how do you remember love

Ten years later.

Fang Zhenyi lay dying on the bed in the ICU of the hospital. Chen Chen sat by the bed, frowning, looking sadly at Fang Zhenyi lying on the bed, holding her hand tightly with both hands.Fang Zhenyi's parents, Chen's father, Chen's mother, Chen Xi, Lanfeng, and their ten-year-old daughter, Monica, surrounded the hospital bed.Fang Zhenyi's mother kept wiping her tears, Fang Dong sighed deeply one after another, and the others also looked sad.Fang Zhen looked at Chen Chen weakly, looked at the tears in his eyes, and then slowly pulled out a hand to touch something under the pillow.Seeing her struggling, Chen Chen quickly helped her put his hand under her pillow, and took out a photo after a while.Chen Chen picked up the photo and glanced at it, then looked at Fang Zhenyi suspiciously and asked, "Is this what you're looking for?" Fang Zhenyi reluctantly nodded with a faint smile, and then said softly, "This is a small town in Germany. Zhen's photo." Chen Chen picked it up and looked at it seriously, then looked at Fang Zhenyi curiously.At this time, Fang Zhenyi panted heavily and said word by word: "Tian, ​​Tian Lu is here!" Upon hearing the word "Tian Lu", Chen Chen was stunned, the name sounds so so Familiar, yet distant.Lanfeng Chen Xi and others were also surprised when Fang Zhenyi said Tian Lu's name.I saw Fang Zhenyi continue to say: "In the past few months, I, I asked someone to check Tian Lu's recent situation. But, I didn't find much, I just know that she is in this place now." Chen Chen listened, with a serious expression on his face. There was a trace of long-lost sadness on her face, and then she looked at Fang Zhenyi in amazement, and said, "What are you looking for? It's a thing of the past!" Listening to Chen Chen's words, Fang Zhenyi frowned slightly, and said, " I know you still love her! Never, never forget it!" Chen Chen was about to deny something after hearing this, but Fang Zhenyi shook her head lightly, and then continued to say with difficulty: "Don't deny it! I'm not I'm not blaming you. I can see that you've really worked hard to love me and treat me well all these years! With you loving me so much, I'm good and happy! But, I don't love you enough!" Chen Chen Listen, with tears in my eyes, I kept shaking my head and said: "No! You love me far more than I give you! I owe you too much, and I didn't take good care of you. You are the most competent wife But I'm not a good husband!" Fang Zhenyi listened, with tears streaming down her eyes, and said, "No! You are a good husband and a good lover! But I, and I don't deserve you to treat me so well! Because, Because I'm too selfish! Knowing that I have a congenital heart disease, I won't live for another ten years at the most, but I still hold on to you and forcefully tear you apart from Tian Lu..." Fang Zhenyi As she said that, she coughed excitedly. Chen Chen hurriedly patted her on the back, and Fang Zhenyi's mother also came to help her daughter. Seeing this, Chen Chen hurriedly said, "Stop talking, stop talking, take a good rest!" Fang Zhenyi stopped Stopping coughing, he pushed Chen Chen's blocking hand away and said, "No, let me talk! If you don't say it, I'm afraid, I'm afraid I won't have a chance to say it again!" So Chen Chen helped her up again. After a while, Fang Zhenyi Then he said: "Since I can remember, I, I know that my life is not long. Therefore, in the face of what I like, I never give in. I want to enjoy as much as possible in my short life. And the joy of having me, including, including when I was 14 years old, I met you, I, I fell in love with you! From then on, I, I told myself, I, I must be your wife! But , I only want to possess your love, but never, never consider your feelings. You, will you hate me?" Chen Chen frowned, with tears in his eyes, shaking his head desperately, Fang Zhenyi But with a sad face, she said with tears: "You don't hate me, I, but I really hate myself! Because, now, I have to leave you, I, I really can't let go, I don't worry! You, You get injured while filming, who, who will take care of you? You read the script late at night, hungry, hungry, who will make you supper? You are cold, who, who can remember to put on clothes for you? Who? I am good Hate me for being selfish, obviously I can't take care of you, love, love you for the rest of my life, but I want to hold you tightly, trap me, and not let go. Now, leaving you alone, I can't close my eyes!" Chen Chen listened Hearing Fang Zhenyi's words, she couldn't bear it anymore, she hugged Fang Zhenyi into her arms with tears, and the people around were also moved to tears.Not long after, Fang Zhenyi coughed again, and Chen Chen hurriedly put her down and lay down.Fang Zhenyi looked at Chen Chen, whose face was full of tears, and said, "I know, I know you still love her, so go find her! Bring back your happiness that has been interrupted for ten years! I hope, I hope it's not too late I, I, I will, I will be in heaven, for, for you, blessings!" Fang Zhenyi said, slowly closed her eyes, and fell asleep in the heaven that belonged to her forever.Chen Chen wept bitterly while hugging her, and the surroundings were also filled with crying.

