Reborn Professional Soldier

Lin Feng never thought that the mission of Zhuzhu would be so coincidental, it was so coincidental that he was caught off guard.

After Zhuzhu was called away by Tan Touer, Lin Feng continued to read the materials as usual, and went to bed directly when he saw the lights turned off.At the beginning, I kept my eyes open and didn't sleep, mainly because I was afraid that Zhuzhu would harass him when he came back. Later, as time passed, sleepiness surged, and I became confused.

Hearing the whistle on the way, he opened his eyes vigilantly to make a distinction, and then checked the time. It was a few minutes before 12 o'clock... Is there any action?

Lin Feng turned over and got out of bed, and saw a group of people standing under the dim streetlights in the playground downstairs, and the beads were also inside. After gathering, he ran to the warehouse in unison.

He watched until the figure of the team disappeared into the twilight, and after silently sending out a blessing, he returned to the bed and closed his eyes.

Now that I know, no one will suddenly run over at night to kiss and touch...

The next morning, the person who sent out the mission did not come back. This is not surprising. Sometimes the mission can be completed in the same night, and sometimes it takes many days. The main reason is that the information is not accurate enough, or some other variables lead to So Lin Feng did morning exercises as before, and while having breakfast, he was still arranging what he could do today, and finally received a call from his father.

Recently, the old players are facing the problem of reassignment. There are many things that need to be communicated with their family members, so their call restrictions have been changed. The family calls frequently. Lin Feng has also answered a few calls from his mother these days, but his father is the first once.

Lin Yunhai's position makes him like to keep short stories most of the time, just give orders directly, but most of the calls with his own son are more tender, but today he opened his mouth and said: "Your professor came to China two days ago, I invited him to Chengdu , you can come back in two days, I have already greeted your instructors."

"Oh." Lin Feng was noncommittal, and immediately responded. Since everyone came from France, why should he show his face and say hello?This is normal.

"Also... You take back the things together, and then go to France with your professor, and play there for a few days by the way."

Lin Feng's brows tightened instantly: "Isn't it time yet?"

"It doesn't matter whether you come back early or late. You are already in a state of rest, so come back directly, and I will help you with the procedures afterwards."

"I will take care of my own affairs, and I will go back to meet people, but I have no plans to go to France in advance."

"Come back and talk about it."

Lin Feng wanted to nod, but after thinking about it for a while, he still said: "Let's talk about it first, I will handle the procedures for Peregrine Falcon myself." He had to ask for a guarantee. No matter how prosperous he is, he is just a child in front of General Lin, and there must be a way to make him obedient.Actually, he might still be obedient if he waits for other orders, but Lin Feng definitely doesn't want to leave early, the brothers haven't had their farewell wine yet, Zhu Zi is also on a mission outside, who knows if he can make it in two days come back?

Perhaps because he felt his son's tough attitude, Lin Yunhai finally compromised, and after a while of silence, he agreed to Lin Feng's request to handle it himself.

After hanging up the phone, Lin Feng thought the matter was over, went back to pack some simple things, and continued to work on himself, but before noon, Lin Yunhai called again, his attitude was unprecedentedly tough.

"I called Peregrine Falcon and your Commander Wang Hu. The transfer order will be sent to you tomorrow. You should pack your things."

Lin Feng's face turned cold when he heard it.He knew that his father had this ability. When other people saw troublesome things, he could solve them with a phone call, but the problem was his business. He had his own plans. Why is he still so dictatorial after so many years! ?So Lin Feng and Lin Yunhai argued.

At first, Lin Yunhai's tone was relatively soft, and he would express his opinion, but he was pressed by Lin Feng, and finally he said harshly: "This matter has been taken care of for you, and you have to come back if you don't want to!"

Then he hung up the phone with a "click".

After the call ended, Lin Feng sulked alone for a long time. When he was angry, he thought, I really won't go back, what can you do?

Later, he took a nap, and when he woke up again, Lin Feng couldn't get out of bed anymore.

After his anger subsided and he calmed down, Lin Feng realized that this was not something his father would do.Although my father stands in a high position now, after all, he has worked in the army for so many years. He understands the reluctance of the army every time he is transferred or retired, and understands the brotherhood of these men in the army. In fact, my father cherished it very much.

Lin Feng remembered that his father said it more than once, saying: Every December is the season for retiring from the army, and it is also the saddest season in the army.

