wolf at every step

It was so uncomfortable, almost like I couldn't breathe.The pain in my heart suffocated me, and I curled up in pain, trembling uncontrollably.

"Lolo!" Another call came from a distant place, and I resisted waking up, for fear of hearing some unbearable news...

However, I knew very well in my heart that this time... I'm afraid I'm really the only one left...

I don’t know how long I slept, but when I opened my eyes it was still pitch black, my head was still hurting, and the flames and screams from the nightmare suddenly appeared in my mind, and I couldn’t help crying out hysterically while hugging my head.

Father is dead...Yizhi is dead...Mumu is also dead...

It's my fault...it's all my fault...I killed them...I killed a lot of people...damn me...I'm going to find them...I don't want to live alone...

When I touched the silver ring on my wrist, I took a silver needle and pinched it in my hand, stabbing towards the throat——

"Kang Dang -" the sound of something falling on the ground, a gust of wind passed by, my wrist was pinched, he squeezed hard, I let go of my fingers in pain, and threw the silver needle down.

"Let me go!" I struggled, "Let me go!"

"Luoluo!" He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly, his voice could not help but choke, "Luoluo, don't be like this..."

What else?I laughed wildly, and with a smile, tears rolled down my face. I hugged him and cried repeatedly: "Yizhi...Yizhi...don't leave me alone..."

"In your heart... Is he the only one?" A self-deprecating voice sounded, he straightened my body and put his hands on my shoulders, "It used to be Leng Aochen, but now it's Qin Yizhi... Luoluo, is it just me? Died for you to live in your heart forever?"

"You are talking nonsense! Yizhi is not dead... Yizhi is not dead!" I pushed him away, staggered to my feet, and wanted to get off the ground, but my body was weak, and I rolled off the bed and fell on the cold floor, in a state of embarrassment.

Crawling on the ground with hands and feet together, there was darkness in front of me, I knocked over something, and pressed my palm on some debris, the stinging pain came, but I still wanted to leave here like a madman.

"Enough!" My arm was clamped, and I was pulled back by a strong force, and I fell into a cold embrace. Lan Zheyu asked angrily, "How long are you going to torture yourself?! Let me tell you that Qin Yizhi is dead! Leng Aochen is dead too! Wake up!"

"Ah - no - ah -" I grabbed his arm with all my strength, my fingernails were almost broken with all my strength, my temple was in severe pain like a needle prick, I lowered my head frantically, bit his shoulder, and said angrily in my heart, screaming You are talking nonsense!Tell you to spread rumors!I kill you!

As if aware that my mood swings were too violent, Lan Zheyu stopped talking about the things that made me feel so painful, he stretched out his arms to hold me in his arms, with his slender fingers touching my cheeks, he brushed my hair one by one, Then he patted me on the back: "Luo Luo, I won't say anymore...I won't say anymore...Qin Yizhi is not dead, neither is Leng Aochen, I lied to you...Don't get excited, be good, OK?"

The broken heartstrings could no longer be connected. I listened to his gentle words in a daze, my spirits were sluggish, and I passed out again.

Last time, there were signs of a split personality, so Lan Zheyu didn't dare to neglect, so he invited a doctor for diagnosis and treatment.

I was drowsy and heard someone eagerly asking: "Doctor, his mood is very unstable. After waking up, he will cry loudly and want to die. How can we calm him down?"

"Has the patient ever had this condition before?"

"...It happened once three months ago, he was frantic and wanted to strangle his child to death... But then he gradually calmed down, so I didn't care, thinking he was just over-stimulated... I didn't expect it to happen again this time , Now he is so tired that he has fallen asleep, I am afraid that he will go crazy after waking up..."

"What kind of stimulation has he received recently?"

"His relatives and lovers all left him overnight...and he seems to blame himself for all these faults, and he blames himself very much."

"No wonder..." The doctor paused, stretched out his hand to lift my eyelids and looked at my eyes, "Is his eyes temporarily invisible?"

"Yeah." Lan Zheyu whispered, "When he was awake, I stretched out my hand and shook it in front of his eyes. He didn't respond. Just now he was clamoring to go out to find someone, but he couldn't see the way and fell down... It was because of overstimulation. Will it be so?"

"There are reasons for this..." The doctor turned to feel my pulse, "His back of the head was hit, and the congested blood pressured the optic nerve, that's why it happened."

"That is to say, he will recover his eyesight!"

"This is not necessarily the case. According to the current situation, he has been escaping from reality. He has constructed a void space for himself, imagining that he has never been hurt, and those who have left him are also in that space... ...Whether he can wake up depends on what else in this world can cheer him up..."

"..." Lan Zheyu was silent, and suddenly his eyes lit up, "Children! He still has children! He must be reluctant to bear children!"

