lie guilty

In my diary, apart from my parents, there was another person. Two days after I wrote about him, my parents never appeared again.

In fact, I am very shy. When Mu Tian opened the document, I really didn't have the intention to read what he wrote.

Afterwards, he still couldn't hold back, and leaned over to see which document he had opened on the screen.

Document 0003:

I think he must be the person I hate the most in my life. Every time I see him, I can't wait to beat up his pretty girl-like face.

I really can't believe that there is such a face that people want to see when they are in class, when they are walking, when they are eating, and when they are sleeping.

I really want to ruin this face so that people can't see it, lest he is always entangled in my mind, so that I can't get around my own thinking, so I want to put that face in my mind.

"You really want that little sports car?" I still remember him sitting on the chair and I holding his first gift, looking down from the height.How the hell does he have such long eyelashes?Eyes that big?The face is flushed, so easy to pinch?

He doesn't seem to want to talk to me, but I still have his gift in my arms, even if he doesn't want to talk to me, he has to pass his gaze to me, "Think."

"You really want to?"

"I really want to."

"Really?"

He got angry and wanted to stand up, I pushed him down and said, "If you really want, let me squeeze your cheek."

His face was even redder, like an apple, he must be angry.I also want to squeeze more.

He didn't speak, didn't agree or refuse.I took him by default.

It looks like an apple, but it feels like a steamed bun when pinched.I pulled his face into weird shapes, and when I squeezed enough, his face became even redder.Then I let go, and he seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, as he was about to grab his gift with both hands.

"Should...should I give it to me?" He was afraid, his voice was soft, full of milky smell, fragrant and soft.

I took a deep breath, "Here you are." I handed my hands, and he was about to take them. Just as my hands were handed over, my fingers happened to be staggered from him. I pushed hard with my fingertips, and let go, and the small sports car fell to pieces. .

I still remember his expression at that time.He was stunned, his eyes were wide open, he looked at the broken sports car, then he looked at me, pointed at me and said angrily, "You you you—" He didn't say anything about "you" for a long time, Finally, he couldn't hold back anymore, his eyes were full of tears, "You're such a bastard! You're a liar!" His little face was flushed with suffocation, and tears filled his eyes, but they just didn't fall.

He had cried the day before.I don't know what's wrong today, he just doesn't cry.

I never knew that from that day on, he decided not to cry anymore.

I saw the drops of water in his eye sockets turn and turn, but they didn't fall down. I reached out to wipe his eyes.

But I don't know what's wrong, seeing his blushing little face being pinched one by one by my fingers.The hand I was about to reach out forcibly turned a corner, landed on his cheek, and squeezed again, "Who made you believe it? Did I make you believe it? Did I tell you? I'll Say you really want it, let me pinch your cheek, and I will give you whatever you want?"

I'm so sorry, I regret it after I finish speaking.

His eyes were really about to cry, but his face was so red that I wanted to pinch it.

But he didn't dare to reach out again.

Later, he didn't eat dinner, shut himself in the house, and never came out again.

I was next door, observed all night, and didn't sleep all night.

That night, I felt like I was poisoned.

That poison's name is Mu Tian.

Document 0004:

I couldn't help it again.

My hands were really flat, and I couldn't hold back.

I hate those nympho girls the most, especially the nympho girls around him.

And I'm about to become a member of this group of nympho, around him every day.

He dared not look at me, I had to let him see, so I walked around him, borrowed homework from him every day, borrowed papers from him every day, gave half of his lunch to myself every day, and then tore his papers. homework, tore his papers, dumped his lunch, and left him hungry.

Then circle around him while he makes up his homework.He talked loudly with the little girl next to his seat while he was filling in the papers.When he is hungry, buy chicken nuggets and nibble in front of him.

I'm so bad.

But why doesn't he cry?

I really want to see his flushed face and teary eyes, I really want to see him.

But he just doesn't cry.

……Really boring.

XXX

I found that when Mu Tian was reading this document, the hand holding the mouse was shaking all the time.

I took a puff of cigarette, sighed, and said, "Why don't you shed tears? If you shed tears, maybe I don't have so much obsession with you, and I would have let go long ago."

He finally couldn't bear the fact that I, the villain, complained first, let go of the mouse, turned his face slightly to my side, gritted his teeth and said, "After you die, I will cry every few days, just let go."

"At that time I could let go, because I didn't like you yet, or liked you, but didn't like you enough," I bent down, looking straight into his eyes, "but now I like you."

Mu Tian's eyes were a little deep, he turned his head, and opened the document that indicated 0009 on the document.

From the 0009 document to the next few documents, I wrote very little.

Document 0009:

Because I suddenly don't know what to write.

My dad finally hated me.

He finally threw me out of his house.After I sneaked up on his lover again.

I really appreciate him.He put up with me for at least a few years.

Document 0010:

I moved to my mother's house.

I can't see him anymore.

But I can see him at school.It's just that I can't see him when I get home, and have dinner with him.

……

Document 0013:

I can't see him, I can't see him, I can't see him!

