I want to have a home

On the second day after returning from Shenzhen, Sheng Mo received a call from Lin Jiale: "Mr. Sheng, do you have time this afternoon?" He asked carefully.

Sheng Mo knew that his father should be looking for him. He looked at the get out of class schedule, and there were two classes left in the afternoon: "Yes, is your father looking for you?"

Lin Jiale hummed: "He said he would come to see me, but I don't want him to come here, and I don't want him to know about my company. I made an appointment with him outside. Can you accompany me to see him? ?”

"Okay, I'll pick you up now. Are you at home? Where are you meeting?" Sheng Mo was packing his things while preparing to find someone to take the class.

"At home. I'll make an appointment at a teahouse near the train station." Lin Jiale said absently.He was in a mess at the moment, even though his fourth uncle's phone call had given him a vaccination, he was still very disturbed.He had a premonition that his father's coming to him was definitely not just to see him.For so many years, he has always been indifferent to himself, and he has no deep feelings for each other. Now that he no longer needs his upbringing and care, he came to him, mostly to collect debts.He thought of the New Year's money that was taken away from him hidden in the pillow, and he knew that this idle father would never bring him any good things.

"Okay, you wait for me at home, I'll pick you up and go there together." Sheng Mo hung up the phone, found a colleague to help with the class, and hurried to Lin Jiale's place.

When Sheng Mo saw Lin Jiale, he found that his face was haggard. It can be seen that since fourth uncle told him the news, he has never felt at ease.Sheng Mo said to him distressedly: "Lele, don't take it too seriously, maybe your dad just came to see you."

Lin Jiale smiled wryly: "If he just came to see me, or asked me for money, it's all fine." He didn't say the rest, he thought his father would be behind his mother, and his mother It will be He Fangxu who is behind the scenes.It's not that he was thinking wildly, but he was really worried that this peaceful life would be disturbed by these people. He Fangxu was like a magic spell, which would be urged from time to time in his heart, causing him to be in chaos.It was the most secret part of him, the ugliest and most frightening part, and he was afraid of being known.

Sheng Mo didn't know about He Fangxu's appearance, so he didn't know his worries.I only know that his father is an extremely irresponsible person, an elder who does not deserve the respect of his children, and is not worthy of sympathy, but he can't imagine how much destructive power he will have.He took Lin Jiale's hand: "Let's go, you'll know when you meet him, you can't escape."

Lin Jiale also understands that sooner or later this matter has to be faced, so let's face it bravely.

In the teahouse, what Lin Jiale saw was not his father alone, but Mrs. Zhuang who he had met several times standing beside his father.As soon as Lin Jiale saw them, he wanted to turn around and leave.Papa Lin called out to him: "Xiao Le, wait a minute." He walked over faster and grabbed Lin Jiale's arm, "Xiao Le, why did you turn around and leave when you saw Daddy?"

Lin Jiale looked at his father, then at Mrs. Zhuang, but did not speak.Mrs. Zhuang stood there without moving, looking at Lin Jiale sadly, her red lips trembling, obviously emotional.People drinking tea around looked up to see the commotion.Sheng Mo looked at the atmosphere, and said to Lin Jiale: "Lele, let's go, find a seat and sit down first. When you see uncle, you still have to talk."

Lin Jiale nodded uncomfortably: "Mr. Sheng, please book a private room for us."

Sheng Mo said, "I know."

In the private room, the tea has already been served, and the hot tea is poured into the white porcelain cup, exuding curling heat.Four people sat around the table, no one spoke.Lin Jiale and Sheng Mo were very close, while Father Lin and Mrs. Zhuang sat alone, far apart.

"Jia Le." Mrs. Zhuang called cautiously.

Lin Jiale nodded politely: "Hello, Mrs. Zhuang, we meet again."

Mrs. Zhuang's eyes turned red, and she looked at Papa Lin.

Papa Lin cleared his throat: "Xiao Le, this is your mother." He spoke his hometown dialect, and Sheng Mo is also from H province. Although there are many dialects in H province, he can understand most of them.