After Fang Zhenyi passed away, Chen Chen's mood was never clear, nor did he see his plan to go to that German town to find Tian Lu.In order to help Chen Chen relax, fulfill Fang Zhenyi's last wish, and help Chen Chen take a brave step, Chen Xi and Lan Feng secretly planned a trip to a small town in Germany.Lan Feng wanted to film a movie in Europe, so after he communicated with Chen Xi privately, the entire crew chose the German town that Fang Zhenyi mentioned before his death, and Chen Chen was the hero of the movie. .Although Chen Chen recognized this town as the place in the photo that Fang Zhenyi gave him, he didn't raise any objections. In fact, his heart has always been yearning for this place that has haunted him ever since he knew it. It's just that he didn't have enough courage to take the initiative, maybe because he felt that ten years had passed, time flies, everything should have changed, and it was hard to look back; maybe he was not ready to face her, and he was even more afraid of her. If you can't find her or have been forgotten by her, it's better to miss her than to meet her.But no matter what, since there is such an opportunity to be close to her now, whether it is salary or fate, he needs to give his future a reason to let go, even if he regrets it, he doesn't want to leave regrets in vain!

The clever and curious little princess of the Chen family, Monica, heard the love story about Uncle Xiaochen during a conversation with her parents, which inexplicably aroused her deep curiosity. Who is Conquer, who is the perfect heroine in her heart, and is she beautiful?Is she gentle?Why does my uncle still miss her after so many years?A lot of whys filled the little girl's mind. After her parents couldn't give her a satisfactory answer, she stubbornly pestered her parents and asked them to take her to that small town in Germany. Lan Feng He and Chen Xi really couldn't win her over, so they had no choice but to agree.

