Cannon Fodder's Rebirth

The weather at the end of December is bitterly cold.

Turning off the lights and standing by the window, the elongated figure of the moonlight dragged behind lonely, a bit of loneliness and the cigarettes on the fingertips permeated the air.

Breathing out a puff of smoke, Li Jin turned around and extinguished the cigarette butt. Watching the hands of the clock jump to zero, it was already a new day...

It is said that a new day will bring new hope, but for Li Jin at this moment, he does not know where his hope lies.

Or the current situation can't be considered too bad, at least better than he expected.

Thanks to Zhong Yifan, not long after he was imprisoned, he was released on medical parole based on a medical certificate for mental illness, allowing him to breathe fresh air under the blue sky and white clouds, instead of looking at the small square of sky within the high wall.The real estate that is not in his name but actually belongs to him, the car used for travel, no need to worry about the conflict of interests between money and power, at least his life will be more worry-free, it is true.

However, if you can't see the person you want to see the most, how big is the difference between the inside and outside of the wall?

Uh... Maybe the difference is quite big, for example, it is absolutely impossible for a prison to receive visitors at midnight.

"What wind brought you here at night?"

Living alone in a courtyard on the outskirts of the city has this advantage, and it will not disturb the neighbors no matter how late it is.

"It's definitely not Yinfeng." Shaking the small gift box with simple packaging in his hand, Zhong Yifan passed by Li Jin's side.

In the middle of the night, hot air rises from the teacup, and the fragrance of tea fills the eyes.

"In the middle of the night, you ran all the way to me, didn't you come here just to have a cup of tea?"

"How come? I'm here to treat you to something to eat." After delivering the box to Li Jin, Zhong Yifan signaled him to open it and have a look.

It was a box of small hand-baked biscuits, which can only be described as small, not exquisite, and should be the work of a novice.

Li Jin laughed dumbfoundedly.

"You are really serious, Xiaojiang has learned how to make biscuits again?"

"My Xiaojiang is relatively versatile, but he won't do this for the time being." Zhong Yifan said something, and he didn't mean to hide it at all, but his eyes were suggestive.

Holding a thin biscuit, Li Jin froze all of a sudden, there are not many people worthy of Zhong Yifan specially sending it over, the answer is actually not difficult to guess.After a long time, he shifted his gaze from Zhong Yifan's face to the biscuit in his hand: "Did... he made it?"

Who he is, both of them know very well.

Suddenly reluctant to eat, Li Jin opened his mouth, but did not make a sound.

"Ask whatever you want, you have endured so hard for so many years..."

Jian Mingxuan has been away for more than four years, more than 1000 days and nights, when he opened his eyes, he would think of it, and when he closed his eyes, he would dream of it. Li Jin dared not ask a word.In fact, I always knew that Jiang Xi and Jian Mingxuan hadn't lost contact, but I didn't dare to ask, I was afraid that I would be overwhelmed when I heard that he was already someone else's boyfriend.

Back then, I only wanted to forgive my sins and didn't leave room for myself. I just wanted the other party to forget the past and start over.Unexpectedly, after the disaster, Zhong Yifan did not alienate himself like the others, instead he went around in various ways, commuted his sentence to six years and stayed outside the high wall, and now there is a little more than a year before he can regain his freedom.At this moment, when I think about it later, I feel terrible. It’s still a few decades away, without that person as a companion, how can I walk...

"How is he?" After all, Li Jin was still the introverted emotion back then, and quickly calmed down, at least on the surface, he put away the expression that revealed his heart at that moment.

"It's not bad. After studying for a period of time, he will work in a company that can make use of his expertise."

"That's good." There was a huge contrast between the flat tone and the magnificence in his heart, and he couldn't ask the question "Are you still single?"

Knowing Li Jin's thoughts, Zhong Yifan deliberately said a few words in a leisurely manner: "I heard that I recently met a baker who seems to be interested in pastries."

It should be because he is interested in people who make pastry... Li Jin sighed faintly in his heart, and Li Jin tried his best to pull out a smile, which was extremely painful.

Isn't this exactly what I originally hoped for?Forget those unbearable pasts and start your life anew in another environment.

But... I knew it would be like this a long time ago, and I have done enough psychological construction, but hearing this fact will still hurt my heart like a knife.

