Trivial Skin of Rebirth

"Bang! Bang! Bang!" "Crackling..."

With the sound of huge firecrackers, Ye Jiawen woke up suddenly and jumped up from the bed he was lying on.His mind was blank for half a minute, and then it seemed that an old computer mainframe finally started to operate, making a booming sound, which was deafening, even covering the sound of the firecrackers outside the window.

Headache, severe headache.He covered his head and knelt down, feeling a headache that was about to explode.A few minutes later, the symptoms of the headache were relieved, and he felt wet in his body, so he stretched out his hand to wipe it, and brought it to his eyes, his eyes were bright red.That's nosebleed.

Ye Jiawen's first reaction was: I saw it, the red blood, and my fingers, I actually saw it!The second reaction is: I have a nosebleed!When he stood up, he realized that there were too many strange things. The severe pain that had been tormenting him disappeared, and he was able to stand up. His body seemed to be full of power. The meat is not at all the shriveled meat we are used to.

He touched his face incredulously, it was smooth and elastic.He stared wide-eyed and looked around, and found that he was standing in a small dim room. There was a single bed and an old yellowed wooden cabinet in the room. There was a telephone on the cabinet. There is nothing left to say.This scene seemed familiar, as if he had been here before, but he couldn't remember where he saw it... When exactly?

Ye Jiawen slowly walked out of the room full of doubts.This is a small house with one bedroom and one living room. The living room is only about 90 square meters. There is a table and a lamp in the center of the living room, and a yellow-green machine is placed in the corner of the living room. Ye Jiawen After looking carefully, I realized that it was an old-fashioned refrigerator—there was no TV, no computer, and the walls were gray and yellow with signs of being soaked in water. It was like a common poor house in the [-]s.

The dusty memories gradually surfaced, but before he could recall them completely, he saw a figure on the balcony—a familiar yet unfamiliar figure, just a backside, which made his heart skip a beat. It was as if a secret that had been hidden in my heart for many years was discovered.

He walked over full of doubts, opened the screen door, but didn't step into the balcony - the balcony was only one or two square meters in size, and there was already a person sitting there, and if he went in by himself, it would be too crowded.

It was dark outside, only the occasional gorgeous fireworks that would light up the sky for a moment, and the only light source in the whole house was the light bulb in the living room with only a few tens of watts.The man on the balcony was sitting in the dark, wearing only an old washed and yellowed white vest, and a pair of loose boxers underneath. He was sitting on a small foldable stool, with a cigarette in his mouth, orange The yellow cigarette butts flickered on and off as he inhaled and exhaled.

Ye Jiawen took a step back as if he had seen a ghost—this person, familiar to him, had been integrated into his bone marrow, but strange and strange.He looks so much like Xiang Qingyun!But Xiang Qingyun is not that young, the person in front of him looks like a young man in his early twenties, with plump and firm skin, no wrinkles at the corners of his eyes, and bright red lips—no, no, he is Xiang Qingyun, the corners of his eyes There is a mole, that is Xiang Qingyun's mole!This person is Xiang Qingyun when he was young!

Xiang Qingyun flicked a long cigarette ash, raised his head and gave him a tired smile: "Is the sound of firecrackers outside making you sleepless? Hey, but Hong Kong has finally returned to the motherland. Everyone should be happy." After a pause For a second, he whispered thoughtfully and full of regret: "This is a good day..."

Hong Kong return?Ye Jiawen's brain was blank, there was too much information, he couldn't handle it all at once, the working system of his mind seemed to be paralyzed.

Xiang Qingyun looked away, took another puff of cigarette, and said softly in the gap between the sound of firecrackers: "You should go back to sleep early, you have to pack your luggage and catch the train tomorrow."

Ye Jiawen took another step back, and asked as if wandering: "Today... what date is it?"

Xiang Qingyun turned his head and glanced at him, a fiery red firework bloomed behind him, printing his face very clearly, so Ye Jiawen saw a wet tear on his face.Xiang Qingyun smiled softly at him, and said: "After twelve o'clock, it is now July [-]st. Hong Kong is officially returning to China today, have you forgotten?" His voice was heard by a new round The sound of firecrackers overshadowed it, but Ye Jiawen could still understand every word he said by looking at the shape of his lips.

July [-], [-].

