Gu Weinan's Military Academy Diary

"I'm sorry." Gu Weinan said a little sadly.

"Why?" Chen Nuo was surprised.

"I used to use this as a reason why you didn't like me very much, to comfort myself." Gu Weinan curled up and hugged Chen Nuo.

Chen Nuo smiled: "I didn't expect you to be so aggressive and sensitive."

"Because I like you!" Ever since they got back together, Gu Weinan took his confession as a meal and hugged Chen Nuo even tighter. "I'm sorry...Chen Nuo." Gu Weinan suddenly confessed again.

"Why is that? Young man." Chen Nuo was dripping with sweat.

"I apologize for breaking up with you! I like you so much and want to break up with you, there must be something wrong with my brain!" Gu Weinan suddenly sat up naked and said excitedly.

"Fortunately, it's not a big problem." Chen Nuo said objectively, "Although it's a bit tricky in thought, the motive is good."

Gu Weinan was ashamed: "What the hell! After I saw Ye Xun that day, I wondered if it was nothing for me to break up with you. Unfortunately, I thought that as long as I broke up with you, he wouldn't do anything to you. "

Chen Nuo was taken aback when he heard this: "Oh, you wanted to break up. Didn't you say that you couldn't help me, that you were ashamed of yourself, and cried and asked me to find someone better than you? So there was another reason!"

It's so embarrassing... Gu Weinan's face turned purple when he heard this: "He told me that he would walk away, guarantee your safety, and prevent you from taking dangerous missions. Of course he didn't promise me explicitly that I I also didn't explicitly say that I broke up with you as a condition, but I can feel it."

Facing Gu Weinan's statement, Chen Nuo commented thoughtfully: "Then he is really bloody. But why do you think so?"

"I have evidence! After he left that day, I went to Xu Shoufeng to help me find out if this was really the case. Xu Shoufeng has relatives in the Ministry of Public Security. He asked and said that it was not the turn of D province to produce people that year. Several detachments in Province D worked hard together to fight for it, including Ye Xun's detachment. Ye Xun's hands and feet are responsible for this thought?" Gu Weinan tried to emphasize to Chen Nuo the rationality of his judgment, "Don't you think he Is your relationship perverted? It’s been two years since we broke up, and I’ve been hated like that, and I’m still affectionate to you. But on the other hand, in order to separate us, he can deliberately let you go to such a dangerous place. So I I think he is the kind of scum in TV dramas who will destroy the other party if he can't get it! I have no other choice, and it doesn't matter if I don't have the ability, I can only choose to trust him."

"Did you feel that you had made a great decision?" Chen Nuo didn't care about the "insider" that Gu Weinan said at all, but just looked at him with a smile, as if looking at a small furry animal.

"Hey, don't look at me like a fool!" Gu Weinan yelled with a blushing face, "I now know that I was a fool before, I shouldn't make the decision alone, I should tell you everything. But the truth is It proves that Ye Xun is really perverted. Seeing that you still don’t accept him, he finally lost his patience and started to take revenge on you! I still have to be prepared to fight him!”

"Well, it's time to get ready to fight." Chen Nuo suddenly agreed with a serious face, making Gu Weinan not sure whether he was serious or just kidding.

In fact, regarding the original breakup between the two, Gu Weinan's reason was basically caused by his own inferiority complex, and it was not worth mentioning at all when he seriously considered it.At most, the reason for Ye Xun's threat is barely tenable, but it is also quite wishful thinking.If Chen Nuo doesn't want to break up, a few words of advice can tell him to turn around, just say "I like you", "I can't live without you", and Gu Weinan is guaranteed to be so moved on the spot that he won't feel inferior anymore.

But Chen Nuo didn't, on the contrary, it aggravated Gu Weinan's misunderstanding, making him think that he looked down on him and didn't value him, which caused him to go all the way on the wrong road.So even though Gu Weinan proposed the breakup, it was Chen Nuo who actually decided the outcome. He was afraid that he would not come back, so he didn't explain, didn't keep him, and didn't give Gu Weinan any hope of waiting.But Chen Nuo himself had been waiting, so after returning safely, he confirmed that Gu Weinan still had feelings for him, and decisively began to approach him.

Perhaps Chen Nuo should be a little lucky, because it was Gu Weinan who broke up with him, so he could finish what he was going to do in Xinjiang without any burden, and then find this boy back without any burden.Otherwise, he would either insist on not breaking up and make himself more worried and hesitant, or break up, which would deeply hurt this innocent young man.

Of course Gu Weinan doesn't know Chen Nuo's mood very well, but after breaking through the psychological barrier and getting back together, he has a deeper and deeper understanding of his original "two".At the same time, Gu Weinan will also secretly sigh: time has really made him grow up, so that he will not be superficial like in the past, but will have a deeper understanding of Chen Nuo's heart.You can more or less discover and understand what you ignored or didn't realize at all before.And his experience and increasing familiarity with military life also made his usual communication with Chen Nuo less strenuous than in the past.

What about Chen Nuo?Gu Weinan couldn't help thinking, what did time bring to Chen Nuo?Is it a stronger heart?So what made him afraid in the past, is he not afraid now?