"Don't look at him as not fat, but he has always liked sweets." The pastry chef is very suitable for him. Li Jin's forced smile is trying to enlarge, and he keeps using the original reason to persuade himself to give blessings, as long as he is happy.

"Well, I've heard about this. He said that someone once told him that the life he most wanted to live was to open a small bakery with the person he loves, and bake some small snacks by himself and sell them at the counter. "It was a relatively idyllic and distant life for Li Jin in the past.

"..." Li Jin didn't expect Jian Mingxuan to remember it.But, just like the word Zhong Yifan mentioned, once upon a time, no matter how good the memories are, they are only once upon a time...

"You can really bear it. I've already said this, but you still have a paralyzed expression." Zhong Yifan didn't believe that Li Jin could still feel calm after hearing this.

In fact, Li Jin really couldn't calm down, but he didn't dare to give birth to even a shred of hope, for fear that he would not be able to bear it if the hope was shattered.

"I've always been like this, you understand." It was obvious that he was duplicity.

"Really? If you were really calm, you wouldn't use the ipad as a tea coaster." Teasingly guiding Li Jin to see where he put the tea cup down, Zhong Yifan's smiling eyes had already seen through the other party's disguise.

Embarrassed to pick up the cup from the ipad, Li Jin was forced by Zhong Yifan's gaze to have nowhere to escape, and lowered his gaze, staring at the teacup in his hand.

"Is he... still alone?"

"If I say yes, what are you going to do?"

"Is he still single?" Li Jin shook his head in self-denial after asking, "It's been more than four years, and he's so perfect, it's impossible for him to be alone. Don't give me hope."

And even if Jian Mingxuan is really single, is there any possibility of accepting himself again?The injury was so deep and so severe, it was all because of me, I should have known that that person could use any means, but I couldn't protect him well.Can such a self really be forgiven...

"If you were given a chance to choose again, would you still want to be with him?" Zhong Yifan said today that he came here for this answer.

This question made Li Jin silent for a long time, and after some struggles in his heart, he slowly raised his head: "The right to choose...is no longer in my hands."

"But I don't think it's in his hands. He doesn't even know what happened. How should he choose?"

"Facing me again will remind him of those unhappy things. If that's the case, I would rather he live a happy life far away." Li Jin's words were very firm: "My business, Never let him know that I don't want him to live with his baggage, he's had enough."

"How do you know that he will be happy when he is far away?" Zhong Yifan became serious: "Never decide for others what kind of life he should live. There is no definition of happiness, it is just a person's inner feelings. Only the person involved knows what he is living. Fortunately or not."

"But what can I do?" Li Jin finally couldn't hold it back, and even his voice began to tremble in pain: "Such a perfect person, he did nothing wrong, yet he was treated like that. It's all because of me! Because the person he met was me... Now that I'm finally away from being sad and slowly recovering from my injuries, what right do I have to use those to kidnap his feelings just because of my own love?"

"That is to say, you admit that you still love him?" That's the point.

"Yes, I love him, and I have never stopped loving him every minute and every second!" So every minute and every second, I am suffering from heart-piercing pain.

"It's enough to have your words." Zhong Yifan took out the phone that had been on the phone all the time, said to the other side, 'Have you heard everything', and then hung up the phone.

Li Jin immediately noticed something.

"Who's coming?"

"You should have already guessed it!" At the critical moment, Zhong Yifan held up the teacup and accused the owner of being inconsiderate: "It's so inconsiderate, the tea is cold and you don't give me another cup."

Li Jin threw a saber at him, so murderous that he could pierce the flesh, Zhong Yifan couldn't hold back, so he had to raise his hand to beg for mercy.

Jian Mingxuan is back.

In the days of wandering in a foreign country, he dared not read domestic news for a long time. He didn't pay attention until the news of the grand event in November this year was overwhelming, and all the Chinese web pages were scrolling in red and festive colors.The result was not as expected. When I saw the news about Li Jin, I searched for it while being puzzled, only to find the low-key news after he left four years ago.

Li Jin actually gave up his bright future and sent himself to prison. This is something that he can't believe and doesn't want to believe.It just so happened that Jiang Xi received a phone call to thank him for the biscuits he had just baked by himself, so he asked Jiang Xi to confirm this matter on the phone. Jiang Xi called back to tell him the whole truth after discussing with Zhong Yifan.I have been afraid to read the news, afraid to see the news about Li Jin, for fear that once I see it, I will not be able to suppress the longing that is on the verge of breaking the embankment.The distance filtered out those complicated emotions, and only the voice that still missed him after the pain settled down.

