lie guilty

"Your mother has a congenital heart defect, and so do you!" he yelled.

"I said that Luo Kun obviously didn't stab your vitals, so why did you die so quickly, so that's how it is," he turned to my face, his handsome face was twisted ferociously, "That's the fucking way!"

"Why is that so?" I was even more puzzled, "You don't think I died of a heart attack, do you? It's not so easy to inherit it. Don't be so serious."

"Don't deny it," he said angrily, pulling on my collar, "that's what your dad said just now."

My eyes widened, I couldn't believe it, "My dad said, he said I have a heart attack?"

"Yes!" He let go of my collar, lost his support, and almost fell to the ground. I quickly supported him, he waved my hand, limped towards the chair, and sat down, "Your father Said."

"Mu Tian, ​​I know that he is self-willed, and he is very proud. It's because his mother and I didn't educate him well enough to develop his current character. I just hope you can be more tolerant and tolerant. disease, afraid of excitement."

Mu Tian imitated my father's tone and said slowly.He looked up at me, and there was emotion in his eyes that I didn't understand, but it was stronger than last time, last time, or earlier, when I saw him.

"Zhao Mingze, tell me, tell me if you have a heart attack or not."

I looked at him for a long while without speaking.

He continued: "I don't believe it. You are still so good at fighting. I have been with you for so many years. For so many years, I have never seen you get sick. You don't have a heart attack, do you? Don't you?"

I just looked at him, looked at him deeply.

I want to answer, but I don't want to say something that I haven't said in more than 20 years, even today.

If possible, I would prefer to keep him a secret for the rest of my life.

Especially after I'm dead.

He looked at me, looked into my eyes, I don't know how long he looked, there was a look of sadness in his eyes, his eyes were wide open, as if otherwise, the emotion in his eyes would no longer be able to bear it Let it out.

"It's true, isn't it?" He raised the corner of his mouth slightly, "You didn't deny it."

"You never told me." He couldn't believe it, lowered his head, and said softly and with some difficulty, "I don't know either."

He covered his face with his hands, covering his face completely in his palms, "I don't even know."

His words were very slow, but mixed with some imperceptible meaning.It seems that there is something in it.

His black hair fell down his cheeks, and his hands blocked his face, so I couldn't see his expression.

But even if I saw it, I'm afraid I wouldn't understand it.

I wish I could understand.

I walked up to him and put my five fingers lightly on his head, not too heavy so as not to touch his wound.

I heard myself say calmly, "I don't want you to know, just because..." I suddenly felt something stuck in my throat, making me unable to speak, but I continued to say, "Just because ,I do not want to tell you."

I want you to understand my feelings for yourself.I am not a weak person, I am not willing to seek sympathy for a heart disease.

Also, sympathy is not love.

"You don't have to do this," I laughed softly, "Congenital heart disease doesn't necessarily lead to death. You see, my mother goes to the hospital every day, but nothing happens. Besides, the Zhao family is so rich. I don't care. will die because of this..."

I persuaded him, but he grabbed the clothes around my waist, "But you died," he squeezed his hands tightly, "You died, Luo Kun's knife didn't hit the vitals, but you Died, died so fast," he slightly let go of his hand, spread his fingers, put them in front of his eyes, and stared at them intently, "died so fast, I don't even have a chance to regret it."

"I always felt that Luo Kun did not stab the knife, it was me..." He clenched his fingers into fists, "It was me..."

The scene of that day, at this moment, I still remember clearly.

In fact, I wish I could forget about it.

Just got off the plane, I thought there would be Mu Tian's sweet kiss and Luo Kun's smiling face to greet me.The result was such a knife.

It stuck right in my chest, maybe it went into the lobe of my lung, maybe it didn't.But I still remember that Luo Kun's hand stabbed down hard, blood splashed out, he was not soft, and still stabbed the knife in hard.

The wound didn't hurt very much.

Because my heart hurts more.Maybe it was sad, maybe it was anger, maybe it was because of more things. At that time, my heart was like being pricked with a needle, stabbed with a knife, and twisted with a rope.

I thought I was stabbed in the heart by Luo Kun.

I didn't know until after he died that his knife didn't hurt the vitals.

Only then did I realize that my death was not due to excessive blood loss, nor was it due to Luo Kun's knife, nor was it due to Mu Tian.

