Gu Weinan's Military Academy Diary

"Scum, scum, scum!" Gu Weinan was furious, only hated that his swear words were too poor at the critical moment, "What did he do!"

When Chen Nuo talked about himself, his tone was very flat, and he just continued to talk mechanically: "You can't imagine the lover who has been gentle and considerate to you for so many years, suddenly turned into a ferocious devil. He held me down very fiercely at that time, For the first time, regardless of my will, he forced me to have sex with him. After arriving in Xinjiang, I had a slight altitude sickness, and my head was just injured and lost blood. When I woke up, I still had a fever and my whole body had no strength, so I resisted No... He also said, Chen Nuo, what do you think you are? You just want to destroy me. Apart from looking better and your family relationship, is there anything good for me? When I heard these words, My heart was so cold that I realized that my desperate love was not pure at all.

"Throughout the night, he humiliated me in the most brutal way and stabbed me with the most vicious words. And then at dawn, my will finally collapsed... I couldn't control my emotions at all, and I couldn't stop my whole body from emitting That kind of nervous trembling, I just feel that the whole world is gloomy and hopeless. In the morning, I regained my senses and saw doctors and nurses calling for help. Under Ye Xun's explanation, I was sedated again...

"Since that day, I have repeatedly collapsed on the hospital bed. My nerves seem to be particularly fragile, and my spirit is also in a trance due to the frequent effects of sedatives. It made me feel sick. Ye Xun asked a doctor to examine me and confirmed that I was stimulated by witnessing the bloody scene, coupled with altitude sickness, mentally showing delusional and manic symptoms. He was very careful not to leave any traces on me. Evidence, so that even if I have injuries on my body, it can be explained as self-harm caused by hallucinations.

"When you don't insult me, Ye Xun will return to a gentle look, saying that he still loves me, and that he will treat me well, as long as I don't insult him anymore, and don't believe in those illusions. I know that I am not calm enough to face this matter I was calm, but I didn't have the energy to play tricks on him anymore, I thought at the time that if I didn't show a firm attitude and insisted on declaring the truth, I might really collapse completely."

"Damn it, he's not human at all! If I knew he was such a beast, I wouldn't have killed him that time!" Gu Weinan's blood flowed backwards all over his body. He couldn't believe that there were such unscrupulous people in the world, let alone that Chen Nuo was in front of him. At this age, I have already experienced such a terrible thing.If he had changed himself, Gu Weinan felt that he must have gone crazy on the spot, but Chen Nuo could still think of his lack of calmness!Who can maintain sanity in the face of such unreasonable bestiality!If he could travel back in time, if he had a gun in his hand, he would definitely shoot that human scum, Ye Xun, a hundred times over and over again!No!A hundred times can't solve the hatred!Gu Weinan's resentment was hard to appease.

Facing Gu Weinan who was gnashing his teeth with hatred, Chen Nuo was still very calm, just looked at him and asked: "The reason for my collapse is over, do you still want to listen?"

Gu Weinan's raging anger because he was immersed in Chen Nuo's narration was interrupted by this sentence.He pulled back his thoughts and said in a daze, "Listen..."

Chen Nuo nodded: "Then I will continue. Ye Xun said that I was mentally stimulated and needed to be quiet, so he put me in a separate ward in the hospital. When he was not present, I could not contact anyone. He knew that I was on vacation. It's only ten days, and I've been overdue for several days. The school must have notified my family. So he took the initiative to contact my brother and told me about my situation. As expected, the family was already anxious because they couldn't find me, and my brother rushed over immediately. I took it back home. After tossing around for a few days, my body was already very weak, and the injury on my head didn't heal at all. Before I left, I couldn't even participate in the farewell of Xiao Xiaotian's body. Find a way to expose Ye Xun's behavior.

"On the way, I was eager to tell my brother everything as if I was a savior. But my brother just told me to recover from my injuries and didn't take my words seriously at all. Because of what I might say and the reasons why I said it , Ye Xun had already confessed to him in advance. From then on, I knew that no one would believe what I said. And what's the use of believing? I didn't have any definite evidence to prove that he meant it. So I just kept silent, I I think I will always find a solution slowly. But my spirit is still affected, and this kind of thing is out of control. Whether it is Xiao Xiaotian's death or what Ye Xun did, the stimulation to me is too strong. After returning home I started to suffer from insomnia, always had nightmares, and often felt nauseous after eating, and then vomited. In order to recover my body as soon as possible, I forced myself to eat it, and then eat it after vomiting..."

