Xu Shanlan

The sudden coolness made Xu Shanlan shiver, and his body trembled slightly. He wanted to struggle and twist, but Cong Zhanyi held his waist tightly, and he couldn't get rid of it no matter what.

Cong Zhanyi's pupils contracted suddenly, he held his breath, lowered his head slowly, and kissed Xu Shanlan's legs softly, longingly, and even piously.

Xu Shanlan exclaimed "Ah", and immediately curled up her legs, trying her best to avoid Cong Zhanyi's hot eyes.The silver bells on the ankles rang sporadically, especially piercing in the dark night.Xu Shanlan raised his arms to cover his eyes, whimpering like a wounded little animal, his voice trembling as if it would break at any moment, he said: "No, please...I beg you..." The tears couldn't stop Flow down.

Cong Zhanyi panted, staring viciously at the helpless and vulnerable little guy on the bed, like a ferocious and greedy wolf that had finally caught its prey.Xu Shanlan was trembling all over, he huddled his body into a ball desperately, almost collapsed.Cong Zhanyi really wanted to just press Xu Shanlan under him, use all his strength to penetrate him, ravage him, torture him, and force him, so that he would be his forever, and he would never be able to escape or break free!

Cong Zhanyi closed his eyes, and Xu Shanlan's terrified crying was very clear in his ears. He took a deep breath and made the most difficult decision in his life - Cong Zhanyi did not continue, turned around and left step by step.

Xu Shanlan was completely stupid, this situation was beyond his expectation, and he couldn't bear such a result.He couldn't figure out how the elder brother, who had always been gentle, considerate, generous and steady, became like this overnight.For a long time, he just wept and huddled in a small corner, naked and helpless.After more than half an hour, Xu Shanlan was relieved. He looked around in a panic, but he couldn't see Cong Zhanyi's shadow. He wiped his face in a hurry, jumped up, and quickly took the Put on a suit of clothes.Pulling open the bedside table, with too much force, the drawer hit the floor with a bang, and everything spilled out with a bang.Xu Shanlan's hands kept shaking, he randomly took out a wallet, and then went to the closet to put some clothes on.

He stuffed everything he was going to bring into his bag and stumbled out the door.He doesn't want to stay here for another minute, he will go crazy if he stays any longer!

leave!leave!Xu Shanlan's head was filled with this thought, and he couldn't think of anything else.He reached out to stop a taxi, got in hastily, closed the door, and said tremblingly, "The station, I'm going to the station!"

Cong Zhanyi was standing in front of the window of his room. He watched the taxi merge into the vast night with cold and sharp eyes.

Xu Shanlan got out of the taxi, rushed into the South Railway Station, and broke into the ticket hall, all the way confused and anxious, until the conductor on the other side asked coldly: "Where are you going?" Xu Shanlan was stunned for a while.

where to goWhere can I go?Xu Shanlan suddenly realized that he had nowhere to go, his home was here, where could he go?Where can he go?Xu Shanlan stared blankly at the translucent glass curtain and the small half-moon-shaped window below, opened his mouth blankly, but couldn't speak, a sense of powerlessness and deep sadness welled up in his heart.

The conductor couldn't get an answer, so he asked again impatiently: "Where are you going, talk!"

With trembling lips, Xu Shanlan said the first thing he thought of: "Shenzhen..."

"Sleeper or hard seat?!"

"Hard... hard seat..."

"How many?"

"One..."

"330 eight!"

Xu Shanlan opened the wallet, and there was a stack of banknotes neatly placed in it, one hundred and ten yuan, which was quite a lot.Xu Shanlan has a loose temper and doesn't care much about money and other external things. These are prepared for him by Cong Zhanyi, although he doesn't need them most of the time.

Xu Shanlan took out three cards of Great Unity and awkwardly handed them in through the window. After a while, a few messy tickets, jingling coins, and a hard card train ticket came out of it.Xu Shanlan held the piece of cardboard tightly in his hand, as if holding an unpredictable future, walked around the stainless steel guardrail, and walked away slowly.

In the second half of the night, there were fewer people in the waiting room, and many tired passengers lay on chairs.Several shops selling magazines and newspapers have closed down, leaving only one or two small shops with lights on, selling tea eggs, twisted twists, sausages, and instant noodles.

Xu Shanlan sat in the corner, far away from the group of people. He seemed to understand what happened at this moment.Cong Zhanyi broke into his room suddenly, and then...

Xu Shanlan lowered his head weakly and buried his face in his hands.

Why, he thought, why!Without warning and caught off guard, a thunderbolt from the clear sky wiped out Xu Shanlan's trust and reliance on his elder brother for more than ten years.Xu Shanlan's entire world was turned upside down, destroyed, and collapsed.Pain, resentment, fear, confusion... all kinds of emotions came one after another, almost completely crushing him.He couldn't help crying bitterly, like a lost child who was hurt but had nowhere to appeal...

Xu Shanlan was woken up by someone, as if someone ran over and hit his leg.Xu Shanlan quickly straightened up, opened his eyes and looked over.A woman said: "Oh, I won't let you run around, I won't let you run around, no. Look, did you bump into someone?" She stretched out her hand to a five or six-year-old boy.The little boy looked at Xu Shanlan, showing no sign of guilt, and stuck out his tongue playfully to make a face.

