crossing the northern latitude

From a long time ago, Lu Yan knew that his character was not likable.

He is stubborn.In the past, I would argue endlessly with the teacher because of a problem in class, which made the young teacher very embarrassed.He hates loud schools and everything he thinks is 'wrong'.He feels that the so-called smoothness is a trick of adults' self-compromise, and that things that people of the same age are interested in are boring and a waste of time.

He seems to be mis-clocking with others all the time.

His parents gave him little company, and his father who treated him unconditionally passed away, and his mother still needed him to take care of him.He grew up alone, and no one approached him unreservedly, accepted him, and tolerated his capriciousness.

And Lu Yan rarely cared about others.

The past life seemed to give him the green light all the time, he learned everything quickly, and his grades were always better than others... It's a pity that this kind of pride only lasted until the year of his father's death.

Lu Yan suddenly realized that he was nothing special. There are many smart people in this world. When he was complacent, others were working hard. Now he finally has subjects he can't learn, and he has failed exams. Moments when you feel like a failure, lonely, and weak.

Then he met Meng Tunan.

If you compare it, it is obvious that Montunan is his polar opposite.

Meng Tunan has a sweet mouth, loves to laugh, can make others feel at ease, can pretend to be deaf and dumb, and knows how to make himself feel at ease... These qualities may not be learned by Lu Yan in his lifetime.In many moments, Lu Yan secretly envied Meng Tunan, envied that he could be surrounded by a group of girls to help him bring things outside of school, and he could chat with a group of boys about basketball and games... He seemed to be the center of a certain world .

He also knew that Mengtunan was very kind to him.

After all, Meng Tunan's care for him has been close to output from the very beginning, no matter what it is, it is Meng Tunan who is making concessions and compromising with him.Lu Yan knew in his heart that perhaps none of his family members cared as much for him as Meng Tunan.

Lu Yan, who has little experience in friendship, has tried an S-level experience card of this kind, and has already renewed this relationship indefinitely in his heart. According to his own logic, he has unreasonably classified Meng Tunan into the "All of Me" card. Object' range.

The Li Xiaoyuan incident deepened his dependence on Meng Tunan.

That incident completely disappointed Lu Yan, and he began to have an inexplicable hatred for the school.He started hating class 89, hated the teacher, hated everyone he met in school.

Because he had a similar experience, Lu Yan hated that kind of bullying.The girl's experience and ending made him lose part of his expectations for the world.

Montunan was the only straw he could grasp at all this time, the only living creature he could trust.

It is also vaguely understood that favoritism and tolerance are precious in this world, no one owes anyone, some things are delivered to the front, and what should be continued should be continued.

But what confuses Lu Yan is that Mengtunan is a bit unusual recently, they seem to be not as close as before.

Always sneaky.In the past, I always shared everything without reservation, but now, when I look at my mobile phone, I still hide it, as if there is some secret.

As long as he talked about Li Xiaoyuan, he was not happy.

He didn't fight with himself much anymore, and seemed to be deliberately keeping a distance.

The same is true for eating. In the past, I always liked to grab a bite from myself, which was called "testing the poison", but now I am so peaceful that I don't want to grab my food.

No matter how dull he was, he felt that something was wrong with Meng Tunan.

It was also at that time that Lu Yan discovered a problem. People like Meng Tunan have no shortage of friends. He has a healthy family and a cheerful personality. People in the whole grade can get a few words out of him. He is generous and generous. Whether it's a friend, wherever you go, there is laughter.

So why alienate yourself?

Don't need yourself anymore?

At first, Lu Yan guessed that it was because of Yang Cheng and his group.But after observation, it was not true. After that incident, Meng Tunan cut off contact with that group of people, stopped playing the ball, and pretended not to see it.

Once again, Lu Yan felt the fear of losing. He really didn't want to lose this relationship, but the situation seemed to be getting worse.

This day is even worse.

Mengtunan has refused his request to sleep at his house for three consecutive days.