It is early winter in the small town of Detmold in November, which is a bit like the winter in the south of the Yangtze River in China, cold and humid.There are not many residents in the town, and it is very quiet. In the quiet morning, you can hear the melodious bells of the church in the distance.Chen Chen sat on the stone steps outside this typical German classical architectural style villa in the suburbs, tightened his black coat, and stared blankly into the distance.A rather cool wind brushed his face, but Chen Chen, who was immersed in thinking or memories, didn't seem to feel the coolness of it, until Monica ran out of the room, ran towards him, and then The two small arms behind his neck were wrapped around his neck, and Chen Chen came back to reality from his complicated thoughts. He was startled, and subconsciously looked back. When he saw the sweet smile of his little niece, he grabbed the little guy After the two of them laughed, Monica asked, "Uncle, what were you doing just now? You didn't even know I approached you so loudly! Are you startled by me? Hehe!" Chen Chen also smiled and replied: "Hehe, yes, you little elf, you scared uncle." After speaking, Chen Chen thought for a while, and then said, "I'm watching and listening!" The little girl looked at him curiously. Uncle's sad face began to appear at some point, and he asked, "What are you looking at? What are you listening to?" Chen Chen took a deep breath, looked in the direction of the town in the distance, and said softly, "Look, I can't see People who want to see, but want to see, listen to voices that I can't hear, but want to hear." The little girl was even more puzzled and asked: "Can't see, can't hear? Why?" Chen Chen sighed slightly He took a deep breath and replied: "Because it's too far away!" The little girl looked at the small town in the distance and felt that it wasn't that far away, so she asked even more suspiciously: "Is it very far away? How far away?" Chen Chen looked into the distance slightly sadly, and replied "It's so far away! Ten years away!" The little girl asked again: "So far away, I can't see or hear, why do I still see and hear?" Chen Chen replied: "Because I miss it!" At this time, the girl who came out to look for her daughter After hearing the conversation between the two, Chen Xi realized that Chen Chen was thinking about Tian Lu again, so she approached them and asked, "Chen, you've been here for a few days, why don't you go find her?" After answering, Monica hurriedly asked: "Who are you looking for? Whom is uncle going to look for?" Chen Xi bent down with a smile, looked at her daughter who was looking forward to the answer, and said: "I told you, live in In my uncle's heart, there is Sleeping Beauty who has been sleeping for ten years!" When the little girl heard this, she excitedly pulled Chen Chen's arm, shook it vigorously and said, "Uncle, hurry up, go find her and kiss her awake!" Chen Chen and Chen Xi laughed when they heard it, feeling how simple and cute the inner world of a child's fairy tale is!After laughing, Chen Chen sighed deeply and said, "Oh! Looking for it? It's been ten years, ten years already. Is she really here? Can she be found? Even if she is found, is she still her? And Am I still me? She may be married and have children and is living a happy life. If so, shouldn’t I disturb her life? Her life has already been painful because of my participation. I don’t want to It should make her suffer a second time." Chen Xi also looked embarrassed when she heard this, and agreed with Chen Chen's concerns, but she had to ask: "Can you let it go? Maybe she already has a family now, but she loves you If you love so deeply, maybe she is still alone, so if you don’t look for her, won’t you just miss out on your whole life?” Chen Chen frowned and replied: “If she is still alone, she is not happy, and I can’t forgive myself Now, it should be all my fault!" Chen Xi rushed to comfort her: "I just said that if, let alone, even if she is alone, how would you know that she is not happy if you are not her?" After Chen Xi finished speaking, Monica couldn't listen anymore, she pouted and said, "Oh! What if's, why are there so many "ifs"?" Monica looked at Chen Chen and asked: "Do you still love that "Sleeping Beauty"?" "Yes!" Chen Chen replied firmly.As soon as Monica heard the answer, she said straightforwardly: "If you love her, go find her. You may not be able to find her if you look for her. Why are you thinking about so many "ifs" now? Wait until you find her!" The little girl was so straightforward. The direct answer made the thoughts of the two adults suddenly brighten. Chen Chen couldn't help feeling: "Your daughter doesn't look like a ten-year-old girl, she looks like a wise man with a lot of experience!" Chen Xi laughed when he heard that. She smiled and said, "Yes, sometimes this little guy speaks amazingly, and her psychological maturity far exceeds her actual age. Sometimes the questions she asks make me and Brother Feng speechless!" Monica listened to her mother Disapproving of his uncle's praise, he smiled contemptuously and said, "Actually, it's not because I'm so mature, but because you adults always complicate simple things in your minds, and you compete with yourself!" Chen Chen and Chen Chen Xi and the two were quite emotional when they heard the words of the ten-year-old girl, and felt suddenly awakened, because what Monica said was not true.

Under the advice of his little niece, Chen Chen finally bravely walked into the town and started his journey to find Tian Lu.But things are really not that simple. In this small town, it is not easy to find someone. He took Tian Lu's photo ten years ago and searched for Tian Lu's possible appearance based on very few clues. One place after another, from morning to afternoon, I occasionally got some traces of Tian Lu's past in the process, but in the end they all lost their direction one by one.When Chen Chen was disappointed, a figure walking out of a bookstore looking into the distance ignited his hope. Chen Chen suddenly felt that fate was predestined, and his whole heart was beating excitedly. He strode towards that figure, He ran towards his love ten years ago, but when he caught up with that figure out of breath, his turned face instantly extinguished his hope, because that figure was not revealing.

