Eros kisses Psyche

"...That's probably how it happened. In short, it's all because I didn't tell Lao Cheng that I was a student at this school...I also used fake names for you, because of many reasons...I really didn't expect such a consequence. "

Originally, I did a lot of psychological construction, but when I really said it, it was not as difficult as I imagined.Although what I said was stumbling, it was as tasteless as a glass of white water, and there were still parts that could not be touched or talked about, but I still said it, especially when "yes, we are together", there is actually a trace of inexplicable pride occupying it Gaining the upper hand, concealing the guilt and apologetic state in the narration, he couldn't help showing a little smile.Being able to introduce such a person to others with a close relationship with oneself... It's like showing an exclusive exhibit at home for others to visit. No wonder collectors with rare treasures often prefer to hold personal exhibitions, It's like a quiet boast.

No wonder psychiatrists always talk about "honesty" and "talking".What will others think of me?Even if it is said, who can understand?But in fact, when he said it, there was only a wonderful... refreshing feeling?It seems that I hit back the extremely difficult ball, passed the pressure on to others, and then I can get a chance to breathe, watching the opponent catch it in a hurry:

Lao Cheng covered his face with his hands, blushed and pretended to be drunk, thinking that others could not see him; Ding Qiyi didn't seem very surprised, but felt that it was inconvenient to comment too much because he touched the realm of private life, so he fell into deep thought; After a brief shock, it seemed to be cracked, but immediately showed the self-cultivation of a poisonous person very professionally, and began to pester Xu Budie to ask if there are any photos and videos of that statue work to watch...

Xu Budie thought about it, he had never taken a decent panorama, the only one that he thought was fun was the chaotic and bloody photo taken after the statue fell down.He simply showed it to Jing Jianian in a mischievous manner, causing him to fuss: "Damn it, is it such a neo-realism—what is this, "Golden Venus in Rags"?"

Xu Budie smiled gratefully, knowing that maybe Jing Jianian just didn't want to face the reality prematurely, he turned to Ding Qiyi: "Sorry, so it can be said that the root of all these things is me... But you don't seem very surprised."

"I was surprised when I recognized you as the model of the statue, but I am no longer surprised." Ding Qiyi said calmly, "As long as you see that work, you will understand. Teacher Cheng basically expresses what should be expressed and what should not be expressed. It expresses everything... That's why we usually make some sculptures specious, basically we don't particularly restore the model himself, or make some exaggerated deformations and changes, otherwise sometimes this is like an exposed wound , open heart, excessive frankness, it is too easy to be seen through..."

Ding Qiyi saw the original work in the warehouse of the studio. It was wrapped in a large layer of cover and foam to prevent collision and fall, and it was placed in an inconspicuous corner.When he opened it curiously, in such a gloomy environment, it seemed to be glowing—not the effect of spotlights and booths, but a layer of shimmering light that burst out naturally from the inside out, It’s like the rarest treasure being polished with the most thoughtfulness: every flowing texture and line makes you seem to be able to see through them the traces of how the creator’s hands have been touched, which is pure understanding and deep admiration... …

At this moment, the appreciator and the creator seem to have reached a consensus, and an emotional channel has been established. Your eyes coincide with his eyes, and your hands are connected with his touch. Obsession, appreciation and deconstruction - you can hear the creator like a god who took off his own ribs, proudly declaring in your ear: Look, this is my lover.

This is a typical difference between those who are obsessed with the authorities and those who are on the sidelines. As the person involved, Xu Budie has always felt a little ashamed and dared not take the initiative to take a closer look. In addition, participating in the firing process will dilute this layer of perceptual brilliance and become It is very "just as it stands", so he has never had a particularly deep feeling-of course, even so, he seems to have been captured by a mysterious force on the spot, and when he saw it, he directly omitted the confession process and realized the relationship The leap-forward breakthrough of...

Now when I hear others say it, I suddenly feel a burst of embarrassing shame: You think only the two of you understand it, and you hide it well, don’t you?In fact, anyone in the world who has eyes and a little bit of art can see it, and Lao Cheng is just short of engraving the words "We have a leg" on it.Then thinking that he actually planned to take this to the exhibition...Xiao Xu suddenly understood Rong Wanqin's furious feeling when he learned that he had donated her sculpture to the school.

"Fuck, Cheng Zhu, what have you done..."

"I don't know, I didn't do anything, I lost my memory..." Cheng Zhu denied it three times, and simply pretended to be dead when he was drunk.

Only Jing Jianian put down the phone in a daze, it seemed that there was a little bad contact, he was in a state where his soul was shocked but he managed to maintain his calm and glued himself up with adhesive tape, not wanting to lose his position too much:

"Actually, I didn't expect you to be serious at all at the beginning... I planned to come to me and cry bitterly after you were rejected. At that time, I could laugh at you hahahahaha..."

The laughter was too plastic, and the other three people noticed that his state was starting to change, so Xu Budie gave him a hand: "Hey, Jingzi... are you okay?"

Instead, he put his arms around Xu Budie's shoulders and said eagerly, "Aren't you all right? Isn't that a good thing! Why do you make it so heavy and have a sour face? This should be a celebration! No wonder you are here today The hair-plucking is also a treat—boss, let’s have a bottle of white, and some meat—”

He filled the wine glasses graciously, and said in an unusually excited tone: "No matter what others say, getting out of the order is a big deal, and one must go! What's the matter, what's the matter, among us, finally If someone gets what they want, brothers must be happy..."