Every day after class, there are a lot of female classmates pestering him on his desk, and I can't see him no matter what.

Woman, what an annoyance!

And I saw so many ugly men at my mother's house, one was uglier than the other, none was more beautiful than my father, and none of them was more beautiful than him.

I finally couldn't hold back, and said to my mother: "Mom, you really have no vision."

My mother gave me a mouthful.

It's time for me to go back to my father's house.

……so happy.

Document 0014:

"I am back."

I told him that he was like that again and didn't want to talk to me at all, I just planned to hug him hard.He turned sideways and avoided it.I quickly grabbed his hand, "You haven't copied my homework for me these few days, at least you have to lend me your homework."

His eyes started to fire, he shook my arm, turned around and walked aside, I quickly followed him.

"Mu Tian, ​​Mu Tian, ​​Mu Tian, ​​Mu Tian..." I am so eloquent, I really admire myself, I said so many "Mu Tian", but I didn't bite my tongue.

I went to his room and saw him start rummaging through his backpack.Pulled out a notebook and handed it to me.

The neat and neat handwriting is so quiet that it doesn't look like a boy.like his name.

I knew he was softhearted.

Document: 0015:

To be honest, my dad's lovers blush when I tease them, but the blushes are blushing, and they don't have the very cute and biting feeling of his blushing.

But I still enjoy it, because when they blush, I can think of him.

Because he doesn't blush anymore.

"No wonder your dad kicked you out later. You are so perverted at such a young age, who would dare to raise you." Mu Tian closed the file and said with a sneer, "Your dad is a pervert, and so are you."

"Then you still support me?"

He opens document 0016.

I saw a few words written on it:

My dad said that as long as I move out, he will agree to any conditions.

I only gave him one condition.

Let Mu Tian live with me.

I haven't bullied him enough, and I want to continue to bully him.

Mu Tian closed the document with a "slap", he finally couldn't help it, he stood up limping, pushed the chair, the chair almost hit the computer.The computer screen was on and off, and I almost thought it was going to be crashed.He also almost sat back because of the reaction force.

I hurriedly supported him, "Mu Tian, ​​Mu Tian, ​​don't get excited, I want you to live with me, in fact, it's because only you cook the food, which I like the most, and I can't bear it if someone else cooks it. At that time, I wanted to take you and walk with me, I never thought about bullying..."

Before I finished speaking, Mu Tian pushed me away, "Go away, Zhao Mingze, if I trust you again, I'll be a bastard tortoise!" He stared at me, "You just want to Do you want to see me cry? Do you want to see me make a fool of yourself? You still let me remember, let me recall!"

"At that time——I don't want to think about that time at all, Zhao Mingze, get out of here, get out of here for me!" He pointed at the door and said angrily.

"No," he covered his eyes, "it's my fault again, I made a mistake again, this is your house, you can't leave, okay, I'll leave!"

He was limping and was about to walk out. I quickly grabbed him and comforted him, "Mu Tian, ​​don't go." He wanted to get out of my grasp, but I could only grab his wrist, not daring to shake it again. Can only be placed lightly in the hand.

"It's my fault, but I didn't understand anything at the time. I just... just want you to know that I have written so much, so much, for tens of thousands of days, and you are there every day. I don't know anything at all. I don't want to forget... those are the days when I was with you, so many little things." I pointed to the computer and said loudly and eagerly: "Look, look, so many days, I can't remember anyone well, just I only remember you, and I only remember you. As long as any outsider reads my diary, they will definitely find out, I... how obsessed I am with you. I don’t want to remember the days without you.”

I couldn't help suppressing my anger, lowered my voice, and couldn't help sighing softly: "This records how I fell in love with you bit by bit, you really don't want to see it? I'm really scared, you don't know what you are doing While reading these diaries, my heart has been beating violently."

He opened his mouth to speak, I quickly interrupted: "Don't say that I'm dead, I'm dead, my heart can still feel my mood, even if it can't beat, but I'm still nervous, scared, just in front of me When you have been reading my diary, I have been thinking, if you see that I like you so much, and you are still indifferent, then...then what should I do? "

Mu Tian paused, he turned his head slightly, very slowly, and then his eyes met my anxious eyes.He had that expression again.

I always don't understand, always don't understand.

Is it expectation, helplessness, disappointment?Or some other emotion, he just looked at me quietly, quietly.

The room was eerily silent.

Because he doesn't speak, I dare not speak.

He didn't know that his words could make people live and die.

After an unknown amount of time, he finally opened his mouth, as if he was about to say something, but before he could utter the words, a phone ringing suddenly pierced the air.In the silent space, it was as if a thunderbolt woke us up.

Mu Tian closed his mouth.

I secretly sighed a pity.

I looked in the direction of the phone helplessly, and a thought suddenly popped into my mind.

At this time, who is calling at this place?

The sky was dark again, and the wind blew the curtains up and down again.The phone calls one after another, eager and sharp, piercing the eardrums of people.

Could it be that the call was for Mu Tian?But he has no friends, and I know all about his social circle.

Or, still looking for me?

However, just ten days ago, I, the owner of this villa, died.