, to go where I want to go, to choose the way I want to go, to love the person I want to love, and the wishes of my parents have been put at the end.

After Lin Feng could get out of bed, sometimes he would sit by the window, look at the sky in the distance, and quietly think about how he will live tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, what he will say when he sees people two years later, and think about himself sooner or later. One day he will kneel down in front of his parents, beg their forgiveness, and tell them that he chose this path himself, and he will bear all the consequences.

Even if it's good, even if it's bad...

******

Time passed quickly, and Jizhu Karma suddenly discovered that the distance between him and Lin Feng was not far away. After the old players left, he continued to lead the team for more than half a year, and began to face distribution problems. Way out to struggle.

It was a strange thing that Mr. Tan was still busy with his team members. Xingfu, Luo Shao, Lu Changshao and others were all taken out to meet the future leaders, only Jizhu Karma was not.

Sometimes, Jizhu Karma wondered if he would stay in this army, so Tantouer couldn't take care of him for the time being?

Therefore, for quite a long period of time, Jizhu Karma was quite self-satisfied.

……

But soon, this mood was broken by reality.

Tan Guohua, who had been busy for a long time that day, finally let go of his heart.He was sitting in the office, drinking tea, thinking in his mind that most of the problems of the eight team members in this group had been solved, and the next one was the one he didn't want to face.

He called Jizhu Karma to the office. The young man still had a slight smile on his face, and his eyes gleamed with light that he hadn't seen for a long time, and he stared at him shiningly.

At that moment, Tan Guohua felt as if his chest had been stabbed, and he couldn't utter a single word that was wrapped in his mouth.Looking at each other silently, Jizhu Karma seemed to gradually realize that something was wrong with his complexion, so that face gradually became gloomy.

After a long time, Tan Guohua squeezed out a few words: "Your business is difficult."

Jizhu Karma's brows were slightly wrinkled, the corners of his mouth were tight, and he didn't speak.

Tan Guohua was a little guilty, and rarely dared to look at his soldiers. He took the tea, took a sip, and after two seconds, took another sip, and finally waited for Jizhu Karma's questioning.

"Why?" Jizhu Karma's expression changed from shock to bewilderment at the beginning, and he didn't even know where to ask.

Tan Guohua raised his head and said, "It was my negligence. I forgot to tell you before. Actually..." After a pause, Tan Guohua thought about it before saying, "The country has a policy. You can go back to Tibet to mention it."

"..." Jizhu Karma blinked, with a confused expression on his face, "Didn't I see several officers from our place? When I was studying, many of the instructors were Tibetans."

"That's different." Tan Guohua sighed, "You will be promoted to the school level in a short time after you go out from here, and you will be of great use in the army. The country must hope that you will go back to support Tibet. There is a shortage of talents like you over there. .”

"Can't stay in the team?"

"No."

"Need to go back to Tibet?"

"Correct."

Jizhu Karma stopped talking, stared at Tan Touer with rounded eyes, and nodded after a long while: "Okay! What troops are you going to?"

Tan Guohua was a little surprised, but didn't know what to say for a while.

Jizhu Karma held the corner of his mouth and smiled, touched the back of his head and glanced at the stool. Seeing that Mr. Tan didn't say anything, he sat on it spontaneously and explained: "Actually, when I first came out to serve as a soldier, I thought about it sooner or later. When I returned to Tibet, all the fellow villagers who graduated from our school were assigned back. It’s just that I have forgotten my original thoughts a little these days after I came out. Since the policy is arranged in this way, it’s okay.”

"Tibet frontier garrison, the position is very important, and the military area is also very large. When you get there, you will start as a company commander, and you will be guaranteed a promotion after you adapt." Tan Guohua nodded. It's tough outside.The most important thing was that he was afraid that Jizhu Karma would feel that it was unfair that after so many years of life and death for "Peregrine Falcon", he would be assigned back in the end.For Tan Guohua, he really felt sorry for the child.

Jizhu Karma nodded, with a faint smile on his face, pretending to be listening carefully.

Tan Guohua looked at the smile on Jizhu Karma's face and sighed secretly. He looked at Jizhu Karma sincerely and said: "I am not familiar with the military region in Tibet, but I have been busy with Xingfu and their affairs a few days ago. Now, I will wholeheartedly solve your problem, and I will definitely find you a good team."