"No," Xu Budie said to him with thorns all over his body, and took his hands off his shoulders, "It's not because I got what I wanted, that I think you should be affected by the collateral effect , There is no guilt... I really don't want things to become like this..."

"Things have become like this, did you report it? Or did Lao Cheng not let us participate? If it's not the case, are you ashamed?" Jing Jianian raised his voice out of control, "Then it's my name." You go... tell you to chase after him, if I don't push it, won't it be okay? I leave it in my heart and let it go, isn't it good? Should I also feel guilty? Ah?!"

Ding Qiyi hurriedly interrupted him: "Okay, you're too drunk..."

"I didn't!" Jing Jianian slammed the bottle, and everyone in the store looked towards them. "I just want to make everyone happy! Just be happy...can't you be happy? The youngest in our dormitory chased the goddess out of singles, but we held a grand single party for him, and everyone made a fuss like crazy In the early hours of the morning, there were still a few couples at the party... Why do we now have an overview, questions, discussions, and conclusions like a defense meeting? Looking back on the past and looking to the future?" He became dissatisfied with Xu Budie again , "And what do you mean by what you just said? What about 'because of cause and effect', what about writing abstracts when you fall in love? It's nothing...not the kind that ordinary people have, pink bubbles and disgusting Baji with a wretched smile, is it the kind of story that makes people want to beat you up? The youngest got too drunk at the single party, so he caught everyone and told us all..." He wanted to laugh , but with too much force in his hand, half of the liquor anti-theft bottle stopper that had been unable to be opened was violently pulled out.And this little thing is like a strong stimulus, he pressed the pause button all at once, and suddenly froze, watching the wine flow on his fingers and on the table stupidly. "What does it matter? It's just that Brother Ding lost your mentor, and I lost my goal of getting into the university. The projects we worked on encountered unfair treatment, and even Lao Cheng lost his quota and job... ...but it's not Xu Xing's fault?...I understand it! I know it very well...why can't I be happier!"

Xu Budie snatched the wine bottle from his hand to prevent him from cutting his fingers, but he couldn't help filling himself a full glass angrily, and drank it to the end in one gulp—from his throat to his stomach burned like a fire, intense The burning sensation diverted other attention.

"Okay, be happy! As long as you want to listen, I can talk about it. I still have a lot of things that won't be on the stage. I can't talk about it when I'm sober." He drank another cup like a cow, mixed The alcohol began to rise, "What do you want to hear? Let me tell you a good story... I bought the ticket according to what you said... But I didn't have any hope at all. This guy doesn't seem to want to talk to me. I It's not going to happen at all... Besides, I don't know if I will fall asleep halfway through seeing it? But I managed to save enough money, I made the perfect plan, and then I took the glass of water from the 'good man', and I I also apologized to him for fear of delaying his work, and told myself 'just sleep for two hours'—"

"Xiao Xu!" Cheng Zhu's face changed, only he knew what he was talking about, so he hurriedly stopped him, but the other two didn't find anything wrong with the story, so they let him continue: "I was woken up by an electric shock. Yes, is it exciting? Have you ever seen it? That pink toy with electrodes attached..."

"Xu Budie!!" Cheng Zhu stood up abruptly, reaching out from the innermost seat and trying to drag Jing Jianian out, "You're drinking too much!"

"Yeah, I drank too much..." He stood up obediently, blinking, "How could I drink so much? I drank the whole glass. I don't know why I'm very thirsty, maybe it's I ate a kind of prunes before... I was hungry and didn't have time to eat, and they gave me those prunes for snacks... I'm stupid too, aren't I? I ate a whole plate..."

All the details that I tried to forget, never recalled, came like a tsunami.

"Come on, don't talk," Cheng Zhu couldn't let him talk anymore, and put his hand on his mouth, "Xiao Ding, settle the bill for me first..."

"I just want to say, I didn't finish it...I'm very happy!" Xu Budie broke away from his hand, "I'll pay! I said I'll pay...I have money!" He shook off Cheng Zhu suddenly grabbed Jing Jianian's shoulder tightly, as if he was going to make a hole in it with so much strength, but his eyes flashed an abnormal light excitedly, and he lowered his voice tightly, "Anyway, it's them I gave it!...It's quite generous, and it's quite formal, and it's actually a compensation for breach of contract according to the contract...Haha, I just thought, how can I ask for it? Then who am I? But I thought again , why not? Can anyone give me a certificate? No one else will even know...If I return the money, they won't even suffer a little loss....So I After hesitating for a long time, I still haven’t returned it in the end.”

Jing Jianian still sat where he was, but the alcohol on his body gradually faded, and his face turned pale, as if completely frightened by these sudden revealing words.

"Why this look? It's like you said, is it a good thing? Without it, how can I 'get what I want'? So if you don't get hurt, it's hard to get the artist's favor... like ...Cracked glaze, yes, and the work you repaired for Senior Sister Jiang before... It doesn't work if it's broken, it must be glued again, it's art when it's glued together! The broken beauty—they like this..."

Cheng Zhu didn't say a word, his face was extremely ugly, he suddenly picked up Xu Budie and walked out.But the person being carried on the shoulders was still smiling, and shouted at them: "So is this story pink enough, disgusting enough, do you want to beat me up after hearing it? I told you to beat me up before...you still say I'm sick...I see you are sick, all of you are fucking sick!"