Lin Jiale said lightly: "Dad, I haven't seen my mother, so I don't know her. Mrs. Zhuang, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were my mother. I thought my mother was long gone."

Mrs. Zhuang came out with a handkerchief, covered her mouth and nose, and wept subduedly.Over the years, she has almost forgotten the existence of this son, but occasionally when she sees the two younger sons calling someone else's brother, she will remember that they actually have a brother.At first, it was her ex-husband who refused to let her go to see Jiale, but after a long time, she had two other sons, and her miss for Jiale gradually faded away. good.Of course, it's better for herself.But fate is a circle, it will turn around, and finally one day, it will send the eldest son to her. At this time, he has grown up, and it doesn't matter whether he has a mother or not, so she is even more embarrassed to recognize his relatives.So I could only watch him silently in the dark.

However, the sins he has made need to be borne by this son who has never enjoyed a mother's love. He Fangxu hates her, but takes revenge on Jiale.This seemingly innocuous revenge made her sleepless for a whole year, and God knows what kind of harm it will cause Jia Le.What did this child do wrong? The only thing he did wrong was that he gave birth to his own son, but he needed to bear the sins he committed for her.

My own mother failed more than any other mother in the world. Her conscience was disturbed, so she wanted to make up for him.However, he disappeared out of thin air, and He Fangxu went crazy to ask her for someone, only then did she know that he had left, and he must have known his own life experience.She looked for him everywhere, tried every means to find him, and then said sorry to him, told him of her guilt over the years, and told him to stay away from He Fangxu.It just so happened that her ex-husband came to ask her to borrow money. She was unwilling to talk to him at first, but now she didn't owe him anything. Later, she changed her mind and made a condition that as long as he helped find Jiale, she would give him money.Sure enough, within a few days, he had news of Jia Le, and he hurried over to see his son.

"I'm sorry, Jiale, Mom is sorry for you. Mom has ignored you all these years, and caused you to suffer so much. You can't even go to college. I should go back to find you sooner." Mrs. Zhuang cried, He kept apologizing to his son, "I'm sorry, Jiale, I'm sorry!"

Lin Jiale turned the teacup on the table: "It's nothing. Over the years, you didn't educate me, someone educated me, grandma treated me very well, and I don't need anything. I just feel very sorry for her old man, and I have no blessings." After enjoying it, I went. When I died, there was no one to die." Lin Jiale sniffed, raised his head, and poured back his tears.

Papa Lin's face became ugly. Jia Le's words were blaming himself, and he was also blaming him as a son. That was his mother. No one died when she was dying. This is the most serious curse word in their countryside. Curse People die off their children and grandchildren.Grandma Lin has children and grandchildren, but how much better is it than having no children and no grandchildren?

Lin Jiale turned to look at his father: "Dad, have you visited my grandma? How long has the grass on her grave grown?"

Papa Lin muttered a bit, but did not say a word.He was in a hurry to ask for money, and his ex-wife could only give the money after seeing his son, so as soon as he got his contact number, he ran back to Guangdong without even drinking his saliva, and had no time to visit his mother's grave.What's more, there is no holiday, and there is no local custom of visiting people's graves.

Lin Jiale looked at his father and said, "Probably which direction my grandma's grave is facing, you don't know. Next year's Ching Ming Festival, I'm going to erect a monument for my grandpa and grandma. Would you like to come and see?" That's an understatement.

It was a cold day, and Papa Lin was sweating a little on his back. This was all his responsibility as a son, and now his son had shouldered all of it. How could he not be ashamed.He nodded hurriedly: "I will go back on Qingming Festival. I will erect a monument for the two old people."

"Oh." Lin Jiale only said one word.

Sheng Mo watched from the side. If the atmosphere wasn't right, he would have laughed out loud. This was the first time he had seen Lin Jiale have such a strong aura. He was really handsome.

Lin Jiale said: "We are a family of three. In the past 20 years, there may not be a few days where we can get together like today. Today is really a historic moment. It is really rare to have Teacher Sheng witnessing it."

