Bai Yueguang became my shadow guard after amnesia

"You... what are you talking about, how can I be a shadow guard..."

Cardinal instinctively denies it, but his flustered voice has given him away.

"The latent technique master used in the cave today is the technique of the shadow guard."

Bai Li spoke as softly as possible, guessing that the cardinal must have suffered such a serious heartache that he would have such a strong resistance when he mentioned his experience as a shadow guard.The white carp tries to guide and comfort the cardinal, but if the cardinal reacts too strongly, he is ready to weave lies for the cardinal.

"I……"

Memories of being imprisoned in the dark prison came flooding back, but the white carp was close at hand, and the cardinal was still able to stay awake by holding on to the hem of the white carp's nightgown.

Bai Li's hand gently covered Linque's mask, groped for the mechanism stuck behind the ear, and asked softly: "Is it possible? I really want to know..."

Cardinal's mind went blank, and she stared blankly at Bai Li taking away the mask she had been wearing for many years, and for the first time showing to acquaintances the terrifying scar on her forehead and the shadow guard that could not be erased. serial number.

It wasn't until seeing the change in Bai Li's expression that Cardinal finally realized it, and pushed Bai Li off the bed, clutching his forehead and refusing to let go.

"Don't... don't look!"

The cardinal seemed to be frightened, and retreated step by step.

"What is Master afraid of?"

Every time the white carp approached, the cardinal would take a step back, as if seeing a stranger's little beast, but the grievance in its eyes is only shown to acquaintances.

"Are you afraid that I will despise you?"

Seeing the appearance of the cardinal, the white carp felt sore in his heart, but he had no choice but to move forward tentatively.The cardinal had already retreated to the wall, and did not run away anymore, but slid down the wall feebly, knelt down on the ground, and said deliriously: "No...no! I'm not a shadow guard! I'll arrest you! No one can lock me up... lock me up, I can only watch you being punished and have no power to resist, I can only, I can only..."

"Yeah, no one, I'm not going to let that happen."

A familiar voice rang in his ears, and Cardinal's icy body fell into a warm embrace.

The cardinal didn't hide anymore, and gradually woke up from the darkness of fear, looked at the white carp in front of him, buried his head into the side of his neck, and leaned on his shoulder.With a familiar atmosphere around him, Cardinal gradually calmed down.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have taken off your mask suddenly." Bai Li blamed himself and said distressedly.

The cardinal took a long breath before replying:

"I don't blame you. I will let you know sooner or later. I didn't expect that I would be so fragile."

"Master, what happened back then, can you tell your subordinates a few things, so that your subordinates can share some for you."

Cardinal thought for a while, finally shook her head helplessly, and sighed softly: "There are too many, I don't know where to start... If only you could remember."

It was late at night, Linque held the mask with one hand and put it on Bai Li's belly, and it was a rare thing to sleep without wearing the mask, the scar on his forehead looked particularly glaring in the moonlight.

The cardinal was already in a deep sleep, but the white carp was not sleepy at all, and couldn't help but look at the profile of the cardinal a few more times.

The erythema that should have been on the forehead was already covered by scars, and Bai Li caressed it gently with his hand, but found that there seemed to be some mark hidden under the scar...

This is... a tattoo?

Lu... Jiu... Lu Jiu...

Six nine!

At the moment of recognition, there was a buzzing in Bai Li's mind, and accompanied by severe pain, scenes from the past appeared before his eyes.

There was no resistance like the previous few times, no subconscious mind that forcibly blocked the memory, the complete memory flowed into Bai Li's mind little by little, and everything happened as if it just happened yesterday.

Blame me for failing to protect him...

The voice deep in his mind sounded again, Bai Li already knew the cause and effect this time.

Bai Li recalled his experience as a shadow guard, and suddenly understood why Cardinal sometimes showed fragility that did not match his apparent strength, and understood what he had been afraid of all these years.

Bai Li has seen his colleagues go crazy, collapse, and finally die, but what he has seen more often is that the former talking, laughing, and complaining companions gradually lose their expression, lose their motivation to speak, and become a silent puppet, manipulating Looking at a body that doesn't belong to him.

However, the most frightening thing is not the never-ending horrific punishment, but knowing that you will become the walking dead.

Bai Li almost became that kind of person.

