[Comprehensive] Die well, lie down every day

Suffering is something that is already known.

— to die.

Silence is the last resistance.

— to die.

But even so, there was still something left in his heart.

"Fufufu, Master's face of unwillingness and pain before he died is still fresh in my memory. Hey, although I was irrational at that time, but Master, I swallowed your heart, okay?" Demon He laughed and said curse words.

I woke up from my dream and turned my head to look at the shadow. "Human flesh tastes sour no matter what?" I didn't quite understand what I was talking about, but when I saw him, my brain subconsciously thought of the scene of being eaten by those beasts.

Hey, at this rate I can really become an anti-hero who doesn't fear death.

The black shadow grinned happily, and the shadow shook uncomfortably. "That's okay. Anyway, Master, I've already made it clear what a bad guy you are, and besides, I don't despise you. Master, a girl's heart is better than that brought by the two hundred yen sea."

... How is there any comparability between the two? Amway, [-] yen worth of kelp is at least a nutritious edible algae. Girls will soon depreciate after being tempered by time.

It feels a bit inexplicably sad to compare myself with kelp.

I rubbed my pillow, turned over and checked the time on my phone. "Eight fifty...? Amway, you bad guy called me so early." I glared at the guy over there, "Can you let me take a good rest, it's fine if you take up my sleep time every night, On the first day, can you not call me to let me get enough sleep at once, bastard. And as my dog, you can't even hold a slipper, it's just terrible."

Amway let out a "huh?", and then he laughed uncontrollably with his hands on his belly. "Ha, ha ha ha ha ha ha!!! What is this complaint! No, no, no, I can't stop at all, hahaha!!! A look of irritability on the face of the office worker who finally got a rest, Master!!" The black demon also Regardless of my getting darker and darker, I continued to laugh for a long time, until I thought he would die with such a laugh, he gradually stopped this ear-torturing laughter. "Let me tell you, Master, aren't you used to it? For the current abnormal situation of the four-day cycle——couldn't you treat this situation as normal?"

The words he said were full of meaning, and I somehow felt strange when I heard them.

The answer to this sentence will affect my life after this.

How should I describe this feeling?It's a bit like a game that can't be archived. Once you make a wrong choice, you can only go on until the end. Before that, you can only suffer the bitter fruit of your wrong choice.Hey, although life is a constant multiple-choice question, sometimes when encountering multiple-choice questions about the future, it always seems like there is a save button or a strategy for clearing the level.

The black demon urged me to answer. "What's the matter? Can't this kind of answer be given quickly? The Master hesitated very rarely, hehe, it's really rare. Ahh, maybe I hit it right?"

"How is it possible, stop joking, Amway." I said negative words stiffly. "It is true that this kind of cycle can be tolerated gradually after many experiences. But endurance is not the same as getting used to it. The tens of thousands of curses can't make me get used to it just like that." I stared at his vaguely The face that could see the outline continued to speak word by word. "Well, I do sometimes think that the four-day cycle is a good feeling. Don't worry about making mistakes, don't care about relationships, almost as long as you can live until the fourth day before you die, it doesn't matter. But yo, the fourth day Just the fact that you have to die is already beyond the limit of human endurance, not to mention this almost endless cycle."

These are my sincere words.

Probably after being killed by Lancer that time, I would occasionally wonder whether such a four-day cycle has any meaning in getting out of it.

When I first met Amway, I learned about the four-day cycle. At that time, even if I searched for information about the four-day cycle, it was because of what Amway said, and I did what he said. That's all.But do you really want to escape the four-day cycle?I hadn't thought about this issue at all before.

But after that time, I found that something was wrong with me.

The heart that always felt indifferent, began to yearn for something, began to pursue something.

Memories of myself and Lancer, my feeling of being rescued by Gintoki, my change of mind towards Sawada Tsunayoshi, these are all feelings that really happened and existed for me.But for them on the first day, these are events that may or may not happen.

Even if I fill my four days with work, my heart is still empty, and I want to find something to fill it up.

From the very beginning to the present, in those strange, occasionally illogical dreams, those people always appeared beside me in different ways.Although that is one of the futures that I may encounter, if I stay in this four-day cycle, the future can only be a fantasy.