Having been released violently just now, and with all kinds of thoughts, Gu Weinan thought about it, and fell asleep tiredly.It wasn't until he turned over and felt that his arms were empty, that he realized that his naked body was covered with a towel, and Chen Nuo was no longer by his side at some point.Gu Weinan suddenly felt very insecure, he got up quickly, and he was relieved when he saw the bathroom light was on at the door, it seemed that Chen Nuo was going to take a shower.

However, just as Gu Weinan was about to turn around, he heard Chen Nuo's low and cold voice from the living room: "Captain Ye, you are locating my phone again."

"Hehehehe... just looking around casually. Commissar Chen can also locate me." Because the surrounding area was so quiet, Gu Weinan heard Ye Xun's words even though the other party's voice from the phone was very low.

"I'm not as interested as you." Chen Nuo said.

"That's a pity." Ye Xun smiled on the other end of the phone, "You are actually in a hotel in the city center, are you lonely?"

"You called to ask me this?" Chen Nuo's voice was still very soft, as if he was afraid of waking someone up.

"Let me guess... You brought that little Gu out! You really like him! But he's too disrespectful, he's still in school, be careful of being found out by the school!" Ye Xun was still talking and laughing happily.

Chen Nuo's figure in a shirt was hidden in the darkness. Gu Weinan couldn't understand his expression, but he could hear the sarcasm in his tone: "You have such a sense of responsibility, you can go to school to report it!"

"Haha, I'm not that boring. Don't we think we did it many times back then?"

"I'm dead." Chen Nuo said coldly.

"Are you still going to target me?" Ye Xun finally resumed his serious tone.

"I'm not targeting you, I'm just doing what I have to do."

"It seems that you have worked hard these two years! Take care of your body and don't relapse." Ye Xun's words were full of chills.

"Thank you for reminding me, my body is recovering well, don't worry about me." Chen Nuo's voice was still calm.

"I'll give you a chance to choose to give up, it's good for both of you." Ye Xun said.

"Goodbye." Chen Nuo replied softly but firmly.He hung up the phone and sat for a while before getting up from the sofa, only then did he see Gu Weinan at the door of the bedroom.Chen Nuo just paused for a moment, and immediately said: "It's Ye Xun, it's nothing, just making harassing calls again. Let's go back to sleep." He turned off the light in the bathroom, and the room immediately became darker.

Gu Weinan stretched out his hand and hugged Chen Nuo who was passing by, "I heard it all, what did Ye Xun mean on the phone? Do you really mean to fight him when you say preparing to fight?"

"Yeah." Chen Nuo's answer was short and candid.

"You guys... what's going on?" Gu Weinan was confused, he thought that the entanglement between Ye Xun and Chen Nuo was just because of feelings.

"Go to bed, it's still quite cold at night." Chen Nuo patted Gu Weinan's smooth buttocks.

The two of them entered the bedroom again, Chen Nuo lay down on the bed, and Gu Weinan also found a pillow to lean against him.However, after going to bed, Chen Nuo remained silent, as if he didn't want to mention Ye Xun anymore.Gu Weinan hesitated for a while: "Well...Chen Nuo, can I ask you a question? I always wanted to ask just now, but I fell asleep before I could ask."

"What's the question?" Chen Nuo turned to look at him and asked.

"Why were you afraid that you would lose control of your agitation before? Was it related to your previous neurasthenia? If you were too excited, it would affect your spirit?"

As Gu Weinan asked, he felt a little uneasy.Because he intuitively felt that this should be Chen Nuo's very bad memory, but he really wanted to know, and wanted to do something for Chen Nuo within his ability.He once guessed that perhaps because Chen Nuo himself had suffered from depression, he did not dare to indulge himself like that because of his psychological barrier.Then he is not afraid now, is it because he has completely healed, or is it just temporary?After all, it is very difficult to completely recover from mental illness. In case Chen Nuo encounters similar problems again, he hopes that he can know what to do instead of just watching helplessly.

Sure enough, upon hearing Gu Weinan's question, Chen Nuo's eyes sank slightly, and he lay on his back on the bed, staring at the roof without saying a word for a while, just like when he saw Ye Xun several times in the past.Seeing such an obvious change in Chen Nuo, Gu Weinan became slightly frightened, he could only stare at Chen Nuo without relaxing for a moment, afraid that something would happen to him.

"I've collapsed many times before, on the bed." Chen Nuo finally answered calmly.

However, this short explanation already made Gu Weinan's heart ache, he gritted his teeth, and asked further: "...Is it related to Ye Xun?"

"En." Chen Nuo's tone was still very flat, but his eyes were like two bottomless abysses.Gu Weinan knew that it had uncovered the deepest wound in his heart, a wound that might never be erased.

"What... did he do to you?" Gu Weinan felt his heart trembling with pain, but his mind was full of anger.It really is Ye Xun, the scum!Such a good Chen Nuo, he actually hurt him so badly that he never let him go until now...

"Are you sure you want to listen?" Chen Nuo asked quietly, "This may be a very disgusting story."