As for the situation of Peregrine Falcon, his father knew about it. These years of living and dying together, crossing the line of fire, that friendship not only must be cherished by him, Lin Feng, but also his father hopes that he can cherish it.Therefore, there is no reason to force him to leave early...

Lin Feng lay flat on the bed, put his hands behind his head, stared at the ceiling, and began to feel uneasy.

When he realized something was wrong, the feeling of being pinched by someone's neck never disappeared.In fact, vaguely, he already had a guessing direction in his mind.

In this life, Lin Feng asked himself, there is only one choice in his life that he can't openly and frankly, which will make his father angry, and only that one.

Lin Feng lowered his eyes, his eyes passed between his feet, and landed on the bed under his feet, his eyes were slightly flustered.

When did it start showing up?

He asked himself, along the way, he has been very cautious, paying attention to all aspects, sometimes even he finds it annoying, there is no reason that people outside the known will find out.

Moreover, the most important point, even if a brother finds out, there is no reason to find his father.You know, the brothers of Peregrine Falcon can die together, not to mention some same-sex relationships that are shocking, but they are just the same thing after careful study.

Lin Feng tossed and turned for a long time before he remembered his random act.

At that time, he and Zhu Zi went back to award the title, and it was also the initial love. At the craziest time, in order to prove his determination, to tell himself that Zhu Zi was the determination of the man worthy of love, he seemed reckless to dig a hole for himself ——Several books about homosexuality are placed under the bed at home.

Is that it?

Lin Feng gritted his teeth, frowned, his heart sank to the bottom, and he couldn't get up no matter what.

He didn't expect this incident to explode suddenly, he didn't expect his father to block him here, he was uneasy, even not sure, did his father already know that the person was Zhu Zhu?

So what's next?If I still resist stubbornly, what method will my father use?

Heh...it's a good idea, isn't it?

If you can't move your own son, then it must be for another one.

Lin Feng didn't want to think his father was so despicable, but he took it for granted. Putting himself in his shoes, he would actually take necessary measures, wouldn't he?

So... you have to go in the end?Follow father's arrangement to leave here...

Something was burning inside the body, like a piece of paper, turning brown little by little, spreading, rolling, and finally turning black, turning into ashes when touched.

Sure enough... before he could fly alone, his life, everything about him was still under the shadow of his father.

To this day, he still does not have the ability to control his own life.

Lin Feng thought it was funny, he paved a road for himself, a road without turning back, but now when he was really forced to choose, he felt that it shouldn't be like this, this road should be smoother, and there should be more Deep awareness, not the dilemma at the moment.

Lin Feng got up from the bed, walked around the room, then stopped in front of Zhuzhu's bed, raised his hand to stroke the flat dark green quilt back and forth, and his eyes fell on a photo in front of Zhuzhu's desk.

A very old photo, the little boy in the photo has a runny nose, two missing teeth on his smiling face, looking at the camera dumbly, and next to the photo is a photo that is only a quarter of the photo A big-sized headshot, the handsome man is facing forward, his eyes are narrowed with a smile, but his mouth is crooked, his lips are pouting high, making a concealed kissing gesture.

Two photos from different eras are sandwiched in the same photo frame.

The photo was taken by Zhuzhu himself, and the photo frame was bought by Zhuzhu himself. When he put it in by himself, he said to him: "Look, how good I am to you, I don't even think you are ugly, and I want to kiss you. Also, did you see that?" ? See? You're bigger than me, and I'm only a quarter of your size."

Lin Feng raised his hand to cover his eyes, smiled sadly, and tears fell instantly.

In the blurred vision, there are two photos that are obviously out of proportion...

Lin Feng announced the news that he was about to leave. The brothers seemed to have not expected to part so quickly. All seven of them put down their affairs and went to Lin Feng's dormitory.

Lin Feng couldn't remember the whole process. He shed tears and his eyes were red and swollen from crying, but he kept laughing, laughing in everyone's tears, and crying in everyone's laughter.

In this life, for Lin Feng, if there is anything stronger than the love with Zhu Zi, it is these brothers.

They survived the hellish half-year forced training together. They set out on their first mission together. After the murder, they were embraced by warm chests one by one. They hugged each other for warmth in the cold night. They walked hand in hand amidst the hail of bullets. Singing to the moon and ideals, they kept talking nonsense and smiling wretchedly.

