Plan carefully

When my uncle went to the police station to pick me up in a panic, I was holding a bunch of branches and staring silently at a certain road construction worker.Coming out of the police station, the uncle who had been holding back his anger for a long time finally yelled, "An Ran, what do you want to do, you? It stopped a few days ago and started fighting with the workers on the side of the road. You have to deal with it if you get it up. There are punishments, isn't it nothing to find trouble?"

"He digs my tree," I discerned.

"Your tree? Which tree is yours? You have to dig the trees on both sides of the road expansion. If you don't let people move it, how can people build the road?...Throw away the branches in your hand, don't scratch my car gone."

Later, I didn't take my uncle's car and went home by myself.

Wu Yue saw me coming back with a handful of branches and asked me what it was.I thought about it and said, "The message tree, that is, there will be no more signals in the future..."

Wu Yue looked at my expression, helped me by the arm and pushed me onto the sofa, "Needless to say, it must have something to do with my younger siblings again... It doesn't matter if you leave other things here, as long as it has something to do with him, you start fall ill……"

When I rushed over and pushed the big brother who was digging the tree aside, I really lost control.So many people looked at me and yelled at the dead body of a tree that was half down on the side of the road and thought I was crazy.They don't know what this tree means to me. It grows at the beginning of meeting someone. It has no characteristics but is unique. It blooms with copper and iron flowers that will not fade, all from my gentle and silent lover. hand.

I carefully picked off the two remaining "flowers" on the branch, and absently told Wu Yue about these flowers on this tree.In fact, Wu Yue knows many trivial matters between Mu Yu and I. Although I am not a little girl, I tell my girlfriend everything, but there are often no secrets between men.During those happy days, the four of us often ate together and talked about the mountains. Before ordering, I had to tell his siblings' taboos, and Wu Yue was tired of hearing it.Mu Yu doesn't talk much and doesn't have a strong sense of presence, Wu Yue seldom troubles him, but that hooligan has never had a lower limit to entertain me, especially when Mu Yu is not around, he can be fascinated by the dots and spots on my body.Occasionally, I would seem to complain but show off and talk about Mu Yu, and Wu Yue would give me countless envious and jealous eyes.

Now when my good friend looks at me, he is either pity or fear. If I knew it earlier, I would have listened to him. When I love, take it easy.

As soon as I had this thought, I raised my hand and gave myself a mouthful. Whoever said we broke up, none of us said it was too much.Wu Yue was so frightened that he quickly grabbed me, "An Ran, what the hell are you doing? Spare brother!"

I stared at Wu Yue, afraid that he wouldn't believe it: "We didn't break up at all... It's just that we got separated, and I'll stand here waiting for him, and he will come back to me."

"Yes, you have no points. Didn't he still say he loves you all the time? The premise is that you are well!" Wu Yue deliberately emphasized the last few words.

"Yeah, but why didn't he have any news at all? You think that bastard forgot?" I lowered my head in frustration, and after a while, I realized something was wrong. When I looked up, I saw Wu Yue staring at me vigilantly. .

All the strength in my body dissipated, I waved my hand, "It's okay, Wu Yue, I'm fine, just let it out, don't be nervous..."

Wu Yue looked at me for a long time before he felt relieved and patted his heart, "Damn, An Ran, can you stop playing? You're not crazy, I'm going crazy first..."

At the beginning of May, my unit organized a tour, but I excused myself by saying that I was not in good health and didn't want to go.In fact, I don’t think there is a big problem with my body. I fainted just once. I have had other symptoms before, and I gradually recovered. Now I know that there is something wrong with my heart. Run west.

Xiao Li lobbied for a long time, talking about how wonderful the ancient city of Fenghuang is, with fresh air, wooden buildings on the waterfront, and hardworking and kind-hearted ethnic minority compatriots. I laughed and said I knew, but I didn't want to go.

What if I go alone to the place I promised someone to go together?

Later Xiao Li said, if you don’t go, I won’t go either.Looking at me with a provocative expression, I don't know what to do, whether to go or not, can this still threaten me?Then, she went on to say, I drag you to dinner every day, it's annoying you to death.

I advised her, "Li Er, play where you should, do what you should do, don't waste your saliva and life with me!"

Xiao Li turned his head stubbornly, "I am willing!"