Sheng Mo felt very sad when he heard it. Lele must be feeling very uncomfortable at this moment. He must have been extremely angry and didn't know how to get angry anymore, so he said this jokingly.

Father Lin and Mrs. Zhuang only noticed Sheng Mo at this moment, and they were startled when they saw it. Is this his son's friend?It doesn't look like an ordinary person.Lin Jiale saw that their eyes all fell on Sheng Mo, and said: "This is my friend Sheng Mo, he is a university teacher. I am learning design from him now, and he has helped me a lot."

Father Lin and Mrs. Zhuang hurriedly thanked Sheng Mo.Sheng Mo's upbringing is excellent. Although he knew that they were not proper parents, he still greeted them politely: "Hi, uncle and aunt! You don't have to thank me. I help the family because I think he is motivated and will be a A promising kid, he will be very promising in the future."

Father Lin thanked him with a smile on his face. His son will have a bright future, and he is not the one following him?

Mrs. Zhuang's eyes were more complicated, she knew about Lin Jiale and He Fangxu, her son should be gay, this same-sex friend, could it be his gay?But she knew that lunatic He Fangxu didn't seem to plan to let Jia Le go, and was still looking for him everywhere.

Sheng Mo is a keen person, and he also felt that Mrs. Zhuang's eyes were complicated. He glanced back, but he still couldn't guess what the other person was thinking.

Seeing the four people sitting and looking at each other speechlessly, Lin Jiale said, "Are you here to see me? I am doing well now, and now you have seen it too. Don't you worry? If there is nothing else, I will Let's go first, I'm busy."

Father Lin is fine anyway, so he nodded: "I'm fine, I just came to see you. Since you're fine, take care of yourself."

Mrs. Zhuang called to Jiale: "Jiale, Mom wants to tell you something."

Lin Jiale looked up at her: "Mrs. Zhuang, what's the matter?"

Mrs. Zhuang choked, and looked at her son pleadingly: "Jia Le, can't you call me mom?"

Lin Jiale smiled: "I'm sorry, I don't know how to bark. I haven't barked since I was a child. I only learned it now. I feel very awkward, so please forgive me."

Sheng Mo was listening, his heart was wrenching, he really wanted to hold Jia Le in his arms and comfort him.

Mrs. Zhuang's tears overflowed her eyes again, and she quickly wiped them away with a handkerchief, otherwise she would have lost her delicate makeup. She raised her head and sighed: "Forget it, our mother and son have no fate, don't call me Don't bark. I really want to tell you something, do you think we can talk alone?"

Lin Jiale didn't want to face her alone at all, he felt that she would definitely tell him about He Fangxu, it was the thickest scab in his heart, if it was uncovered, it would be bloody and painful.

But Mrs. Zhuang kept looking at him with pleading eyes.Sheng Mo couldn't stand it anymore, he patted Lin Jiale's hand, and said softly beside him: "Lele, talk to your mother carefully, even if you can't reconcile, at least solve a knot in your heart. "

Lin Jiale grabbed Sheng Mo's hand with his backhand and squeezed it hard. He was afraid and really didn't want to face it.Sheng Mo was originally very happy that Lin Jiale took the initiative to grab his hand for the first time, but later Lin Jiale grabbed his hand tighter and tighter, and he even felt a little pain, only to realize that Jiale's mood was not right.He carefully looked at Lin Jiale's expression, and saw that he clenched his teeth, his eyes didn't know where to look, the emotional pain, sadness and depression in his eyes seemed to be engaged in a fierce ideological struggle.

Sheng Mo didn't pull his hand away, he was wondering if his suggestion was wrong, maybe Lele really didn't want to talk to his mother at all.He was about to say, if you don't want to talk, forget it.

I only heard Lin Jiale say: "Okay, let's talk here. Please, Mr. Sheng and my dad, go sit outside for a while." He let go of his hand, and Sheng Mo looked down at his hand. The blocked blood flowed back quickly, but the whole hand was red, showing the great force.