Each, each one is so vivid, deeply rooted in his life, and will be unforgettable for a lifetime.

Hou Xiaolong said: We must keep in touch in the future, if anyone does not contact, I will abolish him.

Tong Youhua said: I still remember the first time we met, you still want to resist, why don't you still be easily captured by me?

Shen Chen said: No matter where we go in the future, the brotherhood will never change.

Yang Baibai said: Xiaofeng, you must take care of your body and take good care of those old injuries. I will visit you when I am free.

Zheng Taiguo said: I will miss you.

Shen Shen said: brother.

Lei Gang said: Take care...

Lin Feng cried until his eyes were blurred, and he kept laughing, but no matter how much he laughed, he couldn't stop his tears. He was hugged by Shen Chen, and he kept wiping away his tears and laughing with his head down.

That night, Lin Feng wrote a letter to Zhu Zi.

He told him that he loves him, that he hopes to do something for their future, that he can grow up as soon as possible, that when they meet again, they will never be affected by external factors again, and that this separation will not be in vain. It does not represent the ending, I hope this is just a process, a process of growing independently of each other.

He hoped that he would wait for him, that the two years of separation could strengthen this relationship, that their love could overcome time.

Also, he really loves him...

Lin Feng left.

He left suddenly.

When everyone was unprepared, they left Peregrine just like that.

When the base of Peregrine Falcon is far behind, and in the rearview mirror, the brothers who see him off become smaller and smaller and gradually disappear.

Lin Feng covered his face and began to cry.

Reluctant, unwilling, unwilling.

In the end, he didn't see Zhuzhu, and he saw the man for the last time.

******

For Jizhu Karma, Lin Feng's sudden departure has already exceeded his last limit.

For a simple task of crossing the border to kill drug dealers, he lay in ambush in the deep mountains and old forests for three days, but in the end the other party seemed to have received the wind and did not show up.So he squatted in the mountains for three days in vain.

When he returned to the base exhausted.What was waiting for him was the empty room in the building, and a letter, a farewell letter from Lin Feng, which was handed over to him by Lei Gang.

Zhu Zi felt that his performance at that time was not so much sadness as that he had been too surprised and had no reaction. He looked at the sad expressions of his comrades who heard the news, and saw the sympathy in Brother Gang's eyes. Squeeze tight, turn around and enter the house.

He finished reading the letter, word for word, and when he finished reading the last word, liquid flowed from his eye sockets.

Lin Feng said that he really loved him...

At that moment, sadness surged, and the heart felt like it was being torn apart.

He hurriedly climbed onto the bed, wrapped himself tightly with the quilt, as if he was scared when he was a child, from head to toe, then bit the back of his hand tightly, hiding all his tears and cries under the blanket into the dark.

It turns out... this is the feeling of being apart, the chest hurts so badly that I can hardly breathe.I don't even want to be enlightened or seen by others, I just hope that even this kind of sadness is for myself.

I love you too, I really love you.

He wanted to tell Lin Feng, he wanted to tell him personally, at least before the separation, he hoped that he could use such words to deliver the nutrients for the future so as to survive the two years of separation.

But without preparation, and without even seeing him for the last time, Lin Feng...he left...

A night of sleeplessness and sadness made Jizhu Karma call in sick the next day.

He has a low-grade fever, but that's not the point. The point is that his eyes are too ugly. At this moment, he doesn't want to deal with the caring greetings from his comrades.

He moved his own bedding to Lin Feng's bed, changed the clothes, books, and all the utensils to Lin Feng's side, and then he lay on the bed, closed his eyes, absorbing what was left in the room, the few, Lin Feng's smell.

Lin Feng's sudden departure made Zhu Zi feel a little depressed, and she still called for sick leave on the third day.He didn't want to go out, he didn't want to see anyone, he didn't even want to eat.

At noon, someone knocked on the door, Zhu Zi opened the door as if nothing had happened, took the lunch box handed over by Brother Gang, and put it on the table with his backhand.

He doesn't want to eat.

Lei Gang didn't leave this time, he walked into the room and closed the door behind his back.

He told Jizhu Karma: "You are not yet dead. The place he went to is very safe. The only thing that can separate you is your lack of self-confidence. It's just two years, it doesn't mean anything."

