Eros kisses Psyche

The two walked slowly along the river embankment. On New Year's Eve, there were no tourists on the street, and the shops were closed. There was only the sound of fireworks exploding, reflecting warm and bright colors on the river surface together with the gorgeous neon lights. , showing them two small silhouettes holding hands.

"Do you want to eat something?..."

"Ah, but at this point, I don't know if there are any restaurants open... I guess there will be queues for restaurants that can open."

Cheng Zhu said as if talking to himself, "...is there any supermarket that is open at this point, buy some dumplings and cook them at home..."

He stopped, turned around and looked, and wiped Xu Budie's face with his palm. The place touched by his dry palm seemed to be warmed, and it was so painful: "Don't cry, or the tears It's all freezing. Don't be mad, just the two of us, have a good year, next year everything will be fine."

A huge firework exploded in the air, covering the end of his words.

He simply turned around and yelled at Jiang Mian: "Everything will be better tomorrow—"

White mist sprayed out from the cold air, as if all the stagnation just now had swayed away on the distant river with the shouts and echoes.

"You shout out too," Cheng Zhu encouraged Xiao Xu, "just shout out."

Xu Budie looked towards the river.The river was surging, and my face was sore from the cold wind, and the part that was not completely dry seemed to form tiny icicles in the air.The winding tear trail of a tear will be frozen in place, but this majestic river will not.

"How can you still laugh?"

"Why don't you laugh? Everything that needs to be solved has been solved. I paid for it, but they didn't say anything. Haven't you heard that sentence? Problems that can be solved with money are not problems." Cheng Zhu gave him a hand, "My money and apology are not for them. They are used to buy your safety and make you happy. I also think that you can't be stumbled by them here. If you don't appreciate it, my investment will be all In vain."

Xiao Xu pursed his lips: "Sounds like a fool."

"That's not true. The world of adults is full of intrigue and self-deception." Cheng Zhu is quite proud, and being a foolish king really makes people easily dizzy. All right, you will earn more money than me in the future. Just pay me back at that time."

"how do you know?"

"How do I know?" Cheng Zhu looked at him, "I've already carved a picture of you. You ask me how I know? My eyes have already cut you open and plowed you like a field. Planting in the body..." He covered his mouth, "No, that's a little dirty, I can't say it now."

Xu Budie rolled his eyes at him.Unexpectedly, the depression in his heart was ridiculed by him, which made even the depression in his heart not in the mood. "Why can't you say it? I want you to say it."

"I will not say."

"you say!"

"I can't tell."

"You've done everything, what can't you say?!"

Angrily, he stretched out his hand to push Cheng Zhu, Cheng Zhu tilted his body, didn't resist, and didn't say anything; so he was pushed again, but he couldn't let go of his hatred, so he pushed again... and his feet were empty, crooked Sliding down the breakwater.

"! Be careful!" Xiao Xu jumped at him in a hurry, reaching out to grab him, but Cheng Zhu caught him, and the two of them hugged each other along the height of the breakwater and rolled down several laps before stopping.

"Oh, you still love me." Cheng Zhu held him in his arms and said with a loose smile.Both of them were covered with dry winter grass stalks, and they were short of breath for a while, and neither of them wanted to let go.

"I know what you're thinking," Cheng Zhu patted him, and pulled the grass stalks out of his neck and hair, "You must be thinking, how unfair this is, you didn't do anything, you were obviously a victim Or, why did it end up like this?"

He continued: "Actually, they also think the same way. They also feel that it is unfair: Gan and Yu have been masters all their lives, but he is not completely ignorant. Objectively speaking, he still possesses higher Professional. So he understands, he never touched that threshold, seeing the end of his art career, so he can't wait. They look at me and think it's unfair, I don't have half his qualifications, without him conditions, without his resources, but whether it is fame or strength, it is not a matter of bragging to say that I will surpass them sooner or later.

"And the pinnacle of his jealousy was seeing that statue of you. He knew, I touched the threshold, and it didn't even look like much effort, after all, the object came to the door by myself. Being in a bottleneck state with no achievements made them feel that I was just lucky, so they lamented the injustice of fate. They spent so much time and money, and finally they could only shout in their hearts:' Why did it become like this?'”

"That's because they are bastards." Xiao Xu said angrily, "Now it's completely self-inflicted-...No, didn't they achieve their goal? You quit, they can compete."

"Even if they participate again, they will definitely not dare to use your picture. They reported it themselves. Isn't it a thief to use you as a model at this time? To avoid suspicion, they will definitely change to other..."

Xiao Xu was speechless: "Will that have any impact on the result?" Is it possible that I will have some additional BUFF?

"Probably not, but I'll feel better." Cheng Zhu answered honestly.

"...Are you Ah Q!"

"Cough, no, I misled you, what I want to say is..." Cheng Zhu straightened his face, "When the two sides are seriously unequal, there is no fairness at all. You and them, regardless of social status There are huge differences in terms of economics, economics, seniority, etc. Naturally, there is no possibility of fair negotiation. If you maintain this state and keep fighting with them, the only one who gets hurt will always be you.”

Xu Budie had to admit that he was right.Of course, we have laws, public opinion, and justice and morality to provide protection for the weak. If we are willing to let go, we can of course "be willing to take the emperor down from the horse."

But he can't give up, can't let go, there are too many things on his body that he cares about, wants to protect, and is cumbersome but can't let go; just like Cheng Zhu, if you don't care about his slow pace, it will be difficult to be loved by others. Calculate in this way.And even if he was calculated, Cheng Zhu still had a lot of options in how to solve the problem.

"...So, can I just swallow my anger? Is there no other way?"

"Yes, I have."

They lay side by side on the waterproof slope of the withered lawn in winter, and the stars could not be seen in the city, but the exploded fireworks were integrated with the water surface at the edge of the field of vision, flickering heartily, falling and rising at the same time.

“Go back to school. School is a great shield and a petri dish, and it can provide you with a lot of loans, grants, scholarships, and a good community relationship. Especially in a relatively small art scene like ours Basically, the classmates, teachers, seniors, and juniors you come into contact with, as long as you continue to work in this line of work, they will be entangled with you for a lifetime." He smiled, "For example, Qin Hong...Of course, this is a failure. Case. But I don't understand where I messed with him, we are not even from the same department.

"You are like a seedling now. You are thrown into the wasteland before it grows up. You are trampled by the wind and rain, and you have to bear it all by yourself. The next door is a greenhouse and chemical fertilizers; it's not that you can't go in, it's you." You have set limits for yourself, and you are not allowed to enter by yourself.

"You are not being fair to yourself. How can you expect others to be fair to you? You are a drop of water, so don't just make tears when you are wronged. You will end up in rivers, lakes and seas."

Xu Budie fell into a long silence.For so long, this is the first time he has been persuaded to waver on the issue of going back to school or continuing to work.

"Are you speaking from the perspective of a teacher, or from the perspective of a boyfriend?"

"I'm speaking from Cheng Zhu's point of view." Cheng Zhu replied, "Whether it's a teacher or a boyfriend, they are the ones who love you."