"Really, you're too spoiled!" The woman patted the child half-truthfully, and smiled apologetically at Xu Shanlan.

Xu Shanlan smiled, indicating that it was okay.The child grabbed his mother's sleeve: "I want a pear! I want a pear!"

"Okay, okay, stop screaming, it hurts my head." The woman frowned and sighed, and took out a big white pear from her pocket, "here, eat quickly, and gag your mouth."

The little boy Gaba Gaba ate happily, but his eyes were looking at Xu Shanlan, showing off a bit.

Xu Shanlan couldn't help laughing, vaguely as if he had seen this kind of scene before, but couldn't remember it for a while.It was very uncomfortable for him to sleep in the armchair, so he couldn't help stretching himself, standing up and exercising his muscles and bones.

After the little boy finished eating the pears, he took out two dirty glass balls and bounced them on the ground.It made his mother rush to pick it up: "Oh, fuck you, play it here, and you won't be able to find it in a while. Tell you, I won't buy it for you anymore. Throw it away when you're done buying it!" Grab it and put it in your pocket.

The little boy flattened his mouth, looking like he was about to cry but not crying.

A glass ball rolled to Xu Shanlan's feet, he picked it up and handed it to the woman.The woman said embarrassedly: "Thank you." Xu Shanlan suddenly remembered that when he and Cong Zhanyi went home to find their mother, they also met a little boy eating pears on the train and played glass balls together.

Xu Shanlan was in a daze for a moment, all the past events from many years ago came to his eyes at once.That was the first time he slipped out to find his mother, and it was the only time. Looking back now, it seems that since then, he no longer has parents, only senior brother.

The announcement came from the loudspeaker: "Train T188 from Shenyang to Shenzhen is now starting to check tickets..." Xu Shanlan looked down at the small ticket, so, is this going to leave?Are you really going to find your mother?Will you come back later?Also... have you seen Eldest Brother?

Xu Shanlan was at a loss in his heart, he mechanically moved forward little by little along the flow of people, like any fallen leaves being carried away by the river.Surrounded by unfamiliar faces, old or young, male or female, their fate is limited to this, they ride the same train, rush up from all directions, get off and rush to all directions.

There were many people on the platform, and the long awning covered the bright summer sun, which made the place slightly cool.Carrying bulging packages with them, people look anxiously and expectantly to the left—that's the direction the train will come.

Xu Shanlan silently looked at the white horizontal lines beside the tracks, indifferent to when the trains would arrive at the station.He felt an inexplicable panic, could he see his mother when he went to Shenzhen?What did you say when you saw your mother?Will you live with her in the future? ...

The sound of the train's whistle came from far to near, rumbling and driving aggressively.People hug, say goodbye, cry, lead their children, and carry luggage. They have their desires, and they have their destinations.

Xu Shanlan stood on the platform, motionless.Facing the unknown new life, and facing that senior brother who is like a stranger, I don't know which of the two situations will make him feel more scared and painful.

He lowered his head to look at the train ticket again, and the cardboard made thin crimson marks on the palm of his hand. Car 14, he thought, car 14.

Just when Xu Shanlan turned around and wanted to find that carriage, he suddenly subconsciously felt that someone was staring at him closely.Xu Shanlan suddenly turned around and saw Cong Zhanyi standing among the bustling crowd.

Cong Zhanyi has been following Xu Shanlan, seeing him running down the taxi to buy a ticket and entering the waiting hall, seeing him falling asleep in a state of depression and sleepiness, seeing him being awakened by a child, seeing him passing through the crowd At the ticket gate, watch him wandering in front of the train.

Cong Zhanyi gave Xu Shanlan time to adapt, but he felt that he couldn't bear it for long. His desire to control and possess Xu Shanlan was so strong that he was surprised.Cong Zhanyi stared at the boy with vicious and even vicious intentions in his heart.If Xu Shanlan got on the train, if he had to leave him, he would arrest Xu Shanlan without hesitation, lock him at home from now on, and never, ever think about leaving him!

Even if he dies, he must die in my arms, and I must accompany him!

Cong Zhanyi's eyes were burning, his fingers trembled slightly, and the tyrannical yelling in his bones almost broke through his throat. He could hear the clear sound of his own blood rushing, all his thoughts and ideas were directed at that one person, only that one person!

At this moment, Xu Shanlan turned his head.

Everything around, noisy, noisy, chaotic, suddenly disappeared.On the entire platform, only the two of them were left, their eyes locked in the air.The moment Xu Shanlan saw Cong Zhanyi, he knew it was over.He couldn't leave him, since he was very young, he couldn't leave him.Who else but him?

Xu Shanlan was filled with overwhelming resentment and anger for no reason, as if towards himself who was powerless, and also as if towards Cong Zhanyi who pointed out everything.He threw down the train ticket with a flick of his hand, rushed straight at Cong Zhanyi, and bit the senior brother's shoulder so hard, as if he wanted to vent all the resentment in his heart, so that he tasted the rusty mouth full of blood. Taste, still refusing to let go.

Cong Zhanyi remained motionless, he endured the severe pain on his shoulder, even with a bit of joy.

He knew that Xu Shanlan would not leave again.