The method used by Muyun Villa to attack the shadow guards is very simple. First, they use punishment to build up instinctive fear, and then use disciplined punishment to make use of people's psychology of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages to teach them to obey.

In the end, the unreasonable and cruel punishments that are lowered from time to time make people completely desperate, cutting off all luck and expectations.

Afterwards, as long as strict rules are established, everyone will obey by instinct.

The white carp also failed to survive that kind of devastation.

He remembered very clearly that there was a time when he would be taken into the execution room suddenly, and the executioner didn't say anything, just whipped him for no reason.

I don't know what I did wrong, I don't know when the punishment will come, let alone how to avoid it.

Everyone is afraid of pain, not to mention the pain that the instrument of torture penetrates directly into the heart.

Bai Li remembers very clearly that when teaching the rules at the beginning, most people only had resistance in their hearts, but they were just pretending on the surface, and they were thinking of ways to cheat in every possible way in their hearts.

And as the unreasonable punishment began, Bai Li gradually longed for those rules, how he wished someone could tell him what to do and what not to do, and as long as he obeyed, he could escape the pain.

The white carp was almost destroyed and reshaped into a tool that only knows how to obey.

That day he was inexplicably tortured again. After an unknown period of time, he was thrown out of the torture room with healed and opened wounds all over his body. His eyes were black from the pain and his mind was in chaos. He saw a person walking towards him. , he could only see the man's legs, almost desperately he grabbed the man's trousers, and begged in confusion: "Please tell me... what should I do, please make a rule, I will definitely Will be obedient..."

The man stood firm, and after a long time, a slightly immature voice came: "Why do you ask me what to do, what do you want to do?"

"I... myself?"

Bai Li was puzzled for a while, the haze in front of him gradually faded, and he gradually remembered something that he had forgotten in the past few months.

"Yeah... what do I... want?"

Bai Li slowly raised his head, only to find that the other party was wearing the same black shadow guard uniform as himself, and looked a few years younger than himself, and his shadow guard number was tattooed on the left forehead: six nine.

Bai Li was taken aback, the shadow guard's tattoos usually don't get tattooed on his face, he took another look and saw that the corners of the characters six and nine were a little red.

The tattoos on the face are supposed to conceal unique facial features, which may be scars or birthmarks.

"Six-nine...then is there anything you want to do?"

Bai Li knew that the young man in front of him hadn't been destroyed, not because of his strong will, but because he hadn't experienced complete destruction at his age.

But soon.

Soon, he too will succumb to punishment like himself, like all the other shadow guards, unable to say what he wants to do.

"I want freedom."

"free?"

"I want to get out of this high wall and go outside to see the real world."

Bai Li was stunned for a moment, unexpectedly felt that this sentence was so familiar, so deja vu, and so resonated with him, as if he had said it before.

"Freedom... what is it?"

"I don't know, I just want to get out of here. I forgot everything before, but when I woke up, this sentence, this obsession, I don't know where it came from."

The boy looked outside the wall, as if someone had been waiting for him in a distant place.

Bai Li's heart, which was about to die, began to wake up again, and he began to feel warmth again.

"I don't dare to escape anymore...but you still have a chance, as long as you escape before the age of 14, you may be able to avoid being completely controlled by the villa."

Bai Li struggled to get up, and gradually felt the pain in his heart, which was replaced by numbness in his body.

The wound didn't seem to hurt so much anymore, and the punishment wasn't so terrible anymore. It seemed that as long as the person in front of him persisted in his innocent obsession and was not crushed, he could still see a glimmer of hope.

Be sure to protect him.

He must not be destroyed by the means of the villa.

Bai Li could no longer find what he wanted, he just thought that it would be good to make this person not give up what he wanted.

Bai Li remembered what Linque had said and done to him, his obsession with freedom, the desperation he had when secretly learning light skills, every serious injury he suffered, every time he was critical Homemade game is not good.

as well as……

Linque sneaked over to accompany him when he was on night shift alone, secretly mixed incense ash for himself after being punished, and secretly delivered water for himself when he was punished, and supported each other when he went out to perform missions and narrowly escaped death. Ways to make yourself happy...

And before he fled, he persuaded himself to go away with him over and over again.

After he left...

after that……

Bai Li's eyebrows were raised tightly, and his hands were tightly clenched into fists, without even noticing that blood was coming out of his palms.

