Eros kisses Psyche

"I'm sorry..." The child climbed up and grabbed him with all four limbs, wrapped around Xu Budie's body tightly like an octopus, hiccupping from crying, "It's all Lele's fault... don't quarrel... don't quarrel ... Lele is a bad boy, he lied..."

Xu Budie didn't know what to say, so he could only hug his little soft body tightly to let him warm up as soon as possible.I really didn't want to hear about the entanglement between Cheng Zhu and his ex-wife just now, but I was careful when I went out, because when he was helplessly blocked in the entrance just now, he accidentally saw You Lele's shoes lying aside, and he reached out to touch the soles of the shoes. It's a bit tidal, then Lele should indeed be back, but the freshly prepared meals in the house have not been touched, which is absolutely impossible for a cooking baby to just go to bed obediently if nothing happens.

That's why he went around to the garden in front of him, climbed over the wall familiarly, and originally wanted to knock on the window of Lele's room to see if anyone was there, but suddenly heard the intermittent choking breathing curled up in the corner He hurriedly searched, and found him curled up in the corner of an old-fashioned cabinet, and opened a cabinet door to block the wind; it was the same as when I first found him in the garden, even the hiding place was the same.

The child is really afraid of going to strange places.

"Lele, listen to me." Xu Bu took a deep breath, carefully let go of his ears, but tightened the quilt around, "Why are you standing outside in the garden? You didn't wear socks, You only wear slippers and no coat, don’t you feel cold? If you feel cold, why don’t you come in?”

"I'm sorry, Brother Xu..." Lele's saliva covered his entire chest, and he couldn't help crying, "Because Lele made a mistake..."

"Remember, there's nothing wrong with punishing yourself like this, and no one has the right to punish you like this." Xu Budie said, "Besides, you're sick from the cold, and if you don't say you're uncomfortable, who would feel bad? Who would worry? Who is going to take you to the hospital, who is going to take care of you so you can’t sleep all night? Are you punishing yourself? You are punishing the person who loves you.” He sighed after he finished speaking. understand.

But Lele paused, choked and said drowsily: "But... I just want my mother to love me..."

Yes.There are only a few kinds of "weapons" that a child of this age can have. Acting like a baby, crying and making a lot of noise are usually enough; he would rather use the way of hurting himself, which seems unreasonable, but if this is The only way to awaken his mother's feelings for him?But his only means was in vain.

Lele was sobbing and still crying, Xu Budie could only pat him lightly, feeling that his body was starting to turn hot, he should go find some medicine, but Cheng Zhu's medicine was in the cabinet in the living room, There is no way to pass now, and if it passes, it can only add fuel to the fire.There was another faint sound outside, and the confrontation between Cheng Zhu and Rong Wanqin seemed to have not subsided.

The living room was in a mess.There was no dignity left for anyone, and after struggling and pulling, one of them collapsed on the ground exhausted, and the other leaned against the wall, surrounded by fragments of the past.

Cheng Zhu couldn't seriously throw a crazy woman out of the room in the early hours of the night like this. The two wrestled for a long time like a tug-of-war, exhausting all their strength and vigor, and finally maintained a precarious balance.

"I really don't understand. You have been treating illnesses for a year, and all of them have been treated in the dog's stomach? What do you want? Do you remember that we were divorced? You left by yourself! Who stopped you? Now You don’t want all the things in this room! You left Lele without even asking, and you left me too, just left! Did you ask us how we felt at that time? ? What are you doing now, what is the point of you staying here?"

"I regret it. Can I regret it?! I was sick and my mind was not clear."

"You're not sober now!!"

"I'm sober! I remember what you said! You promised me that I would never make another statue. Do you remember? . . . how long? I've only been away from you for a year, and what you said Doesn’t the promise count for nothing?”

Did I say that?Cheng Zhu was startled, thinking about it carefully, maybe he had said it; he once made a statue for her, and the full of love can overflow from the eyes of anyone who sees this work.Anyone who is immersed in love, who doesn't make promises lightly in a daze?When naked and hugging each other, the sun and the moon can be given away, and eternal life and death are just the price between lips.But at the beginning, the vows of eternal love ended up like chicken feathers in this place today.The people who invented the combination of mountains without edges and heaven and earth died as soon as they died, but why do they still care about others?

He sighed wearily. "I also remember what you said, do you remember what you said? You said I was evasive, irresponsible, childish and shameless, that I never understood you, didn't understand you, and would only hurt you. Just now, you said I was a liar and thought I cheated during marriage." He smiled, "Do you remember, the day you signed the divorce agreement and left, I begged you to wait for Lele to leave after school, but you Tell me, I never loved you, I just used you as a tool, a tool in work and life... You said, the tool is going to go now, please learn to face life by yourself..."

Rong Wanqin straightened her upper body and retorted sharply: "Am I wrong? Haven't you escaped or been irresponsible? Yes, you persuaded me to stay before leaving, but it's already that time, why are you pretending again? So kind, don't you think it's too late? Lele used to pick up and drop off kindergarten so many times, which one did you do? He was sick and nervous and couldn't sleep all night. Where were you when we needed you? You were on the mountain , in the field, in the factory, in your kiln! Do you think I don’t know whether it’s because you claim to be “busy at work” or you simply think that the children are troublesome at night, and I’m annoying to quarrel with you, which affects your sleep and creation Inspiration?! I created a business with you, I have been with you for more than ten years, don’t I know you?”