Jizhu Karma leaned on the bed frame, his face extremely haggard. He glanced at Lei Gang and said weakly, "I'm different from you."

Lei Gang narrowed his eyes, he didn't understand what Zhu Zi said, but he could vaguely think of it.

Jizhu Karma said again: "I don't understand how your relationship with that person is, but if I heard correctly, you seem to be able to go to the Ministry of Security, but you chose to go to Chongqing, Brother Gang, are you sure?" Do you really love that person?"

To put it bluntly, the current Jizhu Karma is like a hedgehog, he dares to hurt anyone in order to protect himself.

Lei Gang bit a line on his cheek, he looked deeply at Zhu Zhu, turned to leave, and said a word before opening the door: "At least Lin Feng is safe."

"If you don't think he's safe, go and stay with him! Coward!"

The hostility in Lei Gang's eyes suddenly gushed out, he walked back and grabbed Zhu Zhu's collar, staring at him.

"Coward!" Zhu Zi smiled and continued indifferently. "You are a coward, let me tell you, you will regret your choice sooner or later, just like me. Self-esteem is nothing! Who stipulated that only peregrines will have the best way out!?"

"Jizhu Karma." Lei Gang's eyes narrowed, "You don't need to stab me. It's not your turn to take care of my affairs. I don't know if you will regret it later, but I tell you, you fucking Don't let love make you look like a human being! Look at your current virtues, look at yourself, do you think highly of yourself? If you want to say that you are a coward, you are the coward!"

"You..." Jizhu Karma became furious, and pushed Lei Gang hard, but Lei Gang grabbed him even tighter, causing him to stagger.

Lei Gang sneered and said: "I tell you, love is never the whole of a person's life. If you are still alive, you have to find your own position. And..." Lei Gang narrowed his eyes and approached him, and said in a low voice, "I Really disappointed, I think Lin Feng will be very disappointed seeing you like this now. Next time you go on a mission, be careful, don't lose your life."

After saying this, Lei Gang let go of his hand, turned and walked out.

Jizhu Karma watched the door close in front of his eyes, held on to the bed frame, and smiled wryly.

In fact, he doesn't like himself now, but why does everyone think that he must be strong to be a man?Can't he even have sadness?It's only two days, two days, don't you give yourself time to feel sorry for yourself?Is it true that a man must never be defeated to be the strongest?

He is not Lei Gang, nor Lin Feng, he can't learn, he is just a human being, a man who can cry and laugh because of his feelings.

He needs a little time to transition, just a little time is enough...

******

Lin Feng returned home, his father and mother were as usual, but he saw the few books that had been put on the bookshelf from under the bed.

He met the professor of military science from France, had a meal together, and had a good impression of each other.Professor Jacques Dan was also very interested in the birth of his Chinese special forces, and asked a lot of related things. Lin Feng picked and picked, and gave answers in a non-essential way.

Lin Feng didn't spend much time at home. For nearly a week, he accompanied Professor Jacques Dan around, accompanied him to inspect the Chinese army, and visited some nearby tourist spots.

During the period, he called Zhuzi, and the puppy's mood was unexpectedly calm, and Lin Feng didn't want to say much. Many things were clearly expressed in that letter, and he just told Zhuzi that he was leaving soon.

Half a month later, Lin Feng and Professor Jacques Dan went to France together, accompanied by 11 Chinese students, most of them were people with background behind them, they went to France mainly for gold plating, and two were exchange students from the National Defense University born.

The Saint-Cyr Military Academy in France is the military academy where Lin Feng studied. It is well-known internationally and is also one of the most important military academies in France, just like the National Defense University in China.

As an army branch, Saint-Cyr Military Academy is actually very suitable for Lin Feng to study, and he can further study and study the army's war command.

However, Lin Feng made a new choice after studying at Saint-Cyr Military Academy for a month. This place is not suitable for him. He needs to find a discipline that is more suitable for his future development, so he had a detailed discussion with Professor Jacques Dan.

Soon, Lin Feng was transferred to the Special Forces Training Center of Saint-Cyr Military Academy.

There, Lin Feng once again experienced a cruel period in his life.

As a soldier in the south of China, Lin Feng is actually not very cold-resistant.The special training center is located in the Alps. It is very cold in winter, and the temperature difference between day and night is large. After sunset, the temperature can drop by more than 10 degrees quickly.The reason why they built the field school here is very simple, it is to improve the survival and combat ability of special forces in the cold conditions.

look!The situation of this military academy coincides with the strategic requirements of Peregrine Falcon in the southwest region. For Lin Feng, there is no better place than this.