What have I done since then!How could I, how could... how could I do such a thing!

Bai Li remembered everything, the things he had deliberately forgotten and never wanted to remember again.I remembered why I chose to lose my memory, why other memories can be touched by the scene, and unsealed little by little. Only this one was deliberately blocked. I couldn’t remember it by accident a few times before. Only this time I finally remembered it. rise.

He slowly raised his hand stroking Linnet's face, stepped back slightly, and sat on the edge of the bed until it was broad daylight.

Linque didn't sleep well, she took off her mask because she knew she was deceiving herself, and wearing a mask in front of outsiders was just to hide her identity, but it was no longer necessary in front of Baili.

The feeling of taking off the mask made the cardinal feel a little uneasy, but perhaps because of the white carp by his side, the cardinal didn't have any more nightmares, only turned over a few times, and finally covered it with one hand unconsciously. A scar on the forehead.

A ray of sunshine outside the window woke up the cardinal, and when he opened his eyes, he saw the white carp sitting beside the bed, surprisingly quiet.Sensing that he was not in the right mood, Linque sat up lightly, wrapped his arms around Bai Li's waist from behind, leaned on his shoulder and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

Unexpectedly, the white carp was in a trance all the time, and didn't realize that the cardinal had already stood up. She trembled in shock and wanted to stand up, but because of the cardinal's movements, she had to maintain the current posture.

"Master...you...are you awake?"

"What's the matter, you didn't treat me with such a fearful attitude last night, I remember you pushing me into a corner."

The cardinal said with a smile, without the slightest hint of anger.

"Subordinates...subordinates know their mistakes."

After Bai Li finished speaking in a low voice, he lowered his head and sat motionless.Cardinal obviously sensed his loss, and was very puzzled in his heart, so he let go of Bai Li, wanting to be beside him, but unexpectedly, as soon as he let go, Bai Li turned over and knelt on the ground.

The cardinal was startled, the white carp had been pampered by him in every possible way during this time, and it had been a long time since he knelt casually, and there were very few times when something serious happened.

It's just a nap, what can happen?Could it be that Bai Li is blaming himself for taking off his mask?

The cardinal sighed softly and comforted:

"Okay, I'm not angry with you about the mask. I shouldn't have brought it in front of you. It would be better if you picked it for me. Instead, it helped me get over the hurdle in my heart."

Bai Li slowly raised his head, opened his mouth slightly in surprise, and then his expression became tangled, hesitating for a long time before saying: "Thank you for your forgiveness, but... this subordinate has something to tell the master."

"You said."

"The subordinate is bold, wondering if he can ask the master for a favor."

"You said."

The cardinal sighed softly, put his finger on the lower lip that the white carp was biting tightly, and after the white carp let go of his mouth at a loss, he put his finger between the white carp's teeth.

"Bite whatever you want, and don't hurt yourself."

Bai Li hurriedly stepped back, shook his head, and there was already water in his eyes.

"Can this subordinate please ask the master to agree, if this subordinate makes you angry, please feel free to punish me, this subordinate will be obedient, you can do whatever you want... just please... please don't abandon this subordinate... ...Even if you are so angry and put your subordinates in prison, I just hope that you can occasionally look at your subordinates..."

"What did you do to think I would do this to you?"

Linque's heart was full of emotions. He listened to Bai Li's extremely humble pleadings, and all he could think of was the way Bai Li used to take care of him.It was all Bai Li who secretly taught him lightness kung fu, bandaged his wounds, used his achievements to change his medicine, even blocked several punishments for him, and occasionally glanced at his sleeping place when he was on night shift.

If there is no white carp, I would not be able to live today, let alone the little bit of warmth dotted in that cold and dark time.

Or, after escaping alone by luck, he would be accompanied by nightmares all day long and never be able to sleep peacefully until he became like most of the shadow guards who were brought out of Muyun Villa by him, turning into a puppet that lost emotion.

How could he feel resentment towards Bai Li?How could you want to punish him all day long, and even never want to see him again?

Bai Li said softly:

"Que'er...I...I remembered, I remembered everything."

Cardinal was shocked, he had imagined many scenes when Bai Li regained his memory, no matter what, he should be extremely happy.At this time, there is only shock and deeper doubts.

