unique lover

Lin Chu didn't know how he ran back to the room. After he calmed down, he had been sitting on the floor for a while.

Even though his thoughts calmed down, his heartbeat still couldn't calm down for a long time. He pressed his lips with the back of his hand, thinking about the kiss just now.

His mind went blank, this Song Jingyan must be joking about him again, but the joke was too big for him to accept.

He is a man, how can you kiss him?

Lin Chu's mind was in a mess. Suddenly, his mother's voice rang in his ears, and Lin Chu stood up from the floor in fright. "What's wrong? Why don't you go to bed so late?"

"Oh, nothing, just sleep."

"There are a lot of desserts in the refrigerator, which are left over from today's banquet."

"Oh, I know."

After his mother went out, Lin Chu let out a long breath, as if he had done something heinous.

At night, he tossed and turned in bed, the mouth-to-mouth touch was too real and shocking, and he could feel the numbness of his lips when he closed his eyes.

In a daze, he finally fell asleep, and woke up again from his sleep, panting heavily.

He dreamed that he and Song Jingyan were kissing non-stop, without even having time to take a breath.

Suddenly he found that his body was cold, and he realized that he had a wet dream.

He was so scared that he jumped up from the bed. It was already dawn at this time, and he didn't want to continue to sleep, and he didn't want to close his eyes again. That dream was too scary.

When Song Jingyan came out of the house, he took a look at the side building. He didn't regret what happened last night. He didn't want to hide his feelings anymore. Even if he wanted to, he couldn't hide it. It's a bit out of control for him.

But he was afraid of Lin Chu's decision.

Whether Lin Chu regards their relationship as close friends who love brothers and sisters, or whether it is mixed with unspeakable love, he is not sure.

He felt that Lin Chu didn't have any feelings for him.

Song Jingyan walked into the classroom with the bell ringing. He didn't enter through the back door, but deliberately walked through the aisle where Lin Chu was located through the front door. When passing by him, Lin Chu never looked up.

In class, even if the classmates behind Lin Chu called him, he would just turn slightly to listen. In the past, Lin Chu would look at Song Jingyan when he turned his head, and then smiled.

The last class in the morning is the class of the Chinese teacher. The Chinese teacher is an old man with sharp words. Everyone in the class is afraid that he will die. It is not because he is old that he is an old man. I heard that he is only forty He is only a few years old, but he has a Mediterranean bald head, super thick eyes, and a rigid face, making him look very old.The whole school is famous for his strictness. He treats everyone rigidly and doesn't give anyone face. What makes the students hate him the most is that he likes to answer questions by name, which makes the students dare not be distracted.

Song Jingyan couldn't help looking at Lin Chu all morning, wondering if Lin Chu had any special reaction, but after watching for so long, he didn't find anything different. Lin Chu still sat upright as usual, holding a pen in his hand. , Occasionally look at the blackboard, and occasionally read a book.

Suddenly, the Chinese teacher asked a question and called Lin Chu's name. This was a normal thing, and it was Lin Chu who was called, so everyone was relieved because there was no question that Lin Chu could not answer. It's just that Lin Chu didn't get up to answer the question!

For a moment, there was silence in the classroom~

What happened to this good student?

All the students in the class all looked in Lin Chu's direction, and saw that Lin Chu was still acting upright, looking the same as usual, but it was obvious that he was distracted!

Lin Chu felt the strange atmosphere of sudden silence in the classroom, blinked his eyes, came back to his senses, and found that the whole class was looking at him in surprise, and he looked at the teacher again, who was obviously displeased, "Student Lin Chu , answer the question I just asked."

Lin Chu immediately stood up, but didn't speak, because he couldn't hear anything all morning. "Sorry, teacher."

"Sit down, be serious, don't get distracted!"

The students looked at Lin Chu in amazement, they never expected that a good student would dare to distract himself in the Chinese teacher's class!

Just as Lin Chu sat down, the teacher called Song Jingyan's name again.

Song Jingyan stood up guiltily. All his thoughts were on Lin Chu throughout the class, so he naturally didn't listen to what the teacher said, but even if he knew the teacher's questions, he couldn't answer them.

"Teacher, I don't know."

After Song Jingyan finished speaking, the students below all laughed.