As a soldier who came out of the peregrine falcon, Lin Feng once again showed his brilliance. During the training, his grades were among the best, and the "SERE" training content that made all the soldiers suffer. For Lin Feng, except for the process. It was a little tough, but not enough to dispel half of his persistence.

"SERE" is composed of the first letters of the four words "survival", "avoidance", "resistance" and "escape".Whether it was eating any disgusting and hard-to-swallow food during "survival", or resisting with bare hands without a weapon during "dodging", or all the tortures he faced during "resistance", Lin Feng endured it almost without rebounding. .

Of course, no one knew that with such brutal training and weather, Lin Feng's old injuries were always harassing him.

After the military training period similar to domestic colleges and universities ended, Lin Feng received the commendation of the outstanding special officer, and at the same time began to learn more professional and targeted knowledge of special command.

Lin Feng has his own ideas, and it's not that he likes to hurt himself, but he has to do it.The love Peregrine gave him is too deep, and every time he thinks about it, it is so warm. This warmth coincides with the future he and Zhuzi are looking forward to, so no matter how hard the process is, he must persevere to the end.

He had to use this time to let himself really grow wings.

******

Jizhu Karma has somewhat forgotten the days, just as Lei Gang said, life still has to go on, and time will not stop for anyone.

His decadence lasted a total of two and a half days, and when he walked out of that room again, he became the second assaulter and vice-captain of the current main team of Peregrine Falcon.

Returning to that position, he must be responsible to himself and the players.

Life is the same, eating, sleeping, training, and missions.The only change is that the old players left one after another.

After Lin Feng, Guoguo left, Lei Gang left, Jian Liang also left, and disappeared in his life one by one, and then met new brothers.

Just like Lin Feng and his group, these old team members were also separated by four or four, and they took the new team members on missions.

Jizhu Karma and Lu Changshao were assigned to a team, he became the captain, and Lu Changshao was the deputy team.On this point, Jizhu Karma is quite satisfied, at least he is now a real captain, unlike Lin Feng, who has been a temporary captain at most.

Perhaps because of the increased pressure after becoming the captain, Jizhu Karma gradually became less irritable and cautious in speaking.Some sharp things were worn away unknowingly, and became deeper when he was at a loss.

Jizhu Karma actually didn't want to make himself so ugly, he also tried to rebound, but he didn't even have the mood to persist.

Therefore, he could only let himself continue to sink, and such a change was unexpectedly liked by Tan Touer.

Tan Tou'er said that now he is like a captain, like a man who can carry all the burdens, not the stupid boy that Lin Feng was still at that time.

Therefore, Jizhu Karma felt a pain in his heart when he was stabbed by Lin Feng's words. He listened to songs all night and smoked a lot.

Lin Feng didn't call him again, and the audio between them was cut off completely. If it wasn't for the fact that he was still living in Lin Feng's bed today, there would still be many traces of Lin Feng's stay around him, and those profound Sometimes Jizhu Karma even felt that Lin Feng had never appeared in his life.

When a person's depression reached the extreme, Jizhu Karma began to be eager to talk. He told Xingfu about himself and Lin Feng, which frightened the honest man, but at the same time he found a safe tree hole.

One day, when the two talked about Lin Feng again, Xingfu said that there might be a song that suits you.

Jizhu Karma asked him what the song was.

Xingfu said that missing is a pain that can breathe.

……

Missing is pain that can breathe...

It lives in every corner of my body...

Humming your love song hurts, reading your letter hurts, even silence hurts...

For quite a long time, Jizhu Karma was particularly obsessed with this song. As long as he calmed down, he would hum, just hum this sentence, over and over again, those songs, that letter, and that depression The thoughts in my heart seem to be deeply contained in the lyrics of this song.

Sometimes, Jizhu Karma really felt that it was incredible and very interesting. This song was written for himself.

Soon, he felt that the second half of the lyrics also suited him very well.

……

My smile is fake, my soul is floating...

I wish you were here, I swear I won't make you wait...

Accompany whatever you want to do.

I am becoming more and more like a shell, afraid of being touched by others...

It will be good if you come back...