"What do you think of, tell me, maybe you misunderstood again..."

"I remember what I've done since you left."

Bai Li shook his head, and when he spoke again, two lines of tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes uncontrollably.

"What did you do? Can you tell me first, maybe I won't be angry at all."

No matter how hard Linque thought about it, he couldn't figure out what could make Bai Li blame himself for this, so much so that he knelt down in front of him and begged for punishment even though he knew he was not his master.

"This subordinate almost killed you..."

Bai Li quietly covered up all his whereabouts according to the plan, disguised the cardinal's escape as an accident, and returned to the villa to receive the punishment. The serious injury made him lie on the bed for two days, and he could only stand up in front of him on the third day , but the first sentence he said was: "Liujiu, how is your Qinggong review going..."

No one responded.

Bai Li was stunned for a long time before realizing that the man had already left and would never come back again.

Bai Li originally thought that everything about Liujiu would end on the day he left, and he no longer had to think about him, and no longer had to worry about whether he would be punished again.Until this moment, Bai Li's heart seemed to have been ripped away, and finally realized that everything about Liujiu seemed to never end.

"Liujiu, help me get some gauze..."

"Liujiu, I saved a bottle of wound medicine this month and you take it..."

"Six Nine, you..."

It was only then that Bai Li realized that he had survived all these years because he wanted to protect him and help him escape.Now Bai Li doesn't know why he should continue to hold on.Lost reason, fatigue and pain seem so difficult.

If Liujiu is still there...

If I hadn't helped Liujiu leave...

At the beginning of Liujiu... did he ever say that he didn't want to escape?

Bai Li didn't realize that he had intentionally searched for clues to Linque when he accepted the task, and tried every means to find a chance to see him again.Until the white carp really found the trace of the cardinal, it hid behind the cardinal and followed him for a long time.

He saw the cardinal test the medicine a little bit, and fell to the ground in pain and retched, his heart was so distressed that it was about to break.

At that moment, Bai Li could hardly restrain his impulse, and wanted to pick up Linque and take him back to detoxify... and then... tie him by his side forever...

No, no, how could he be brought back to that kind of place!Que'er has been longing to escape for several years.

Bai Li looked at Linque's pain, but also knew that he was really at ease and happy at this moment.The corners of his mouth raised into a slight smile, and his firm eyes never showed any regret.

That's it, just look at it from a distance... look again... talk to him again... or not...

When the white carp regained consciousness, he had prepared all the tools and stood in front of the cardinal who was temporarily unconscious due to the poisonous hair.

A tool for retrieving a cardinal.

Bai Li was startled by his actions, and fled away.He found that he couldn't restrain the urge to see the cardinal again, and it might not be long before he would really take the cardinal back.

If I really do that, I will regret it for the rest of my life...

Bai Li knew that the deadline for this mission had passed, but he didn't care. He sat under the moonlight all night and turned over everything about the cardinal several times in his mind for the last time. When he stood up again, he had already Forget everything that just happened.

At the same time, he also forgot everything about the cardinal, not remembering what happened when he was with him, not even remembering that there was such a person.

Maybe that's the only way I can never hurt him.

Bai Li completed the task and went back to the villa. After receiving the punishment, he went back to his house to clean the dust. He saw a roller blind full of potions and strange tools. Yes, these days he often finds that he can't remember why something appears somewhere.Without paying too much attention, he casually wrapped the roller blind and stuffed it into the spare dark compartment under the bed.

After listening to Bai Li's talk, Cardinal suddenly felt a cloud of anger. He looked at Bai Li in disbelief, trying to calm himself down, but his anger couldn't be controlled and piled up.

Finally, Linque pulled the white carp up from the ground, pushed it against the wall and pressed it so tightly that the white carp's collar was almost crushed by him.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier!"

"The subordinate knows his mistake, cough... let the master handle it." Bearing the expected anger, Bai Li was not so panicked, and he didn't even worry about whether he would be abandoned, and he was only thinking about how to make the cardinal vent his anger .

But Bai Li didn't have any confidence in his heart. Whether it was before he lost his memory or during the period when he saw the cardinal again, he had never seen the cardinal so angry.

Will Que'er hate me...how long will she hate me, and will she still have a chance to get his forgiveness...