Child... The word flashed through my chaotic thoughts, and I thought in a daze, what child?Oh, yes, there is a child who was brutally abused by Leng Aotian... Besides, that child belongs to Lan Zheyu, so I won't worry about it... My memory is a little confused, I can't tell whether the chaotic picture in front of me is Is it true or not, and I can't tell which is a dream and which is reality floating in my mind. My eyes are no longer dark, but a vast expanse of whiteness. I can't see where I came from, and I can't find my way back.

Their conversation became distant, and I just told myself softly that everything was a dream after waking up, just a dream.

------Dividing line------

"Yizhi, where are we going?" I heard the sound of the carriage driving, rubbed against the people behind me, and asked in a low voice.

I was wrapped in a thick cloak by Yizhi, leaning against his chest lightly, it was still dark in front of my eyes, but it didn't matter, I could see his appearance in my mind.It's just that his embrace was not as warm as I had imagined. The coolness came through the thick cloak, and I couldn't help shivering.

It's been silent for a long time, since I called him 'Yizhi' when I got on the carriage, he has been silent all the time, if it wasn't for him hugging me, I would have thought he wasn't by my side anymore.

When I called him Yizhi again, his body froze for a moment, and then he said softly, "I'll take you to heal your eyes."

"Is that place far away?"

"Ah."

"Oh." I seemed to like calling him by his name, and I didn't know why, so I called again, "Yizhi, Yizhi."

"Can you calm down?" He said in a muffled voice, seeming to be even more unhappy.

I shrank back and asked cautiously, "Why are you attacking me?"

"...I didn't hurt you, I'm just tired and want to sleep." He took a deep breath and slowed down his voice.

Hearing his voice softened, I hugged his neck tightly and asked the question I didn't ask just now: "Yizhi, if we go too far, father and sister will definitely miss me, so what should I do? I'll miss them too..."

"Don't be afraid, we'll be back when you miss them."

"Oh." Something seemed to flash through my mind, and I suddenly laughed lowly. He hugged me tightly and asked in surprise, "Lolo, what are you laughing at?"

"I know why you're angry with me." I looked up triumphantly. Although I couldn't see him, I could feel his body froze again. He asked anxiously, "I'm not angry."

"Do you think I didn't call you Brother Yizhi?" Smiling, I was confused again, should I call you Brother Yizhi or Yizhi?It seems that these two titles... can be used? !When did you change your name?Why can't I remember?

The brow furrowed deeper and deeper, and a tingling pain suddenly came from his mind——

"Ugh—" I hugged my head and cried out in pain.

"Luoluo!" He hastily stretched out his hand to help me rub my temples, and explained repeatedly, "I don't dislike Luoluo calling me Yizhi, you can call me whatever you want, you can call me whatever you like!"

I panted and nestled in his arms, not daring to think about it anymore, I always felt like something was missing in my heart, but I couldn't find the missing part no matter what.

"Lolo, is it better? Does your head still hurt?" He asked nervously.

I shook my head, grabbed his hand and played with it for a while, complaining: "Your hands are so cold..."

"Don't touch it when it's cold. Come on, wrap up your cloak obediently. Be careful of getting wind and cold." He pulled out his hand, pulled the cloak over, and wrapped me and my arms under the cloak.

I moved and felt unable to move, so I couldn't help but lose my temper and said, "Don't wrap me like this!"

He seemed to have nothing to do with me, so he loosened the cloak a little bit, I took out my arm, hooked it stickily around his neck, and said shamelessly: "I want to stay like this! Hmph! See how you still leave me alone Down!"

He grabbed another big cloak and put it on me, he hugged a hand stove and stuffed it between me and his chest, and patted my back: "Don't worry, I won't leave Luo Luo alone. Don't Fear."

"Yizhi...Yizhi!" I suddenly felt very wronged, every time I had to call him several times before he could react, I flattened my mouth and shouted loudly, "Yizhi——"

He came back to his senses and pinched my nose helplessly: "What's wrong?"

"Why do you call me Luo Luo? I remember you didn't call me that before...you called me Xi'er."

"Then do you remember who called you Lolo?" He asked cautiously.

I frowned and thought for a while, then shook my head: "No one calls me Luo Luo, my father sometimes calls me Luo Er, but he doesn't call me Luo Luo..."

He was silent, and turned his head to the side, not knowing what he was looking at.

I noticed that he was absent-minded, so I stretched out my hand to straighten his cheeks stubbornly, puffed up my cheeks and said, "Why are you angry again?"

"I'm not angry." He emphasized, with a tired voice, "I like to call you Lolo, don't you like it?"

I tilted my head and thought about it, and it seemed that there was nothing wrong with calling me Lolo, so I shook my head and then nodded again.

He was puzzled: "Do you like it or not?"

"I don't hate it." I replied with a smile, and promised, "Then you can still call me Lolo!"

"Well, good boy..." He rubbed my cheeks, which immediately made me shrink my neck, but the next moment, I started giggling.

Yizhi dotes on me very much, I am very happy...