Lu Yan was very disturbed, and after being perfunctory, he went into the house with Meng Tunan directly, and found Gao Hui and said that he wanted to stay for dinner.Gao Hui was naturally extremely happy, and greeted him again and again: "Go to the refrigerator and get the sleeves to eat, and I will cook something else."

They were talking, and Meng Tunan went upstairs without saying a word.Lu Yan didn't dare to follow, so he sat downstairs chatting with Gao Hui, and Meng Tunan didn't come down until the meal time, and ate lazily without looking up at anyone.

Lu Yan just stared at him, gnashing his teeth to eat.

Meng Tunan was so guilty that he didn't dare to look up at others.He said in his heart that this deer is too clingy, and he doesn't let people have a moment to breathe... He really doesn't want to face Bambi now, after all, the relationship of "Bambi treats me as a friend and I want to have sex with Bambi" is really true Too cunning, simply taking advantage of others...

The point is that this deer is always going up, isn't this forcing people to make mistakes.

The worst thing was that he couldn't bear to reject this person.Look, look...do you know how to bring me some food?It's really red and rainy in the old world.

Meng Tunan lifted the bowl heavily and took the carrot that Bambi had picked up for himself... Damn it, it was only after taking it that he realized that he didn't like carrots at all.He looked up, saw Bambi's resentful eyes, swallowed his words, and ate the carrot with humiliation.

"Tunan, your Uncle Zhao called you yesterday and asked if you want to go to the training camp." Meng Jianjun said after eating, "Don't dawdle and hesitate, give me a week ago reply."

"That's right." Gao Hui also said, "Look at you, if your grades are better, we can worry about it for you? You've learned it, and you don't want to take the test, and you're still struggling to go to a training camp."

At this stage, Meng Tunan was very displeased with his parents admonishing him in front of Lu Yan, so he replied unhappily: "Then I didn't want to learn by myself, you didn't force me."

Gao Hui was taken aback: "What did you say?"

Meng Tunan became rebellious and threw the bowl away: "I don't want to eat, I'm going to practice calligraphy."

He turned his head and went upstairs, but Gao Hui didn't have time to output all the big ideas, but thanks to Lu Yan, she held back and didn't rush to the expert method.

After being silent for a while, Lu Yan finished the rice in the bowl: "I'll go up and see him."

At first, I thought that Meng Tunan was hiding in his room to play games, but after searching, he was really in the study.Lu Yan walked up to him lightly, looked at the four big characters of "Tiandao rewards diligence" hanging on the wall, and took a stool to sit beside him to watch him write without daring to disturb him.

In fact, Meng Tunan looks pretty good when he writes, he is very focused and his eyes are very quiet.

Lu Yanfa was stunned for a while, and heard the other party ask him: "Look at what I do."

"Boring, let's see what you write."

"I'm not good-looking."

"I didn't look at you either, I read the characters." Lu Yan pointed to the rice paper and asked, "Is this running script?"

"No, it's Shoujin." Meng Tunan finally looked up, he glanced at Lu Yan, and quickly looked away.

Lu Yan looked a little strange, just about to ask what's wrong, Meng Tunan handed him the brush: "Try?"

"...I'll try it, then this piece of paper will be ruined."

"It's okay, there are still a few big boxes of new paper, I can't finish writing in a year."

Lu Yan pointed to Meng Tunan's half-written paper: "But you wrote it all..."

"It's not that the exam has to be handed in. If it is abolished, it will be abolished." Meng Tunan didn't care, and pulled the person to his side, "Come on, write for fun."

Lu Yan could only take the writing brush, and gestured awkwardly.Meng Tunan propped his head on the side and smiled: "I can't even hold a pen."

After speaking, he stretched out his hand to help Lu Yan adjust his brush holding posture, but Lu Yan hadn't held the brush much before, his fingers were very stiff, and he couldn't control it at all.

They tossed and tossed for a long time, and the nib full of ink could not bear the gravity, and a little bit of ink dripped unsteadily, and fell on Meng Tunan's white sleeve, and soon fainted into a pool of black spots.

They all froze for a while.