"Yeah, we have been together for more than ten years..." Cheng Zhu recalled with some wistfulness. He had to admit that he was entangled in the bottleneck at that time, his ability was not worthy of his ambition, and he felt that he was dragged down by his family. Helping his wife everywhere but becoming hysterical, as if the whole world is against him, like dragging heavy shackles and can't see the way forward, no matter how hard he tries, he doesn't even know whether he is going in the right direction, that kind of despair Who should I talk to? "...But you actually think that I have never loved you."

The woman sobbed, as if she felt a little sad, but also a little funny, tears flowed down strangely and uncontrollably. "How do you love me? You carved a statue of me, and everyone thought it was an expression of love, an inscription of love, but I immediately felt that you loved the statue that resembled me, not Me! I am not as perfect as you carved, you carved a goddess, but I am just an ordinary woman who can go crazy, get sick, and make trouble for no reason!"

Cheng Zhu was really stunned, with a splitting headache, speechlessness was second, and more of a feeling of grievance.He had never thought about it this way, and he didn't understand why this matter looked like this from another angle.Am I a sculptor?I sculpt the image of the person I love and merge it into a masterpiece of art. Isn't it the highest praise for love?Although sometimes I would make Pygmalion-style jokes like "Don't fall in love with sculptures" and eat a little bit of jealousy - just like Xiao Xu did before - but isn't that fun and jokes?I am also a person, a real person... Why do I have to prove to myself that I will not fall in love with anything other than people?

Painful memories flooded my mind.He couldn't help but think of the past behind the work called "Beloved" based on Rong Wanqin: when she saw it, she looked sour and out of control, and asked him to take it away and throw it away immediately.At that time, I was puzzled and thought it was just the cause of my illness. Although I was extremely wronged, I forcibly endured it.

"...so because of this, you were going to throw it away. I was full of emotion, hoping to restore what you made...you just threw it away and asked me to destroy it. You have Have you ever thought about my mood at that time? It’s just a work! What’s wrong with it?!”

"You said it was a gift for me, but after I insisted on not wanting it, you agreed to me on the surface, but donated it to the school in private. What do you mean? Do you care about my feelings? No, you Just trying to prove to me that you're right, I'm being vexatious!"

"But you made me smash it and throw it away! That's the best thing I've done breaking myself in a while! You're in your own world of self-pity and you really care what I'm after What is it!?"

Cheng Zhu felt exhausted all over his body as if he had been interrupted and ground to pieces. He almost gritted his teeth and said that he has been concerned about various things these days. He has been suffering intermittently since he started making sculptures, and he has not let go of his energy. ; Later, he encountered various setbacks in turn. In fact, no matter whether he had to voluntarily withdraw the manuscript or had to voluntarily resign, the blow to him was not as calm as it seemed on the surface.

But I have to hold on and hide all my parts, so that Xiao Xu will not worry, and I can give him a stable place... If I collapse, what will he think and how will he persevere?I'm an adult, I'm the one with the main responsibility and I have to take it.

But these questions that got into my ears one after another and had to be refuted were so absurd, but they happened to come from my closest and most trusted person. Those harsh questions and sharp disputes were more like making him The last tight safety rope was also snapped abruptly.Leaning against the wall, he felt that the incandescent light was very dazzling. He half covered his face with his hands, feeling as if he was about to drown. He breathed and frowned, and gradually couldn't keep up.

Rong Wanqin didn't believe his words.If it's 'just a work', why can't it be destroyed?Why is it always able to avoid harm, but it is me who gets hurt?

But this statue is different from her own... It makes her feel very uncomfortable, maybe because the eyebrows are too real, or because the technique is too mature, or the reflected side is too vivid; Unlike the statue of her, people saw her but not her, just turned every pair of eyes into a mirror reflecting love; but this one is not, it is real, embarrassed, hesitant, shrinking, proud, Stubborn, full of jealousy and desire, full of scars but straight back; she sits on the ground, so that when she looks up, she can only see a sharp profile, like a dangerous emotional beast, straight and straight looked at her contemptuously.Before she knew it, that face seemed to be her own reflection, and she said to her with a mocking expression: 'Please learn to face life by yourself. '

She screamed as if she was being burned, resisted and struggled to dodge backwards, kicking her feet to the base of the statue.

The cast copper work is still quite heavy as a whole, but it was a little tilted during the pull and pull just now, and since it was only the first draft and did not decide the location and method of exhibition, in order to reduce the difficulty of transportation, Cheng Zhu did not make a particularly stable base.With this kick, it lost its center of gravity and fell straight forward.

"Be careful!!" Cheng Zhu subconsciously rushed over instinctively, and stretched out his hand to try to block the toppled bronze statue, but the part protruding from the side of the cast bronze was irregular in shape. When he reached out to block the main body, the side was also heavy. It hit the top of his head with a dull bang.

Cheng Zhu swayed for a while, didn't even cry out in pain, and just fell straight down.