The teacher saw it very clearly. This Song Jingyan hadn't even glanced at the textbook, and he didn't know what to look at. He only slept for three hours last night, just to concentrate the key points of this year's Chinese exam in one class. Now look at it. Come on, this group of children, whether they are proud students or stubborn children, are all the same, ignoring his efforts openly, the emperor is really not in a hurry, the eunuch is in a hurry!

"Now you are in the third year of high school, and the college entrance examination is one month away. Don't think that you are superior in ability, or that you can indulge yourself because of the prosperity of your family. No matter what industry you are in in the future, the most important thing is not your ability, but your attitude!"

When the bell rang for the end of get out of class, the students rushed out of the classroom to eat lunch. Ouyang saw that Lin Chu hadn't moved, and shouted, "Lin Chu, it's time to eat."

Lin Chu didn't look back, but replied lightly, "I'm not hungry."

He didn't dare to look back, because Song Jingyan must stand with Ouyang,

"Ah? Then..." Before Ouyang finished speaking, Song Jingyan's voice sounded from behind, so gentle that it made goose bumps, "Is it because of an upset stomach?"

Song Jingyan's voice froze his whole body, and he immediately replied, "No."

Ouyang wanted to say something, but was stopped by Song Jingyan, "Let's go."

He knew that Lin Chu didn't want to have dinner with him, and he didn't want to make things difficult for Lin Chu.

After Song Jingyan left, Su Yi came over, "Lin Chu, you really don't want to eat?"

"I'm not going, I don't really want to eat, you can buy me some bread and come back." After speaking, he handed the meal card to Su Yi.

After school, Li Nanxing suggested going out for dinner, Song Jingyan asked Ouyang to go back and call Lin Chu.

"Wouldn't it be better to just make a phone call?" Li Nanxing complained, and asked someone to invite him in person, that poor man!

"Ouyang, go." Song Jingyan glared at Li Nanxing, ignoring his words.

Ouyang wisely agreed, and while walking on the road, he was still wondering why the two of them were having a fight again, and the number of fights was even more frequent than he and his girlfriend.

Didn't it just happen to be last month!

Ouyang walked to the door of the classroom and saw Lin Chu propping his cheek with one hand, looking out of the window, sitting alone in a daze.

He came in for a long time and Lin Chu didn't notice, "Hey!"

The pen in Lin Chu's hand fell instantly, he sat up straight, his eyes swept to Ouyang, and he looked behind Ouyang nervously, and then he breathed a sigh of relief.

"Why? What do you think?" Ouyang asked.

"It's nothing."

"We'll have dinner together later, Bobby asked me to call you."

The word Bobby was directly reflected in Lin Chu's mind as the kiss last night, and he quickly said: "I, I still have homework, so I won't go."

"Ah, don't you go? Bobby will be sad if you don't go."

"I have other things."

"OK then."

Song Jingyan looked in from time to time at the school gate, wishing to see Lin Chu's figure immediately, when he saw clearly that Ouyang was the only one walking out, he got into the car without looking back.

"What about Lin Chu?" Li Nanxing asked.

"He said he has homework, so he won't go."

"Cut~~~ Bookworm, poor ghost! Bobby dared not go even if he asked him, what did he really think of himself!"

The three of them were also unhappy when they ate at the Japanese restaurant. Ouyang always talked according to the situation, but Li Nanxing, a chatterbox, kept talking with one mouth on all occasions.

"Bobby, why did you bring us to eat Japanese food today? Don't you not like raw food?" Ouyang knew that this meal was specially reserved for Lin Chu, so he ate in silence.

"I have to say that the sashimi is not bad. Hey, how about we go to Japan after the college entrance examination? There are many beautiful kawaii sisters in Japan."

"Don't talk while eating!" Song Jingyan and Shen Zhen said with a straight face.

"What's wrong with you, you talk like my dad."

Ouyang felt a chill in his heart, he was really sweating for Li Nanxing, he didn't know how he followed Song Jingyan for more than ten years.

He was afraid that if Li Nanxing continued talking later, the three of them would not be able to enjoy the meal well. At this time, Bobby probably could only listen to the topic about Lin Chu.

"Bobby, isn't it delicious?"

"is acceptable."

"What's wrong with you and Lin Chu? Both of you are suffering from dementia!" Ouyang laughed.

"Is he in a daze?"

"Yeah, when I went in to look for him, my whole mind was wandering."

Song Jingyan looked at the time for a while. Lin Chu probably rushed home from school. He picked up his schoolbag and got up, and said to them, "I still have something to do, so I'm leaving first."