"Well, thank you, Mr. Tan, I will trouble you about this matter." Jizhu Karma sat up straight and planned to leave.

But Tan Guohua stood up one step ahead of him, walked around the table and patted him on the shoulder, and said earnestly: "Actually, this matter is not absolute. There are always some people whose words have weight and can break the system. It's a pity that Lin Feng is now abroad , otherwise you can find his father through him, and you will have no problem staying in the Southwest Military Region."

Jizhu Karma's fist clenched tightly, and a corner of his heart collapsed inexplicably, but he didn't know the specific reason, and he just didn't like to hear this.

"Okay." Tan Guohua pressed his hand heavily, "Don't worry, you must tell me if you have any ideas. If you really want to stay, I will find someone else. I think General Lin is also willing to help .”

"No need." Jizhu Karma stood up, shaking his head, "Tibet is very good, I will go there."

"Sure?"

"Sure!" Jizhu Karma nodded, looked at Tan Guohua with burning eyes, smiled brightly after a while, "If you let me choose between going to Tibet or staying in Peregrine Tigan, I will definitely stay here, but... As he said, Jizhu Karma shook his head, and emphasized his tone as if convincing himself, "I like my hometown very much, and I am willing to go back."

After leaving Peregrine Falcon's office, Jizhu Karma's face completely collapsed.

What I said earlier is true, but I am not reconciled and feel very disappointed.

He was disappointed that he really couldn't stay here, and he was not reconciled to the fact that he really didn't have the ability and luck to stay here.

The honors and medals he received here were really nothing. He had no use for anything other than adding some luster to his own file.

For a moment, looking at the road ahead, Jizhu Karma didn't know which direction to go, so he just stood there, sat cross-legged, and looked up at the sky.

Lin Feng went abroad for further studies, and the man who came back must be more radiant than before, and he didn't even have the ability to control his destiny, such a comparison made him uneasy.He always hoped that when that man was striding forward, he would have the same speed as him, so that he could walk out wonderfully on his own life path.

Before today, he had always had a small hope that he would not lose to Lin Feng when we met again, and even hoped that he would be better than Lin Feng at that time.

But today...

Jizhu Karma wanted to laugh, for today's conversation, for the starting point of the future, he laughed out loud.It turns out that this is the starting point of unfairness.Laughing that I still retain that self-esteem up to now, and I don't want to hug Lin Feng and the big tree behind him.

Perhaps, Jizhu Karma tried to comfort himself, there is nothing wrong with returning to Tibet, and the border guards are not bad, didn't Mr. Tan say it?I can be promoted to school very soon, in fact, it is not bad to struggle there.

Anyway... no matter how sad I am, I can't change anything.

In the days that followed, Touer Tan kept his word. Jizhu Karma didn't know how much work Touer Tan spent behind the scenes, but he did meet his future chiefs, Brigadier Sangji and Commander Tashi, Jizhu Karma knew that it would not be acceptable to invite these leaders out of Tibet.

Many years later, Jizhu Karma still remembered the long passage that Brigadier Sangji said...

"Zhuma, you are a great young man. Your place is too closed. If I had known that we Tibetans were here, I would have reserved you as soon as possible. What I lack is a talent like you. Believe me, It is better to follow me than you to stay outside. I will definitely give you the most important job and work hard to cultivate you. As long as two years, no, one year, I will let you go to school, and I will let you stand on a higher level. In a useful position, really do something!"

"Zhuma of Phuntsok's family, I like you, we will definitely do something really great!"

The frankness of the Tibetans soothed the uneasiness in Jizhu Karma's heart. Under the ecstatic eyes of Brigadier Sangji, Jizhu Karma seemed to be fished out of the water by this man, and began to yell breathing fresh air.

He thought it was great. Looking at Brigadier Sangchi, he knew that his choice was not wrong. Instead of staying outside and doing nothing, it would be better to stand on the land of his hometown and make a real contribution.

Today, he is full of ambition and eager to realize his true value.

So, at the beginning of 2011, Jizhu Karma left the Peregrine Falcon that had served for three years, took his luggage, and boarded the train bound for the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau...

******

Lin Feng's struggle in a foreign country is still going on.

Assessment...test...competition...over and over again.

In this cold and strange land, Lin Feng's heart seemed to be frozen. He lost contact with his family. He seldom even thought about what happened to Zhuzhu now. All he could see now was everything in front of him. His heart turned into a piece of ice, his smile turned into a mask, he lived a life of duplicity and struggle.