"I'm not happy!" I said helplessly.

"Who cares about you!"

Forget it, whatever she likes, I don't have time to pay attention to her, there is still a hole in the house waiting for me to eat!

In the evening, I made a detour to a deli and went home with a bag of cooked food.Wu Yue and I are both lazy people, we spend two-thirds of our time buying ready-made food, we have a tacit understanding, you treat us to a meal, and we will treat you well.

When I entered the door, I threw the food on the dining table, and Wu Yue ran over to open the paper bag, with a dissatisfied expression on his face: "An Ran, you said you ate donkey intestines, why are they pig's trotters?"

"The oil on your stomach has caught up with donkey intestines, still eat?" I picked up the crystal mirror frame placed by the dining table, wiped it with my sleeve first, and then kissed the face of the person in the photo firmly, Make an exaggerated sound.

Wu Yue squinted at me, "Can you stop being so disgusting? My siblings are all drowned by your saliva..."

I ignored him, and touched the cool crystal glass with my fingers. The person in the photo has a clear and quiet handsome appearance, with precise and beautiful facial features, silvery white water on the neck, sexy and tough lines.The gentle arc of the mouth, after getting along with him for a long time, I can be sure that it is a smile that is so shallow that it is almost non-existent.It was a miraculous smile. The spring breeze usually turned the corners of his eyes and brows into the coolness of the first spring ice, and dyed it into the refreshingness of the fragrant trees in the wind after the rain at dusk.At that time, he didn't like to smile, every smile was very rare, and I could get out of my body just looking at it.

"Why do you think he is so good-looking?" I gnawed on the pig's trotter, looked at the person in the photo, and instinctively ignored the one who stole the kiss.

Wu Yue nodded, "Siblings are already handsome."

"Well, compared to him now, those celebrities are so ugly and scumbag!" Fortunately, my phone's resolution is high enough, and this photo with Mu Yu was printed out very clearly, and the eyelashes on my sideways face The roots are distinct.

"You're not bad either!" Wu Yue said.

"No, no, no," I shook my head, "It's a long way off...Let me tell you..." While eating, I chattered about some things about Mu Yu's past.When the pig's trotters were almost finished, I suddenly thought of a question and asked Wu Yue, "Do you think Mu Yu will forget me?"

"No!" Wu Yue immediately denied it without blinking.

"No..." I muttered, spat out the last piece of bone, propped my oily fingers, got up and left my seat to wash my hands.

In the past six months, my mother's condition has been considered stable. With my father taking care of me, as long as I pay the medicine in full and on time, there is nothing to worry about.I go home every week without extreme exceptions.Although my parents told me not to worry about it, they were still very happy to see me go back.I didn't tell my family about my heart attack. It couldn't be said and it wasn't worth mentioning. I didn't take it seriously.When my mother is a little better, she will cook my favorite dishes by herself. When the dishes are served on the table, she will sit in front of me and watch me eat. In the end, he was suppressed with a blind eye.

I joked: "Dad, they said they were afraid that the daughter-in-law would inherit this disease."

Dad smiled and hit me on the head with chopsticks, "Boy, is this called being afraid, this is called letting, you will know when you have a wife..." Mother interrupted Dad disapprovingly, "Son, don't listen Your father, let me tell you, when you are looking for a partner, you must find someone who is quiet and well-behaved, we don’t want hags, your cousin’s house..."

I lowered my head, listening to the seven aunts and eight aunts appearing in my ears, occasionally laughing, occasionally bursting into laughter.

I can clearly feel the satisfaction of my parents. They are guarding each other and me. It is enough to be safe and secure.

Actually, it's not worth it.I collapsed half of the world, at least, in exchange for a family reunion.

But, Mu Yu, what is left of him?

Almost every time I come back from home, I have to bring something to eat.

Wu Yue complained to me, "Living with you, I sacrificed a lot, and I have to come back on time every day. I haven't looked for a girl for a long time, and I dare not bring it home... An Ran, you will have a high fever." Go to Xiang, and meet such a good person as me."

I warmed up the steamed dumplings I brought from home and pushed them in front of him, picked up the mirror frame next to it and wiped it carefully with a paper towel, "I beg you to live with me, right? I said I'm fine, you You must come here. Stop talking nonsense, you can leave whenever you want, my door is always open for you..."