"This is a noble and solemn moment: July 150, 0. After a long journey of 31 years, Hong Kong has finally re-entered the warm home of the motherland. Here we use our own language to express to the world Announcement: Hong Kong has entered a new era of history." The passionate words sounded in Ye Jiawen's mind.Without realizing it, he glanced back at the owl alarm clock on the table, it was [-]:[-] in the morning.

Ye Jiawen raised his hand and pinched his face, feeling pain.

He stared at the back of Xiang Qingyun's head, and with a fugue, talking to himself, he murmured very, very slowly: "I seem to have a dream. A long, long dream. In the dream I died."

However, Xiang Qingyun had turned his back and didn't look at him, and the deafening firecrackers outside made him unable to hear what he said.

Ye Jiawen walked into the bathroom like a wandering spirit.The bathroom here is about the size of a balcony. It is simple and dilapidated, dark and damp. There is a shower head opposite the toilet. People can only stand and take a bath in a space less than one square meter.There is also a sink next to it. There is not enough space by the pool to place two tooth cups, so only one tooth cup is placed, and two toothbrushes are placed in the cup.A mirror the size of a human face was installed on the wall above the sink. Ye Jiawen put his face in front of the mirror, and through the dim light, he finally saw himself clearly—a familiar yet unfamiliar, 22-year-old self.

He went back to the bedroom and found a pack of cigarettes, two yuan and five Lushan, and a fifty-cent lighter beside the bed.He took a cigarette and lit it, and amidst the noisy firecrackers, he began to sort out his thoughts.

It hurts to twist yourself, the cigarette is bitter, the lighter is hot, these touches are too real, if it is a dream, it is impossible to have such a clear feeling.If it is not a dream now, then what happened before when I got cancer and died was a dream?Ye Jiawen almost believed in this possibility, but when he recalled it deeper, he realized that something was wrong.Yimeng has been dreaming for 15 years, so many details are so vivid, so many emotions are real, especially the feeling of being tortured by cancer pain in the last period seems to be conveyed to every pore.Besides, who is responsible for dreaming about the Olympic Games and the World Expo? The 302 gold medals are all projects implemented. If you can dream with this brain capacity, you don’t need to eat, you don’t need to earn money, and you can experience several lifetimes just by dreaming.

So what if it's not a dream?What's the matter?

Ye Jiawen thought for a while, felt creepy for a while, and relieved for a while, and finally found a more convincing reason for himself: he really died, but he was reborn after death.Because no one has ever died, no one knows what will be faced after death. For thousands of years, people have tried to explain it with various religions and myths, but no one knows which is true.Maybe after a person dies, he will be reborn in another parallel time and space?Or is it because I am special that I enjoy the honor of this distorted space exclusively?

Ye Jiawen thought about such a little thing for an hour before he came up with something, and his emotions became more and more excited-rebirth!Now he is no longer blind, no longer paralyzed, and has been reborn 15 years ago!What does this mean!You can live it all over again, just thinking about it, Ye Jiawen's heart will jump out of his chest!

After the intense excitement, Ye Jiawen forced himself to calm down and began to deal with the situation in front of him.

July 15, [-], this date is very special. Ye Jiawen has forgotten many things in the past [-] years, but he still has a deep impression on this day-this day happens to be a good day for the return of Hong Kong. When everyone was listening to this grand event in front of the TV or the radio, he cried and packed his luggage, preparing to part with Xiang Qingyun and return to H City to live. ——He and Xiang Qingyun have been together for more than ten years, and there have been many disputes, but this is the only time that they really broke up.

He and Xiang Qingyun dated when they were in the third year of university.After graduating, Ye Jiawen's father and stepmother arranged for him a job in an agency in H City. The salary wasn't particularly good, but a stable iron rice bowl would ensure him to live in peace and harmony.However, in order to stay with their lover and stay out of the closet, Ye Jiawen and Xiang Qingyun chose to go to S City, a first-tier city, to work together for a better life for themselves in the future.At that time, Ye Jiawen was wandering in the ocean of love, full of ideals and ambitions, and wanted to fight for his own world with his lover in the big city.However, this arrogance and enthusiasm are only worn out in the first year of life.