Gu Weinan's stomach ached when he heard it: "Your stomach problem actually came from that time, right?"

"No, it was a little bit before, not serious." Chen Nuo turned his head to explain to him, and then he continued, "But it was indeed serious later. After the head injury got better, I went back to school to take the final exam, and after the exam, I had a holiday. When I got home, before I reached the door, I felt nausea in my stomach, and then I vomited blood. I knew it was not good, so I covered my mouth and hurried home, but I couldn’t hold back on the way, and I vomited mouthful after mouthful. My parents heard noises in the yard, came out to look, and found me passed out at the gate, with blood trailing all over the floor behind me."

"Chen...Chen Nuo..." Gu Weinan was terrified again, he couldn't find where his heart was. He hugged Chen Nuo tremblingly, wanting to cry.

"After I was rescued, my parents already knew about my sexual orientation. They thought I became like this because of Xiao Xiao, and they all persuaded me to think about it. I was confused, and I saw Ye Xun when I raised my eyes. After hearing about Xiao Xiaotian, the general team quickly withdrew their support team back in advance and replaced a group of people. Ye Xun also came back to stand by. When he heard the news that I was hospitalized, he came immediately. He was the one who misled my parents I thought I liked Xiao Xiaotian, so that everything can be explained reasonably. He also said that he liked me for a long time, and blamed himself for not taking good care of me. He sincerely apologized to my parents and promised to take care of me in the future lifetime."

"It's so despicable..." Gu Weinan couldn't think of any new words.

Chen Nuo touched his face, as if he was afraid that he would be bored, and said comfortingly, "It's almost over. My parents were very grateful for what Ye Xun said, because I only had half of my life left at that time, and I didn't even know my body. Whether I can recover, my sexual orientation is abnormal, and if I don’t get married in the future, I will worry about the rest of my life. Ye Xun was watched by them since he was a child. He has a good personality and a bright future. He is willing to take the initiative to take care of me. When I was in the hospital, they even took the initiative to create opportunities for us to be alone. After I went home, I was much calmer than I was in Xinjiang. I took Xiao Xiaotian's matter as my own misunderstanding, and just used the reason that he was looking for someone outside without telling me that he wanted to break up with him.

"Ye Xun also confessed his mistakes to me affectionately as before, and kept begging for my forgiveness. I don't know if he really believes in me, and I don't care. After he was discharged from the hospital, I stopped seeing him. This state has continued until I met you three years ago. I think I found someone I like again. Ye Xun may feel nervous. He would rather me continue to sink in the shadow of the past. Then we broke up and I went to Xinjiang and participated in many Dangerous missions, I have seen more blood and violence, maybe Ye Xun wants me to collapse again, but I can't anymore. Now, he finally tore off all the disguise in front of me like Xiao Xiaotian just died , Our relationship is finally and completely over."

Chen Nuo turned to Gu Weinan, "You used to say that I had reservations about you, which may be true, but I didn't do it on purpose. Although I was healed at that time, I hadn't slept for a long time, and I really felt unconscious Thinking about the past, I was afraid that I would lose control of myself and sink into that gloomy mood, so I was very careful. I told you afterwards that my nerves had problems, and it was really just because of this, not because I liked it so much. Not enough, or unwilling to be frank with you. Maybe you were too young at the time, and I was afraid of scaring you, so I didn’t elaborate, which made it difficult for you to understand.”

Gu Weinan was sad and guilty, and quickly said: "Don't keep explaining to me, if you explain so many times and I still don't understand, then I'm too scumbag! I used to be stupid! You told me everything, I can't think of it, I can't understand you..."

There was a smile on the corner of Chen Nuo's mouth: "It also means that you care about me. After I'm with you, I have gradually realized that those things may not affect me anymore. Then tonight, what do you think of my performance?"

He suddenly asked about the bed affairs between the two of them today, Gu Weinan thought about it for a while, immediately felt his mouth dry, and blushed and said: "Very good... very good!"

"Well, keep it up." Chen Nuo said seriously.

Gu Weinan hugged Chen Nuo tightly, put his head on his chest, and heard Chen Nuo's powerful heart beating vigorously. After confirming that he was really well now, he felt relieved, and asked eagerly: "Then what have you been doing these past few years?" I have always wanted to expose him. What did you do when you went to Xinjiang? Why did Ye Xun turn against you? Is it because you found evidence to prove his evil deeds?"