If you say this blunt and blunt nonsense, you will have to turn against me if you change anyone, but Wu Yue can't, he cursed, "An Ran, you are really a representative of a wolf-hearted dog, you are not so ungrateful, I know someone like you I really blinded my dog's eyes..." Amidst howling and cursing, the steamed dumplings quickly decreased under his chopsticks.

When he calmed down, he raised his head and asked me who hadn't moved my chopsticks yet, "Aren't you going to eat? Are you full just looking at the photos?"

I shook my head, "I'm full just looking at you."

After being silent for a while, Wu Yue coughed twice, "Well, An Ran, I have a question."

"Say."

"Just this photo... Didn't you say that people didn't agree to date you at that time... Why are you so bold to go up and kiss you? Aren't you afraid that your siblings will slap you to death?"

I put down the frame, and started to tell Wu Yue about the situation of taking pictures, his reaction, my mood... While I was talking, Wu Yue handed the fire to me, and I subconsciously said a few words and took a few bites.

"So, in fact, you are playing a hooligan..." Wu Yue concluded.

"That's right, as long as the hooligans play well, there's no beauty that can't be overwhelmed." I smugly smug, Wu Yue laughed so hard that he choked on the scum of fire and coughed fiercely.

I poured a glass of water, handed it to him after he finished coughing, and asked, "Do you think he forgot about me?"

"Impossible!" Wu Yue shook his head like a drum.

Well, it's impossible.

I always feel that time passes very slowly. I stare at the clock on the wall of the unit when I go to work during the day, and surf the Internet, read books, and stare blankly until I fall asleep after get off work at night.But, in fact, the time is not slow at all. The leaves of the tree are still green today, but when I look up the other day, they are gone. Today, the desk calendar is still at the first few pages, but after a few days, it turns to the last page.Many things are changing, the people around me, the city I live in...

A new kid came to the unit, and Sister Cao asked him to learn business from me, pointing to me and said: "From now on, you will follow him, his skills are well-known in the whole province..." The kid was taken aback for a while.He is actually only three years younger than me. He just graduated from school. He is very energetic. He jumps up and down all day long.The apprentice started pretending to be a good boy for a week. When he arrived at the unit in the morning, he wiped down my desk and filled up all the tickets I was missing. When he saw me holding a water glass, he grabbed it and poured water for me. If there was nothing wrong, he would register a check for me. Wire transfers, etc. Later, I found out that my master is easy to talk, so I just got up casually.Asking him to practice basic skills, he just checked his mobile phone Weibo there, and he practiced twice when he said a few words to him, and he was anxious when he was about to turn to the exam, and asked me, "Master, what should I do if I keep typing wrong? Master, how can you do it?" Type so fast, master..." I demonstrated the fingering of typing and the technique of turning over the summons. I thought it was very simple, but the apprentice couldn't learn it.Demonstrating several times, I rubbed my fingers and shook my head, "Rotten wood!" Turning around to leave, my apprentice stopped me, "Master, you can't give up on me, why you taught me, I will destroy you if I go out like this. I have given you a lifetime of fame, do it again, for the last time."

Compared with before, my temper is much better. Sister Cao said that I have become more stable in the past two years.I was still a little helpless towards this apprentice, I flicked my wrist, "My hands are sore, can you fight for it?"

The apprentice pulled my hand over in a doggy manner, started rubbing it from the little finger, and muttered something.I didn't hear what he said at all, because the movement was too sudden, and I froze before I had time to guard against it... A long time ago, someone rubbed my fingers like this, the kind of comfort and gentleness that melted into the bones, instantly A hole was torn in my heart.I pushed him away and didn't speak to him for a day.

That was the first time the apprentice saw me get angry, inexplicably.Later, I ran to ask his aunt for advice, and I heard Xiao Li teasingly said, "Your master is in menopause, please be careful and serve him!"

The second time he got angry was after he turned regular.He sat in my seat, and I watched him go about his business.My personal drawer is basically some snacks, tea, coffee, personal items and so on, and I usually eat and drink with him.I didn't pay attention to seeing him rummaging in my drawer that time. When I turned around to pour a glass of water, I actually took out the car wash card I put in the small box at the bottom of the cabinet, and asked me with a smile, "Master, what is the car wash card?" I can do it by hand too? Master, draw it for me!"