When Song Jingyan returned home, before Lin Chu came back, he had been waiting in the garden. When it got dark in May, a large number of mosquitoes would appear in the grass, buzzing and screaming above his head, and he was bitten on his arm. There were several bags, and he didn't dare to move a step back to get the mosquito repellant, for fear that he would miss Lin Chu in the next second.

After about ten minutes, Lin Chu finally appeared at the door.

When Lin Chu saw Song Jingyan, and saw Song Jingyan walking towards him, it seemed that a burst of high pressure was set off, his breathing became short of breath, and he didn't dare to move his feet when he stood still.

"What are you doing?" Lin Chu asked hesitantly.

"Wait for you." The tone was almost the same as usual, but the relationship between them could no longer be the same as usual.

Lin Chu looked at Song Jingyan at this time with a serious expression, unlike usual joking and joking, which made him even more stressed when facing Song Jingyan.

"I'm going back." Lin Chu was going to go around.

"Stop!" Song Jingyan said in an orderly tone.

Lin Chu stopped aside, Song Jingyan slowly approached, but still kept a step away, "Are you avoiding me?"

"I, I don't."

"Then why don't you dare to look at me?"

Lin Chusheng took a deep breath, wanting to act normal. He turned his head, looked at Song Jingyan, his slender eyelashes trembling, and said seriously, "Did you just joke yesterday?"

"I'm not joking!" Song Jingyan's tone was sharp, fast, without sloppiness, and sounded unusually firm.

"You're just joking!" Lin Chu emphasized stubbornly.

"Look at me, do I look like a fucking joke!"

Lin Chu seemed to see a layer of bloodshot eyes in Song Jingyan's dark eyes, with a cold light, extremely firm.

"Song Jingyan, I'm a man!" Lin Chu blurted out.

"I know, but I just like you!" Song Jingyan growled, if Lin Chu was a woman, he would spend so much time talking nonsense to him like this, and being tortured so hard that he couldn't sleep every day, he could just kiss her!

Lin Chu would rather Song Jingyan say "It's just a bit of an outrageous joke" in a nonchalant manner. He thought that as long as Song Jingyan promised not to make such a joke in the future, he would still forgive him, but now that Song Jingyan said these outrageous things openly, he what to do?what to do!

He left Song Jingyan and ran away, but Song Jingyan's words always echoed in his ears.

"I just like you."

"I just like you."

"I just like you."

shut up!

Can't!impossible!Will not!Lin Chu lay on the bed and buried his head in the quilt. He couldn't figure it out, and he couldn't figure it out. With his current knowledge, he couldn't explain it at all. It was much more difficult than his math finale!

His understanding of the same sex comes from watching the "Brokeback Mountain" a few years ago. At the beginning, he was a little conflicted. How could two men fall in love?It can only be said that the director is too good. In the movie, two people with completely different personalities express their love to the fullest.Jack's love is straightforward, and Ennis's love is subtle, but their eagerness, persistence, waiting, fulfillment and suffering for love still make Lin Chu fall into it completely. Seeing Ennis swearing to those two shirts, Lin Chu still remembers At that time, I couldn't control myself at all, and tears flowed out instantly. True love is hard to come by, so every true love is worth cherishing.

He has no prejudice against homosexuality since this film, but he has never examined himself for having this tendency, although, although he does not have much interest in girls!

Why is he not interested in girls?

Lin Chu jumped out of the quilt in fright. He wondered if he was also gay.

When he was young, he was always suspected of being a girl by the people around him, which made him resist girls. In the second grade of elementary school, his female deskmate often bullied him, which made him even more afraid of girls. Since junior high school, Lin Chu's delicate appearance The advantage of being at the same age began to stand out, and he received many love letters from girls, but no matter how good this girl was, Lin Chu had never felt excited. He grew up so big, except for Song Jingyan, he had never been so close to others.

He likes that Song Jingyan smiles at him, and sees him as soon as he raises his eyes, because he is happy and because he is sad.

But Lin Chu felt that he could not be gay, nor could he be!

Although the society he lives in now is much more open, how could the people of the previous generation accept it? Even he himself has been struggling, let alone his mother.

But what should he do?He saw Song Jingyan almost every day, but when he saw him, he was restless and his mind was so confused that he couldn't think.

He even hated Song Jingyan for saying such things to him.