However, Chen Nuo hugged Gu Weinan and turned over, put him on the pillow next to him, kissed him, closed his eyes and said lightly: "What time is it? Let's talk about this another day, I'm sleepy. Don't make it last all night." Storytelling, I have to get up early tomorrow." Saying that, I really fell asleep.

Gu Weinan was dumbfounded, he didn't expect Chen Nuo to withdraw so quickly.I am so nervous that I am so nervous, I am emotionally excited and depressed, angry and distressed, how can I sleep?But seeing that Chen Nuo was sleeping peacefully, he seemed quite exhausted, and he couldn't bear to wake him up, so he just lay there by himself and let his thoughts run wild.

The person who suffered from insomnia that night turned out to be Gu Weinan.He finally realized how important he was to Chen Nuo, and he could even imagine how carefully Chen Nuo cherished his feelings for him back then.Facing his desperate and passionate pursuit, he approached with heart, accepted it cautiously, and protected his foolish self from harm with all his heart.But at that time, I knew nothing about it.

As Gu Weinan thought about it, he trembled.He thought of Chen Nuo's warm smile that directly killed people when he first met him; he thought of Chen Nuo's admirable aura during military training; The frankness and ridicule of the line... Such a Chen Nuo didn't seem to have suffered any serious injuries at all.Even his devil-like sternness and the chilling "abnormality" in military training are not unreasonable tossing, but the result of his extra care.

Gu Weinan's heart hurts, and it hurts more and more.He really didn't know how strong Chen Nuo's heart was, to be able to remain so firm, so warm, and become even stronger after being hit and hurt like that.Some people, after being hurt, will only struggle in hopelessness and rely on the protection of others, while some people have learned how to better protect others.

He really wanted to hug Chen Nuo again and hold him tightly in his arms, so that he could feel how much he cherished everything about him, but reason made him choose to watch quietly.He can no longer be a "scumbag" in a muddle like in the past!

Gu Weinan's anger towards Ye Xun, his heartache towards Chen Nuo, and his blaming himself made his head bigger.In the end, when the sky turned white, his thinking became dull, and he fell asleep in a daze.As a result, just after falling asleep for a while, the walkie-talkie on Chen Nuo's mobile phone was automatically connected, and someone shouted on the other end of the phone: "Chen Nuo! Chen Nuo! Do you hear me? An emergency meeting is held in the conference room on the third floor of the training center, limited to eight Arrive before [-]:[-]!" Soon the phone rang again.

Gu Weinan reacted for a while, sat up "teng", and asked with startled eyes: "What's the matter?"

Chen Nuo had already sat up and answered the phone softly: "Hello, Jianzhou?...Oh...Okay, I'll be right there." He turned around and said to Gu Weinan, "I have a meeting, I have to go back now."

"Oh..." Gu Weinan knocked hard on his forehead, he felt a little headache.

"Did you go to bed late?" Chen Nuo looked at him and smiled, "You were shocked by what I said yesterday."

Gu Weinan black line: "No! I'm not a child. But the deeds of that scumbag Ye Xun are quite shocking, I can't help but think about it."

Chen Nuo went to the bathroom and got him a hot towel: "Wrap your temples for a while, and take a nap at noon." After he finished speaking, he went to wash himself.

"Oh..." Gu Weinan was frustrated holding a hot towel, why did Chen Nuo take care of people so smoothly!If he didn't think about it deliberately, this kind of detail would definitely be ignored.

After the two of them washed up, they took the time to take the first bus back to school.Gu Weinan finally had a chance to show off and rushed to buy hot soy milk and meat buns on the side of the road.When the bus arrived at the stop, Chen Nuo had already finished his steamed stuffed bun, and leisurely took a straw to drink soy milk and got on the bus.Gu Weinan was still frantically stuffing it into his mouth, even though it was still early in the day and there were only a few people on the bus, it still caused a lot of sideways glances.Gu Weinan shrunk his neck, thinking that luckily he was not wearing a military uniform today, and then looked at Chen Nuo, and suddenly became a little crazy, Chen Nuo is suitable to be a soldier!The image is so standard everywhere.

He struggled to put the last bite into his mouth and asked, "Why did you start the meeting so early? It's urgent."

Chen Nuo's expression was a little serious, and he said in a low voice: "Last night, a few peacekeeping troops went out for supper, clashed with the crowd, and even alarmed 110, and now they have been directly reported to the headquarters. This has seriously affected the image of the team. The head of the higher-ups has already become angry, I guess, it might affect our going out to maintain peace."

"Ah?" Gu Weinan choked on the steamed stuffed bun, "Then what should I do?"

Chen Nuo said: "Cold salad!"