Now that I have no way out, I can only move on, use my best grades to prove myself, and convince myself that I will never look back.

Lin Feng's grades are very good. Even in the history of the Saint-Cyr Special Training Center, Lin Feng can be ranked among the top few. His excellence has earned him the respect of the instructors and classmates. Even if Lin Feng does things too hard sometimes, Still can't change that respect.

After Lin Feng was injured, everyone felt that the character of this young man from China seemed to have changed. He began to fight for No.1 unceremoniously, and tried his best with every student who was against him.At the beginning, he was often injured, but gradually, it was the opponent who fell down. Later, the instructor could no longer find anyone who was willing to fight against him.Most importantly, this Chinese is not only excellent in all aspects of military skills, but even his theoretical knowledge is still top-notch. He used his own strength to stand on that altar.

So in the face of such achievements, Saint-Cyr School unprecedentedly extended an olive branch to a student during training, hoping that he could stay in the school as a tutor after graduation.

But Lin Feng refused, very flatly, without even a little hesitation.

Here, Lin Feng has very few friends, only one person who can speak a few words.

It was Jimmy, a sunny boy from the United States, and the first sentence this handsome boy said to him broke his mask...

"Hi, Lin, I know you are in the circle, let's be friends, maybe we can comfort each other."

Typical American speech, although in the army, gays are not allowed in any army.It's a pity that it doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. At least in this area, the Americans are far more open than the Chinese. They openly admit homosexuality and allow homosexuality to join the army. They only made a small premise, that is, please hide it when you are still a soldier. own sexuality.

But God knows, in fact, the gays in the US military may not really hide their sexuality obediently. Many times, they actually join the army to hunt for sex.

After all, there's nowhere more masculine than the military.

There are people out there who they want.

This is the first time someone has spoken to Lin Feng like this. Although the Zhu Zhu he likes is a man, it doesn't mean that he is from the circle.

Lin Feng was very curious, but soon, he chose to ignore Jimmy's words.

After that, Lin Feng found that Jimmy was paying attention to him. When he unconsciously set his eyes on a man's buttocks or waist, he would always look up and see Jimmy's triumphant smile.

Very brilliant and reminded him of the radiant bead.

Moreover, Lin Feng felt that there was a type of person he would never be able to deal with, and that was people who were persistent and clinging to him like puppies.

Jimmy is that kind of person.

So, one year after he came to France, Lin Feng had a new friend. Although that friend always wanted to break this relationship, in Lin Feng's heart, he was indeed his first friend who could tell some secrets.

He needs such a person now.

Perhaps because of Jimmy's influence, Lin Feng began to recall many memories that he deliberately forgot.

Jimmy has a boyfriend in the United States. He thinks that his mind can remain chaste, but his body may not, especially in such a difficult and boring place. He always says that he needs some release to decompress.And Jimmy loves his family very much, he would occasionally take pictures of the whole family and kiss Lin Feng in front of him, telling Lin Feng how much he loves them.

After that, Lin Feng finally chose to make a phone call to his family, but what greeted him was his father's anger. His father told him not to worry about him in the future, since he was so capable, he could arrange his own way out.

Sure enough... this is how the son and father, Commander Lin Yunhailin deal with his unfilial son, since you want to fly solo, then don't even think about returning to the nest.

Then Lin Feng called Tan Touer, wanting to find traces of the beads. After a brief conversation, he found out that the beads had returned to Tibet.

At that time, Lin Feng questioned: "Does he really want to go to Tibet?"

Tantouer replied in confusion: "Maybe."

So, Lin Feng called Bian Hai instead.

Sanhai is the only person he can think of at the moment. Although Sanhai himself has no ability, but he has a senior colonel father who has a great say. It should not be difficult to transfer a Tibetan officer to the Southwest Military Region.

The lack of communication and self-righteous self-righteousness made Lin Feng unknowingly destroy the relationship between himself and Zhuzi for the first time, and also destroyed Zhuzi's ideal.

Although, at that time, he felt that he was doing the right thing.He even happily wanted to call Zhuzhu one last time and tell him what he had done for him.

But he didn't know that his one phone call, one sentence, ruined everything rashly.

In the end, he failed to find the beads, and it was very difficult to find someone by phone across the country, and the beads seemed to have evaporated again, disappearing on the beautiful Qinghai-Tibet Plateau.