They have gone through eight years together, and during these eight years, Li Jin was an impeccable and perfect partner.It was precisely because he was too impeccable that he couldn't let go of such a large sum of money given by that person, which led to the final catastrophe.But he never thought that after he became a deserter, Li Jin would do this for him...

"We are divided into two groups. Xiaojiang is going to pick up people at the airport. If you want me to talk to you first, I want you to be mentally prepared."

There was no time to ask Jian Mingxuan why he came back suddenly, Li Jin didn't care about anything, stood up and rushed out.

"Why are you going?" Zhong Yifan hurriedly followed up and stopped him.

"I'll pick him up!"

"They should be here soon."

"If you haven't seen Xiao Jiang for more than four years, would you want to see him sooner? Even a minute earlier?" Li Jin's eyes were red.

Comparing his heart to his heart, if he didn't see Jiang Xi for more than four years, Zhong Yifan felt that he could use a sheet as wings and fly over.

"Okay, okay, you go to pick it up, but can you pay attention to your image a little bit, and change your pajamas and slippers before you go?"

After this reminder, Li Jin realized that he was too homely, so he went back to the bedroom to change clothes.

"Help me watch the house, I'll pick them up." Li Jin threw a bunch of keys to Zhong Yifan, and walked out quickly while fastening the buttons.

Zhong Yifan knew that nothing he said could stop him at this time, so he simply stepped aside and gave way.

Opening the door, a taxi turned around and drove away under the moonlight that was cut to pieces by the sycamore trees that had lost all their leaves.Jiang Xi stood in front of the door with Jian Mingxuan, and just raised his hand to knock on the door.

Li Jin's eyes automatically focused on that person, ignoring the others.

Jian Mingxuan, dressed in dust, stood under the faint moonlight, staring at each other for a long time with Li Jin.

Everything is like a classic scene in a movie after a long absence, from surprise, to joy, to being caught by the eyes.Li Jin's hand was fixed on the action of opening the door, and he couldn't move an inch.

Just staring at each other for a long time, until Li Jin finally remembered that he should say something, at least he should say "Long time no see".

However, he was a step slower.

Jian Mingxuan let go of the travel bag in his hand, stepped forward and hugged him tightly.

The unreality brought by the long-lost hug stopped breathing until the familiar smell of the other party filled his nostrils, and Li Jin believed that he had really touched the person who had been integrated into his blood again.

Hugging back harder than the other party, with a possessive desire inside that never wants to let go.He buried his face in the neck of the person in his arms, took a deep breath, and instantly moistened his eye sockets.

In his lifetime, he still has a chance to hug each other...

"I'm back..." Jian Mingxuan finally spoke first, his voice full of suppressed choked nasal voice: "I'll never leave again!"

There is nothing more beautiful than this sentence, Li Jin dare not speak at all, in order to let the lingering sound of this sentence reverberate under the night sky for a longer time.

He always thought that Jian Mingxuan's departure was not only fear of that person, but also resentment towards himself.If he didn't know himself, he would continue to be a talented designer in his professional field without any worries. It was only because of his feelings for himself that he was hurt, suffered humiliation, and was forced to leave his hometown...

Longing and guilt have been gnawing at Li Jin's heart for so long, and the pain made him choose to dig such a hole and bury his bright future.He did everything just to forgive his sins, he didn't dare to ask for forgiveness, even though he just heard Zhong Yifan say that the person he was thinking of would come back, he never thought that he would return to his arms again.That's why Jian Mingxuan's words shocked him, just like a death row prisoner who had been sentenced to be executed suddenly heard the good news that the new emperor ascended the throne and amnesty the world.

The two people who had been hugging each other tightly in the night wind didn't notice when Zhong Jiang and the two left. The world in their eyes at this moment is only each other.

"I'm sorry..." This was what Li Jin wanted to say to Jian Mingxuan himself, but the other party covered his mouth with his hand.

"Compared with this sentence, I want to hear those three words more."

"I love you...forever..." No matter what it takes for this love.

Jian Mingxuan stood on tiptoe and touched Li Jin's cool lips, branding the eternal vow.