Although Ye Jiawen's mother passed away early, his financial conditions were not bad since he was a child, so that he underestimated the pain of struggling in society, thinking that everything would be as smooth as before.He just graduated from university is still a little naive, and he has a weak concept of financial management, and he doesn't know the pain of having no money.Conflicts arose quickly. These two fledgling young people had no money at all, and had no place of their own in this metropolis leading consumption in the country. They could only rent a small house of 1000 to [-] square meters. The conditions are poor and the environment and climate are poor; the young Ye Jiawen and Xiang Qingyun have not yet learned the rules of the game in this society. They are young and arrogant, but they suffer many setbacks.And Ye Jiawen offended a person in the administrative department as soon as he joined the company, so that he has been squeezed out and oppressed for a year. With a meager salary of more than [-] yuan, he can't bear it.

In the beginning, it doesn't matter if all these things add up, they have love in their hearts and can overcome everything.But time passed, one month, two months, half a year, one year... After the period of passionate love, trivial grievances and grievances accumulated more and more, and they began to have frictions and quarrels.In particular, Ye Jiawen's temper at that time was still a little irritable. When he was angry at work, he would blame the people around him when he returned home, so his dissatisfaction and complaints increased day by day.At that time, they didn't know how to maintain their love. When encountering difficulties, Ye Jiawen would casually say things like "If I knew this, I might as well go back and do the job my dad arranged for me", but they didn't know Already violated the taboo of mutual acquaintance and staying together - when a person leaves a retreat for himself, he cannot wholeheartedly fight to the death, and the fighting spirit of his comrades-in-arms will also be shaken.

The so-called poor and lowly couples mourn all things, this sentence applies to all lovers in the world, regardless of gender.Finally, one day, work was not going well, the bicycle was stolen again, and he fell down on the way home... The house leak happened to be raining all night, and these things happened to Ye Jiawen at the same time. He was full of anger when he returned home , broke out because Xiang Qingyun forgot to close the window, the two had a big fight, and in a hurry, whoever yelled first, "This day is over! Let's break up!" I slept in separate beds.From then on, they started a long cold war.

All the young people who are infiltrated by love and ideals always think that they can withstand the hail of bullets, but they don't expect that they will not be able to withstand the pain of cutting flesh with blunt knives in the end.That kind of pain is like getting cancer. It won't kill people all at once, but it can polish all people's ambition and perseverance. No matter how strong a great man is, he will eventually be defeated by it.

On June [-], [-], Xiang Qingyun and Ye Jiawen, who had been in the cold war for a long time, finally sat down to negotiate. Ye Jiawen wanted to ease the relationship. At this time, Xiang Qingyun calmly proposed to break up, because he had fallen in love with the work unit. female colleague, decided to get married in the next year.

A few days later, Ye Jiawen bought a train ticket back to City H on the night of July [-]st.On the [-]st day, on this joyful day, Ye Jiawen was crying and packing his luggage to leave, Xiang Qingyun rushed up to hug him from behind when he was packing the last piece of luggage, begging him not to leave.The two young lovers finally reconciled after a night of crying and hugging each other.This incident can be regarded as a watershed in the lives of Ye Jiawen and Xiang Qingyun. From then on, they finally began to mature, and the edges and corners of youthfulness were smoothed away. Ye Jiawen began to learn sophistication and patience, and Xiang Qingyun's temper became more and more kind. considerate.

Afterwards, he confessed to Qingyun that he came up with such a lame excuse that he just wanted to force Ye Jiawen away, because he heard too many words from Ye Jiawen that "I knew it earlier" and "It's not as good as it is". Let Ye Jiawen endure hardships with him, hoping that he can return to his father to live a good life.This good old man has never lied a few times in his life, and his lying is very lame. Ye Jiawen has always known that it is impossible for him to have such a female colleague, but at that moment, his self-esteem and anger prevailed, and he refused to bow his head first, which caused trouble. Almost to the point of breaking up.

After recalling these, Ye Jiawen was still feeling sad for a while, but reason quickly brought him back to his thoughts.

As good as he could die, he returned to this critical point. At this moment, he is penniless and only has young capital, and everything depends on his hands to work hard again.Standing at a crossroads, he is faced with a double choice of emotion and life: Should he leave Xiang Qingyun as a matter of course, or stay like last time?Should we choose a new path to struggle, or should we follow the footsteps of the past?