*****

Back in Tibet, Jizhu Karma, who has been reused, lived a very chic life. He enthusiastically poured out the knowledge he learned in the military academy and the peregrine falcon, hoping to change the land under his feet, and to truly reflect his own value. .

Now, his career occupies all of him, and he finally understands what Brother Gang said, love is never the only thing for a person.

Lin Feng's existence began to shrink continuously, and he finally lived out his own style.

He talked with the soldiers, discussed decisions with the chiefs, and the joy of being reused made him sing to the moon, let him gallop on the prairie where the edge could not be seen at a glance, and taste the feeling of unlimited freedom. .

At that time, he thought that perhaps only Tibet was really suitable for him. His hometown, where he was born and raised, spoke the familiar Tibetan language, and made jokes unique to Tibetans. A Han man with the same skin color as him, but with a fair face, turned into a special existence.

He is Tibetan, he should belong here.

Half a year after returning to Tibet, Brigadier Sanji was satisfied with Jizhu Karma's performance and began to fulfill his promise. He applied for Jizhu Karma's appointment and made a better foundation for his future. Karma truly stays on the land.

But then, there was no news from the application, and the General Military Region even sent him a notice, a transfer order, telling him that this was a policy error, and the soldiers who came out of Peregrine Falcon should have a place that is more suitable for him, so that It is not indifferent to the cultivation of the army over the years.

The transfer order was sent directly to Brigadier Sanchi. It is typical to cut first and play later, and use force to overwhelm people. Brigadier Sanji protested, but the answer was always vague, even evasive. After running around, Brigadier Sanji confirmed , this matter has indeed left no room for him to fight.

When Jizhu Karma received the transfer order, he was far more surprised and disappointed than Tantouer told him that the Tibetan soldiers must return to Tibetan Tigan.

That day, amidst the sighs of Brigadier Sangji, Jizhu Karma finally cried. He even felt that he was innocently pushed into the water again, and he would never be able to get up again.

This kind of experience, such repeated experiences, made Jizhu Karma complain for the first time.

The day before he left, he got drunk and threw the bottle high into the sky, pointing at the sky amidst the sound of broken glass and yelling, asking why God would always be against him, and why nothing went his way ! ?

He scolded the sky, but he still wanted to leave, and soon, he found the culprit.

The 13th Army in Chongqing belongs to the Southwest Military Region and is stationed in Jiangjin, Chongqing. It is mainly responsible for Tibet, and he was assigned to the reconnaissance regiment, which belongs to the quick response force.

In fact, strictly speaking, this arrangement is very good. The scouts are more conducive to Jizhu Karma’s performance than the Tibetan border garrison. After all, the special forces are a higher level of scouts. Things, all the strength in the body is used.

Moreover, the most interesting thing is that he and Lei Gang are in a reconnaissance regiment, a company commander of the fourth company and a company commander of the sixth company. The companies in charge of each live in the same building, and the company commander’s dormitory is also very close. arrive.

This is a coincidence?of course not!

After he came to Chongqing, Sanhai came over in a hurry, laughed first, gave him a big bear hug, and then asked him if he was satisfied with the arrangement?

Jizhu Karma, who reacted, almost strangled him to death.

Sanhai said again in a daze: "Tell me, why didn't you call me when you were assigned to Tibet? If Lin Feng hadn't found me, I wouldn't have known about it. It took a lot of trouble to transfer you out." Ah, you don't even know how troublesome it is, and in the end, your brigade commander was still unwilling to let him go."

Jizhu Karma's face was completely darkened, she stared at Sanhai and asked, "Why didn't you ask me first?"

Sanhai blinked blankly, and it took a long time before he could speak: "You don't like it? I wanted to give you a surprise..."

Jizhu Karma shook his head, he didn't have the energy to speak, so he just sat on the chair and stopped making any noise.

Sanhai knew that something was wrong with him, so he fell silent, and said after a long time: "Well...Lin Feng said, you must be unhappy inside, and besides...it will not be convenient to meet in the future, so I...I will... ..."

Jizhu Karma interrupted Sanhai's next words by raising his hand, only felt his heart start to feel cold, and a chill came out from the cracks in his bones.

Lin Feng was far abroad, so he found someone to handle the matter. No matter how difficult San Hai said, he still succeeded, but since the moment Peregrine Falcon finished his service, he has been unable to control himself, as if being One wave after another hit, no matter how hard he struggled, he couldn't resist those fierce currents.