Meng Tunan soon realized that this posture was not right. He was embracing Bambi, holding his hand, and his half-embracing posture... seemed a bit too ambiguous.

But he didn't let go immediately, but looked sideways at Lu Yan.

The other party was also looking at him, frowning slightly.The four eyes met, and it was myself who avoided it first.

The two of them didn't move, they just stood there in a stalemate, as if they were waiting for something to happen.

The study is very quiet.They kept this posture silent for a long time, so long that Meng Tunan's heartbeat slowed down.He was about to let go, but Lu Yan whispered: "You take me to write... I can't hold a pen either."

Mengtunan breathed out: "Are you sure?"

Lu Yan nodded.

"Ah."

"Okay." Meng Tunan tightened Lu Yan's hand, and wrote without hesitation.

His hands were steady, and Lu Yan could only concentrate on cooperating, and soon a square "Yong" appeared on the paper.

Writing just one word seems to take all my strength.Lu Yan breathed out, and asked blankly: "Is this regular script?" He paused, "Why didn't you continue writing yours..." He pointed to Meng Tunan's previous handwriting, "Shoujin. I think... That skinny gold is pretty pretty."

"I don't even know how to write regular script, but I still want to learn Shoujin." Meng Tunan smiled, "This is called Yongzi Bafa, and Yongzi is a basic skill. I don't know how many times I wrote this character when I was young."

"Oh." Lu Yan nodded, "Write one word every day?"

"Yes." Meng Tunan led him to write again, "I write one word every day."

They sat side by side that day and wrote many "yong" characters.Later, Lu Yan felt that he could hold the pen, but he didn't want Meng Tunan to let go of his hand, so he followed this posture and let the other party take him to write... Yong, Yong, Yong, all eyes are everywhere.

Meng Tunan's hands were sweating, and he was sweating too, but no one stopped, sticking their hands together stubbornly to compete with Yongzi.

Repetitive homework is boring, Lu Yan is distracted.He asked absent-mindedly: "Are you recently... Are you in a bad mood?"

Meng Tunan didn't even look at him: "You must concentrate on writing."

Lu Yan didn't even look at the paper this time, and turned his head to look at Meng Tunan: "Why don't you let me sleep with you?"

Meng Tunan ignored him, but still replied: "You must concentrate on writing."

The atmosphere made people feel a little flustered, and Lu Yan began to find nothing to say.

"...By the way, Teacher Jiang said to help you with math, didn't you? If you don't want to go alone, I will accompany you on weekends."

"Write with concentration."

"...You seem to be avoiding me?"

Meng Tunan paused, but still answered: "You must concentrate on writing."

"You've been very wrong lately."

"Write with concentration."

"..." Lu Yan rolled his eyes, and communicated patiently, "No matter what happened to you recently, but don't forget about Li Xiaoyuan, let's go and ask the teacher how to see her."

As a result, these words made Meng Tunan drop his pen.

The pen hit the inkstone, and the ink splattered and even stained their clothes.

Meng Tunan raised his voice and roared, "Will you write or not!"

"..." Lu Yan's face was covered by the yelling, "What's the matter with you recently?"

Meng Tunan seemed to be very angry, facing the desk with heaving chest... After thinking about it, as if he had made up his mind, he grabbed Lu Yan's arm and walked to his room, locked the door, and went out of the closet. Flip out a few discs.

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Lu Yan was puzzled: "...what is this?"

"My secret." Mengtunan said in a low tone, "Do you want to read it?"

Lu Yan didn't hesitate for a second: "Look."

Meng Tunan spread out the discs, "Choose one."

Lu Yan casually pointed to one.Meng Tunan watched him silently for a while.

"It's scary, are you sure you want to watch it?"

"……Look."

Meng Tunan exhaled, turned around with a blank face, and turned on the DVD player.

They sat side by side on the bed. When the English subtitles appeared on the screen, Meng Tunan was crying. He almost begged and said, "You... don't hate me."

why should i hate youLu Yan wondered in his heart.He didn't have time to look at Meng Tunan again, propped his head up, and concentrated on admiring Meng Tunan's "secret".