I held his hand and sighed softly, "It's not you, neither..."

If this is the case, then my hatred for Luo Kun and my resentment towards you will fade a lot.

I reached out and gently wiped the corners of his eyes, fingers along his eyes, cheeks, and lips.Then came a kiss, soft on the lips, penetrating to the heart.

This time, he did not refuse.

Lips and tongues entangled.

My tongue tentatively pressed against his lips, he opened his mouth obediently, and intertwined with me, appreciating each other's mood, using a part of his body to tell each other how much he loves him.

For the first time, I thanked my mom for going to the hospital with an illness I had always thought was insignificant, and thanked me for being able to visit her today.

To this day, I still think that this is really a dream.

How many years have I prayed for this dream and how many years have I been looking forward to it.

How many years have I been in a trance.

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The door opened suddenly.

Mu Tian hurriedly pushed me away, and I turned my head to look at the door depressed.

The face is exactly the same as mine, but the waist is straighter than mine.If I use a metaphor, he is more like a pine, and I am a worm.

My dad stood there expressionless.

I don't know how long he watched and how much he saw, so I could only laugh dryly, "Dad, you and Mom are done talking."

He let out a "hmm", leaned against the door with his arms crossed, his brows stood erect and frowned, "I don't care what the two of you are doing, but one leg is broken, the back of the head is broken, and the other There are scratches on the face, I still have to say, between young people, be considerate and considerate to each other, if you plan to be together, you should live a good life, think more about what you say and do, don't think that you are still a child, and stare at each other if you disagree Eyes. It's time to know the responsibility, don't always want others to accommodate you."

I rubbed my head, it turned out that during the dispute between Mu Tian and I just now, the hat fell off, no wonder my dad saw my face full of scratches.

I just hope he finds nothing.

"Yes, sir!" I hurriedly gave a military salute, "It turns out that the relationship between the two of us has been approved by the chief. In this case, Mu Tian and I must get along well so that we can live up to your expectations and entrustments!" After finishing speaking, I solemnly performed a military salute again.

My dad was very serious at first, but now he couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth, "I hope what you said this time will count." He looked at Mu Tian, ​​"I said a long time ago, this kid is not bad at heart, you two should be considerate , don't be like me and your mother." He said with a sigh.

"I thought you were doing well." I heard Mu Tian say so coldly.

I thought that Mu Tian would at least be somewhat comforted if he didn't talk about joy, but at this moment, it seems that his tenderness towards me just now has disappeared, his eyes are staring at my father's face, and he doesn't know what he is thinking.Faintly, I felt his thin lips pursed slightly, showing a trace of coldness.

"What's the matter? I don't even have a confidant, and I know how to be jealous all day long, and these lovers always put his mother in the hospital." My father waved his hand, "Since your mother is fine, you should stop Stay here and go back."

He took out a handkerchief from his pocket, wiped it on his hand, and then put it back.He suddenly remembered something, turned his head and said to Mu Tian: "It's time, let's go to your father's place to worship and worship, so that you can have a good talk with him. I just hope that he won't blame my child for seducing his son and hurting him." He accidentally lost his successor." He laughed lowly twice, as if he had remembered something, but his expression was a little bit melancholy.

After speaking, he turned around and walked out the door.

At this moment, I suddenly felt that this cold-blooded man, who was like steel and a cold-blooded animal, also had a gentle and lonely side.

The back is so lonely.

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It's been two months, I've been on a business trip for two months, and I'm finally going back.

I don't know if he wants me or not.

Before leaving, I told him that he must take good care of himself.

I also told Luo Kun to take good care of him, you must take good care of him, if he loses a hair, I will only ask him.

Luo Kun smiled and agreed.

Mu Tian, ​​my Tian'er, I will see you soon.

Don't blame me for calling you that, I know you don't like it.

But I don't know how I could call you more intimately than that.

As soon as the matter here is over, we will go abroad to get married, just the two of us, and I will ignore anyone, even if my parents disagree, I will ignore anyone.

I will also transfer this diary to that computer. When the time comes, I will show you all my diaries, so that you and I can recall the past together.

I know you must not like to watch it, because I always bully you.

But this is our common memory.

You wait for me to go back.

Don't worry, we will always be together.

No one can be separated.