Eros kisses Psyche

Not worth it?

Cheng Zhu knew that this question was not for him, because his answer was definite; if Xiao Xu just wanted to hear it, he could say it a thousand times, ten thousand times: You are worth it.

But many times, when people face criticism from others, it is usually because they have no way to convince themselves.

Rather, what Xu Budie was torturing was a despicable self buried in his heart.

Those hidden pasts that have nowhere to tell can only be carried, pondered, doubted, and questioned alone, like a manhole covered with a lid, fermented and rotten, with rotten growth and gas expansion inside, but on the surface To still maintain a calm and normal.Either wait until the day when the silt overflows, or a spark bursts into the gap and triggers an explosion, or people will never find out.

Cheng Zhu looked at the chaotic colors exploding on the paper, which were layered and sealed as if they could not breathe, pouring out like venting, but there was always a small gap in the center, like an opponent against these colorful colors. The villain, working hard to prop up his own small living sky.But with the superimposition of layers, the little private land becomes narrower and narrower, and is gradually engulfed by more turbulent and flowing colors.

Cheng Zhu didn't comfort him too much, and let his tears flow down silently, seeping through the sweater and even soaking the shirt. I relieved him from my own point of view; this was a long-standing depression to vent, and it should be said that I even felt a little inappropriately happy now-because he chose himself as the object of confidance, it seemed that the last shackles had finally been lifted, and they were finally released. You can meet naked in soul.

After he had cried enough, Cheng Zhu spoke slowly: "I have my worth and not worth it, and you also have your worth and not worth it. Maybe my 'worth' is selfish, but what about other people? I haven't said a few words to you, but I know your family situation, and I have been thinking about your application for returning to school; there are people who are not your relatives, but care about you, take care of you, and treat you like your own son; , When you are sick, she provides you with her only shelter and care; there are also people who are obviously wronged, but because they are sympathetic to your situation, they swallow all their grievances in their stomachs... It is impossible for everyone to do this regardless of the cost. Helping you, there is an ulterior purpose behind it, right?" Cheng Zhu patted Xu Budie on the shoulder, "So all you have to do is convince yourself, and the crux of the matter is not me, or me bringing a group of fans It’s enough for Tuan to whisper in your ear every day that you are awesome.”

Xu Budie is not lacking in praise—it should be said that after this Waterloo-like encounter in his life, he has received more praise than before: hardworking, hardworking, responsible, energetic, and sweet-mouthed. Even being blown away by the wind and frost of the society, many people think he is handsome...

He thinks that apart from being handsome, other things are more like a business card that he "marketed" for survival, and this "handsomeness" was not so obvious in the feedback of the first ten years of his life, at least definitely It is not enough to be a model for others, so in his opinion, it is more like an additional effect brought by a "business card".In short, everyone thinks you are a good person, you are pleasing to the eye, and you like it in your heart, so you are naturally handsome.

Although he has seen the statue made by Cheng Zhu, and shamelessly thinks it is very handsome, but the meaning of the art must be more than the surface appearance, besides, the art must be processed, and the one made by Cheng Zhu is even more beautiful. There is a filter... who is not the beauty in the eye of the beholder?

What Xu Budie didn't know was that he had the unique temperament of a teenager and the harmony after stepping into the society prematurely, a mixture of youthfulness and maturity, and a kind of unconsciousness after being in a strange environment. , tightening the animal vigilance of the whole body, but did not lose the cleverness and sincere innocence hidden in his eyes, so that sometimes he seems to hold a mature story that has experienced the world and experienced ups and downs, and sometimes a fresh and fresh one suddenly emerges. A bright, childlike soul.

This kind of beauty makes the originally harmonious facial features vivid and clear, the eyes are clear and deep, the perfect fusion of youth and adulthood, fragility and tenacity, greenness and maturity makes people want to explore, conquer, and make him like him Like a book, one page at a time.

He doesn't know what he looks like in the eyes of others; he doesn't know that Cheng Zhu also has dirty thoughts in his heart, he doesn't know that if possible, he also wants to frame his soul with a picture frame, lock his body with copper casting, Stay by your side forever.

No matter what you think... Lao Cheng sighed in his heart, resisting the urge to push down, rub, and suck the cat—now it's the stage of purely talking with the quilt... He couldn't help but look at the tilted cat in the small garden. The sunlight, the ray of light seems to have a substance, projected like golden strings, played by the flying dust in the air to play a warm scale.It turns out that "Together with the Light" may not be as great as the literal interpretation, maybe it is just a feeling of laziness while basking in the sun, and even a small piece of cast shadow fell on his leg, which makes people frown slightly , a little eager to brush it away with your hands; just leaning together like this, all the feelings are communicated without words, all the voices of the heart are delivered without the need for export, even the dancing dust in the air is so clear, so It's so cute, it makes people want to sing a song unconsciously to the beat of the music and dance.

Xu Budie finally regained his strength, wiped his face, seemed to feel a lot more comfortable after venting, and finally calmed down, and sincerely asked Qi Chengzhu's opinion: "So, what should I do?"

"Just, try to verify it, and prove whether you are worth it or not." Cheng Zhu said lightly, "Practice is the only criterion for testing the truth. This is always true."

Xu Budie leaned in his arms and was hugged by his arms like a baby bear. His hasty footsteps seemed to stop for him at this moment, and there was a strange smile on the corner of his mouth: this man is really Miraculous, it seems that big things can become simple with him, no matter how turbulent emotional bombs, tiny emotional bubbles, there will be chemical reactions among them.

Xiao Xu asked in a strong nasal voice: "...how to practice?"

"Then I won't be sleepy if you say this, so why worry about this? Who is this in front of you? Let me tell you, rank the living artists in contemporary China. You are pressing this person as a pillow now." Believe it or not to be ranked in the top [-]..."

After boasting about himself, Cheng Zhu picked up the paintbrush that had just fallen from the floor and handed it to him.

"You don't have to think so much, just start painting, doing, and trying. You have laid the foundation, spent time and energy, and carried the expectations of others. Those pasts cannot disappear suddenly."

"However, if I do it, it will still prove that I have no talent?" Xiao Xu glanced at the messy canvas that was like an artist's palette with guilt. It is a little brighter, but still has a strong trace of Cobain.

"Then if it proves that you are really talented, can you stop questioning and belittling my boyfriend so much?" Cheng Zhu gave him an angry smile, "Okay, you also passed the intensive training entrance exam People, know the rules; half a month from now, you will have no personal freedom, and your part-time job will be suspended. All your time is mine. I will give you a new rehabilitation and dig a thorough dig to see if you have any talents... …By the way, make up for last semester’s class, so that you can experience what one-on-one private education service from top teachers in the country is.”