Bai Li tried hard to think of ways to let the cardinal vent his anger or to atone for his own sins, bringing out some uncommon capital punishments, and was choosing, his thoughts were interrupted by the cardinal's angry voice.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier! If I had known... If I had known that you couldn't leave me so much, I wouldn't have left..."

As the cardinal spoke, her voice became smaller and smaller, and the ending was even a little aggrieved.

"Do you think I'm willing to leave you..."

The cardinal buried its head in the chest of the white carp and complained softly with a choked voice:

"Do you think it's easy for me to be outside alone? Do you think I don't want you? Do you know how many times I secretly followed you, and I tried to write you a password... If you weren't so determined in the last few days You are urging me, I am not willing to leave you and run away by myself!"

The cardinal rubbed its head against the white carp's chest again, and without the comfort of the white carp, he calmed down first, and said helplessly, "Forget it, for the sake of both of us escaping in the end, don't worry. You're angry."

Then he pretended to be angry and raised his head to stare at Bai Li:

"It's not an example!"

"Owner?"

Bai Li never thought that Cardinal would say such a thing, those strong and desperate emotions quietly turned into sweet and sour bubbles and melted in his heart.

"Why do you still call me master?"

"Subordinate...I...sorry..."

"Why are you crying again, did it scare you?"

Cardinal looked at the two lines of tears on Bai Li's cheeks and frowned distressedly, gently wiped him with his sleeve, and finally kissed the corner of his mouth to lick off a drop from his lips.

"You really don't mind? Que'er, if you are angry, just tell me, and I can compensate you whatever you want."

Bai Li asked again, not because he didn't believe Linque would forgive him, but because he was afraid that he really had some grievances in his heart and was too embarrassed to say it.

"Because even if you couldn't bear to take me back then, alas... I wouldn't blame you. At most, I can spend a few days with you and cook a delicious meal to coax me back."

The cardinal pinched the white carp's ears, and suddenly said:

"Oh no, why did I say what I was thinking... I should take this opportunity to hit you hard!"

"Actually... the master can mention it now." Bai Li couldn't help but said.

"Oh? Then I'll bring it up again, um... Then I will forgive you only if you cook me delicious food for the rest of my life!"

"Okay, I promise."

At the end of Linque's speech, she couldn't help but chuckled, and then felt a little emotional: Bai Li has lost his memory for so many years...since that day...

Cardinal thought it was wrong to suddenly realize that the amnesia that Bai Li said started from the day he left, and he only forgot the part related to himself. In any case, he should not forget what happened in the next ten years.

But when he saw Bai Li again in the dungeon, he didn't remember anything.

What's more, if he chose to lose his memory because of this incident, then why did Bai Li remember the past twice when he was under torture, and why he was so resistant at the beginning, and he didn't remember it until now.

"Bai Li, are you still hiding something from me?"

The cardinal's face hardened.

"Also? What does the master mean?"

"Think about it for yourself, you said that I lost my memory shortly after I escaped, but it has been ten years since I escaped and you were imprisoned in the villa, why did you not even remember the past ten years when I saw you? Have no memory at all?"

"Subordinate...I..."

Bai Li's expression was a bit embarrassed, but it wasn't resistance or the strong self-blame just now.After a long while, Bai Li said vaguely: "It's nothing, it's just a trivial matter, it's not important."

"unimportant?"

Linque raised her eyebrows, crossed her arms and stared at Baili, took another step closer, and said slowly, "Baili, don't think I don't remember. Everything you said was unimportant in the past was always nice to me in secret."

Linque had the bottom line in his mind, so he pressed Bai Li without any scruples. He remembered that Bai Li secretly changed his medicine before. If he hadn't accidentally discovered it later, he would never know how much the medicine was paid by Bai Li In exchange, for another example, if he hadn't read the records of the punishment hall by accident, he might never have known how many times Bai Li had quietly been punished for him.

Bai Li was taken into consideration by the words, and his eyes began to escape erratically.

"Yes...but it's really not important, the master doesn't have to worry about it."

"Why did you call me master again... But since you changed your words first, then don't blame me for using my identity as master to extract a confession by torture."

Cardinal gave a smirk, and lightly pinched it with both hands through the fabric of the clothes.

The author has something to say: Bai Li: I was bullied by the master...

Cardinal: Who told you to call me master.

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