The sky gradually darkened, and Chen Chen no longer expected anything extravagantly. He couldn't help feeling that this is life. Once someone misses something, it will be a lifetime, even if you try your best to find it.At this time, there was a street performer resting with a guitar in his arms. Chen Chen borrowed the guitar from that person, sat on the roadside with few people and fallen leaves, and sang "Long Time No See" by himself.He plucked the strings, looked at the street, and sang softly: "I came to your city, walked the way you came, imagined the days without me, how lonely you are..." he sang Thinking, imagining countless scenes of meeting Tian Lu again in my mind, "Will you suddenly appear, in the coffee shop on the corner, I will smile and wave to greet you, sit and chat with you"; "Will we Will stare blankly at the window of the crystal shop at the corner of the road together, and then look back indifferently, you are in front of my eyes"; "Will I see your real face ten years from a distance, and see that you have a lover? Accompanied by your children, let me see the happiness from the heart on your face"... "How much I want to meet you, see how you have changed recently, stop talking about the past, just greet you, say something to you, Just to say, long time no see!" As soon as the sound of the piano fell, a woman with long hair and shawl stood in front of Chen Chen. Chen Chen felt that the space was momentarily stagnant, and the world was instantly silent. With the same warm smiling face and tear-filled eyes, Chen Chen excitedly stood up and stepped forward, stretching out his hand to grab it, but Tian Lu's figure disappeared in an instant. It turned out to be a phantom again, stemming from longing.Chen Chen stood there stunned, feeling that the surrounding air and scene were extremely cold.

I found it, I found it, I thought about it, I dreamed about it, sitting on the return plane, covering my face with my hat, reminiscing about the past alone, now, Chen Chen, who still felt deeply desolate in his heart, had to try his best to convince himself that There is also the courage and vitality to move forward, because life is still going on. There are some things in this world that are not whether you want to or not, but whether you let go or not. He said silently in his heart: "Lulu, where are you? No matter where you are, I hope you are very happy! From today on I will try my best to forget you, and I hope you have already forgotten me, because you said that when you put me When you forget, it is when you are very happy. I will work hard to be happy, but before forgetting, I still want to say, I love you!" Chen Chen silently blessed, and after talking with Tian Lu, tears fell from the corner of his eyes involuntarily. slide.At this moment, a hand hit him suddenly, and he reluctantly returned to reality from the remembrance of Tian Lu, took off the hat covering his face, and saw that the passenger next to him was fast asleep, even on his own. The arm on the armrest of the seat slipped on Chen Chen's body without realizing it. Chen Chen glanced impatiently at this "neighbor" who had big wavy hair and covered his face in a tight sleep. He was very depressed. .He first gently pushed the man's shoulder, but the man was too deep asleep to respond, so Chen Chen had no choice but to pull her arm that was on his body, and pushed the man back to his position in extreme annoyance, but just now As soon as he pushed it back, something shiny on the man's wrist caught his attention. Looking carefully, it was an amethyst. The shape and luster seemed familiar. Chen Chen stared blankly at the amethyst for a moment, and suddenly realized something. Hastily pulled out the amethyst pendant around his neck, and the exaggerated action also attracted the attention of Chen Xi and Monica sitting next to him. Chen Xi and Monica also stared at the star with wide-eyed excitement after comparing it carefully, as if a unanimous silent expectation tugged at their hearts.Chen Chen carefully observed the two crystals, they were so similar, could they be the pair he and Tian Lu bought ten years ago?The more Chen Chen thought about it, the more excited he became, but the countless times of disappointment and disillusionment before made him dare not reveal the answer. He was afraid that it would be another blow from hope to disappointment.The encouraging eyes of Chen Xi and Monica strengthened his confidence, so Chen Chen slowly used his trembling hands to brush away the hair covering the face of his neighbor, slowly and gently, a familiar and warm The faces appeared in front of Chen Chen, Chen Xi, and Monica.When she saw her face clearly, Chen Xi subconsciously covered her mouth excitedly. Chen Chen's eyes were blurred with tears for a moment, and then the tears of longing finally flooded. Monica's little face was already bursting with joy, because in In the heart of this little girl, I once again believe that love does not need to be remembered, and will meet in the end!It is the same in the world of adults, love will meet eventually, the past, present or future is just a state of your self-knowledge and unknowing.At least on this flight from Frankfurt to Shanghai, maybe the love is still going on!

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