This...was the first time that Jizhu Karma truly realized the gap between him and Lin Feng.

Those things, those things that he thought were unimportant, those backgrounds, those backgrounds, would really bring such a big gap between them.

This is reality, this is society, and this is a world that speaks through the background.

So... what is the purpose of fighting to this extent?

Sanhai's visit broke up unhappy, and Jizhu Karma turned around and went to Lei Gang's bedroom with a bottle of wine.

At this moment, he became disheartened.

He drank a lot that day, wiped his tears and asked Lei Gang: "Brother Gang, do you think the background is really important? If we don't get a good father, is this the only way we can live in this life?"

Lei Gang's dormitory is very small, and now the dormitory is full of alcohol, there are five empty white wine bottles piled up under the table, one bottle is drunk by Lei Gang, and the rest are drunk by Jizhu Karma, such a degree , such an amount, even Jizhu Karma would have to get drunk.

Jizhu Karma looked at Lei Gang drunkenly, his eyes were red, and he grabbed Lei Gang's hand and asked, "Why didn't he ask me? I don't want to come here, I really don't want to come, why did he arrange it himself? Brother Gang , I always thought that he understood me and confirmed it all the time, why do I feel now that we don't understand what the other person is thinking at all?"

"You are just too far away." Lei Gang said flatly, stating.

"Wrong!" Jizhu Karma raised his index finger and shook, "I know him, he must be studying now, he must still be so damn good, and then stood in front of me in high spirits, telling me with facts, this is the relationship between us. difference!"

Lei Gang smiled slightly, noncommittal: "Maybe."

"Then what should we do in the future?" Jizhu Karma shook Lei Gang's wrist violently, "Shouldn't I fucking admit that I don't know him at all? Grassroots, his dad is the commander, and my dad is a cattle breeder!?"

Lei Gang sighed: "I thought you would never think of this."

"Huh?" Jizhu Karma blinked, confused.

"So everyone can see the gap between you, only you can't see it."

"Why can't I see it? I can see it! It's just... I don't want to think about it. Brother Gang, let me tell you, really, I really don't think these things are important. I looked down on them before, but now I... If only we were still in Peregrine...how nice it is there...nothing is important, those things behind are not important at all...I like it there...Brother Gang..." Jizhu Karma looked up, streaming Tears asked, "Can we go back?"

Lei Gang's brows were stained with sorrow, and he shook his head with some reluctance: "Zhuzi, it doesn't matter where you are, what matters is you, how did you come to see this gap, or do these facts hit you, do you feel that you are standing?" Can't get up?"

Jizhu Karma frowned slightly, neither shaking his head nor nodding, after a while, he sat up straight, picked up the wine bottle and took a sip with his head up.

He couldn't answer this question, he felt that he should continue to despise all this, but deep down in his heart, he had to admit that he finally began to face all this.

This is the gap between him and Lin Feng, the real gap.

The arrogance of being young and frivolous at the beginning, desperate for love, and despising all worldly rules, was finally completely broken in the nearly two years since he left Peregrine Falcon.

From this moment on, he admitted that he and Lin Feng were really not the same...

That man can be his friend, his comrade-in-arms, but his lover...he has no confidence...

Those backgrounds have now turned into a big mountain, pressing him firmly to the ground, and even breathing has become a luxury.

He raised the bottle and shouted sadly: "Cheers to my dying love!"

Jizhu Karma's desperation and negativity made Lei Gang have to face it squarely.

Such a desperate man made Lei Gang revise his definition of Zhuzi again. Maybe this man has a strong appearance, but in fact, his heart is extremely weak.

He thought, perhaps it was Lin Feng's tolerance in the past that created Jizhu Karma today. He can fearless life and death, and can move forward bravely, but he can't see everything around him clearly. His outlook on life and values ​​were also completely destroyed.

Lei Gang once tried to understand the love between Lin Feng and Jizhu Karma because of his own problems with the Fourth Young Master.He knew how Jizhu Karma pursued Lin Feng passionately, and also knew how tolerantly Lin Feng endured all this.Lin Feng once told him that he likes beads like this, so enthusiastic, so frank, and, moreover, so happy.Zhu Zi is different from everyone else, his single-minded thinking makes him rarely worry, and such a life can be lived chicly.Raymond Lam said