"Who told you to do this?" I yelled, probably my expression was extremely terrified at the time, the little apprentice shook his hands amidst my yelling, and the car wash card barely fell into the stamp pad at hand, waiting for him to panic I took out the card and held it to me with both hands, the front was already stained with a large amount of red... I hurriedly wiped it with the sleeve of my shirt, how could it be wiped clean... At that time, I really wanted to strangle that child to death.

Later, my colleagues came to persuade me, and my apprentice was scared and at a loss.I think Sister Cao must have told him secretly that my heart is not good, so tell him not to mess with me... He kept saying sorry, and even poured water for me to take medicine. I looked at the card and said nothing. Appreciatively said: "What kind of medicine do you take, if you die, you will die already..."

Later, Sister Cao called me upstairs to understand the situation, and finally she said, "An Ran, it's been so long, it's time to pass."

These two years have taken a lot from me, and to outsiders, it seems to be a kind of maturity.No longer impetuous, no longer self, no longer have those childish persistence and posture.I buried myself layer by layer, revealing a gentle face with no expression, and few things could surprise me.However, after calm, it is a soul that does not know when it will collapse.

I don't know how much my apprentice knows about me as a master, but judging from his daily contact, he obviously doesn't know about me and Mu Yu.He only knew that his master had a minefield in his heart, if he stepped on it, he would be blown away.But he didn't know the exact location of the minefield, so he could only figure it out by himself, and asked his aunt for help from time to time.

A long time after this incident, my apprentice asked me hesitantly how that card was so important.I didn't answer.The apprentice looked at me for a long time and said, "Auntie is right."

"Say what?" I asked.

"Love hurt..."

I smiled and waved.It's not emotional injury, it's terminal illness.

One night when we were having dinner, Wu Yue asked me if I wanted to go to a movie together, I said no, what movie did the two big men watch.Wu Yue urged me, "Go, go, I'll pay for the new 3D movie, besides, you haven't had any entertainment for a long time."

Looking at the photo with Mu Yu at the table, I remembered the past and laughed unconsciously.

Wu Yue sarcastically said: "Look at you, you must have gone to see it with another big man!"

Indeed, I went to see it with Mu Yu. At that time, Wanda Cinemas had just opened, and movie tickets were discounted.Mu Yu said that he had never seen a 3D movie, so I went to see it once with him.Finally, when I got home after reading, I found Mu Yu’s eyes were red, and asked him what’s the matter, he said that he felt pain in his eyes just after wearing the glasses for 10 minutes, but the image was doubled after taking off the glasses, so he had to stick to it, because Movie tickets are so expensive not to watch too much waste.I was so distressed that I scolded him, and said that I would not watch this kind of show in the future, because 2D ones are cheaper.After putting the eye drops on Mu Yu, I asked him to rest on my lap with his eyes closed for a while, and as a result, the man just fell asleep like that.

After listening to my final comment, Wu Yue said, "My brother and sister are too good at living...but why can't you accompany me if you can accompany him?"

"Can that be the same?"

"Is there anything different? Brothers who dare to love are not as good as daughters-in-law? Damn, cut off friendship..." Wu Yue yelled without sincerity.

Such a person put away his fascination and silently accompanied me for more than two years, listening to me every day what I want to say, accompanying me to recall what I want to recall, staring at me to eat and sleep, and driving me out to breathe.Only he understands that for me, those pasts are the support for my life.

I have repeated many things many times, but even so, some details are still becoming more and more unclear, so Mu Yu...

"Tell me, will Mu Yu..."

"No, he won't forget you..." Wu Yue said.

"...Damn, I've learned to rush to answer..."

"An Ran," Wu Yue suddenly became serious, "I did something behind your back today..."

"Oh?" As soon as I heard it, I knew it was not a good thing, "What are you doing?"

"I sent messages to my siblings and Yang Xiaofei in various ways."

I didn't care, I sent thousands and hundreds of messages and got no reply, and now I don't send any more.

"What did you post?" I asked cooperatively.

"Just one sentence, 'An Ran has a heart attack and is dying.'"

With a bang, my chopsticks fell to the ground.