The reason why the so-called future can be called so is because it relies on the passage of time to have the power to become the present and the past.

And now I have no future at all.

Simply, like a critically ill patient, if he lives, he can see tomorrow, but if he dies, he can only stay in the past.

I admire Lancer very much, I like Lancer's hearty and informal smile, and I look forward to becoming a lover with such a man.

But not possible.

I live in the present where there is no future, but he cannot always stay at one point.

And there are only two best ways to escape the four-day cycle.

The first is what to find.It may be a person or a thing, or it may be nothing.And what I need to do, as Amway told me at the beginning, is to look for "something".To use a vivid metaphor, this is similar to that kind of decryption game. Only when I find a different place can I continue to go down.It's just that the only difference between this game and the game is that you will never understand what kind of things it is until the end.

It's a cumbersome and labor-intensive game.

The second method is very simple.There is no need to follow any rules of the game to find something, and it doesn't take much time. The only thing to do is to end your life before the fourth day.

Simple and fast.

What Lancer did at that time was obviously choosing the second option that I couldn't choose.

How should I change it?Even though he was killed at that time, he had an idea of ​​understanding him both emotionally and intellectually.

Do not think the other party is wrong.

No need to hate each other.

The other party only chose the quickest and most accustomed method to get me out of the four-day cycle after understanding the situation I was in and my situation.

It's just that I didn't die, and after the next cycle, I began to be afraid of being killed by the other party again.

As I said, although I don't care about death, I can't get used to the disgusting feeling of being reborn after death.Rather, it made me feel the preciousness of life.

If you don't leave the house on the fourth day, you won't encounter the beast, but the pain will be doubled when you return to the original point.

But compared with these, the emptiness in my heart is getting bigger and bigger.Those pains are now tolerable, but the vacancy in my heart needs to be filled with something.

What the heart longs for is not the events that will be restored and reset in the infinite four days, but the memories that really happened and make people feel warm.

So I said, I want to escape the four-day cycle.So, what Lancer did was correct and he couldn't resent him.

The wrong person is myself.

The heresy to look for is also...

"Master, what are you thinking with your serious face?" The black figure said abruptly, and then came closer to stare at me again, which startled me.

I stepped back suddenly, and the back of my head hit the wall with a loud bang.

I don't know if it was because of the impact, the black shadow in front of my eyes slowly blurred and turned into the appearance of "Shirou Emiya", but in the end it turned into myself instead.

The "I" covered in dark patterns said in Shirou Emiya's tone, "Master is really slow, but that's why it's more fun."

"I" smiled happily, and stretched out from behind until black vines painted the surroundings in evil colors.

Heresy... what exactly?

"Wow, Master, you finally woke up. If you wake up, hurry up and go to some Kabuki town. I called you before. It seems to be the proprietress of the part-time job? Eh, she is a scary mother-in-law anyway. As soon as I said you were still sleeping, the voice turned into a sonic attack." The devil complained and rubbed his ears, which made me a little bit stunned.

wake?

The black shadow demon stretched out his hand and waved in front of my eyes, "Hey, Master, aren't you awake yet? Have you been dreaming again this time?"

The previous ones were all my dreams?

I changed my coat in a daze because of the previous dream, and brought an umbrella because of the bad weather. Before going out, I looked back at Amway, but the other party ignored my spare time and concentrated on fiddling with the jigsaw puzzles on the ground. .

If you look closely, Amway and Shirou are really similar.

I shook my head, cleared out the redundant things in my mind, and hurried to Kabukicho before the rain came down.

The author has something to say: ·Thanks again to Xingyue Liuguang for her mine...

·Although the Amway in the dream and the Amway in reality after waking up are both Amway, they are not the same because of their different personalities;

·Dreams are predictive, so let's take the next chapter of the Silver Time Chapter;

·Pre-announcement, silver time is currently a one-way arrow, if you are interested, you can look at the previous appearances of silver time, there are actually a lot of things in it;

·As the thread of the real male protagonist, I have buried it for a long time... _(:з」∠)_I hope you can feel my love (e).